Please Don't Come True

I'm worried that we may never be together... or rather move in together... and then my heart will slowly fade into nothing...

She will break her promise... and I will stop caring for everybody and just go my merry old ways...

My isolation after a heartbreak is beyond anything that I can control... and I rather not be bothered by anybody... maybe ever again.

Yea...

I just hope this never comes true.

And the fact that I am writing it down, worries me as well... so please don't come true, okay?

See ya tomorrow.

B

Felt Bad

I worry a lot... and I felt bad for waking her up.

I am glad that she is alright.

Anyway, I am taking a break from recording until Monday... so yay me.

I hope that all will get better for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Let Them Know...

I got a lot of stuff to think about, but I think I will look over it for now... but if it happens a third time...

I will let her know.

Anyway, I am going to take care of my journals and more.

Let's hope for the best. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Better in the end...

I really hope we never have twins.

I doubt we will have kids.

But yea.

I am going to get through the day and hope all will get better in the end.

See ya tomorrow.

B

For Now...

Sometimes it's moments like this that you need to set boundaries and such... and explain why.

I have been cheated on behind my back and seeing people thinking it's okay to ask their partner if they could do this or that just to test something... is wrong.

I have to be the one to point out why I feel this way... and so forth.

I should be okay... for now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Rest high, Dolly

I have to say that... it's sad that Dolly Parton passed away today. 

I hope her legendary continues on for futures to come. 

Anyway, I am going to get back to my day... in hopes that I can rest before I go to bed.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Overthinking...

I am gonna think of other ways to use my blog for next year, but I have no clue yet.

I am hoping that my partner will be able to move close to me... but she keeps pushing things back as if... I can wait.

The only issue about that, it makes me think she's not even coming here...

While I would love to move out of state, I know that I won't be able to adjust... especially in a city area.

I am a small town and country girly... so it's gonna be really hard to take that out of me.

Alright, see ya tomorrow as I am gonna finish up with my journals.

B.