Being Sick After Being Not Sick For So Long...

I don't remember when the last time I was sick. And this is the first time in a long time since I am getting sick. And it sucks a lot.

I am still looking for an online job. I really want to get a chance to get some money so that I can take care of myself and get the heck out of here. I am really tired of how things are around here.

I am still thinking of going to another country in my future. I will disappear from this place for a while. Of course, I will be in contact with certain people.

Dreaming of traveling the world is a wonderful thing to do.

Anyway, right now, I need to concentrate of getting better. It really sucks when I don't feel too good. Ugh.

However, I am going to the doctor on Friday for my stomach but it might end up for this cold as well.

Hope I can take care of my health soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Loot Anime January 2017 Dimension Unboxing

I finally got this and boy, was I excited! I didn't do a video for this either because I haven't been feeling good. Sorry. But enjoy what I posted here.

Here's the box:

Inside the box:

This is the shirt:

The shirt is from the anime No Game No Life. I really enjoy the anime and having this shirt has made me happy since I don't have a shirt with this anime on it xD The color is surprising to me. I really thought it was black but no, it's actually navy blue. So yay for me!

Then the next thing that I got is this figure from Sword Art Online second season fourth or fifth arc:

I really love this figure since it's cute. It's kind of crooked in the photo after I assemble it. I have put it up so that I can display it one day~

The next item is a photo frame from the anime Re:Zero. I will watch this anime eventually and hope to finish it soon.

I had noticed that this frame is reversible. I am not sure if I would be using this but this is still awesome to have.

The next item is a light novel from Log Horizon. I had completed this anime so far. 

I will be reading this since stories have more details than shows and stuff does. Can't wait to read this eventually. This will be my first light novel from an anime xD

Then there's the socks that I got. Which is something that I find awesome and funny at the same time xD

I might be wearing these a lot. You could gotten Kirito too but I gotten Asuna... this is a plus since I do have a Asuna shirt somewhere xD

This is the monthly phone charm. It's cute~

The poster with the items on the back which is listed below as well.

Overall, I really enjoy this box. I might get another box but not for February. There's some anime that I haven't seen enough yet to actually decide if I would enjoy a box or not. Hopefully, it will be later in the future that I might get another box to enjoy. Who knows.

I will continue on with the day by watching more anime and hope that things goes well for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Cold and Sickness Doesn't Always Mix

Cold and sickness doesn't always mix for me.

I think I need to clean out my computer because things are being slow. Besides that, I am still trying to find an online job. The reason is because I don't want to go outside and meet with humans at the moment. Not while the world is the way it is here in the US.

Resist is real.

Anyway, that was just random. I am not sure what I'll be doing tomorrow just yet. This will be a one time post because I have been very tired today. If this headache and stuff continues, I won't be streaming for a while. Sorry...

I might stream just for a little bit after 8PM EST each night. Hope that I can do that without having any issues.

I have been having slight issues with my PC so I might not have anything open while playing a game. My mom keeps saying she hears it running despite I am not having any game on.

I will get back to Blade and Soul eventually. I just need to get better with whatever feels like is coming my way.

Cold and sickness sucks when they are combined together. x.x

Watch for my twitter any news.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Waiting For Snow To Happen

I am waiting for snow to happen. It's actually gonna be the first snowfall of this year. Ever since the new year came upon us, it's has been nothing but rain.

I hope it does snow because for once, I actually do miss it.

Today, has been a boring day for me.

Anyway, I am kind of bored right at this moment. I am glad to talk to my bestie even though he's kind of working hard today.

I really need to find a job ASAP so that I can get away from here. I am tired of living without no hope of speaking my voice.

Long story.

Alright, back to YouTube world and hope things will be alright for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Year of The Rooster!

Let's talk about something a bit more positive, yes?

When I was in 7th grade, we were learning about ancient history. We went through Egypt, Greece/Rome, and China.

Ancient China was my favorite part. I knew that this was something that I wanted to get into more. I love the religion and the history (although the traditions are faded in some parts of Chinese culture). I love the idea of putting red shoes on the roof although I forgot the reason of it now. I love music that Chinese brought. I love the movies they brought here.

I began to the journey of wanting to know more. Chinese Lunar Year celebrations that I wish to attend. I am still alive and breathing so there's always gonna be a chance that I will attend to something Chinese related.

I don't want to steal the culture, I merely want to learn more and enjoy it.

I always want to go see China one day and anywhere that has been develop from Chinese culture.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Oh, Now He Kept His Promise? A Wrong Decision.

I'm sorry but this is drawing the line. I am not allow to speak my voice in my own home but I can speak my voice here.

Banning Muslims who are not all evil. (only ISIS are evil) But no, he decided to put a ban on 7 countries and only two of them are not potential dangerous towards us. So why ban those countries?

It's hurting many Muslims around the world that are not affected by these 7 countries in the Middle East. I hope this ban is just like the restriction for refugees and only last 4 months or 90 days.

But it's still wrong.

I have friends who are Muslims and they are the nicest people in the world. This is why I hate that this ban was happening. I was really hoping that he wasn't gonna keep this promise but sadly, it has happened.

Then, after this happened... people figure it was alright to go around Muslim communities and literally destroy what they were working for. Mosques are being destroyed as we speak. It breaks my heart.

Can't people stop being such hypocrites and bigotry towards a religion just because there's a religion that's very extremest. Not all Muslims are like this.

If you are Islamophobic or Muslimophoic, then you shouldn't try to pick a fight just because you are.

Seriously... I am ashamed of my own country.

I really need to get out of here before there's more restrictions to the world.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Different Way To Blog Things

I want to update my blog whenever I feel like it. I have chosen that I will update whenever I can or able to. Without having stress is the best thing ever. But having to figure out what to say in each blog is another.

I'm not stopping the daily blogging deal.

However, I'm gonna start doing small reviews of anime, books, movies, beauty/other products, etc. Those will be different posts and of course, no personal stuff will be added to those posts.

I am still gonna update each day. It can be between 1 to 3 posts a day. I don't think I can do anymore than 3 unless it's a special day.

Tomorrow is Lunar Year Day. We are welcoming the year of the Rooster. Here's for good fortune and good prosperity. As well as, hoping for a long life.

Tomorrow, I might talk about why I am interested in Chinese culture and such. I never meant to be a type of person who steals a culture as their own. In fact, I am interested in learning more. Getting more cultural peace and more. I will explain more tomorrow in a post. It might be until after I go visit my grandma.

I kind of wish for good things to happen this year. The same goes for who-you-should-not-talk-about because I'm sure if the guy would eventually learn not to piss people off xD Really, I won't support him until he proves himself worthy. I accept that he is our leader but I won't accept his ideas until he learns to listen to what we Americans has to say.

Anyway, I am not sure what to do for the rest of the night. I might just get on YouTube and stuff. I really should make those vlog updates like I promised a couple of months but I can hardly find time alone for some odd reason. Ah, well. They will come eventually.

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

No pain, no gain? Ugh.

I have been dealing with this pain on my left ear for the past week so far. Mostly right towards my bedtime hour. Not sure if it means that my ears need to drain while I'm asleep or what.

The strangest thing is that it doesn't do that during the day. So what could it be?

Anyway, I am kind of glad that tomorrow is Friday (for a moment, I thought today was Friday but that's due to being bored and more).

I really need a day away from Netflix just so that I could look an online job. I can't really say why because right now, things are a bit slow.

I will sleep soon in hopes that my ear stops hurting (it usually does) and hope that I can sleep well too.

I just need a break from things for a bit.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Resolution VoxBox Unboxing

I was gonna do a video of this but due to do a small sickness, I am not going to do a video.

Before I get started with this unusual review. (Unusual because I took the photos and some of them are blurry). I will like to remind that Influenster has sent this VoxBox to me for free and for me to review. The opinions that comes out of this review is strictly based on my opinion.

You are welcome to join in with Influenster here: https://www.influenster.com/ It's a site where you can review and share products and many other stuff. Gather enough points and stuff, you might get qualified for a VoxBox too. And the best part? All of this is free. You do not have to pay anything.

Now let's get started:

2017 is the year of change in food habits, health habits and much more. The natural and organic is the in. This box introduces items as of such.

The first item that I pulled out is Popschips brand. With the flavor Cheddar and Sour Cream. These chips are never fried and always real as the small print label says at the bottom. In the back (no picture) states these chips has no added preservatives, no artificial flavors, no synthetic colors, no cholesterol and 0 grams trans fat. It's healthy. The taste (no picture of the chip itself), is okay. Not my favorite. I can taste the cheese more than the sour cream. Unless it's the aftertaste. I think it is. I wouldn't buy these again. However, I might let my family try them.

The next product: Crispy Green Crispy Fruit with the flavor pineapple. These are 100% freeze-dried pineapple. The package states these are 100 % pure fruit and nothing else. All natural, no sugar added and gluten free. There are other flavors that are but limited to: apple, Asian pear, banana, cantaloupe, mango and tangerine. The taste: These are actually good. They actually do taste like pineapples. I might actually buy the other flavors in this brand just to try them out.

These are Burt's Bees protein + healthy radiance shake. They are made with organic pea protein. These are plant based protein shake. The flavor is Vanilla flavor with only 15g plant-based protein, 3.5 servings of fruits and veggies and 25% daily value of vitamins. I have not tried these out but I can honestly say that I might not be using this.

The next item of the box is Orabrush tongue cleaner. These are used to get rid of bad breath that can cause other problems if not treated. On the back (not pictured) it says that you just brush gently on the tongue to clean it. There is a video of it here: tutorial.orabrush.com I have not tried these right now. I will be using this soon but I won't be doing an update review on here at any other point.

This is made from Febreze. This product is new and is called the "One Fabric and Air Mist". This product does not have any aerosols or dyes.  Which is really good for my mom who is allergic to anything with aerosols. She has kidnapped this product and has been using it. The smell is orchid. So far, it has made my home smell wonderful. This product is a plus for both me and my mom. I'm sure we are gonna be buying some refills for this product soon.

Orgain Organic Protein bars with the flavor of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. These is good for people who are vegens and are a plus for those who need an extra dose of proteins. The taste is not really not my favorite. It tastes like coffee more than a cookie dough. Although, I never been big on cookie dough flavors.

The last thing is this:

A bit blurry but this is a coupon for a free product of Sabra guacamole grab and go sauce. Good for tositos roll chips. I can't really say if I am going to get this product yet but I do know that I am not a big fan of guacamole. However, I'll be sure to give this coupon to somebody that does use guacamole sauces.

That's the photos and my review of the whole box. As for the box itself, I like it although there's a few products that I didn't like. I hope Influenster continues on with these type of boxes. Again, like I mention above... All these products that seen pictured were sent to me for free to try and review. I had given out my reviews or opinions of each product and they are my own.

Thank you for reading this review. Now... on with the day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Alright, Now What To Do...

I guess I should sleep soon. Not sure what else to do now.

I hope that tomorrow will be better for me. I am always a bit bored.

I will continue on with the online job hunting. There's like over hundreds of companies in the US and worldwide xD I hope that I can find something.

Before I do go on to bed, I will finally post a picture from Blade and Soul

Lost in a world that is unknown to us all. A faerie is here to rescue. She's Alice.

Anyway, I am going to go to bed now. Hope that I can sleep well tonight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Really Complicated Day

Today has been really complicated day.

I have been distracted with many things that I forgot what I was going to do.

I decided to delay my streaming for a bit longer. Mostly due to my earache. It should go away eventually as long as it's not an infection and stuff.

Not sure what I'll be doing for the rest of the night yet. I might sneak on Blade and Soul to see if I can get those photos taken.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's Useless to Speak Up Here

Here, being at home. I have nobody to speak up my opinions about anything. I'm always shut up. Is that a good thing? No. I felt like that as a person, that nothing ever matters.

Things will matter if you don't know how to speak up. Don't give in to anything, alright?

I am just tired of feeling like the things that I do want to talk about is always the worst thing possible.

Ah, well. If you feel like that, then what's the point of even talking out loud?

Being here, at home, is never a happy place for me.

I'll just go silent and not reply to everything that they say to me. Because looking up something wrong is not the same as going out to a doctor to find out what's wrong. If you're hurting, go to the freaking doctor.

That's not hard to do.

Anyway, I forgot to get the picture from Blade and Soul xD

Just have to wait, guys. I'll be playing it for a while since my left ear is hurting a bit. The only cure for it is pain medicine and sleep.

It seems to only hurt right when I go to bed some reason.

Alright, hope tomorrow will be better. Right now, my mood kind of sucks when I try to say anything important or anything that's my opinion. I guess I'm not that important here.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Robin Hood Comes To The Rescue!

I am just saying that because I am about to finish Robin Hood.

Not sure if many would noticed or not, but I have a feeling that there will be many crimes happening during this "wonderful" reign era.

I'll not stand by anymore like my mom or dad does. They said to deal with it but I won't. In fact, I'll keep to my word and keep hiding money away from them and without them knowing.

I won't say how or why or when.

Anyway, I'm not sure what today will bring since I want to finish the last 2 episodes of Robin Hood now.

Then tomorrow, I'll decide if I want to watch either Survivors or Torchwood.

Right now, going to get on with Robin Hood and eat some food.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Painful Earache

Right now, I have a painful earache on my left side. It's annoying right now.

I hope things will be better for the days to come. Medicaid just might get screwed if people don't try to convince him. I sure hope they do. Only time can tell. Already, I can tell there's gonna be a slight disagreements on things. So... good luck everybody.

Anyway, like I said before, I will only share things that do matter. Right now, Medicaid is holding on by a thread... So there's no telling what will happen. Since the republicans are having a little disagreement with things right now, I think the new law will be slow at passing for health insurance and stuff.

For those that don't know... I kind of need Medicaid to help me. It won't happen until 2019 or 2020 so that's a good thing. Maybe before then, my health will be a bit better. Just hoping for good things.

I am trying to deal with Mondays like usual and my ear is just not helping one bit.

I hope that later when I sleep, I'll feel a little better. Might have to take some over the counter ibuprofen to take care of the pain temporarily.

I am going to catch up with YouTube for the rest of the night.

Oh, yea... Once I figure out where the Screenshots are for Blade and Soul, I'll share you the cute picture of my character on the game. Yay.

For now... I will share that tomorrow if I don't forget.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Lazy Sunday Nights

Well, winter is going to be coming by the end of this week. Yay.

Today is lazy kind of day. We went to see my grandma again today. We didn't stay long so we went on to Wal-Mart to get my mom's stuff she's needed. Almost bought the hair dye but remembered that I wanted to wait until I cut my hair first.

For the rest of the night, I am going to watch Robin Hood... Might not finish it tonight but that would give me more time to play a game tomorrow at some point. I know Gotham is coming back on tomorrow so I will watch that.

After Robin Hood finishes, I will start on Torchwood... Forgot what it was based on but just wanna watch it.

I will take a picture from Blade and Soul soon though. So just wait for that sometime this week.

Right now? Robin Hood. Then sleep later.

I'm all for the human rights... let's be a faerie and fight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Be Strong. Be a Faerie.

I will be strong. I will be a faerie.

This will my motto for the next 4 years. As I will hide away those who support him. I won't break away from the idea of a person. It's not their fault that they support a person. Always remember, you can't break a friendship just because they support a person that you don't like.

I will only list the things that are yet to come. If there's one wrong move, I will mention it.

There's one thing I don't agree with... lies. There are plenty of things being shared by people that automatically doesn't really show the truth.

Also, another thing... We have the right to protest. It doesn't matter what anybody say. We should be able to stand up and fight for something that does matter to us all.

I do know one thing for sure... Either V or Robin Hood or both are likely to stand up in these 4 years to come.

One wrong step, will show the reality of how humans are truly.

I would stand on the sides, slowly shaking my head in shame. Because it's the same for every person.

I do know one thing for sure... I will not share anything about that thing like everybody else. I will be one of the silent ones.

They always say the silent ones are the most powerful ones to fight.

Here's a hint... don't believe everything you see.

From now on, I will not talk about the one that must not be named, But rather, the topics that will be passed, wrong or right. I have high doubts for certain things.

Just today for example, gas was cheap in Berea at a gas station. And there were so many cars there waiting just because gas is cheap. I said to myself that this is just the beginning. Things won't be cheap like this forever. When it does, people goes crazy over it.

It's like the end of the world outside today. It's just really nuts, you know?

First full day.... interesting.

Can't wait to see the other days ahead.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Long Day When It Tries To Rain

I'm not sure when it's gonna rain yet but it has been a long day.

I went to the store to get some food. Then waited forever before we left to go see my grandma. She seems to be alright but she still has a long way to heal.

Then came home to eat. Didn't really go out for anything today.

My mom got her boxycharm in and I can tell right of the bat that she didn't really like it. She was like "What am I going to do with this?" So I told her that I would take it xD

I'm a little late on the make up train but hey... gonna start wearing light make up for a while now. When I'm gonna start? Well, I want to look through the makeup that I have now and get some new ones that I do know that I will wear. Joy~

I just want simple stuff and yea...

Oh, yea... I might or might not decide to go and dye my hair blue... I am not going to keep it blue forever. I just wanna do it, just to do it. Yea...

Anyway, I am going to watch more of YouTube and stuff...

Will update before I go to bed tonight. Might be playing Blade and Soul tomorrow maybe.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Forever a Dreamer

I will always be a dreamer. Just know that.

A message, maybe. A poem, yes.

To the unknown, I got your back.
To the farewell, I get nothing.
Till the ends of time, watch your back.
Until then, we are something.

Never forget that who you are as a person can make a difference to the world. If anything happens, I will always be there help in some way or another.

Together we held up arms,
Together we shall take on a fight.
Together we bare our arms.
Swords high and might.

We are here to change history.
Together we shall be come something.
As we begin to write our story.
We do not care about a thing.

Resist the hate inside.
Fight to show we are one.
Never to hide.
Even we haven't yet won.

Together we rise our bows.
Shoot arrows to the sky.
Fight out the weakest fowls.
Without breathing out why.

We are strong, we are tall.
Together we are many.
Hold up strong without a fall.
With no hope of any.

We are here to help you.
We are for the strong.
So enjoy the view.
Against the wrong.

And that folks, should give you a little hint.

I will be busy tomorrow as usual. And hope things will be alright for a while. 4 years never seem to be a long time away.

 That's all.

With love,

BDK

Almost Made It Without News

As always, my dad would turn to the news. Almost made it without it!

But I have to deal with it on Facebook but I've been good at scrolling fast to ignore it. I just want the good stuff about anime, books, games, movies and more.

I might still get on Blade and Soul but I don't know if I want to or not. I am avoiding YouTube as well because everything seems to want to be live there. Wow...

I will catch up with YouTube tomorrow though. So that's gonna be fun. Especially since I am going out to see my grandma sometime tomorrow.

Anyway, I hope that I get to watch Hawaii Five-O tonight... Just not sure what time it would come on.

I will continue on with... Robin Hood! Maybe save the gaming for Sunday.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hiding In Game Land Tomorrow

I am skipping anything that relates to you know what tomorrow. So I'm hiding in a game tomorrow.

I'm not saying why or anything. I can already tell that how the news is going to be like. This, that, so yea...

Anyway, besides that fact, I have been watching more of Robin Hood. Some reason, that show has been addicting.

I noticed it has too many strange quotes xD

I am going to get off the computer soon and stuff... I just had a very boring day.

I know on Saturday, I am going out to see my grandma. I'm not sure if it's time to say anything yet but... my grandma had broke her hip. She had to had surgery. She got out of it alright but she has to go back to the nursing home for rehabilitation. Now you know.

Alright, time to go... I think I got one more video to watch before I go onwards to my room.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Resting For The Rest of Today

I have decided to rest for the rest of the day. Just sitting back and doing nothing else.

I'm not feeling good since I have a slight headache and stuff.

However, I am not going to stream tonight. I will try to stream next week on Tuesday. Just hope nothing else happens before then.

I've done a good job keeping away from the news sites online. The problem is having to deal with the news on TV. It's just everything about him. Kind of... blah.

So instead of dealing with it more, I'm just gonna sneak away now and get to relaxing more.

Tomorrow is just gonna be one of those short Friday days... I will be doing everything at once. Since I have going to relax tomorrow too, I'll just watch Netflix all day xD

YouTube for me tonight.

I'll be getting on Blade and Soul tomorrow too at some point too... Just before Hawaii Five- O comes on. That should give me enough time to do whatever.

Alright, will try to post again later before I sleep... I might try to finish some videos on YouTube now.

We'll see.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Going Back To Blade N Soul...

Going down memory lane, I've decided to go back onto Blade n Soul for the 1 year anniversary. This was before I streamed Torchlight 2 btw.

I didn't take any pictures of the outfit that I got from it... it's cute xD I will take it tomorrow since I am going to go back to play again. I want to go to the end of the story for as long as I could.

I think I'm gonna start focusing on one MMO at a time until I can no longer level up. It might sound like it'll be hard to do... but I really need to do something and yea...

Eden Eternal might be dead now, but I am still going to sneak on there to play a little.

I want to play Twin Saga again too. Also, I am waiting for another game to release into open. It's called Revelation or something like that. It's actually a cute game. I will gain more details about this game later on.

Anyway, going down that memory lane of Blade n Soul just makes me miss it. So, yea... I'll guess that I'll play it until I get bored of it again.

For now, I guess I'll watch YouTube. Besides, it's almost time for bed too.

I'm gonna be avoiding the TV for the next 2 days. Friday, I'm gonna be avoiding news, Facebook news, twitter news, YouTube live and more. The only thing I am interested in is the show Hawaii Five-O.

So... from now on, just gonna leave clues here and there.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just Thinking...

Just thinking that I am going to start streaming a little late... like at 8:30 instead of 8. The reason is so I can get ready more. It'll bring less time to stream but my internet sucks anyways.

I will be saving money to get a headset soon. It might not be until my birthday but I will be getting one nonetheless.

I am not sure how the days, weeks and months ahead will be like after Trump gets into the house this weekend. It could be bad... it could be good. We just have to give him a chance and only step up if there's anything wrong that we don't like.

I never support Trump because his choices are really... blah.

Anyway, I am going to watch some videos before I get ready to stream. It will start between 8:30 and 9. Provided if there are no problems going on.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Faded? Nah. Standing Tall.

The coming days, we must realize that we should always stand tall. And let hope be strong for us all.

I really wish that I could go to a language school with financial help but I know that part is a bit impossible to do.

The sad reality is people doesn't want to help you.

That's why I'm done feeling faded... I'm just going to stand tall.

The world is cruel as it should. But there's no reason to give up anything.

I really should hunt for a job soon because I fear that I do not, things are bound to happen. I am a big saver too so I might be saving money than to buy everything in the world.

The only thing I still wish is for my family to understand that I am a strong person.

Standing tall is my will.

I am done for the night so that would mean that I might be going to sleep soon.

Hopefully, tomorrow will be better for me.

We'll see what happens next.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

No Streaming Tonight?

There will be some nights that I won't stream. I just wanted to take a rest. Tonight just happens to be on of those nights.

I might not have an explanation of why I am not doing the stream tonight but tomorrow, I will get back to it like usual.

Anyway, I know that I have been doing one post at some nights for my blog but that's only because I am keeping no worries and no stress with things.

Right now, I am watching another movie of the Hobbit. I think it's the final one. Not sure yet.

After the movie, I am going to watch YouTube until bed. I guess you could say that I am not feeling too good.

Well, just sleepy. xD

I hope tomorrow will be better for me. I will continue the streaming tomorrow.

Back to the movie and on with the day, I guess.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Things That Do Matter

I am done with hearing everything about Trump. Right now, I can only say... give the man a chance. Only speak up when he does something wrong from now on.

We can't predict the future, ok? So give up the idea that he would start a war. We don't know that just yet.

Just worry about the things that do matter from now on. Step up when you see something is wrong.

Also, I am going to share this go fund me page for my grandma. She's about to get in the nursing home again soon... And it's just gonna get harder for my family, especially, my aunt. So if you could, please help us out: https://www.gofundme.com/jpaszdes

For the rest of now, I am going to do some surveys in silent and take a nap...

After nap, I will be eating dinner and possibly either YouTube or a game for the rest of the night. Especially, since  at 8PM, I will be watching Gotham. So I might play a game until then.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Nothing Sunday~

I didn't do nothing today. I mostly watched anime, watched a movie and catching up with YouTube.

Its kind of weird being home. When the time comes, I will tell you all why. Right now, I can only say, things will be different for a little bit.

I thought I was going to sleep at one point but some reason, I didn't xD

Right now, it's almost time to sleep. I usually go to bed at 11 or 12... I might be sneaking to bed after I update this post.

I have been having back problems lately, but mostly what's causing them is lifting at a weird way. Yesterday, I had to pick up the water pack from the very bottom shelf. I should start doing yoga soon so my back can feel better.

It's not a resolution, it's a way of getting my back to stop hurting a lot. Yoga apparently, can help with that.

Alright, I will get to bed soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Winter Anime 2017 List

Note: I only watched the first episodes just to make a list of what I want to watch. This doesn't mean I will watch these right at the same time. So... just wanted you to make sure.

The list for this season is here!

•  Blue Exorcist: Kyoto Saga (will be watching the first season soon)
• Descending Stories: Showa Genroku Rakuga (season 2)
• Fuuka
• Akiba's Trip The Animation
• Masamune-kun's Revenge
• Chain Chronicle
• Rewrite 2
• Konosuba 2
• Tales of Zestiria The X
• Schoolgirl Strikers
• Seiren
• Spiritpact
• Urara Meirochou
• Interviews with Monster Girls
• Idol Incidents
• el DLIVE

There are a couple of anime that I am waiting to be available so I can watch the first episode for free. xD

Anyway, gonna watch a movie now since it's time to eat here.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Long Day Full of Rain

Today had been a long day today. I have been resting since I came home around 2ish in the afternoon xD

I bought a book, a magazine, a dot to dot book and a dragon...

I don't know how to explain that other than what I just did xD

Well, the book is by the author who brought House of Night series... She has a new book about animal familiars and stuff. So this book is going to be interesting to read.

Bought the new anime book for the bi-month. It features mostly the anime that came out in the Fall 2016 season.

The dot 2 dot book had many buildings and landmarks that are all over the world. Gonna be interesting to do.

A blue valentine dragon plushie that is just adorable. They are selling those dragons out like crazy. Like I said, I only want to get them from now on.

That's the day. The rest of the time, I mostly just watched anime. I did had more anime to watch but I will list them tomorrow.

I will be home tomorrow, I think... so we'll see.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Fear of None.

A fear of none... Might not make any sense but it's something to me.

For a long time, I guess people are living in fear. So why not have a fear of nothing? A fear of none is basically a statement that means you shouldn't have many fears. It's alright to have a few but too many fears can take over your life that you do not want.

Having no fear doesn't entirely make you human. It's having the other emotions that make you human. Not sure if I word that right... so I will say this... have no fear? You are not human? Nah. You are a person that chooses to have no fear. That's what I meant.

You have the ultimate free will as long as... you are doing something legal. Illegal gets you in trouble. Always remember that.

I have strange fears that I need to over come.

That's why I have started back to writing stories again. I really want to make this my wish to write a book and have it published. I should get started soon so I will do so.

"Because we can let fear become us but we can fight fear by showing that fear is beatable."

These 4 years are going to be tough for me and I'm going to fight it.

That's why I won't let fear take over my life. Not just yet. I'm standing strong now.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me. I vow to stop getting things with palm oil... since finding out that palm oil can cause cancer (mom saying it might not hurt me straight away but my stomach is not good...) So yea...

I will get to bed now and hope tomorrow will be good for me. Not sure what I'll be doing tomorrow yet.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Faking Happiness

There's a huge topic that's going around that's becoming the main topic of the beginning of 2017, this year.

I dealt with faking happiness all too well for way longer than Pewdiepie has xD He's the one that started it and so... well... faking happiness is not really healthy.

I have been dealing with stress and stuff for a long time now. Since I was 16, my life has been an up and down battle full of emotions. I pretended to be happy a lot of times. I fell in love but mostly to only fall out of love. One person told me to not break his heart and that's what I tried... for 6 years. 2010, I felt that was the worst year of my life. I needed out but at the same time, something happened to him as well... and he begged me to come see him but I couldn't. Things were happening here to me that I just couldn't find a way to escape.

Even to this day, I regretted not leaving him earlier because I was faking happiness and I wasn't happy. I should've left him not long after my aunt's passing. It's just... sometimes when things happens, you can easily fallen out of things.

I really hope it doesn't happen again. My happiness is my best friend right now. I want it to stay that way for a long time as I could.

I try to find reasons of why I am sad if something is bothering me. I talk to my best friend for that problem and he helps me out. So you can see that he is my happiness.

I'm not going to fake happiness anymore. That's the point. I have to just be honest if I feel bad... even if it means hiding and such xD

I'm always weird and I never liked to be called normal. One such person said that I was normal and I shouldn't be down on myself... but please... how is calling yourself not normal being down on yourself? I like to be not normal and I like being weird. I like who I am. A person whose imagination can go far and wide. A person who loves weird and strange things. A person who finds nature being beautiful.

Don't let people tell who you should be. Only you should tell yourself who you should be. You are going to find some type of happiness in someway.

Don't fake anything. Don't try to be someone that you don't want. Don't force yourself to like things. Just... be you.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Blanket Time!

I'm gonna go and get under a warm blanket soon. Hope the weather will be good just for a while.

I am all caught up with YouTube for now xD

Though I am a bit sleepy now. Oops.

I think tomorrow, I am going to get back to doing other stuff. I am back to watching anime for a bit more. I think I might take a small break from anime until I get some Asian Dramas done. The reason why I said Asian is because there's Chinese Drama and Japanese Drama on top of Korea Drama that I wish to watch. I think I will do that soon.

Also, I am very excited to get some boxes to come in the mail soon o3o

I hope to do a video on both of them. I didn't do a video of the Bark Box because I didn't really feel like it. Ah, well.

I think I will go now and stuff.

Also, I am switching to go to the doctor next week. I should be ready to explain to him what is going on with my stomach. He caught that my gallbladder was only at 30% usage. If it's that again, I'm gonna let him decide what I should do next. Since it's causing me to be sick (if it's my gallbladder), I will take care of it. We'll see what happens. I'll be sure to keep you all updated.

Anyway, I think I will sleep soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Catching Up On A Few Things

I am caught up with anime, reading a book, doing surveys and more. The only thing that I have not started is... recording a game.

I have asked my mom to up the schedule of me seeing a doctor next week if she can. I felt like the sooner I can, the sooner my health will be better.

I am updating Sims 4. Just read that toddlers are released on the game now! So yay!

I will record a game eventually... just small steps at a time. I might do a redo on Torchlight too so that you can see more of the game. Recording games are actually better than live streaming.

I think my bestie might stop live streaming... he's been busy with work and it's causing him stress. I hope he continues to live stream though.

I think I might skip streaming tonight because I want to catch up with YouTube for a while.

Eventually, I want to do some MMO gaming again but mostly keep to myself because I want to complete for the story more than anything else.

Eden Eternal is pretty much dead. Grand Fantasia has too many missions to do but need to level up more. Aura Kingdom needs to be leveled. Tera needs to be played more. Blade n Soul needs to be played more too since they are going to have a festival on the game. Might sneak on and see how that is.

We'll see.

I will eventually stop live streaming but we just have to see what happens next.

Right now, I might just live stream 2 to 3 times a week.

Anyway, I am taking a break tonight to catch up with some stuff.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Warm Tomorrow, Cold Friday... Strange Weather.

I am going to slowly be catching up with some YouTube videos only one day. Since it's cold and I'm not gonna be going outside a whole lot.

So... speaking of which... warm tomorrow. It's gonna be close to 60 degrees F tomorrow. So the weather is kind of... strange. Especially, since Friday is going to be colder.

I might be staying home this weekend again. But we'll see. I am due to buy another magazine but I am seriously considering buying a subscription for the magazine since I am a big fan of it... and it's like the only anime magazine that is out here in America... I think?

I really miss NewType USA... I know the NewType original is still around... I think? I keep adding I think at the end of everything now xD

I know there's a website where you can order anything anime related straight from Japan. So maybe one day, I will do that.

Anyway, I am still waiting for anything else new for anime wise.

Speaking of, I have another anime to list... Akiba's Trip is so good that's... well... not exactly like the game but the anime seems to be cuter and funnier xD Seriously, go watch it.

I will let you all know if there's more anime that I am gonna be watching for this winter. Oh, and yes, I am watching Konosoba season 2.

Time to go.... sleep soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

When Schedule Should Be Fine

I am scheduled to go live in a 40 minutes or so.

I think it's getting better at adding it onto my YouTube. Hope things will be alright tonight too.

As long as, there's no busy single or anything. I will be back online.

Last night, I could only stream for a hour. It sucks when you have problems. Ah, well. At least, it got fixed and streamed until 10ish.

Tonight, there will be a 2 hour stream. I am not sure for how long I will continue to play but hopefully for a long time. I want to try to level up some more...

There is a dungeon tonight... which will be the first thing that you will see when you get on my YouTube to watch.

I will let you all know via twitter of anything.

Right now, I want to get this done and hunt for some more online jobs.

Alright, back to job hunting and will meet you on YouTube, I hope.

(Also, want to start recording a game soon but not sure when yet.)

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Rain Has.... Come? Where's Winter?

Today, the weather decided to warm up and bring lots of wind. Now it's bringing rain.

The weather lately has been really weird. It's either warm or cold.

Ah, well.

I had a slight problem with playing Torchlight 2 while streaming but things seem to be getting better now. I am glad it worked after a slight delay.

I just hope Windows 10 doesn't do a random update soon. I mean, I don't mind the updates... but I just kind of want to do something in a hurry.

Next time, I'll just restart and stuff before playing games.

Tomorrow, I hope to have no problems with the game itself... we are about to hit a dungeon. So... hope it'll be fun to do.

I'll release this one on Monday next week. :D

Alright, gonna get ready to figure out if I need to sleep or not.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Very Windy Day

When they gave out the wind advisory yesterday, they were not kidding...

Today, the wind has been really crazy and beyond belief. Everything flying everywhere... and even down to a blink from the electric showing signs that they are being effected by the sudden bursts of wind.

The family problem will be updated soon as we find more info what happens next. We are trying not to tell a lot of people because we are trying to be safe about things.

My mom has ordered a make up subscription box to come in either this month or the next. Hopefully, this month. We'll see.

Anyway, I am streaming tonight but it will be at 8PM. I will let you all know via twitter. I think I had figured out a way to prevent less frames from skipping. But I know things are hard to do with this type of internet.

I am streaming on Tuesday through Thursday only because I kind of want to have other days as a break for watching my favorite shows and such.

I will start recording a game soon but only for a few minutes a day at first.

I want to get back into playing MMOs too so I will do those every once a while.

For now.... enjoy the streams when they come on YouTube.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

This Is My Sleepy Self... Yay!

I guess you could say... I am really sleepy.

I did not do any recording of any games today because I had to go out for a bit.

I am going to say this now that there's still a lot of things that will be left unsaid but just keep praying.

Tomorrow, I will be back to record a game as well as a live stream tomorrow evening... providing if nothing happens. I will let you all know ahead of time on twitter if anything happens.

I have been watching another set of anime. I will get the title later.

Right now, I just want to wait to sleep... and hope tomorrow will be better for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Sleeping Now...

I will be sleeping now and hope things will be alright.

Hope you all are well...

Anyway, I will get to bed now... Tomorrow will be a long day...

Sorry, short post... Too sleepy to think about anything.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Things Happening For No Reason

Due to safety reasons, I am not going to say anything else besides having a family emergency at this moment. We asked to keep things private and stuff. If you pray, please pray. That's all I ask.

Now on with the rest of this post.

Things happens for no reason at all. Some people say there are reasons to each problem that comes.

To me, sometimes, we can't really find a reason to a problem.

That's how life works sometimes. Sometimes, things just... well... happens.

I am going to record a game tomorrow, but not sure what game it will be yet because I still need to get the list all down to figure out what to play and what to download.

All I can say... See my twitter for when a video will be released on YouTube.

For now... I will get back to live streaming on Tuesday night through Thursday.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Waiting For Sleep....

I am waiting to get sleepy so I can go on to bed. xD

Anyway, I am keeping an eye out on what's coming in the anime world like usual. I hope that there will be many more interesting ones coming out soon.

Like I said before, I usually wait until the second episode of the anime comes out before I watch the first episode of an anime. So this time, thins will be taken slow.

I keep a list of anime to watch later after the first episode tells me what I want to watch more of and such. So that's how I do with anime.

I think after winter season is over, spring season of anime will be huge. I'm not sure how huge but it's gonna bring in Attack on Titan and possibly, One Punch Man back...

I can't wait to find out.

Right now, back to waiting to sleep...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Cold Day... Geez.

Today has been the coldest day ever. But besides that, just think... the weather here in Kentucky is just gonna warm back up to only.... freeze again.

Cold Day... Geez... Then Warm Day... Geez... Why do we complain about every season?

It seems like it's something we can never get over... We get tired of being cold and boom it's spring and soon it'll be summer again so we be like getting tired of being hot.

We really can't decide what weather is right for us. Then there's the people who gets tired of living in the areas that are either too cold or too hot so they always move only to complain about that place too.

I guess we just don't know what to expect. Honestly, I wouldn't mind the weather if I lived somewhere else. I want to live somewhere else so that people didn't know me or bother me xD

Anyway, I have been mostly at home, trying my best to stay in. Kind of hard to do since I have to take the dogs out. Good thing, the dogs do what they need to do (except Chloe but I looked past her) so they can come back in.

YouTube for the rest of the night since it's just gonna get colder through the night and part of the day tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

First Friday of 2017... A Less Than Awesome Day...

Today, there had been many things happening. I'm sure if you are watching the media, you would know.

Local news, however, there had been a death due to a home invasion. At least, that's what I heard on the news so far.

It's not really safe anymore. That's why there's two sides of gun restrictions...

I'm not going to get into that detail yet. Since it's all over the news soon.

I hope that I would get that online job somewhere and just save all the moneys to move away from this place.

Well, one can only hope and dream.... trying not to give up.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting Ready For Old Shows With New Episodes

Getting ready for the old shows to finally have new episodes... Especially, Hawaii Five-O. I am curious about what they mean by "Final."

Also, got three anime shows to list since I am watching them now.

Two of them are older shows... While one of the two is a show that I never got around to watch the first season... I will do that soon.

Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinju has a season 2. Blue Exorcist has a season 2 as well, but I never watched the first episode.

The third show is a new show and it's called Fuuka.

So there's that.

Anyway, back the anime show before my main shows come on tonight... or maybe watch it afterwards.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Bit Better Streaming

I am kind of getting the hang of it now... I just need to fix the bitrate or something or whatever it is called to the lowest setting...

I never got a popup stating that I was losing frame rates so maybe that fixed it? I don't know. I will release both videos on Monday and Tuesday... No matter how bad they turned out to be xD

Right now, I am having issues with Adobe working and loading... Not sure why that's happening... I hope it's working tomorrow because I am going to try to catch up with some videos on YouTube.

Also, gonna get started with some more anime that I've been wanting to watch. Just need to narrow down that list...

Did you know that I never watched all of Tokyo Ghoul? I feel bad for not ever able to get back into that show.

I hope it would be soon...

Anyway, I might just head on to bed a little early tonight. The stream was good because I didn't get no notifications of dropped framerates or anything... Just high CPU but that's just my PC. I really need to upgrade it so the CPU be better.

Ah, well... Till next time.

Tomorrow, wanna rest from streaming. Also, my favorite shows are coming back on... Can't wait to see how those turn out...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Another Night To Get Things Set

I think my mom is done with her PC so it should be save to get on and live stream now... I will have to set things up and try not to mess up again.

Also... I am not sure how long this live streaming will last... I am waiting a few days which is after this weekend before I can figure out if I want to continue streaming... Tonight will be session 2 of Torchlight 2. Slightly delayed because I wanted to type this up before I forget.

The chat thing might not be used tonight but I will keep it up just in case.

I wish the stream didn't go offline so damn much though...

I blame this computer for being slow... as well as the upload speed being insanely slow for no apparent reason at all.


For now, I really hope nobody calls while I play this game...

No promises, ok?

That's all.

With love,

BDK

First Long Stream...

Tonight, I've done my first longer live stream on YouTube. Now I don't know how it turned out... but given how badly lagged it was to do this, I know it might not be too good on YouTube afterwards xD

Anyway, I might be doing a side recording video later on... so hope things goes well for me.

I might be busy on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays because I have to do a lot of stuff on those days sometimes. Fridays, I'm usually resting. But we'll see...

I have been gradually reading... so yay for me to do that.

Other things, not so well... not just yet.

I'm going to watch a few more videos on YouTube before heading off to bed... tomorrow is gonna be a cold day and full of waiting for snow...

So... I will post more about that tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Slow Internet Problems

The internet has been slow since I have been waiting for 2 hours until finally, I figured that the server of that job site was not working. So I just deleted the site and just said heck with it.

That doesn't mean I given up. I'm gonna continue to find a job online somehow.

Anyway, I am hoping that later on, my mom will be off her computer so I can start streaming at 8. I think I'm just gonna go for it. However, I won't share the after video until days later. I might be playing another game at the same time to pass the time.

Also, it's that time again... new anime are coming out. I will wait until they are all released freely before I watch the first episodes to decide if they are something I will watch or not.

Someday, I am going to move my room around again to get things done there... Mom doesn't think it would fit anywhere but the filing cabinet that I have is pretty good size and it might fit... maybe. I just hate where it's at now because of where my bed is at now and stuff... Yea.. loads to do eventually... if I still live here xD

Alright, I got a hour and a half left before I live stream on YouTube. I am going standby at 7:30ish and going live at 8ish.

Hope everything goes well.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Stress Over Slow Internet

Some odd reason, my internet is slow... Now it's acting like it's not busy at all... which I cannot figure out why.

I wish it would tell me what is going on with that site...

The thing is, I am trying to apply for an online job. One of the requirements is make a video. My internet was acting busy but not it's not... so I am clueless on what's going on with that site because it's still loading but my internet is barely moving...

I am watching the modem as I type this and it's just confusing me.

Does it mean the upload is getting done or something? I don't know! At least, give me a sign or something.

I am getting sleepy as this progresses so I am beginning to wonder if it's working at all...

Ah, well...

I can try it again tomorrow but I will leave it up until I get to bed. But first, copy everything again so that I can get it ready for tomorrow just in case.

Anyway, I am not streaming tonight because of that reason alone. I am clueless and stressed on not figuring out why it won't work.

I might be sleeping early too because of lack of sleep....

For now, YouTube should work no matter what's going on.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Welp... My Day Has Gone By Too Fast.

I took a break after posting the New Year message yesterday. I almost took a break today but I figure that I am in need of a much needed update... That might not make sense but I need to say it like that some reason.

2017 has been a slow start because the days of holiday seemed to arrive on weekends... They make the days feel slow.

There's one thing that will be interesting about 2017... All the new things that are going to happen this year.

I might be going to bed a little early tonight because of lack of sleep last night. I hope tonight won't be that bad when I sleep.

I ordered something for myself... Hope it comes in soon.

My mom won't leave me alone until I earn enough side money to get her a beauty bag. :/ I will do it one time so she can enjoy it.

Anyway, I hope this year will be good for me... No promises though.

Finished a K-Drama and it makes me feel weird... Not sure why.

Alright, let's continue to make 2017 awesome.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hello 2017, Let's Hope You Make This Year Awesome

The word "great" is a bit overrated when you think about it. So let's make 2017 awesome instead.

I hope that things will be different. We will have our ups and downs but let's hope nothing worse than that.

Thank you all for reading and hope to bring new readers for the new year.

Happy New Year, Everybody!

That's all.

With love,

BDK