I'm Sorry...

I wish I knew what is going on... and she says she is just stressed... using her voice to yell at me...

And I feel like everything is my fault.

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry for everything.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Sit Here...

I often wonder if people are really people pleasing... and sadly, I am with one...

And you don't need to be that way... but if you continue to be this way, you will never be happy..

And thinking when somebody else is happy and you're getting jealous over that... and well... you have no idea how you sound.

A manic spell is never a good one.

I am going to sit here and get my journals done. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Just tired

I am sleepy. 

I am behind because it seems somebody keeps forgetting things and it's starting to get to me.

I've told my mom that maybe she should get herself checked for her memory... and she gets defensive over that. 

I can't take care of you, if you keep acting defensive over a concern.

So yea...

I'm just tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Purposefully

Sometimes I feel like my mom is purposefully trying to prevent me from getting my journals done on time... but then again, I do want to take a break from VRChat tonight so there's that.

I have been feeling so tired lately that it's annoying as heck.

Anyway, I am going to get my journals done... then play a game or two.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Views

I never thought of having that many views on a video before.

And then again, I never seen so many weirdos... but good thing, I have a way of getting rid of the comments... so muahaha.

Anyway, I am very behind on my journals so I will be working on them until I get done.

So...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Feeling Well

Has it ever occur to you that maybe that I am not feeling well? And that's why I rather only do easier things instead of upload an avatar?

I really hate it when people never asks me if I feel like it or not... it's like their feelings mattered more than me... and it irritates me that this happens more often than none at all.

Like do I even feel like saying it without being asked? No...

So please learn to ask...

That's all I want.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Nobody ever checks in on me...

Nobody ever checks in on me. Only them... only her... should matter. 

I'm not okay.

I will never be okay.

I am doubting this relationship even more.

I think I have to make the rough decision...

And she doesn't respect how I feel...

This is not okay.

I am not okay.

See ya tomorrow.

B