Saying Goodbye to 2014 and Hello 2015.

With these headphones on, I'm listening to music of 2014 that has made me think... I'm not gonna miss it. xD

But the good things for far... I'm ok. That's important than anything.

But before I officially say goodbye to 2014, I want to talk about what happened in brief moments.

From the beginning of the year, I had only wished for change. But nothing seemed to change... well, something did. If it weren't for all those things happening, maybe I wouldn't be whom I am today.

I want to keep writing for this blog more often. And hope that when tomorrow comes, I will bring in the new year with new ideas and new hopes.

What happened in 2014 that made me changed? Well... the first half wasn't so bad but it's the second half that made me go into a whirlwind. From August until October... Even until December.

August, my mom broke her foot. So I had to go with her back and forth to my grandma's to take care of her. September, we came home because of a fuss. Lucky I was able to celebrate two important dates during that time. ;) October, I dressed up as a dragon mistress and got lots of likes from my photo. Maybe I should wear dresses more often, yea? (Also had an attack of bugs but not gonna mention it because I am terrified of any bug out there) November, my mom is happy to hear that her foot has healed that fast. And my grandma began to get sicker for no reason at all. Thus making our Thanksgiving a dull moment. December, we actually did had a good time being with family. But all through the year, we did a lot of fussing and cussing... and we just are glad we made it to today. The final day of 2014.

And as I look forward to 2015, I know that I have to expect the downs as well as the ups of life.

Also, before I get on and end this post... hope you enjoy my new font on this page as well as more options on the right side.

I will continue to improve my blog for you guys. I will continue to do what I'm passionate about.

So thank you guys. I hope you all few continue to read my blog and keep yourself entertained.

And thank you, Rai for being the best friend that I always wanted. :3 Here's to more years of our friendship >_> This would be where I let you have a sip of beer... xD But you can have all the wine you want. :P

Also, here's a Happy New Year's to everybody whom reads this blog.

Good fortune to me. And to you guys as well. Cheers!

So... my next post will be at midnight. So... until then.

With love,

BDK

PS: I want a special "BDK" to be mine when I sign off... so... any ideas? :3

My Update for 2015, Challenges, ETC

I started out 2014 with an idea to update twice daily but since that fail towards the middle of the year, I decided to not really worry about it.

From now on, I will just update when I please. My blog is getting up there through my twitter more than my facebook. But I want to make A Faerie Journey official. Yes, sometime this year, I am going to get A Faerie Journey as a domain name.

When I first started this blog, I wanted it to be a place of reviews, personal accounts, personal thoughts as well as other thoughts, and basically... random. So I am going to try to bring in more updates for 2015. And aim higher.

Now for challenges... Well, I'm going to do a book challenge where I want to read at least 50 or more books for 2015. I also want to do a song challenge where if I hear a new song that I really enjoy (all genres!), I will find the video of that song and post it here. Even if I don't find the video, I will post the song title. Of course, talk about why I like this new song I heard. xD

There might be more challenges but I am going to fight through the bad times and ACTUALLY keep an update each and every single day. I know that I am still in a fight with depression but I will win. Also, I will vlog more often too! I got my phone and why not? xD

Rai, my bestie, told me that instead of making a new channel, just do the video on Ankisal on YouTube. Alright, I will. :D

I will plan ahead for what's to come for my YouTube channel. I don't care if I don't get any subs... I just wanted to do something different. I might make a trailer for my channel and let YouTube post advertisements for it. I'm learning more about the idea of edit and vlogging... So... that's a good idea.

As for what I am planning for my channel? I will do a segment in teaching English in slang, how I was taught, what is important than text books, etc. I will not have a set schedule because I know like 2014, 2015 will be full of stressful days. Because some days, blogging is better than vlogging.

Also, my grandma is sick and there will be days that I will have to stay with her. So blogging will be hard during those times. So instead, I will make a log of what happened while there.

And trips... I really want to go on more trips. So people, if you want to have somebody to go on a trip, just look at me. :3

I wanted to show you guys what I got for the holidays but some reason things always kept holding me back... Sorry...

And when spring/summer comes, I will be wearing a different shirt each day xD So if you guys want me to, I will do a segment on that (not about video but blogging, I might do that.)

Blogger needs to connect to Instagram! If they have, please let me know.

Also, I am going to change things around for 2015, so in the next few weeks, if you see something missing on this blog, please don't worry. xD

Anyways, I will let you all know of any new updates as the year goes by... so keep an eye. :)

That's all.

With love,

BDK

New Year's In A Few Days!

This is a short New Year's Resolution for me because most times... I make a list and something bad happens... So this time I just wish that 2015 would not be a bad year. That's just it. But that doesn't mean anything bad will happen because life happens alright? But I made a list of wishes instead.

This is the resolution list:

1. Read more (I had a bad year in 2014 so I didn't get a chance to do much reading)
2. Hopefully save more money. (I did had money but again, problems always seem to raise)
3. Travel at least somewhere new.
4. Get a job into something.
5. Make more videos.
6. Hope for a better year.


Now for the wishes:

1. Hope nothing bad happens to me.
2. Move out.
3. Travel to Indonesia or Japan.

But that's just a random list for now. I do not really wish for anything more but a better year. 2014 literally has been hell for most of us, especially me.

Anyways, that's all for now.

More lists to come because I am going to talk about other things when I get the idea.

With love,

BDK

Back From Grandma's Early!

So.... I should start from day 1, right?

Day 1: I left on that Wednesday to go help out with the cooking. We got everything done a bit too early. (Btw... just learned that my aunt decided to pour Dr. Pepper on the ham... gross.) Anyways, I didn't eat the ham but oh, well. Went to bed early.

Day 2: Christmas Day was actually fun. I hate the turkey and some stuffing and rolls. Enjoyed having my family there... well, what family were there while the others had their own emergencies. So that can't be helped. That night, I ended up with a tummy ache... booooo...

Day 3: Yesterday. I was sick all day because I ate too much turkey. And all the cookies were gone. O_O What? Where was my cookies? XD But I really wanted to come home yesterday so I stayed that night, hoping that I get to come home early.

Then today. My mom woke me up early saying we were going home early so I was actually happy.

The thing is, there are things that I don't want to deal with especially if we did stayed longer. So, it's a long story. But the other thing is, we kept out of it as much as possible.

Anyways, I came back home early and got everything put up. And waited for my best friend to come on. We both played awesome games (Mostly a game that was cheap and it was funny and awesome xD)

But I will be writing my blog for the next few days. And hopefully promise a better blog for 2015!

This blog took a while to get started because I was really tired after my friend went to sleep. Didn't sleep but I did get some rest.

Anyways, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

No Blog Posts For 5 Days?!

Well, like I said, things will be busy for a while. So I promise you guys that I'll update once I get home on Sunday.

As for what I'll be doing for 4 nights and 5 days? Well, I'll be staying at my grandma's. I'm still a little sick but hopefully with water and stuff, I'll be feeling better.

Hopefully I have my lists ready for you guys to read on Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wendesday. As for what those lists are... Well, one will be a list for what happened this year. What I wish to happen next year. And more. So... let's keep an eye out!

Also, I am updating a special blog when I come back.

And... I still need to get ready because Rai, my best friend, gave me the idea that I know will work out.

So that's all.

With love,

BDK

With A Head Cold and Fever

Yea, just wanted to let you guys know ahead of time that I am with a head cold and fever...

But I'll be alright with plenty of fluids and rest.

So this weekend had been rough on me because of family drama.

How many of you have family drama a lot? Mine is almost like every other week. If lucky, once a month.

Anyways, I will be watching for some news for these few days. I will be updating only when I feel up to it. But after Christmas, I will update a few blogs. Some will be long and some will be a list. So please do keep a watch of those.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Completed Child of Light! (Took A Break But Finally Beat It Though)

Alright, this is something that I know you guys have been waiting for... the review of Child of Light. I might also do a small review on an anime that I just completed 7 days ago. I will explain after I do the review for Child of Light.

How should I start on a game that is just beautiful to pass up when it came on sale for just 5.99 on Steam? I bought it and I loved it!

I haven't played RPGs in a long time. But Child of Light is not anything like any normal RPG... the story was wonderful. The art is beautiful. And I just want to be in the game~

So let's start with the story... A little girl named Aurora lived with her dad all alone. With her mother gone. So her dad raised her up alone. Together they lived happy but her dad felt alone and married to another woman. One night, Aurora went to sleep but to no avail, she never woke up again. Her dear dad weep in sorrow and refused to eat or anything. Aurora then woke up in another world which she finds out called Lemuria. She learns of the terrible fate that Lemuria is in but all she wanted was to go home. Then slowly, she began to learn whom she was thanks to help from a firefly and many others. She became the light that they needed to destroy the dark.

Yea, that's just the basic of the story. As for what happens, I will not tell you. Just that the whole game started beautiful and ended beautiful.

The graphics is not your average type because it's simple and look like a painting coming to life for me.

The soundtrack is just beautiful. I love the piano so it made me enjoy the game more. Even during the battles, I was just singing along with the choir. xD

The battle system is slow but worth it. You have the help of the firefly in many cases. Even on and off battles, that bug will help you.

There are some cons for feeling rushed in the story (I don't care!) and the battle system could been more fun (seems unfair to have 2 vs 3). And you can't play the game unless you have access to Uplay which a lot of people were complaining about... Seriously guys... there's a thing called offline mode? Anyways... enough of that.

The game for me made me wish there was a sequel really bad. I will look into that later but for now... my rating of the game is 4.5 of 5. I do recommend RPG lovers to play this game. I played for the story but it has more than that for RPG fans.

So that's my review for Child of Light.

Now my short review of Akame ga Kill...

I really loved the ending of an anime that felt like it dragged on. But when some parts came by, it made me cry. I just know that a lot of people were surprise by the ending of the anime. So... I do recommend it if you like action and sad moments.

Anyways... that's all for the reviews.

Also, some news... I will be busy for Christmas week... so don't be expecting posts every single day. I will post after Christmas and most likely be moments of 2014 and my list of things to do for 2015. So keep an eye on those!

Also, my secret santa on reddit has finally sent my gift. So I'll be expecting that soon!

So for now... that's all.

Hope to post more soon. I will also be posting my opinion on Sword Art Online 2 for you guys.

With love,

BDK

Random Things.

xDDD

But it's not all alglnklangklnfnskngsngksngkl

It's all random today. Well, not sure what to talk about but...

7 days until Christmas! O_O

I'm curious what else I'm getting for this day... Also, hopefully, if nothing else happens, that we will be having Christmas dinner at my grandma's.

After Thanksgiving, I'm hoping that won't happen again.

Anyways, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

PS: Argnngkisngnsgnskltksnktnsl. Yesh. random. :P

Buying Sims 4 and Getting New Headphones

So, I bought Sims 4 while it was on sale. Yay! Can't wait to play it.

I still have Child of Light to play and complete (yes, I am slow but I keep holding that back some odd reason)

Also, I got some new headphones to play games with and maybe listen to music with. lol

Anyways, I received a message from my secret santa on reddit that my gift should be shipped soon. Not sure when because Friday is the last day!!! O_O

Alright, that's all for now. I will be updating more later. (Not sure if today tho)

With love,

BDK

Am I Too Tired?

Well, I'm more anemic than tired but I can't stand it sometimes.

I get headaches, dizziness, and just plain tired when I get this way.

Anyways, I eat normal just have lack of iron but I cannot take iron supplements without them hurting my stomach. So I just deal with it.

I know I can't but I really want to get over these few days and hope to get over this spell.

Hopefully soon.

Anyways, I'm going to watch some shows and then get to bed soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Good Day to "Ugh, Please Let It Be Over" Day!

So today was a good day but then my body began to have this moment where I just wanted to get home and sleep.

Although I didn't sleep, I have a feeling that I will be sleeping good tonight.

I am tired and I am hurting all over. But most of that is from where I am having those monthly things.

Other than that, I am home now and happy 800 post!

That's all for now!

With love,

BDK

Off to Grandma's For A Night!

I'm going to go to my grandma's for the night...

So... just wanted to say that xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Change of Plans...

I was gonna update yesterday but I didn't. It's not that I forgot, it's just I didn't want to update a blog just yet xD

Anyways, I didn't go to my grandma's afterall. So I am home, waiting for dad to get done with whatever he is doing.

Also, I am on this dreadful monthly thing... guess that's one thing that did change plans on me suddenly. xD

Ah, well.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Won't Be Long!

It may take more than Friday to beat Child of Light. Apparently, there's more quests that I want to get and be stronger...

One side quest seems confusing so I will watch a video for it. Yes, it's cheating but I am almost close to the end! So I won't watch the ending at all.

Anyways, not sure what to do tomorrow because my mom wants to go to my grandma's. But I don't really want to.

Ah, well.

For now, I shall try to stay awake... well... fell asleep with Chloe on my back and then my mom woke me up xD

Alright, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

I know. I know. I know!

How many times have you said "I know" to somebody that keeps saying the same old things over and over? *raise hand*

Alright, that's not exactly the topic but I am wondering what will happen in 2 weeks... as you can see, Christmas is in 2 weeks and New Year's in 3. So... it's gonna be an interesting few weeks...

Well, I'm going to keep this post short.

Also, I wish they didn't pull the show Red Band Society off TV because I was really looking forward to it.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Off Day... And... YouTube Rewind 2014 is Awesome.

YouTube Rewind 2014: Turn Down For 2014 <--- this video... is awersome.

Today has been an off day for me but nothing makes my day... until you see that video above. xD

I mean, come on... I love how they do this every year! This time... The world got to be on this video. I hope next year, it'll grow bigger to more and more people.

Anyways, I am going to go for now. Hopefully finish with anime and then play Child of Light by Friday.

For that's all.

With love,

BDK

What? I'm Almost Done With A Game?!

I bought the game Child of Light a week ago when it was on sale for 5.99. And I really was addicted to it. But I took a break from it today... although I originally wanted to play it. xD

I have so much to do before I do final battle... hopefully tomorrow. Then again, I could be lying to myself on that...

Really, I am not going to do like I did last night and forget the time... xDDD

Alright, I hope to beat the game by Friday or before Friday... then I will come here (of course, I will start updating more often because I want to tell you guys what I got for Christmas and more.)

I will come here to review the game.

Oh, I forgot to mention that when my dad given me some Christmas money, I bought me two Funko POP! Vinyls... they were Elsa and Anna from the movie Frozen. Then you're like "But where's Olaf and the others?!" Well, I am in the process of getting Olaf now.

But after Christmas, I am not spending anymore money. I mean it!

Now my mom has a phone, I really hope she learns to use it so she don't bug me about taking pictures. o.o/

Alright, enough of that... review once the game is done and more blogs for the rest of the month!

Because... I'm hitting towards 800 posts! Can you believe that?

Well, time to go.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Strange Things Happening...

Anyways, not sure what is going on but ah, well...

Yesterday had been stressful because our oven in our stove caught on fire.

Now we are not sure what to do next...

Oh, well...

Guess nothing.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Now That's Done...

I received an email stating that my match for the secret santa on Reddit is gonna get his gift in the mail soon!

Hopefully that person will enjoy that poster I sent him.

Anyways, not sure about you guys but hopefully this weekend will be a good weekend.

I'm not sure yet.

Ah, well... there are moments that I wonder why I am even here?

Oh, well, best to ignore any negative for now. Remind myself to keep doing surveys and earn earn earn!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Crazy...

You know what drives me crazy? Hearing somebody say this "You may NEVER get a job."

Yes... this was my conversation with my mom.

Yes, they add on the pressure of me not getting a job fyi.

Seriously, you figure by now that your mom would stop and think on why we are not having money in the first place?

I'm still keeping my head held high and just ignoring anything they say... because seriously... it drives me crazy when I hear her say that.

Don't do this. Ok? I want to keep my head held high and get out of here soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Shopping For Christmas...

First off, I am doing the Secret Santa on Reddit. So far... I got a random person who said that anything goes xD

So... if they don't reply to my message by Wednesday... I'm getting a random box of stuff. xD

Anyways, I have been busy Saturday, and today (Sunday was a break at least)

But I still yet to find anything for myself. xD

Well, I got money to spend everywhere so I still kind of want to get my best friend something for Christmas... hopefully by this week. :D

Alright, that's all for now...

With love,

BDK

Saying Goodbye To November...

It's been a bumpy ride, but so glad to see you gone away...

For December will be the last month to the year 2014.

So, as November slowly leaves... we say... hello December...

Just think, a month and then it'll be 2015.

Well... just have to survive Christmas first... soooooo... good luck guys!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Before Bed Updates

I finally got my hair cut today. Yay!

No pictures though on here but I posted it on my instagram and facebook page xD

Anyways, I finally got my Christmas Tree up.

And I am sleepy so should get to bed soon...

Well, not really sleepy sleepy but you know...

I just want to hide sometimes.

Also, I really want to live in a different time zone so I could talk to Rai more during the day and let him rest more during the night xD

Well, that's all for now.

And night btw.

With love,

BDK

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well, we ended up going to Cracker Barrel to eat.

Me and mom had the Thanksgiving platter while dad ate the breakfast meal xD

But it was a good day.

I like it that way, you know? No fussing, no screaming.

Anyways, there was a moment that I wanted to bug dad to take me to Walmart to see the black friday thing but then I stopped and was like... you know... let's wait until you go to Kroger. (My dad started going to Kroger at least once a year now... not going to tell you why or how.)

Hopefully next year, things would be better... but then again, we are not sure who will be around yet.

I'm just thankful for the now.

I'll be seeing my grandma again this weekend and hug her tight because people needs to learn that family is important.

Yes, I didn't get to spend time with my family today but I really kind of tired of hearing people fuss.

Next year... I might not be here in the US. So... thanks guys.

Alright, enough of that... I'm gonna try to get my Christmas Tree up soon... no, I won't put a picture up here unless you guys request it.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Blah Blah... Blah!

So why the blahs?

Well, it seems like another fight with family again for Thanksgiving. Here I thought we were going to have a peaceful Thanksgiving... then it just goes for the worse of all.

Ah, well.

So now we all will be having separate Thanksgiving. Not that it bothers me. But I am fed up with how the family gets around these times.

So next year, I'm spending my holidays in another country. I don't care what anybody says... I'm just tired of being in the middle of it all.

Always, a complaint here or a complaint there...

Nothing is ever going to be peaceful anymore.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Thanksgiving Week!

Today is the 24th and soon it will be Thanksgiving...

I'm kind of hoping that I don't have to go to my grandma's until the night before or the day before. Simply because I wanna hang out with my best friend before I get busy with life.

And since I have no laptop, it gets boring real quick... My phone won't stay charged and it's hard to get the internet to work right there...

So yea, you can see that I want to wait until the night before so that I can go to my grandma's.

Anyways, as for my friend, he just told me that I don't have to ask him for permission xDDDD

So when he updates his program sometimes, I will post it to you guys.

Support him and yes, give him ideas if you can.

Anyways, I'll let you guys know if I have to do anything this week.

So... that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

A long bad day...

So today had been a bad day for my mom and me.

My mom went to the hospital in Berea and found out she had pancreatitis (help me spell it right). Basically, an inflamed pancreas. She has to take it easy today and hopefully get over it soon.

So it has been a long day...

Also, I may help my best friend advertise something that he is working on but only by his permission. Also, he needs some encouragement guys so please help him, thanks!

Anyways, hopefully today was the last bad day for this year ever... just... hopefully.

For now, that's all.

With love,

BDK

Open Your Heart... Open Your Eyes.

Just wondering what it would be like if everybody were more... freely to understand the world around them.

Come on, open your heart... open your eyes.

I guess fear is still the one thing that is controlling people these days... Either the fear of the word. Or the fear of being accepted. Or the fear of change. Yes... we are all afraid of something.

Last night, I woke up with a panic attack. It happened to me once before in life but this was a first in a long time. I really hope it's not a continuous thing.

Things are happening as we wake up and learning who we are.

So... for the new year, I will always introduce myself all over again. Also... add more details to my blog.

Lately, I have been lazy with such things... I'm sorry for that.

I don't like making promises a lot... but I'm seriously not gonna stop my blog any sudden reasons.

Unless I'm dead. Well... so much for trying to be infamous xD

Ah, well.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Ever Wonder...

Fist bump the sky.

Because you are wondering now.

And well...

Ever wonder what it would be like if your life was different.

I do all the time.

Today I learn that two country stars are gay. I'm glad that they opened up. More and more country stars are opening up and you know... that makes life awesome.

Life is full of joy and this world deserves to change. We should keep tradition but we should always accept others despite what we believe in.

Don't hate just because of who we love. What we believe. And who we are. What makes us, makes us beautiful.

We all love different things. We all have different opinions and yes, we are allow to voice them but show support no matter what. As long as those opinions are hateful, life is alright.

So... keep opening up on who you are. Show the world that life is beautiful.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Want To Go To Japan.

And I'm working my every way to get there.

It's been my dream since I can remember and now I want to live there.

So, I'll embark my journey towards that wish... no matter how much it'll take me to.

For now... that's all I want to say.

With love,

BDK

Hip Hurting...

For those that don't know or just beginning to read...

I am born with a dislocated hip on my right side. I may have been grown into a fine person but my hip still poses problems to my daily life.

Especially during the months that I, as a woman, get... Ah, well.

I will be strong even though these days, I will become weak but I will control myself.

Anyways, not sure what to do for the next few days... I might end up hiding from the world because of this thing... this thing that women gets to prove that they are woman. Yay. I am proud to be a woman but I do not plan on being fragile.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Snow coming?

Well, that I do not know yet. Because weather is almost always changing and now they are giving less than 1 inches of snow here.

Ah, well.

Anyways, I am yet again dreading winter. But this is Kentucky so anything can happen.

I'm not sure about you guys... but I should keep complaining... for no reason at all xD

I got to go see Big Hero 6 with my brother this evening. And I am happy with the results. It made me happy.

I hope Disney keeps doing their job with new and updated movies.

Yay!

Alright, I should go now and check up on my best friend. His mom is sick and needs lots of prayers... so please pray for her recovery. Thanks guys.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Time Passing Slow...

This time is a lot of slower that it makes things being weird... or strange.

I'm getting used to it slowly.

Also... I've finished another book. I'm so glad.

Anyways... learn that a protector is awesome.

So... that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Countdown... too early?

Just wondering if it's too early for a countdown or what?

Anyways, the more I think about it, the more I might just go ahead with it... I wanna get a new camera that does better videos... also, I want to change the scene around me instead of doing it all on my PC... so yea... a camera would be nice to have to carry around when I need it.

But what do I have a plan to do?

Well, I realize that the world needs a fun way to learn English... so I'm starting a YouTube that's just for teaching English!

But why am I doing this?

Well... I'm bored. But I want to do more than just vlogs... and I have another youtube channel that will be for educational purposes. I will be talking about America and everything. And I sort of want to travel... so what the hey...

I'm still planning to go to Indonesia next year. I'm dead set on this for sure. So... I'm gonna be using another account that goes through Walmart and it's gonna be interesting to load money on it.

Also... my mom doesn't want me to get a passport but... in the future, the passport will be an important item to a daily life... sorry, mom... time is changing... it's about time I go get one whether you like it or not.

Finally... I may not know how long I will have my family... because well... I've gone to accept that life goes on. I want to be happy so... I will.

Anyways... I may have some plans for Christmas so just wait and see.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

The weeknd at grandma's.

So I spent the weekend at my grandma's just to purposefully see the bridge being out.

It was interesting... Very interesting.

A piece of history gone in a moment's time. Soon there will be a new bridge being built there.

So... too bad I didn't burn it! Darn...

xD

Anyways, that's all.

With love,

BDK

So... Sleepy... But Feeling Better

After the choking spell, I got better.

Though there are moments that I just wish that when we come back from somewhere that at least rest... NOT start into cleaning and crap... you have any idea how much that makes me ill?

Really, mom... just learn to take a long rest before you do anything. Especially towards me.

Alright... gonna go now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Nothing is Scary Than Choking.

Really... this is the first time I literally have to puke something that literally doesn't want to go down my stomach.

That means, I have to be careful what I eat... I'm too young for this.

Anyways, I hope that nothing else happens and I really need to get away from here... ugh...

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Happy November!

Alright, it seems like last month was a horrible time for me. But after Halloween, I'm ok now.

Yesterday, I dressed up as a Dragon Mistress. ^^

Now today, we had our first snow but it went away about noon. I'm ok with that.

But I'm not ok with the cold weather just yet.

Ah, well.

Winter is here. So it's here to stay just a while longer. So here's to 5 months of bad weather!

So during this 5 months, I am going to do a lot of planning and doing a  lot of things to earn money... I am going to get myself a well deserved vacation. Providing that nothing else happens. And that... is just saying too much because almost always, something does happen.

Alright, time to end this blog post.

Oh and Happy November!

That's all for now~

With love,

BDK

Where Did You Go, Blog?

Well, the title is what I'm gonna call for today.

Alright, you know... it's getting closer to 2015 and I really hope that next year isn't so bad like this year.

Anyways, I'm alright. Just been stressed out as well as emotional.

Just too much has been going on. Too MUCH.

It has been 11 years since my grandfather passed away and 4 years since my aunt and my grandma (my dad's stepmom) passed away. And my grandma (my mom's mom) is badly depressed.

As the month of October goes away, we begin to wonder about a few things...

Life isn't fair. And it's not suppose to be.

But for me... I want to enjoy life just a bit longer.

And so... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Um, Nothing To Do But Update!

Alright, the title sounds like I'm being lazy but I am not.

Anyways, I am hungry... so I am going to eat after updating this blog.

Also... who knows what will happen next?

6 days until Halloween!

Also, my best friend, Rai has made me a logo with my initials BDK. Because it's kind of my trademark thanks to a friend who suggested it when I was in high school.

Well, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Good News for my Mom!

Alright, I know I kept my promise about keeping you all updated about my mom... well...

The doctor finally told her that she can walk with normal shoes. And she may need physical therapy (which my mom still not sure if she will go but that's her choice.)

Anyways, so that's the most awesomeness ever! I'm glad that she is doing well too.

So one more date to that doctor and then she can do whatever she wants.

It seems like that we may be leaving afterall... I am not sure if it is true yet because so many times we had chances and those chances always end up badly.

So here's to being hopeful!

That's all for now!

With love,

BDK

Collaborations NEEDED!

I'm not begging but I am asking for anybody who is interested. If not, that's alright too!

So looking for collaborations for my youtube channel. I can do anything you requested. So just hit me up! Comment or go to my YouTube and send me a message! If you have my email, or ask for me it, I will be there too!

Any ideas are welcome too.

Thanks!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Two More Blogs Besides This One! Also, an IDEA!

One is basically a picture site which I haven't updated in a while but since the app is broken on my phone, I can't upload anymore for a while but the page is called A Faerie View. A Faerie View

And the other is a fictional blog with the idea of random stories and poems from a character that I have no name for. So you guys are welcome to name her or him, you choice... also this blog is an interactive one so you comment and make suggestions for what will happen. And guess what... anything you say may come up in the next blog! It's called A Faerie Dream: A Faerie Dream

So, yea... those are my other two blogs. I'm seriously thinking of having one that's a bit more than this one... but I don't know yet.

Anyways...

I'm thinking of opening up two NEW channels on my YouTube. One will have my irl name and the other will be Salinita which will be mostly a gaming channel. While Ankisal will be the other channel.

So now for the channel with my irl name... I have no idea what to put there. For I am not good at making videos. At ALL. But I can learn, right?

Alright... I am going to continue on with my life and do what I enjoy. So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

I Have An Awesome Friend!

Yep, you know who I am talking about. :P

Rai! You're awesome!

That's all.

BDK

Do You Think... Topic That's Personal but Controversial.

Controversial?

Well, how many of you heard of Assistant Suicide?

Do you guys know the terms of that?

It's not something that you can imagine... it's basically a medical procedure that you can choose to help you die. But only if you have a terminal illness like brain cancer, etc.

Now it's been a huge fuss about it, ok?

But here's my opinion...

I support this idea. ONLY because I hate the idea of seeing anybody suffer or having to go into chemo or even go to the point where you are literally brain dead.

Here's the thing... I may don't believe in suicide but assistant suicide comes to my mind as something that should be a thing. I mean, really... it's something that should be given a choice when you're dying or know that you're dying.

So, it's strange thing to say but seriously... when you have been like me and see people suffer... you be thinking the same way.

Not a lot of people wants to suffer through anything brain related.

Let me tell you a little secret... From time to time, I told my mom that if I ever get to the point that I don't recall who I am or where I am or even to the point that my brain is literally dying... that I wish to be overdosed on purpose.

Now you're thinking "WHY?!"

Because I hate to suffer through something that is literally nothing... meaningless. I don't want to be the one who just melts away... literally.

If I were to ever get brain cancer and only have so much to live on... then yes, I would actually choose to do assistant suicide.

I just... don't want to deal with that type of pain. That type of loss. And I'll be sure to have my family know. And so far, I told my mom about it and she supports me. Because... you know... I don't want to suffer. Nobody does. Even if you say it's God's Will. I'm not religious and this is my final decision in case I ever to terminal ill.

But everybody may have their opinions but they must understand, you cannot stop a person's decision once it is final, ok?

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Really Want Something Different...

So... I'm thinking of getting a bit more personal with my blog.

As well with the reviews and such...

But sometimes I can't get too personal because of family. I just can't talk about them without somebody getting mad about it... really?

But instead, I will skip the family part and just talk about a topic that focus on what is wrong.

Really... everything in my life in this present day is wrong.

So... what should I talk about tomorrow?

I will figure out sooner or later.

Alright, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Blah Blah Blah... Almost to the Point of Wanting To Go Away...

Really? It's just hard enough to deal with loud, boss mouths... but to hear them fussing over and over...

It's enough to drive me to the point that I really want to go away from here. Anywhere but here.

Ah, well...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

So... Aggravated

Aggravated  about what?


Well, for a long time, I thought I was gonna have a peaceful day...

Then boom, family drama...

Wow... just wow.

When does drama stop ever? Anybody knows?

Ah, well...

Anyways, I am not sure what to say but... hope that tomorrow will be better... if it ever will.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Well... gonna read over the weekend...

Also, I'm very late on vlogging... very very late.

Anyways, I really do need a break from the online world just for a little bit.

Because soon I'll be reading my favorite books... Yay!

Alright, don't know what else to put here...

But sorry about having no Halloween stuff for this month...

Since you all just have no idea how stressful my life can be.

Really...

I think I wouldn't mind living on my own right about now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

So many things happen and you don't know why...

Ok, ok, I know that I was gonna do a Halloween month blog challenge but things happen, ok?

Anyways, I'm not going to go into detail what happened but I do want to say that eventually, I will have an anime list for you guys!

So yes, do keep a watch for it.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Who is Afraid of the Dark? Not Me!

And so you guys are wondering why I skipped a day?

Well, many things happened. And I really don't want to talk about it.

Alright, just wondering how every is doing for this Halloween season?

Me... well, just waiting for my items to come in.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Glad September is Over~

So this month seemed a bit long to me. So after two festivals and stuff... It's time for October.

Anyways, not gonna say much though.

However, since October to me means Halloween month, I'm gonna do a Halloween theme every day. :D

And I'm gonna do based on ghosts on different parts of the world. So this is where people are welcome to come and suggest something to me!

Now, how I'm gonna do this? Well... I am thinking of pictures, poems, stories, videos, etc.

So starting tomorrow, I am gonna do random things.

Here's to hoping I can do this everyday. ^^

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Why Do They...?

I am a white American female, living with her parents at the age 28. Next year, I'll be 29. And...

I'm tired of hearing my parents saying that I should get my disability check. =_=

I'm not crazy. And I hurt all the time because of arthritis (I got it because of my right hip). And I got two holes in eardrums.

Yet... my parents are so desperate for me to get my SSI... =_=

As I walk, breath, talk, still hear a little... I won't be able to get that SSI. I really wish they would stop bugging or signing me back without my consent... oi.

Oh, well... I'm gonna change all that in a heartbeat.

Anyways, I'm not sure what to talk about...

I guess that my day is just going down hill today because really... I told my mom that I am done with the whole SSI thing. Then come finding out over the weekend that she decided to let the lawyers tell her what to do. =_=

Nope... just nope.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Can't Keep Calm...

It's just one of those moments that you feel like screaming your head off.

Really... I'm getting tired of it. I can't read... can't watch anime, can't do this or that... without having to deal with a problem...

Seriously... I just want out.

I need an escape, you know?

I don't know what to do anymore...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Already Said My Part...

Now it's up to you guys.

Well, it would already seem like yesterday for my best friend, Rai, but it's still the 23rd today... so happy birthday and beyond.

Anyways, it seems like facebook is busy again.

Ah, well...

For now, it's gonna be an interesting year next year.

Changes to come... hopes to post...

Who knows... what will happen next.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Its Not Me...

Down below is the picture of this awesome product that both Gillette Venus and Influenester VoxBox sent me.

I'm was never a fan of shaving because of my sensitive skin and easy hurting myself. :(

But I was excited when I heard that I got accepted for this.

Getting this product has made my day. And maybe for pleasant shaving from now on. :D

Yes, this is not a review but I think this product has made me a very happy person!
Recommending... Well... I'll tell you next time. ;)

Thanks and I'll post a link for you guys too. You might not get the same product but you can enjoy the reviews of others and you might get a box too! :D

The link is HERE

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

New Show Review: Red Band Society: Episode 1

My first expression of that show: A children's hospital and there's a kid smoking weed... wtf.

But then you realize... these kids are terminally ill.

The first part, cheerleader who was a snotty kid. She passes out and breaks her arm.

She ends up being a roommate with a kid who is in a coma.

Then you meet a boy who came to the hospital, submitting himself in because of cancer and such.

Anyways, before I spoil anymore...

This show is actually quite good. I just hope they don't ban it because these are teens and they are drinking and doing drugs. In A Hospital. Wow.

But I already know this show is going to be sad because these are ALL terminally ill kids. (Except Emma but she has an eating disorder so she can't leave until she eats right...)

Besides that, you get a red band each time you go under or have to go through something serious.

And the nurse... WOW... she is what that coffee cup says when you see her. Believe me guys, you will not miss her xD

All in all... 4.5 out of 5. So worth a second episode.

You might have a different opinion and that's alright. We all have different views.

For now guys... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Some News! Long LIST!

I'm gonna be making a list of all the news.... so please take your time reading.

1. NOSW or New Opportunity School for Women has sent me a letter saying that I sound like a perfect woman to join their program. All I need is to fill out a few papers and get two letters of recommendations and I'm good to go. Well, just have to wait to see if I get accepted!
2.  My mom is out of her cast and back in her boot. But she's able to put on a little weight on her broken foot. She will be walking in no time but she still has to have some therapy.
3. I am reaching for a change next few months. I may not have a job JUST yet... but I am going to be doing some online surveys and stuff to earn some money to save for a much needed vacation.
4. My computer is all fixed. Aside from the fact that I got a new browser... so it's awesome.
5. Still gonna get a new laptop next year. I am not sure when yet but it will possibly around my birthday and my dad will try to help, I'm sure. Not much help, but nonetheless, he will try.
6.  I will get a job. I know I keep saying that I will but next year is gonna be a push for me.
7. I am going to Spoonbread Festival this weekend. I will be bugging my dad to go. I might not buy anything but I will try to vlog for you guys! This is a first vlog for Spoonbread Festival.
8. I will be going to Chicken Festival next weekend. I really want to see Shooter Jennings but knowing my dad, he won't go that late. :(
9. Yes, I am planning to move next year. I have decided that. I will not give out full details because I'm still planning my life out.
10. For those that think I won't... life is not as easy as you think when you're in my family.
11. I'm getting a free VoxBox from Influnestor. So be looking for both a blog and vlog about it.
12. Planning a vlog for a birthday wish for my bestie.
13. Planning to show my items such as anime figurines, dragons, faeries, and posters.
14. Doing a review for Otaku Magazine.
15. Doing reviews for anime.
16. Finishing anime ASAP.
17. Finish and review my books so you guys can read too!
18. Special reading section on YouTube. Where I will be reading only the first chapter of the books I am reading. So not much spoilers there.
19. More poetry and more poetry reading on my YouTube.
20. I don't usual review movies but if it's requested, I will do a special vlog about the movie.
21. Yes, this a long list of news but this are gonna be slow and upcoming.
22. More blog posts next year!
23. I will try to take a class in creative writing so I can improve my skills again. (I stopped writing in High School because of tragedy).
24. I will post more news as the months come.
25. Change is important, ok? Don't be afraid of it.
26. And if you request, I will start posting pictures here as well as on my other blog, A Faerie View.
27. A Faerie Dream is an interactive fiction blog so I want you all to join me and comment and give ideas.
28. That's all.

Yep, a lot of news to go through. But don't worry, I will do these slow at a time. I will be sure to list them here so you all can keep up with me.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Blah.... Fixing PC like Crazy...

Well... one of the cats messed my computer up big time. So I had to get rid of the cat so that I can't have anymore problems...

I mean, I can't afford problems like that.

Anyways, I'm pretty much tired...

So that's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Nothing is annoying when you have somebody who comes on twice to ask if you are done with whatever I'm doing... and I finally told that person that I am too busy and can't talk... lucky I'm done now but still... DON'T DO THAT AGAIN.

Busy Weekends... Still Wonder...

So I always keep having a busy weekend... but I will for the next few weekends because of a few festivals...

Hopefully I get to go to Spoonbread and Chicken festival. They are both my favorite and fun to go to.

Spoonbread is located at Berea, KY. While Chicken Festival is London, KY.

Anyways, not much to post tonight but I will be trying to post everyday this week. For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

What?

Yep, that's the title of my blog today. So... what?

What would you like to know?

Anyways, not much going on but trying to figure out a few things in my life.

I really need a change.

And I want to be there for a best friend... so...

There's my answer.

For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Waking Up...

So I'm just waking up to a new nightmare... there's no telling what will happen next.

I have no fear to those who try to scare me but I have fear for the world around me.

So why can't I wake up?

Ah, well...

I have some work to do...

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Memories...

Sometimes, there's a time when you just sit and just have memories come to you.

Why can't they go away?

I am just like Poppy Montgermy's character on Unforgettable.

Anyways, I get into days where I'm super stressed out... so I tend to want to be alone.

Ah, well...

Hope that the days ahead be better.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Never Be Depressed.

I mean it... even if it's hard to not be depressed, just try to get help.

Anyways, I'm lucky that I'm not that bad depressed, but I do tend to go "off" sometimes... so I have to be careful about being stressed when I'm feeling bad.

So, I am being lazy still with my blog... sorry about that.

But is it me or does it seem like my posts keep going back to 745? Might be deja vu here...

Ah, well.

For now, I'm gonna go and read... and soon sleep.

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Reading... To Go Away...

Reading is about the only way that I can do in order to go away from the real world.

Anyways, I want to try to go and post about 50 more posts for this year... I doubt I'll hit that goal, but it's totally worth it.

I'll post more than once a day starting from now on... hopefully...

If not, then at least I know I done something.

Also... Halloween is soon... so can't wait for that!!!!

For now... I'll be trying to post random posts each day and more than one per day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Emotions Stir...

Always wondering what to do...

My emotions are all a stirring...

And makes me wonder if something will happen... for the good... or for the bad.

Whatever...

I'll face my demons... so should everybody else one day.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

To Stream or To Record A Video on YouTube...

So my bestie recently gave me a whole list of horror games to play...

Now horror games aren't my biggest favorite but I will play them if people requested them.

So... a vote then... do you guys want me to stream on twitch (Although I have no completely idea of what the heck I am suppose to do there... xD)

Or to record a video and put it on YouTube.

Now in order to do that... I will record between 15 minute to 20 minute videos and will not post the videos until after I am done with the game.

That's gonna be a lot of edited, you know?

Whatever happens... I just wanna do something!

And yes, my mom is here... so I will have to do videos while she's here. Getting tired of having nothing to do.

Alright that's all for now.

Wanna read now.

So...

With love,

BDK

The Question... The Confusion...

So I am a bit bored with today.

Anyways, not much going on lately... just waiting for life to be unbored...

That's hard to do.

I think I'll play a game in a moment.

Ah, well.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Hearts Keep Going...

I guess you are wondering how the weekend was... it was alright.

I didn't go anywhere this weekend but hopefully it'll get better later on this month.

Also, today is the first day of September.

So wake me up when Septemeber ends. :D

Anyways, this month is special to me because of my best friend... so... let's hope for a good month!

Alright time to go for now!

That's all for now...

With love,

BDK

At Midnight...

It'll be a different month. I am glad for that... I think this month will be different. I hope.

Anyways, I might get off the computer early and read... been wanting to read for a while now.

So... that's all for now.

Maybe.

With love,

BDK

Should I Be Darkness or Be The Light?

The choice lies in your hands... whomever you are.

Anyways, I really need to escape from everything.

Since I am home, I have lots of anime, shows, movies and games to catch up...

Ah, well...

This is my life, I guess...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

And You're Wondering...

Why down to just one post a day?

Well, I am in a catch up mode... so I don't really want to stop and do anything. Multi tasking is my thing right now... xD

Anyways, so what's up?

Well, still gotta sit here and help my mom for the next 3 weeks. September 15 is when my mom suppose to go back and see how her foot is doing.

Ah, well..

Hope all is well.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Hoping To Bring Back My Posting...

So things happen. But all can be forgiven, ok?

Anyways, I am still tired and hoping to get some more rest tomorrow as well as tonight.

Finally able to get ahold of my best friend, thankfully to tell him the story of what happened yesterday.

I mean... wow...

But today, it's slowly going away.

Alright, time to go now.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Back Home... And Aggravated With EVERYTHING.

I am who I am. I don't like to be boss around. Get that, ok?

You figure people learn by now... I get tired too! I'm not a super human with super human energy like you. =3=

Ysabel protected me. thankfully...

But still, I'm angry...

The only way to calm my mind is dark things... sorry...

So I am home again. With my mom.

And she has a cast on btw.

But what should we do now?

Well, I sure hope to the sky's above that the person doesn't hold a damn grudge.

And learn your damn lesson. =3=

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Well... One More Night Home... Then Back To Grandma's...

Alright bad news first: My laptop stopped working. My brother is looking at it. But I don't think I can completely survive without it. D:

I'll try. But it'll only be limited to my phone only.

I want to try uploading videos through the week to let you guys know what's up... but I can't keep promising things, ok?

Also... I got tons of books to read... So that's a lot of catching up to do xD

I wish my dad would let me take my bench with me so that I can put it somewhere and read all the time. Woot!

Anyways... no good news yet... but tomorrow, I'll be back at my grandma's... and so I want to watch what anime I can... then be refreshed to go back.

Also... might be back for another weekend but I cannt say for sure.

And... must tell everybody to stop bossing me around. I'll do things at my own pace.

Maybe that's just how my mom raised me... but give up on trying to CHANGE me. At least now you guys know that I am not lazy anymore.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

A Poem To Come... A New Bridge to Come...

Someday this month or the next, they are gonna take out this old bridge at Big Clear Creek or on Wildie Road.

Anyways, I'm sorry that I haven't been updating a lot but with the running around and just now being better from the cold...

I'll be waiting for a new day.

Alright, you know... that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Thinking of Another Blog idea...

I love to keep this "A Faerie Journey" as a personal and random blog...

But I am making another blog...

Wait, ANOTHER?

Yes, you have read that right. Another blog.

But I am making a fictional blog. I am still in the idea works of it but...

I'll figure it all out eventually.

For now, I am going to go make it now and then... start out the adventure that a girl has from just one dream.

She just wanted to figure out why she had this dream so...

Yea...

I want to do a web series of stories and poems too...

So who knows what will happen next.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Tired of Waiting For Approval...

All this time, I was hoping that at least one job would be available in my hometown but it ends up being twice as hard than you think.

When I get a chance once I get home, I am going to go through all my books and get rid of the ones that I don't read anymore.

Hopefully... by then I'll get enough money to travel to where my best friend is.

I can't stay, I know that but I want the experience here and now... I am done waiting.

Yes, might be true for now...

But... who cares?

I just want to be there for my best friend more than anything right now.

And so...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Also, sorry for the long delay of my blog... since my mom broke her foot, it's harder to take the time to write a blog... =3=

Something is Going on...

So my mom told me just today that she's been seeing the numbers 444 over and over. And knowing that in Japan that the number 4 is bad luck and having it in 444 makes it even more bad luck.

Anyways, just hope she feels better soon.

Also, my dad said he had three nightmares in a roll. The last one being a bit distrubing where he dreamed of himself not breathing... yikes...

I really wish to know if these things are predictions or not...

So many things are happening and it's freaking me out.

Makes me want to run away from it all.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

So...

I'm hurting in my right hip right now. And my stomach is trying to hurt.

All signs of being on a monthly thing that women get...

I get the pain... but I don't get the anger issues.

Anyways... wanna sleep soon... tomorrow, I have to try to get up early and go with my mom.

I just hope that they give her a cast for her foot.

Will let you guys know later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

At my grandma's... but for another reason.

As all of you would know by yesterday's short blog post is that my mom broke her foot.

And to learn that this is actually her first broken bone so you all gotta know how painful a first break is.

Anyways, I'm sitting here on my laptop and trying to figure out what to do for the next few weeks...

Hopefully they will give my mom a cast when she goes to see the bone doctor tomorrow... or so.

But in all seriousness... things always happen to the best of us.

So... be careful out there.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Well... Some Horrible News...

It seems like my mom fell and broke her foot... ouch...

So now she has to stay off her feet for a month now.

Also, we have to stay at my grandma's for a month... great...

Not really looking for that yet... but sometimes things can't be helped.

Hopefully my mom will feel better soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A great chance...

So I need to work on trying to get my channel looking great...

And also, my blog. Any ideas?

Anyways, I'm gonna be busy tonight, maybe tomorrow, and Sunday... oh, and Monday night too.

But hey... I wanna get out of here someday.

Still keeping hopes for that.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Joy of... paper folding... aka origami.

I actually do enjoy origami and drawing when I am bored.

Paper folding is actually fun to me.

And while I was at my grandma's, I brought my paint set. Actually wanted to get better paint because the set that I bought actually sucks.

Anyways... that's all for the randomness.

With love,

BDK

Need An Idea For Next Month...

August is Friday.

So I need some idea of what to do next.

Ah, well.

Let me know guys.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Seems like I skipped...

Sorry guys!

I skipped because I was really tired by the time I came home from my grandma's.

And soon it'll be August.

So I will be doing things to keep myself busy.

That might mean limit time on my blog.

Sorry again.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Really want to go home...

But it's more complicated than that.

Ah, well... I just hate having to have Chloe around the kids.

I don't know what to do...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Close to being better...

So it's a rainy day. And I still yet to got out and walk around.

I think it's safe now so I will take my dogs out and let them do their jobs.

I really miss home now... that sucks, doesn't it?

Ah, well... I'll be there soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Need an Escape... Again...

I can't stand being out when I am sick...

So I am cold again and warming up again...

Seriously... what am I suppose to do?

My aunt's appointment is all of a suddenly changed because the doctor and the transportation service became dicks...

So... I only wish to be home  but mom says not yet...

Yay...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Naps... all over again.

And so my head hurts...

I woke up from my nap but it was kind of a jumpy rude awaken...

But I needed to get up. Don't want to lay in the bed all day long.

Anyways, I am at my grandma's and wondering what to do.

Chloe is tired, Susie is hid...

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Well... I'm Sick...

I'm sick again...

So yep... guess I have to go to the doctor tomorrow.

So there's no poems for today... also, might not be anymore poems for a while.

I am heading off to my grandma's sometime this week so yay...

Maybe my mom will be happy and get better internet sometime...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Dreading Another Week...

Well, it seems like we are in for another stay at my grandma's on Wednesday.

But there is a reason... my grandma has been saying she doesn't feel right.

So a poem...

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Life is not simple or to take away,
But only if we didn't had a bad day.
But we must love on another soon,
Because they may leave too soon.

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That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

I am the real angel in the world?

So I took up with a stranger chat thing yesterday... And I got to talking with a guy called Angel from upstate New York. He said that he felt like his life was a waste.

So I told him maybe he needs to find something in his life that is more uplifting. Then he told me the reason behind his life being a waste.

It was an interesting chat.

We kept talking about him, how he is gay and fell in love with a guy that's been on and off with him. The guy he truly loved was in love with a girl. Basically... this guy was his best friend and a bi. At the last moment, the guy said that he wanted to date a girl so he broke up with Angel.

It made me want to cry for this guy because he didn't want to move on. So I told him that before they go off into the world to at least talk with his best friend one last time. Because things do change after you leave to college and such.

Then he talked about how he didn't think that he would make it in the world. I told him the truth "Life is not meant to be easy. But you can't give up and don't give up your dream."

He asked me if I really think that he would make it. I answered that yea, he can do it.

It made him feel better and thank me bunches. Then his last words were "You know... you're the real angel to the world."

The chat ended. And I was like... almost in tears because he said that.

I think it helps to listen to people you don't know and just let go.

All the bad things will go away when you listen a while.

So, if you want to vent or be a listener like me, you can try out this website too: http://blahtherapy.com/

Maybe you'll be like me and be thinking more about yourself now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

ALSO! I bought some paint so I'm gonna get to painting soon. :)

Posting Before Midnight...

So, we just realize that the world is never gonna be perfect, no matter how we see eye to eye.

The bad part... there's also going to be a bad person. A bad day. But you also know that life isn't bad. Not yet.

Alright, enough of that.

Just been out of it lately some reason.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

No poem but still a headache over news...

Just so you guys know, an airpane crashed across the waters.

And it's just non stop now.

If only they just limit those type of news because they always forget that there are other things that are happening.

Ah, well...

That's the world now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Uninspired Day.

Thought that the day drags on and on...
Only to find it does not drag on and on...
Soon the day comes to an end...
And let it just end.

It's just another uninspired day...
Always wanting to get away...
Try as I might, live by right.
Soon it will be night.

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Not much going on. Just sitting around and thinking... but my head seems to get the best of me lately.

So a break is soon to come.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

New World... New hope.

We live in a new world.
We live to have a new hope.
For every boy and girl...
We give away hope.

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Well, time to finish more anime. Kind of sleepy though but that's normal, I guess.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Rain is me.

Rain is me.
Completely me.
As it falls down.
I shall drown.

Rain is you.
Always true.
But make a heart,
Break itself apart.

Rain is us.
Make a fuss.
Wind swirling in hate.
Always trying to fight fate.

Rain is me.
It suits me.
As I cry.
At least I try.

Update... If you please.

Alright, Thursday night, I went to my grandma's to stay for a couple of nights...

Took both Chloe and Susie with me. Susie's eye is bothering her again though. And Chloe chased cats and raccoons xD

Friday, pretty much hot day. Sat outside most of the day.

Saturday, I sat outside again but went out for a bit later that day.

Sunday, came home.

Both dogs are relaxing in my room now.

And I'm gonna go take a nap.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Chloe jumpy

Chloe doesn't like the dark xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

No poem today... Grandma for weekend.

I'm staying at my grandmas for the weekend so might not have any poems.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hump Day... what?

Hump Day has been overrated...
Yet it's not yet out dated.
We know it's middle of the week...
Just as long we take a peek...

Tomorrow will just another day...
So we can't just stay...
Time to enjoy your life.
And let the day pass this time.

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Well... a bit odd poem today but that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Tuesday... It's Weird.

It's weird how to expect the day to be long,
Even though you don't know if you should belong...
To be Tuesday, when mostly books, CDs and stuff comes out...
And you really don't know what that's all about.

People would be glad when Wednesday finally come,
And then you're just sitting there waiting for Monday to come...
So that you can say goodbye to Monday again,
And just know it's just somewhere to begin...

Here we go again, being stuff between a hump day and a bad day...
Don't you just wish you could just get away?
Why can't I become the number 2... but wait...
I just can't change my own fate...

Darn... Don't you just hate being Tuesday now?
Always having to understand your vow...

Why can't I be like you?
So, I belong in this world... without you.

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Yea, weird poem there but I just come up with strange ones when I'm just sitting here.

Anyways, hope everybody has a good day... can't wait for tomorrow...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

And so... Poem again.

After skipping a day of poetry, I'll do another one today.

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Good morning, it's gonna be bright sunny day,
Just wanted to run away.
Then we wanted to stay in once place,
But knowing there's gonna be loads of space.

Reach out, grab our hopes to our heart,
And we make sure we won't break apart.
Let our journey start soon,
As we live under the lonley moon.

Good afternoon, it's already getting hot,
Living out the world for something I am not.
There's a hope to reach out for another chance,
And we worry that we can't dance.

Walking out into the no shadow hour,
We rather to cool down on a rainy shower.
Realizing that we are meant for something more.
So, we are waiting for another open door.

Good evening, it's just dinner time.
Trying to live out our life.
Always wondering for a new dawn.
Just hoping that we could only respawn.

Then we slowly wait for the dark to come,
Waiting for something we shall become.
Hoping for a peaceful day,
As we fail to run away...

Good night, it seems it's time to sleep.
Hope that we felt in hearts were deep.
As we live with no regret.
Yet, we try to forget.

Holding out for another hug,
Trying hard not to bug.
But... always thinking of you.
And we... always welcome you.

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That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

No poem today

Just been in a bad mood all day long.

Just because my dad is being the way he always been.

For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

SAO~ I *HEART* IT!

In celebration for SAO 2 to finally be out...

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In a world far beyond reality,
A new hope, a new time,
Guns that kill,
When they are still,

Is it possible as they say?
To die from a game that is faint of heart?
Or to dare to run away?
From something that you are apart...

Dare upon a game.
Know your name.
It's time to go to another world.
To become a better girl.

Save the world again,
For the new story has begin...

Let's go.
Kirito.

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So, yea, I am so excited for these anime... and it just makes me want more!

Alright, that's all for now.

Hope to post again tomorrow.

With love,

BDK

4th of July -- Are We Free? Poem

Are we free?
Are we who we are?
We stand tall.
We all free fall.

Climb a tree.
We are far.
Just another day.
Just today.

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I am a bit sleepy for today because we were so busy.

So I might just take a nap.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Ever Wonder... Poem 3~

Ever wonder where the sky goes when it becomes night?
Ever wonder if you're here on Earth trying to something right?
Each day is always with a beautiful wonder,
And always curious with a ponder.

Ever wonder what would happen if you didn't exist today?
Ever wonder what life would be like every day?
Curious thoughts always make your life go and go,
Always wondering just to have something to know.

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So, today has been cooler than usual. But I take this type of weather any day. Anyways, just wondering what to do since new anime are out now!

I will be watching Glasslip today...

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

2nd Day of Poetry

Two times of a wonder,
Only to left to ponder,
Life is beautiful to us,
But we all have to fuss.

Living out a new dawn,
Only to let us be drawn,
As we realize that we are fake,
But we are here to give and to take.

Second day of July,
We always enjoy why,
The why of who we are today,
And just hope we can get away.

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And so we understand that today is the second day of July and hello, guys.

Sorry I didn't post much on yesterday's post. Besides the random poem.

Today, I am posting to inform you guys that I will post a random poem for the rest of July.

And also, keep you guys updated on anything new.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

First Poem of the Day

Nothing is outright strange,
Only to live on a life,
Where you're the only one on stage,
But only to welcome a time,

Though, you wake up another day,
To breath the hot July air.
Warmth flows in every way,
As the warm wind blows through your hair.

Summer has come to stay,
But you are ready for the weekend,
For the fireworks boom away,
Making sweet sparkle bloom with no end.

Onward we go, to spend with life,
And we enjoy a late warm night,
As the sky is filled with light,
And knowing... life is just right.

Happy 700th Post!

Though the first few posts didn't really count... really, they didn't.

Anyways, can you believe it? 6 months has already gone and went. And now we are entering in the 7th month and the next half of this year.

It's feels so strange.

Well, going to be a busy week after my mom gets home.

Also... since this is gonna be another 6 months, time to concertrate on life a bit more.

I've read an article about not having a job could be a good thing too... but then I wonder... what if you need the money?

So, yea... it's different for many people.

Since there's two new places opening soon... maybe I should apply for them.

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

What To Do...

Well, I am going to be home alone for the week... of course, I am not telling you guys where I live nor posting this one my personal facebook either.

Anyways, it seems like it's been a long day...

My grandma is out of the hospital. And we saved somebody's cell phone from being runned over.

And I'll be happy to say that the book challenge was a total fail.

But it'll be alright.

So for now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Dang These Neighbors...

Well, it's one thing that a freaking kid comes down and tries to break into your home... but it's another when they confused your own pet as one that caused something.

No. Don't go there.

I would know if my dog did bite somebody but there's a problem with that... my dog is safe in her cage.

Oh... and my dog doesn't have balls. The dog that apparently bit them was actually a boy dog while my dog is a girl... plus a lot whiter than the dog out there... geez...

Seriously? Does anybody not teach their kids anything anymore?

=_=

This world has gone to crap.

Anyways, that's all for my random rant...

With love,

BDK

Does things really get better?

No.

But we learn to deal with it over time. Though there are some people who can't.

It's alright. We all been there. I just don't know why people have to think that they are the only one with this emotion or that emotion. Or rather... being the only one who had a life struggle... Hello... we all have a life struggle in one way or another. The only difference is it's a different situation.

Bullying, parents, love, hate, the world, drugs, depression, etc. All these things always makes us feel like we are the only one that feels or does this. Well...

Welcome to the world.

Remember it's just a bad day (or more) but it's never suppose to be a bad life.

Come... breath... and live.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

So Today... Nothing to Do.

Actually, I still have to do things in order to be ready for the next phase of the season.

Summer is here and I actually hate it.

So if I could just raise enough money to get away before winter rolls in again, I'll be happy.

Anyways, hope all is well.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Another Anime Annoucement!

We have Free: Eternal Summer on Crunchyroll. I won't post the link because I am not watching it.

However, there are people who are watching it so I'm sure they are excited for this news.

Anyways, I am going to post little but as well keep up with the news of anime...

Simply because I still have to catch up with most of the last season's anime.

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

They Are Announcing Anime!!!!!!!!

I'm keeping up as much as possible on anime listings... so you guys keep a watch too and yes, do list the anime too!

First of: Sailor Moon Crystal coming on Crunchyroll, Hulu, Daisuki, etc.. on July 5th at 3AM PST or 6AM EST for me xD

The link to crunchyroll is here: http://www.crunchyroll.com/sailor-moon-crystal

So have at it.

I'll keep an update as the days pass. It won't be long until July and also... SAO! :D Also, want to note that SAO is season 2... not 3. =_= That's why they call SAO 2.

Alright, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Really Need To Get Away...

If I don't get away soon, things that will change my life that I do not want.

I'm gonna get away and let my mind be clear.

I mean... seriously... I really don't want that to happen but if it does... I'm not staying... sorry... just... I can't stand that.

Anyways... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Having A Crate...

For a dog is a great idea. Especially if you wanna train them and stuff.

Anyways, I'm getting sleepy though but I don't really want a nap yet...

I might take a nap... dunno yet.

For now, just catching up with anime and my book.

So that's all.

With love,

BDK

Home At Last... Home To Run Away From...

Seriously, no matter how much I am glad to be home, I much rather not be here either.

Now you're wondering why I am feeling this way... Just a sense of unhappiness develops at this place...

And always, I feel like I don't belong here.

So... it's just... I dunno.

Anyways, that's all... will update tomorrow.

With love,

BDK

Just Want Rain...

Last night before I went to bed, it had rained.

Now? It's just hot. And I just want it to rain.

Also, my stomach is hurting so I don't feel good right now.

Might sleep early again. Dunno yet.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Raccoon Frenzy!

Just so many raccoons running around at my grandmas house.

Anyways, yea, I am at my grandmas.

That's all for tonight.

With love,

BDK

Poetry Needs To Come Back...

Really, it does.

Anyways, wrote this just now... so enjoy.
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Trying to fly, only to lose my wings.
So I fall down and never to get up again.
No matter how hate stings,
I just can't figure out where to begin.

The darkness trying to take over me.
Waking up from a lost dream.
Finding the enemy within me.
Only to walk down this water stream.

Leading me away from this world,
I shout that I need you.
But no voice came from that world.
I don't want to lose you.

My heart slowly fading away.
With these demons deep inside.
As memories stay.
I am lost only to hide.

Listen to be aware.
Only to realize that I can't stop love.
It's a warning, they said to beware.
As I watch them go above,

Slowly sinking down below.
Reaching up for your hand.
No matter what, my heart is low...
With no such demand.

Wary of a new dawn coming,
My ghosts still haunts me now.
Oh what should've been my becoming,
Only to take away that vow.

An answer that is left out.
Shouting that I need to be free.
When my hope is in doubt.
Only to realize, I am not me.

Reaching out, holding strong,
When I lost my way there.
Knowing that I've done wrong.
Each waking moment of air...

To drown away the sorrow,
Only to make a prisoner.
To hear of things for morrow.
No matter how much I listen...

It's a lie within another lie.
Screaming out loud finally.
After escaping to a new life.
After living through a harsh trial.

Slowly, I'm losing breath..
Struggling to realize what was real.
Closer to feeling the death,
Only to be forced to heal.

Not realizing who I am.
As I slowly fade into a memory.
As if they give a damn...
And soon hope to be bury...

How I say sorry?
When you've broken me apart?
Floating away with a fairy...
As it takes away my heart.
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And that's all.

With love,

BDK

Into the Dark!

So I've been trying to do things but some reason... I'm always getting interrupted by a person that always seem to think they need help.

I really want to go into the dark and just stay there.

Seriously... I'm losing my mind again.

I should be alright though because I got a plan.

Well, time to go now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Anime/ Manga Lovers...

Recently, Japan had passed a law against child abuse and child porn.

But here's the thing, Japan has a mass production of anime and manga of girls that appear young but they are not.

http://edition.cnn.com/2014/06/18/world/asia/japan-manga-anime-pornography/index.html


But this is happening now. People thinks just because seeing these "young" ladies on manga and anime are children... but they aren't.

So to think, they are spreading more haters around than anything.

Really, I understand thinking that this could protect people... but Japan will find a solution to everything so stop fussing, ok?

We know.

We get it.

And Japan won't just up and take away something like that. But I'm sure though that they will fix it to where you are required an ID to get these.

Also... that just doesn't stop America from having movies, shows, and books based on Child Abuse and Child Porn? Does it? So stop.

Ok?

Just wanted to let you guys know what is happening right now.

Alright, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Trying Not Spend Anymore Money...

You know it's hard not to spend anymore money when you're in a home that always has something gone wrong.

Seriously... I should try to sell some of my books when I get time.

Ah, well...

Anyways, I'm gonna go now and try to find something to do.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Annoying Fly!

There is a fly flying around and it's just after one source of the light here...

About to get ready to kill it if it gets close to me.

I hate bugs... did I say that before?

Really... I just hate bugs.

Alright time to go find a game until bed. Might play Grand Fantasia until sleep.

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Oops...

I seem to forgot about making a second post last night before bed. But it's alright since I am catching up with a lot of things.

As you can see, there are most anime ending this season and some are continuing next month.

And new anime coming.

So... I need to narrow my list down a whole lot to watch all these anime...

Anyways, for now, that's all.

With love,

BDK

Passing the Day...

Just wondering what I should do today... and I realize that I still got anime to watch and a book to finish...

So I will get to those now after I post this.

Soon, it'll be the first official day of summer... and it's already summer here.

So... yay!

For now... I'll be finding things to do and earning here and there money... and hopefully earn enough to get out of here.

Well, that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

FIFA Kitties!

So I came home from my grandmas and happen to decided to watch a little bit of FIFA world cup on ABC here...

Then I noticed the kittens started to play... it was just so cute to watch.

Really, do check out this video.

All in the day's work.

Anyways, guess I'll be spending another week doing nothing... but I am in need of catching up with anime...

So I will do that for the next week... yes, reading at the same time.

Some reason, my reading challenge has been a dull one... sorry about that.

Alright, time to go. Enjoy the video. And will post more things tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

No Mood To Be Feeling Anything...

Just today has been a boring day... but because of that, I went from being sad, mad, happy, to nothing...

I really don't want to feel any emotions right now... just afraid of what will happen next.

It's just a few days... so hopefully after those days are over... I'll be fine.

Anyways, kind of thirsty... so gonna drink something and then possibly go read for the rest of the night.

Really... didn't expect this book challenge to take the best out of me... I'll choose an easy challenge next month and that... would be poetry challenge... so... looking forward to that.

Also... just wish some scams were real... dang.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Day Out...

I'm glad to get out but still... it makes me sad though because even though places like Cumberland Falls makes me happy, I still feel left out some reason.

It's a long story... you know?

Anyways... I want to wish my best friend good luck with his drama later.

So.. yea...

That's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Last Straw!!!!

For weeks now, since these kittens had grown, these annoying kids keeps getting on the porch after my mom told them not to come over and over...

Today... they made it worse by getting one of the kittens and poking it's eye... damn...

Seriously, my mom is pissed and so am I.

Our neighbors do not watch these kids whatsoever. They don't care.

So one of these days... my mom is going to fly off her handle and might turn these kids in the welfare for not being watched and that poor little girl...

That poor little girl doesn't wear clothes half the time, you know? So... in a way, it does worries us.

But seriously... these kids don't listen and they need to!

I believe if I were my mom, the cops should be called on them... no matter what the reason is!

Alright... enough complaining...

But just so you guys know... these kids will do anything so it worries me that they might try to break in and get these kittens which we are going to keep because we lost two cats over the winter.

So... if they become robbers... the cops will have no choice but to take them away.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Headache Always Comes on Days I Don't Want It!

Seriously... my head just hurts on days that I don't really want it to come to me.

Ah, well...

Nothing to do today because of excuses...

Stupid.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Coming Back To Eden Eternal...

It seems so strange to be back to a game that I haven't been on for months...

Ah, well...

Anyways, hope that all is well though.

For now, I will continue to read and plan for next week.

I will give out more details to you guys as it gets closer to the 18th.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It Appears To Be A Dreadful Day...

I just know that I might have to stay hid for a while today due to feeling bad.

And it's going to storm so... yea...

Going to be a dreadful day.

Alright, hopefully it won't be a bad day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Busy Day...

I ended up having a busy day... and really just wanted to go somewhere else instead.

Ugh...

Anyways, tomorrow will be busy too so I'll be lucky to get by the day...

Alright, guess I am going to end this now and hope that tomorrow will be a good day.

Yes, this will be the only post for today... sorry about that.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Open The Eyes...

Always believe that you can become something that you never thought would happen.

Anyways, I am going to keep reading now... so hope all is well.

This might be the last post of the night...

Also, my dad is off for the week... so yay!

That's all.

with love,

BDK

Second book for challenge...

Eona is the sequel and again, it'll be a slow start to read.

The book Eon is awesome though so I do suggest people to read it too.

Anyways, going to keep this post short for now...

So that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Windy, Cloudy Day!

So today has been a windy day.

Anyways, I'm keeping this short so that's all for now.

With love,

BDK

Sleepy Me And Free Fishing Weekend...

And other things happen too.

Too many yard sales out there though.

Anyways, going to take a nap.

Also, I would like to suggest people to read July 2014 issue of Reader's Digest.

Alright, that's all.

With love,

BDK

And The Weather Brings Storms Everyday!

They are actually giving storms almost everyday... though they are part time, it's still something to be concern.

Anyways, just so you guys know, things are a bit odd here.

Susie's eye is still hurting but luckily the medicine is working for her... so that's a plus.

Alright, keeping this short so...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Quick Overview of Today...

I am a slow reader now because I am just slowly getting back to reading.

So, the reading challenge is still on, ok?

Susie, my dog, has a serious eye damage caused by some unknown scrape there. She has to have two ointments and pain medication for a whole week until she gets better.

So far, she seems to be getting a little better.

Also, another update... I need to sell some older books sooner or later and need help on finding websites to figure that out...

So if you guys know any, hit me up.

For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Wonder What People Are Doing At US 25 Yard Sale...

Anyways, not sure what people are doing at the US 25 Yard Sale from Covington, KY to North Carolina.

I'm not going this time but makes me curious though.

Also, starting today, the CMA Music Fesival is happening in Nashville...

So you know, lots of things are happening this weekend...

Anyways, just hope that things goes well now.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Upcoming Storms

It seems that today I may only get one post because it's suppose to storm tonight.

Just as there was a hope that the CMT awards come on tonight...

Ah, well... just gives me a chance to finish the first book to the book challenge.

Like I told you guys before, I knew this would happen but at least I am reading.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK