Not Feeling Well

Has it ever occur to you that maybe that I am not feeling well? And that's why I rather only do easier things instead of upload an avatar?

I really hate it when people never asks me if I feel like it or not... it's like their feelings mattered more than me... and it irritates me that this happens more often than none at all.

Like do I even feel like saying it without being asked? No...

So please learn to ask...

That's all I want.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Nobody ever checks in on me...

Nobody ever checks in on me. Only them... only her... should matter. 

I'm not okay.

I will never be okay.

I am doubting this relationship even more.

I think I have to make the rough decision...

And she doesn't respect how I feel...

This is not okay.

I am not okay.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My mind is Blank

I knew this would happen. 

In a way, I am worried of what would happen next... and at the same time, I am not sure what to think about it.

My mind is just blank right now because I am sick... so that's fun.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tiredness

I knew this would happen. But I am trying my best to catch up as fast as I am able to.

But yea... I am also dealing with tiredness because of the medication. So yea.

I should be okay.

I will get back to the journals in hopes to get whatever I can get done fast.

See ya tomorrow.

B.

Behind

 I think we should be more open about things...

I am going to start a new journal starting soon... so yay me.

I have to try my best to get through the rest of the day... and realized that I am very much behind on my journals... fuck me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Please Don't Come True

I'm worried that we may never be together... or rather move in together... and then my heart will slowly fade into nothing...

She will break her promise... and I will stop caring for everybody and just go my merry old ways...

My isolation after a heartbreak is beyond anything that I can control... and I rather not be bothered by anybody... maybe ever again.

Yea...

I just hope this never comes true.

And the fact that I am writing it down, worries me as well... so please don't come true, okay?

See ya tomorrow.

B

Felt Bad

I worry a lot... and I felt bad for waking her up.

I am glad that she is alright.

Anyway, I am taking a break from recording until Monday... so yay me.

I hope that all will get better for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B