It's That Time Now... A Month Until My Surgery Date

It's that time that I am going to start doing things a bit more. I am adding more entries to my journals so that I can catch up with them as much as possible. If I don't do them all, then I don't have to worry about it until another day.

But here's the problem with doing that...

I am going to have to schedule some entries for my blog as I am taking a break from my computer for 2 full weeks. It's only my blog that will be extra for those days...

However, for my journals I am going to do double until the day before my surgery... then I am stopping and letting go of them until either between Day 189 and/or Day 212. So it would be 2 weeks after or until August.

We shall see how this works out.

But just giving a heads up... these blogs will be schedule with very short messages stating that I am taking a break and so forth.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Hate Headaches

I hate headaches... and not sure what to do with that. 

But I think a lot of it is because of my period. That's okay to deal with. Anyway, I do want to finish up with my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I want to be happy.

 I'm not okay. I feel like my parents are trying to keep me trapped in this world of theirs... I am not okay.

I will never be okay.

Can't someone help me escape from it all.

I want to be happy.

See ya tomorrow.

B

That's... Fun...?

I am going to say this... but I should be okay. My stomach is hating me. 

I should be okay. I just haven't been having the very best of the day. My hip hurts. My body aches. My head feels fuzzy. 

I'm just tired and want to run away from it all.

I just hope that tomorrow will be better, but I won't be home as I will be going to my doctor tomorrow. That's fun.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Everything On My Mind

I have everything on my mind and drama isn't one of them. I really want people to leave me out of it.

I just don't understand people anymore.

Oh, well.

I should be okay. And I hope that things will be different in the future.

Anyway, I am gonna be waiting for my wife to come home finally.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm Nervous

 I'm nervous. She's coming here. And I'm happy and nervous at the same time. 

And I don't care what my parents say... they are not healthy. They can't take care of me. Not that way anymore.

I'm 40 and I'm done with how they are treating me.

After surgery, I'm gonna make plans to earn money in hopes to get the fuck out of here.

Anyway, I can't wait to see her... and hold her close.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Making That Announcement This Week

I got a lot of stuff on my mind and it's kind of weird to say.

Taking a step one at a time and I want to be strong for everybody.

And soon... I'm making that announcement stating that I'll be busy for the first couple weeks of June... getting things all scheduled for surgery date as I am taking a break for almost 2 full weeks.

I shall get through the day... and finish what I was doing.

See ya tomorrow.

B