Hate Being Behind

I hate being behind... and I hate when people constantly interrupt me when I am doing something else...

Please leave me alone at this time... because I need to get this done and I doubt I will by 8PM EST. 

This is why I hate doing my journals half the fucking time... they are supposed to bring me joy but they can't because of them.

Fuck them...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Fixed?

It feels like the world isn't what it seems. Each waking hour, I feel like things should be different. Things should be fixed.

But can it really be fixed?

I am not sure myself. As time gets closer to my time to record... which is at 8pm EST... So...

I feel so out of it.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm Sorry...

I wish I knew what is going on... and she says she is just stressed... using her voice to yell at me...

And I feel like everything is my fault.

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry for everything.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Sit Here...

I often wonder if people are really people pleasing... and sadly, I am with one...

And you don't need to be that way... but if you continue to be this way, you will never be happy..

And thinking when somebody else is happy and you're getting jealous over that... and well... you have no idea how you sound.

A manic spell is never a good one.

I am going to sit here and get my journals done. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Just tired

I am sleepy. 

I am behind because it seems somebody keeps forgetting things and it's starting to get to me.

I've told my mom that maybe she should get herself checked for her memory... and she gets defensive over that. 

I can't take care of you, if you keep acting defensive over a concern.

So yea...

I'm just tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Purposefully

Sometimes I feel like my mom is purposefully trying to prevent me from getting my journals done on time... but then again, I do want to take a break from VRChat tonight so there's that.

I have been feeling so tired lately that it's annoying as heck.

Anyway, I am going to get my journals done... then play a game or two.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Views

I never thought of having that many views on a video before.

And then again, I never seen so many weirdos... but good thing, I have a way of getting rid of the comments... so muahaha.

Anyway, I am very behind on my journals so I will be working on them until I get done.

So...

See ya tomorrow.

B