Not A Thought In My Head...

Sometimes there's not a thought in my head that I feel like the world is crashing down on me and there's no way for me to stand back up without no worries on my mind.

I hope that tomorrow will be better. Also, hip pain sucks a lot.

Alright, shall get back to my journals and hopefully be able to read tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Get Everything Prepared

I didn't get the call today, but that's okay. I got until the end of the week to find out.

I do hope that will be okay... and I hope everything will be okay.

I do have a lot of stuff on my mind and wish to get everything prepared for the surgery.

And I do wish to not be bothered at all.

No drama. No trauma dumping. Nothing. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Surgery Set For June

I got a lot to say so please bare with me as this is gonna be an one long run on paragraph. So good luck reading and wish me luck when my surgery comes up.

So because the surgery isn't an emergency, I am able to schedule it in June. Mainly due to having to get everything prepared and stuff.

I got a lot of phone calls to make because well, I have two doctors that needs to let this surgeon know what I should do and should do not do.

I also have to be ready mentally as well.

And I really hope that she will be here with me when that happens. I don't want the recovery be with just my parents.

Anyway, I should be okay for the most part. But I will be sure to let y'all know once I get the date in June. 

Until then...

I am ready.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Dread Something That Is In The Unknown

Tomorrow, I will be going to that appointment to find out when I will be getting the surgery.

Am I nervous? Yes.

I am not sure about anybody else. As I haven't heard anything.

And I just hope they will be able to tell me when so I don't have to wait or dread something that is in the unknown.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Am Behind

I am behind... like really behind... but you know, it's like karma just wanted that to happened because of VRC. So yea... I think I will be okay with it.

Just a lot of stuff going on and I really want to be able to be all caught up.

Let's hope for the best and get all my journals done... and rest... so I may not be doing any videos tonight because of how VRChat is doing.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hope For Good Vibes

As the day gets closer to when I go to Lexington to see the hip surgeon. The more nervous I'll get. I just only want my partner to be closer to me so that I wouldn't feel this way a lot.

It is what it is... but I am beginning to hate that phrase when I first learned it from Midwesterns... so yea...

I am going to try my best to get through the day... in hopes to have a better day tomorrow.

And I feel like I am always behind on things. So yea. 

So let's hope for good vibes.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Trying To Relax

I'm just trying to relax, but hard to do when people always want me to do something. I am not okay with anything, but it is what it is.

Anyway, I am about to get my journals done and then I will relax.

Hopefully all will be better soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B