A promise to my mom...

I hate that I made that promise to my own mom. That I cannot move out on my own until she passes away. But I am going to keep that promise as much as possible.

And the worst part, she refuses to leave from here, despite the way my dad is.

It's just hard right now.

And I would love to get out of here and be safe... be in a better environment. But it is what it is. 

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and get them done soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B

No Promises

I just noticed that being behind is not good for my mind because of stress.

So yea.

I just hope that tomorrow will get better, but who knows.

Anyway, I shall get ready to finish my journals and hopefully read a few chapters... but no promises.

Shall get back to it. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Behind On Books

I just noticed how I feel on days that I don't do anything at all. So it sucks a lot. And yea... I should be okay for the time being.

I am going to be busy tomorrow and so forth. Who knows what else is on my mind. 

I am trying to get through the books since I am behind on the library books... it sucks because it's rare for me to be this far behind on books... so yea.

I shall get my journals done in hopes to read before I get on my headset... I have a weird schedule, but I enjoy this schedule just a bit.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Survive and Hope

I am just trying to survive and hope all is well.

Tomorrow is gonna be a nice relaxing day... while I have to plan out what I need to do for the next few months.

I just want to take a moment in silence my wife's grandfather... he passed away 8 years ago. So yea.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and hope that I will be alright.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not A Thought In My Head...

Sometimes there's not a thought in my head that I feel like the world is crashing down on me and there's no way for me to stand back up without no worries on my mind.

I hope that tomorrow will be better. Also, hip pain sucks a lot.

Alright, shall get back to my journals and hopefully be able to read tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Get Everything Prepared

I didn't get the call today, but that's okay. I got until the end of the week to find out.

I do hope that will be okay... and I hope everything will be okay.

I do have a lot of stuff on my mind and wish to get everything prepared for the surgery.

And I do wish to not be bothered at all.

No drama. No trauma dumping. Nothing. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Surgery Set For June

I got a lot to say so please bare with me as this is gonna be an one long run on paragraph. So good luck reading and wish me luck when my surgery comes up.

So because the surgery isn't an emergency, I am able to schedule it in June. Mainly due to having to get everything prepared and stuff.

I got a lot of phone calls to make because well, I have two doctors that needs to let this surgeon know what I should do and should do not do.

I also have to be ready mentally as well.

And I really hope that she will be here with me when that happens. I don't want the recovery be with just my parents.

Anyway, I should be okay for the most part. But I will be sure to let y'all know once I get the date in June. 

Until then...

I am ready.

See ya tomorrow.

B