I'm coming to you...

I'm trying my best to not cause anymore trauma to myself and to her. I just hope that all will get better and better... but there's a limit on all my emotions... and I feel like she's gonna forget to do anything... so yea.

I'm done waiting.

I'm coming to you soon.

For your birthday... in October even though it's in November.

I'm sorry, mom... but I can't wait anymore.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm not sure anymore...

First it was June, then August, then September... now I'm not even sure anymore.

I do need to talk to you about this because I feel like deep down... you're not wanting anything to happen...

What if September comes, you'll change your mind again? What then?

Anyway... I just need to talk to you about this...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish I was free...

 Sometimes I just wished that I could get my own home so that I can get my own freedom... a way to not keep dealing with an impatient person.

Anyway, I am sleepy... and I am in pain still...

I hope that all will be better tomorrow... but I do need to sleep more...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Pain today

I almost didn't made it today. My hip got to hurting as I walked more and more. I need to get used to this more and more.

Hopefully one of these days, I will get used to this pain to the point that I don't have to deal with the pain.

Anyway, I gotta say... I finally broke down and bought a mattress topper for my bed... since the old one was so worn out that it was causing my bed to dip in the middle.

I do need to invest in getting a new bed... so yea.

Don't keep your hopes up high because life isn't what it seems.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals since I am really behind on them.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Good Vibes For Tomorrow

I will expect pain here and there, and I just realized that I need to keep resting... and I may need to buy a new mattress pad for my bed. That sucks a lot, but it does need to be done.

Anyway, I am gonna be okay for the most part, but yea... let's hope for good vibes tomorrow.

As I will get things done and yea...

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

I'll be fine.

 I hate when I don't eat lunch because then I have a small dinner which leads to eating snacks a lot. Oh, well.

I'll be fine.

Anyway, I am going to get through the rest of the day by reading and hoping for good vibes.

Tomorrow will be different and I just hope that my pain at night isn't as bad it should be.

As long as I keep active, I should be fine.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hope All Will Get Better

I am trying my best to survive the day... and well, I am tired.

Even though yesterday brought me good news.

Hope all will get better eventually.

Let's get this done.

See ya tomorrow.

B