Got A Lot Going On

I got a lot going on. I had to be behind on my blog on purpose. So there's that.

I am trying to survive.

So my mom has been diagnosed with cancer on Thursday. I am trying my best to be strong about this news. Then somebody decided to make a huge blacklist on my wife and me... mainly her, but they had to add me because they are trying to say and I quote: I would continue to attack staff members in a server after they kicked my wife out of the server. I have not. I even told her that I will not.

And being recorded... yea... this person will now be banned from my server for this reason.

I'm done with backstabbers and more. 

And I'm staying the fuck away from this case until it dies down.

And in the future, I will make a new account and nobody will know who I am.

I will be that private. I am good at hiding things.

So there you go.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Knowledge in Script Writing

I hate how I have knowledge in script writing when it comes to movies and such.

I just want to get through the day... and get all my journals done.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Songs and More

I just realized that I need to do my songs and more. But at the same time, there's a lot of other stuff that I need to do.

Who knows.

I feel so out of it and just need to get done faster.

And well, that's what I shall do.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm okay

I realized that I need to work on my timing better. But on weekends, it's hard when you have a mom that constantly wants to go out to eat or go somewhere.

Then again, I am gladly to have a notebook to write ideas for songs and such. I know that with these I can keep up no matter what.

And well, just waiting for the results of all of these songs I am writing for this entire month.

I'm gonna get back to my journals that I am really behind on. That's okay, I'm okay. So let's get what we can get done.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Halloween doesn't feel like it should

I am trying my best. I am really am. 

Like Halloween doesn't feel like it should anymore and I'm really sad about that. I just want to survive and it hurts to not understand what is going on.

My life is about to get busy later on and it's not gonna be a good way.

I shall get back to my journals and try to enjoy the rest of the day of this last day of October.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Work On Something

Someone needs to work on their anger issues. I mean, really work on it.

It's not always good to hear that and then just hide away from their voice.

I'm scared that they will break something else.

And I can't keep helping them.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I am tired

I feel like I'm doing something wrong because of how I try to stand up against what is wrong. Then my parents snap at me... saying they never did do that. 

I keep thinking that everything is wrong... like is something wrong with me when I just need time for myself?

I do so much for them. Yet, they treat me like I should stop everything... and just do something as small as grabbing a phone. Why?

I am tired. I need a break.

See ya tomorrow.

B