It's the matter of when, not the if.

It appears that I will have to get the surgery. It's the matter of when instead of if... meaning, it's happening either way. I do not know when yet. Since I do have an appointment set out on March 17th.

Funny how it's on St. Patrick's Day.

Anyway, I am going to get back through the day in hopes that all will be better for me. I am tired and that's to be expected.

So...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Greedy People

I guess things aren't as they seem. Being tired and grouchy is never a good thing. Being the way you are isn't a good thing.

And sometimes I felt like people are greedy...

Being greedy towards me is not a good thing to show. I can see how you are... and I will slowly just stop giving money out. Even to strangers. Because little do people not realized is how expensive things can be over time.

And so yea... I'm tired and I just need to stop spending my money on others... I need to save for a computer and phone in the future. Because you just never really know when something breaks.

And yea... I'm tired right now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

More Excited

I gotta say, things are gonna be more excited for the upcoming months ahead.

But would I go as far to say that planning a surgery be fun? Nah, but it would give me time to finally relax and heal.

It might take me months to be fully recovered, but at least I can record videos, do my journals and read during these times.

I should be okay for the most part.

Anyway, I got one full day to relax and be ready for Tuesday...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Glad and Sad At The Same Time

You know what is fun... Adding an activity to add the "upload an avi" to the list of stuff to do.

That's fun.

Anyway, I am hoping that eventually I am able to get things done soon.

I am tired and sleepy, but I should be okay for the time being.

Seeing that today is the last day of January, I am kind glad and sad at the same time to see it go.

Today has been such an headache, like quite literally. 

I'm gonna take a rest and hope that all will be better for me someday.

See ya tomorrow.

B 

I feel so dizzy

I'm trying to figure out a few things in my life right now, but I think I should be okay for a bit.

I am sleepy and tired and hoping for good things to come.

I feel so dizzy... so yea.

Shall get back to my day. I just hope that eventually, thinks will get better, who knows...

I just want her here.

See ya tomorrow.

B

A bit light-headed

Some things that I wished people would understand... you do not absolutely do not include a person's partner or their kids for crimes that happened to the person. 

And it sucks a lot. 

Anyway, I am okay, just a bit light-headed. It's because I only had so many hours of sleep last night. It only happens when something stressful happens to me. 

Now we have another snow front coming in this weekend and I am worried more that I won't be able to go to my appointment. So that's fun.

I really want winter to be over already.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Need to learn to time manage my projects

I am planning to turn a section in my server into a blog like section for everybody else to see. 

I work on a lot of projects and well, it's hard to keep up sometimes. I do have two different ASMR as part of my challenge for Feb... and how to do those is... a question in mind.

A lot of stuff going on soon. And I'm behind on my journals again. I really NEED to learn to time manage my projects...

Yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B