I think there are people who can control their mental status. But there are people that can't. Those people are the ones that need help.
I have to admit is that I have been depressed too long. But I don't believe in suicide or mass murders. It's crazy. But I have to also admit that I have seen people who have uncontrollable anger and uncontrollable violence.
And so I am going to virtual talk about a world that I've been living. Whether you call me crazy, you're welcome to tell me. Because I am me.
My mother always say that I was special. I had a very active imagination. And I still do.
Every once in a while, I sit somewhere quiet, where nobody finds me. And guess what I do? I talk about my imaginations. My stories. Out loud. My mom always told me that as long you don't reply to yourself, you're not crazy.
So I never reply back to myself.
Yet, I felt I lived in another world. In another life. Yet, I felt like I belong to a different place in time and space.
I believe in ghosts, faeries, and magic. I respect all religions because there's just something about them that brings peace to my mind and heart.
Yet, there's another thing. I never let myself go as far as letting another me get out. But yet, in my mind, I have heard and seen and felt this personality. As it comes to my mind, something made me realize that I am not always myself. I had kept this a secret from everybody. And you know, this blog might reach millions of people who will say that I need help.
But in all my 26 years, I survived perfectly. I have two protectors and hopefully not anymore than that. But I feel I have more. These protectors have names but I will not tell you who they are because of my sanity's sake.
I learned that if you can control the anger, the hate, the fear, the nerves, the worry, the doubts... well, basically all of the negative, you can be you. But my escape in order to control these negatives were books and writing stories out.
Upon writing this blog, I realize many things. My eyes have opened to the sight that many were afraid.
We need help. We all do. Even I do need help at one point in my life. I always fear that my slipped anger, my slipped hatred would lose control and I wouldn't be able to hold myself back. While I am here, I am able to tell you that we all need to wake up.
After the years of living with my mom and her ex boyfriend, many things disturbed my mind. My hatred towards him grew. My anger grew. I feared myself.
I really thought that my anger would disappeared after he left August 2011, but sadly, it didn't. Each time I slipped and be angry at my mom, I stopped myself soon after I snap off at her. Then I realize that I am sorry. I shouldn't do this. I don't think people understands many things.
As I was growing up, I saw violence and mental health problems, I realize that I wasn't the only one who tries to have a secret identity.
In the wake of the recent shootings, something inside of me woke up. It made me realize that although we have problems with our daily lives everyday, people really should look more into what mental health is truly all about.
While I am slowly healing myself from the slipped anger issues, I still wonder about who I am truly. Why I feel like I should be somewhere else? Why do I want to move out? Well, here's the thing... when I'm away from home, I feel better. I'm more myself.
So, I told myself for the new year, that in order to heal myself, I should leave this place. The place with memories, hurt, and anger. So much negative, bringing me down. It's time to avoid all the negative as much as possible and try to heal myself. But also, in realization... I'm glad I'm not the only one.
And so I really want to dedicate my healing process to my love, Rai-Chan. Though I can control myself more. I am able to understand, I can finally heal.
But also... I realize that... We do need to stand up and bring out the world's attention to Mental Health. Not everybody can control their mental status like I can.
One thing I did learn about myself: I can't be afraid anymore.
BDK
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
Ah...
I'm hurting again.
What is going on?
It scares the crap out of me.
Wake up. Wake up. Wake up.
Run.
BDK
What is going on?
It scares the crap out of me.
Wake up. Wake up. Wake up.
Run.
BDK
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Another world, another dream
Alright, I'm in that world again. I am with Rue. Rue protects my dear from his emotions, etc. While Ysabel protects me. But why am I with Rue? I was sent to see Rue about a mission. He and Ysabel both know that the portal must be closed soon. I'm sure my darling Rai-Chan knows this also.
So far I've been lucky though. No fighting or whatsoever. But my darling Rai is right about Rue. This place makes him awesome. So far I do not know the source of why the portal is opened but I do know that I was called there to make sure everything goes well. I've been kidnapped and chased by the faceless ones. But I still feel like something more is going on.
Anyways, Rue told me that he must go on a mission. I'm sure my love knows what this mission is. But I'm at a safe house taken in by other gybbs. It seems pass by slowly there but I didn't had much of a choice but to leave early. :3 Sorry, Rue. Hope you are safe wherever you go there.
Also, the journey to some of the places seems to take weeks to months to get there. I know the place I am at now (Rai-Chan called it the Land of the Fallen) took me months to get there. Also, I'm armed with a dagger and sword both. o_o I was told to be careful the next time I go back.
That is all.
BDK
So far I've been lucky though. No fighting or whatsoever. But my darling Rai is right about Rue. This place makes him awesome. So far I do not know the source of why the portal is opened but I do know that I was called there to make sure everything goes well. I've been kidnapped and chased by the faceless ones. But I still feel like something more is going on.
Anyways, Rue told me that he must go on a mission. I'm sure my love knows what this mission is. But I'm at a safe house taken in by other gybbs. It seems pass by slowly there but I didn't had much of a choice but to leave early. :3 Sorry, Rue. Hope you are safe wherever you go there.
Also, the journey to some of the places seems to take weeks to months to get there. I know the place I am at now (Rai-Chan called it the Land of the Fallen) took me months to get there. Also, I'm armed with a dagger and sword both. o_o I was told to be careful the next time I go back.
That is all.
BDK
Saturday, November 17, 2012
It has been a while!
And so I'm gonna do a random rant. Since my darling told me about the portal has been opened, we've been in another world each time we go to sleep. It could be years or months but time doesn't really go fast there. Anyways, I was told by my dear to be careful about posting this world on FB and so I got the idea... why not post it here?
Anyways, the portal is closing soon. And I think they will be busy. I can tell because of the faceless one. I have to be careful if I go to sleep. Anyways, I will be fine.
That is all!
And I know when the portal will close. I'm different because my psychic self. Anyways, enough of my random rant. Dunno... this might inspire me to write some more stories. Dreams always do.
BDK
Anyways, the portal is closing soon. And I think they will be busy. I can tell because of the faceless one. I have to be careful if I go to sleep. Anyways, I will be fine.
That is all!
And I know when the portal will close. I'm different because my psychic self. Anyways, enough of my random rant. Dunno... this might inspire me to write some more stories. Dreams always do.
BDK
Friday, November 2, 2012
Ghostbusters!
http://soundcloud.com/alastabdk/me-singing-ghostbusters-xd
I think I'm going to do this more often... xDDDDD But... with different songs.
I think I'm going to do this more often... xDDDDD But... with different songs.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Calling All Graphic Designers!
I want a design purposefully for my Facebook like page. Also, if anybody knows how to design a website... please and thank you. :)
Updates!
Alright, I've decided to just go ahead and make a like page on FB. Also, I have a group that is for members only. But you're welcome to ask for permission to join there. Also, I am posting more ways you can contact me. Haha. I will answer anything that you throw at me!
Like my page!: https://www.facebook.com/AFaerieJourney?skip_nax_wizard=true
Join my group!: https://www.facebook.com/groups/176591255740985/
Twitter!: @alastabdk
Alright, if I update anymore things, I'll you all guys know!
After all, this is my faerie journey. :D
BDK
Like my page!: https://www.facebook.com/AFaerieJourney?skip_nax_wizard=true
Join my group!: https://www.facebook.com/groups/176591255740985/
Twitter!: @alastabdk
Alright, if I update anymore things, I'll you all guys know!
After all, this is my faerie journey. :D
BDK
Monday, October 22, 2012
Self Publishing
So... since I want to really try to complete a book one day... I've been talking about it for several years now... and I just needed inspiration and a muse (my boyfriend <3).
Anyways, I'm going to post some of my stories on those sites as soon as I am finished with them. It might be weeks, months, or even years from now. Hopefully not long.. so for now... enjoy my blog. :)
BDK
Anyways, I'm going to post some of my stories on those sites as soon as I am finished with them. It might be weeks, months, or even years from now. Hopefully not long.. so for now... enjoy my blog. :)
BDK
^_^
Just a random update... I am currently writing a brand new story. And I'm not going to post it here because it's still new. Though my friends on FaceBook can few it, you all won't be able to. Because this story... well... I'm hoping to try to go far with it and have it published. :o
Anyways, that's all for my update.
BDK
Anyways, that's all for my update.
BDK
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Leaping Waters: A Story of Possession. Part 3.
No matter what, Talulah wanted to escape to get fresh air. As soon as Monav opened the trapped door that lead outside, Talulah breathed in and she sighed.
“Free.” She whispered.
Monav looked at her and nodded. “Alright, I helped you escape, I can take you to a safe place but please stay there.”
Talulah looked over at Monav and sighed again. “Very well.”
They fell silent as Monav lead her through the rock forest behind the castle. The air felt strange to Talulah as if rain is coming. She wanted to stop and close her eyes to imagine the weather but she felt Monav grab her hand.
“Talu, is something wrong?” Monav asked her as she shook her head quickly at him.
“I'm fine.” Talulah whispered as she gently took her hand out of his grasp.
Monav nodded as he moved ahead.
Talulah touched the rocks as she followed him. She wanted more than ever to go back to her home, Aqua. The green forest, the rain, always looking beautiful with the gray skies. But she quickly shook her head as she remembered that she must get to the safe place.
It seemed like forever, well, 30 minutes to walk to where they were going. It was down in a hole, but it's dark and secluded. Just what Talulah needed so that she could hide from the queen.
Monav helped her down into the hole in the ground, to the home. The home was made of stone. Talulah gently touched it. “Stone is cool.” She whispered.
Monav stopped and looked to her. “Talu? What do you mean?” He asked, his voice sounding a bit confused.
Talulah shook her head. “It is nothing, Monav.” She whispered as she walked into the stone home. She felt warm instantly when she walked in and looked at the gray walls, there painted on the walls were a forest.
“Monav...” Talulah whispered gently. Then she felt faint coming to her. “Monav!” She gasped before she fell down on the floor.
“Talulah!” Monav whispered as he caught her and went down on his knees as he felt her go limp. “No!”
The shadows were floating toward Talulah. She could tell they were floating when she opened her eyes. But she's not in her body. Her mind was here but her body was somewhere else. She looked around and looked down, she could see a hand, an arm, but how could her body be somewhere else even though it's here? Then it struck her. This felt just like her visions.
“You are correct, Talulah.” A voice whispered but it had a body... or what seems to be a body from what Talulah could see.
“Who are you?” She found her voice as she asked.
“What you should be asking is what I am?” The voice walked out of the shadows and revealed itself. “I am you. You could be me.” The voice smiled. She was tall, but with the same blue eyes and blonde hair. Only thing different was her clothing. They looked foreign.
“What do you mean?” Talulah asked as she backed away slowly from this mysterious person.
“Ah, but you, see, Tallulah... my name is Sokanon. I am you. And you are me. Just only... I will only come out when it rains.” Sokanon smiled as she looked at Talulah.
“Rains? But it's not raining.” Talulah replied as she stared at Sokanon.
“Ah, but that's where you're wrong, child.” Sokanon laughed as she reached for Talulah.
“What do you want?” Talulah asked as she reached the edge of nowhere. At least it felt like a wall because the pressure was pushing her back towards Sokanon.
“You.” Sokanon grabbed Talulah.
Talulah woke up and just sat up, almost bumping her head on Monav who was leaning over. He moved away quickly as he realized that she was awake and sitting up.
“Talu!” Monav gasped as he hugged her.
Talulah just sat there. She then gently grabbed his shoulders and pushed him away. “No.”
Monav backed away.
Talulah didn't act like herself. She didn't even looked at Monav when he backed away. She just simply sat there, staring at the walls.
Suddenly, there was a sound coming outside of the door. It sounded like falling rain.
Monav heard it and looked towards the door. “Impossible.” He mumbled.
Talulah smiled as she slowly got up. “Good.” She whispered. “The rain has arrived.”
“Free.” She whispered.
Monav looked at her and nodded. “Alright, I helped you escape, I can take you to a safe place but please stay there.”
Talulah looked over at Monav and sighed again. “Very well.”
They fell silent as Monav lead her through the rock forest behind the castle. The air felt strange to Talulah as if rain is coming. She wanted to stop and close her eyes to imagine the weather but she felt Monav grab her hand.
“Talu, is something wrong?” Monav asked her as she shook her head quickly at him.
“I'm fine.” Talulah whispered as she gently took her hand out of his grasp.
Monav nodded as he moved ahead.
Talulah touched the rocks as she followed him. She wanted more than ever to go back to her home, Aqua. The green forest, the rain, always looking beautiful with the gray skies. But she quickly shook her head as she remembered that she must get to the safe place.
It seemed like forever, well, 30 minutes to walk to where they were going. It was down in a hole, but it's dark and secluded. Just what Talulah needed so that she could hide from the queen.
Monav helped her down into the hole in the ground, to the home. The home was made of stone. Talulah gently touched it. “Stone is cool.” She whispered.
Monav stopped and looked to her. “Talu? What do you mean?” He asked, his voice sounding a bit confused.
Talulah shook her head. “It is nothing, Monav.” She whispered as she walked into the stone home. She felt warm instantly when she walked in and looked at the gray walls, there painted on the walls were a forest.
“Monav...” Talulah whispered gently. Then she felt faint coming to her. “Monav!” She gasped before she fell down on the floor.
“Talulah!” Monav whispered as he caught her and went down on his knees as he felt her go limp. “No!”
The shadows were floating toward Talulah. She could tell they were floating when she opened her eyes. But she's not in her body. Her mind was here but her body was somewhere else. She looked around and looked down, she could see a hand, an arm, but how could her body be somewhere else even though it's here? Then it struck her. This felt just like her visions.
“You are correct, Talulah.” A voice whispered but it had a body... or what seems to be a body from what Talulah could see.
“Who are you?” She found her voice as she asked.
“What you should be asking is what I am?” The voice walked out of the shadows and revealed itself. “I am you. You could be me.” The voice smiled. She was tall, but with the same blue eyes and blonde hair. Only thing different was her clothing. They looked foreign.
“What do you mean?” Talulah asked as she backed away slowly from this mysterious person.
“Ah, but you, see, Tallulah... my name is Sokanon. I am you. And you are me. Just only... I will only come out when it rains.” Sokanon smiled as she looked at Talulah.
“Rains? But it's not raining.” Talulah replied as she stared at Sokanon.
“Ah, but that's where you're wrong, child.” Sokanon laughed as she reached for Talulah.
“What do you want?” Talulah asked as she reached the edge of nowhere. At least it felt like a wall because the pressure was pushing her back towards Sokanon.
“You.” Sokanon grabbed Talulah.
Talulah woke up and just sat up, almost bumping her head on Monav who was leaning over. He moved away quickly as he realized that she was awake and sitting up.
“Talu!” Monav gasped as he hugged her.
Talulah just sat there. She then gently grabbed his shoulders and pushed him away. “No.”
Monav backed away.
Talulah didn't act like herself. She didn't even looked at Monav when he backed away. She just simply sat there, staring at the walls.
Suddenly, there was a sound coming outside of the door. It sounded like falling rain.
Monav heard it and looked towards the door. “Impossible.” He mumbled.
Talulah smiled as she slowly got up. “Good.” She whispered. “The rain has arrived.”
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Hello! BRING ME IDEAS and NEW UPDATES! And ETC!
First of all: NEW UPDATES
Starting January 1st, I am making a daily update called DAY # and also a subtitle after that. And please do not think the world is going to end... geez... I'm not scared and you shouldn't be either. There's a good advice. But another piece of advice? Be ready for anything. The world might not end but you never know what might happen.
Second of all: BRING ME IDEAS
I will provide my email after all of this, so below here, will be my email. Bring me ideas. I mean it. I also not only want ideas, I want questions... any questions in fact. Because I view things differently, I really would like it if you send me questions. :) And I also do give advice... I won't say your name, but I will post a blog on the advice that I give you. :) See? It's all anonymous so don't be afraid to say anything.... AS LONG IT'S NOT RUDE OR ANYTHING STUPID.
Lastly: ETC!
My email: faerieofspringbdk@gmail.com
Also make note: I'm taken...
My BF's youtube page: http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRaikenJenova
And maybe if I get more views, like close to a 1000 in a month, I will make a like page on FB. So... enjoy and thanks... TA!
BDK
Starting January 1st, I am making a daily update called DAY # and also a subtitle after that. And please do not think the world is going to end... geez... I'm not scared and you shouldn't be either. There's a good advice. But another piece of advice? Be ready for anything. The world might not end but you never know what might happen.
Second of all: BRING ME IDEAS
I will provide my email after all of this, so below here, will be my email. Bring me ideas. I mean it. I also not only want ideas, I want questions... any questions in fact. Because I view things differently, I really would like it if you send me questions. :) And I also do give advice... I won't say your name, but I will post a blog on the advice that I give you. :) See? It's all anonymous so don't be afraid to say anything.... AS LONG IT'S NOT RUDE OR ANYTHING STUPID.
Lastly: ETC!
My email: faerieofspringbdk@gmail.com
Also make note: I'm taken...
My BF's youtube page: http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRaikenJenova
And maybe if I get more views, like close to a 1000 in a month, I will make a like page on FB. So... enjoy and thanks... TA!
BDK
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Opinions!
Alright, I have been thinking about writing more than one story at the same time. I did it before and it's not hard to do, but it'll be hard to decide if I should do it.
Anyways, I want to try to continue on with Leaping Waters... but I am sort of stuck... xD
And I want to start re doing Angelic Samurai but with a better mind and idea of it. As I want to introduce you to a fighter named Anika Hiden. <3 That's all for now... but... also... I want to mention that I keep feeling something else... something that is with deja vu. And... makes me wonder. Something about swords... maybe I'll write out a story that is about a dancer and a sword... completely different the Angelic Samurai one... A brand new story... :o I wonder... if they have any titles called The Sword Dancer. >___< Ah... I just figure out... that Anika might be a second personality...
I doubt it because I only know Ysabel at the moment. I mean... I am always curious if I have more than one personality... Hehe... Because I have so many weird feelings about things...
Anyways... the sword dancer idea... would be interesting to write since I love dancing so much. <3
Anyways, I want to try to continue on with Leaping Waters... but I am sort of stuck... xD
And I want to start re doing Angelic Samurai but with a better mind and idea of it. As I want to introduce you to a fighter named Anika Hiden. <3 That's all for now... but... also... I want to mention that I keep feeling something else... something that is with deja vu. And... makes me wonder. Something about swords... maybe I'll write out a story that is about a dancer and a sword... completely different the Angelic Samurai one... A brand new story... :o I wonder... if they have any titles called The Sword Dancer. >___< Ah... I just figure out... that Anika might be a second personality...
I doubt it because I only know Ysabel at the moment. I mean... I am always curious if I have more than one personality... Hehe... Because I have so many weird feelings about things...
Anyways... the sword dancer idea... would be interesting to write since I love dancing so much. <3
Friday, October 12, 2012
Leaping Waters: A story of possession, part 2.
The sky began to get dark. The weather hardly ever bring clouds at Haven. Talulah knew this was so as she was looking up at the sky. A drop of rain landed on her cheek... She reached up and grabbed the drop of water. She sighed as she put it to her mouth and licked the taste of water. Oh, how she missed it.
“It's coming.” A voice whispered as Talulah slowly opened her eyes.
“What's coming?” Talulah asked the voice.
“The rain.” The voice whispered back but there was nobody around for Talulah to see as she slowly raised from the cot she had been sleeping on.
No window to look out to, she sighed as she grabbed a cover to put over her. She knew it was cold but this was a first time she felt cold in a long time. She wondered why and now she knows.
The dark room was located in the dungeons of the kingdom. She felt a change in air though. She only wished she didn't agreed with Alcredia about coming here.
“Talu.” A male's voice spoke from the other side of the wooden door.
“Monav.” Talulah answered happily as she went to it.
“Something is going on.” Monav whispered.
Talulah pressed her hand on the door. “I know. I can feel it.” Talulah whispered softly to him as she closed her eyes. “My friend... I was stupid to agree with the queen.”
Monav opened the door and walked in. “I can help you escape.”
Talulah backed away and looked at him. “Why?”
“Because, Talu, since you've been here...” Monav started but stopped as he looked down.
“You love me... don't you, Monav?” Talulah whispered.
Monav looked up, startled at what she said. He nodded.
“Well, then...” Talulah sighed as she sat on the cot. “Now is not the time to fall in love.”
“Why not, Talu?” Monav sat beside her.
“I'm afraid... that whatever is going to happen... that it's not going to be good.” She whispered to him.
Monav reached over to touch Talulah's hand but she moved it away and she looked at him.
“You should be aware of me soon, Monav.” Talulah whispered as she slowly walked towards the wooden door. “You said you can help me escape, right?”
“Yes, I can.” Monav looked at her sadly.
“Then... let's go.” She said.
Monav nodded as he led her the way.
“It's coming.” A voice whispered as Talulah slowly opened her eyes.
“What's coming?” Talulah asked the voice.
“The rain.” The voice whispered back but there was nobody around for Talulah to see as she slowly raised from the cot she had been sleeping on.
No window to look out to, she sighed as she grabbed a cover to put over her. She knew it was cold but this was a first time she felt cold in a long time. She wondered why and now she knows.
The dark room was located in the dungeons of the kingdom. She felt a change in air though. She only wished she didn't agreed with Alcredia about coming here.
“Talu.” A male's voice spoke from the other side of the wooden door.
“Monav.” Talulah answered happily as she went to it.
“Something is going on.” Monav whispered.
Talulah pressed her hand on the door. “I know. I can feel it.” Talulah whispered softly to him as she closed her eyes. “My friend... I was stupid to agree with the queen.”
Monav opened the door and walked in. “I can help you escape.”
Talulah backed away and looked at him. “Why?”
“Because, Talu, since you've been here...” Monav started but stopped as he looked down.
“You love me... don't you, Monav?” Talulah whispered.
Monav looked up, startled at what she said. He nodded.
“Well, then...” Talulah sighed as she sat on the cot. “Now is not the time to fall in love.”
“Why not, Talu?” Monav sat beside her.
“I'm afraid... that whatever is going to happen... that it's not going to be good.” She whispered to him.
Monav reached over to touch Talulah's hand but she moved it away and she looked at him.
“You should be aware of me soon, Monav.” Talulah whispered as she slowly walked towards the wooden door. “You said you can help me escape, right?”
“Yes, I can.” Monav looked at her sadly.
“Then... let's go.” She said.
Monav nodded as he led her the way.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
BAH!
Ysabel seemed to be quiet these days. And I feel like I've been haunted by ghosts... quite literally because strange things has been happening again.
And I said again because since living in this trailer (I lived in two locations but with the same trailer), I've been experiencing unknown things. I think I saw a ghost one time but it was blue... so I don't know what I saw. But I can tell things have been off because... really... our stove is coming on by itself. And just yesterday, my TV and Dish Box (it's how I watch Satellite TV) were both turned towards the bed. I was like... "wtf..." And even asked my mom and dad about it... they said that they didn't know what was going on. >_< And about later that night, I went to the stove and was wondering why I felt heat from it... only to find out that two of the buttons were on! I turned them off and asked again... none of them didn't do it... so What did? So... when Ysabel is around, none of these things happen... so what in the world is going on? >_<
And I said again because since living in this trailer (I lived in two locations but with the same trailer), I've been experiencing unknown things. I think I saw a ghost one time but it was blue... so I don't know what I saw. But I can tell things have been off because... really... our stove is coming on by itself. And just yesterday, my TV and Dish Box (it's how I watch Satellite TV) were both turned towards the bed. I was like... "wtf..." And even asked my mom and dad about it... they said that they didn't know what was going on. >_< And about later that night, I went to the stove and was wondering why I felt heat from it... only to find out that two of the buttons were on! I turned them off and asked again... none of them didn't do it... so What did? So... when Ysabel is around, none of these things happen... so what in the world is going on? >_<
Monday, October 8, 2012
Leaping Waters: A story of possession. Part 1
The cool rain fell upon her face, back, wings, all of her body. She was fragile as she stood within the rain. She had her eyes closed, her arms raised. The rain felt good. She had missed it. But it was a curse also. Well, water was her curse. She wanted to touch the rain more. But she felt herself slipping away... Away to a world as a voice is calling upon her.
“Open your eyes.” A soft voice called upon her. “And you shall see.”
Though the voice was nowhere to be found when Talulah opened her eyes. She looked about her and she couldn't figure out what is going on. All she knew is what she dreamed about.
Talulah sighed as she gently rose up from her bed. She missed that dream. She missed everything about it. The water was her curse. Her homeland was her curse. She did not desired to be free anymore than what these kidnappers did.
These kidnappers were also faeries, like her, but they do not possessed any powers that were dangerous as hers. They kidnapped her because of a few things. One of them was because of her power. The other reason was because she was a princess of Aqua.
Oh, how Talulah missed her home so much. She felt lost within the deserted land. But at least she was free to move about. For as long there was no rain. Rain was very rare here in Haven though.
Talulah gently stretched our her clear blue wings as she gently walked about her room. She stopped and looked into the mirror. She stared at her deepest blue eyes and pale blonde hair. She sighed as she gently turned the mirror around. She didn't like to look at herself. It only remind her of who she was.
Talulah's mind began to wonder as she thought about the dream. And the voice. Where had that voice come from? And why it told her to open her eyes and she shall see... See what? There's no wonder to what the answer was.
“Talu.” A male voice called from the door. Talulah looked at herself and looked towards the door. She wasn't decent yet.
“I'm not decent.” She called as she went to her wardrobe to hurrying put on a light dress.
“Very well, Talu.” The male voice said. “Queen Alcredia wishes to see you when you are, um, decent.”
Talulah stopped herself and looked at the dress. “Right.” She mumbled. She began to grabbed a better dress. One with sparkles of blue, and elegant like the sky. She grabbed a brush and began to take out of the tangles in her hair. She needed to be really decent for Alcredia.
As Talulah was braiding her hair, she knew the male behind the door was back, this time he was knocking.
“I'm decent now.” Talulah mumbled as she walked to the door and opened it.
The male was her friend, Monav.
“Monav.” Talulah gently bowed to him.
“Talulah, how many times have I told you, not to bow.” Monav smiled when he saw her.
“I always have to, Monav.” Talulah smiled back at him. “Besides, not only you're my friend, you are also noble.”
Since being kidnapped, Monav had been a good friend to her. Though they are are opposites, they are the best of friends.
“Anyways, Talu, the queen wishes to see you.” Monav became serious. Talulah could tell something was up but she only nodded as she began to follow him down the hall.
The Kingdom of Haven was an interesting place. Although it never rains here, the faeries were able to survive without water. Talulah hated the taste of the special fruit juice that they bring her but after being here for a year now, she gotten used to it.
The air was warm and Talulah hated it. She missed her home too much. Aqua was full of green and lots of lakes and rivers. That was after all her nature. She was not used to being away from her home. But without a will, she must learn to adapt. And so she did.
Haven was vast with a lot of non-winged faeries. These faeries do not have the powers like Talulah did. There were winged faeries though, like the queen and Monav. Their powers were mostly wind and earth though.
Talulah looked about as she kept following Monav. It was oddly quiet within the court of the kingdom. Talulah just couldn't figured out why.
Soon she was standing before the queen. She gently bowed down and kept her head down as she waited for the queen to tell her otherwise.
“Princess Talulah, please sit.” Queen Alcredia said as she pointed to a chair.
Talulah got up and nodded as she went to sit in the chair.
“We have matters to discuss.” The queen began as she took a sip from her tea.
“What matters?” Talulah asked as she looked up at the queen.
“My oracle told me something. Something interesting.” She gently sat the cup down on the table beside her. “You see... as you can tell that it never rains here in Haven.”
Talulah's ears perked at the mention of rain and she began to looked serious. “I know that but what about it?” She asked.
“Well, you see, princess...” The queen leaned towards Talulah “There will be changes coming and we need to do something about you.”
“Do something to me?” Talulah shook her head as she asked.
“Do what?” Monav cut in as well.
“Monav, you know very well what we have to do.” The queen looked at him.
“Alcredia, it would be too cruel to put her in the cell.” He said trying to protect Talulah.
“It is not up to you, Monav.” Queen Alcredia snapped at him.
“No, she is right, Monav.” Talulah finally spoke up. “Do what you must, your majesty.”
Alcredia looked at her and smiled. “Very well.”
“No! You mustn’t do it!” Monav began but the queen raised her hand at him.
“You do want the world of Faerie to be safe, right, Monav?” The queen looked at him.
Monav merely looked down, ashamed of himself.
“I will go, Monav. And you must listen to your queen.” Talulah sighed as she got up.
“Guards, take her to the dungeon. Be sure to lock her away and give her food.” The queen nodded.
The guards began to lead Talulah away from the room. Talulah stopped and looked at Monav.
“Monav, it will be that time.” She whispered only enough for him to hear.
Monav nodded as she began to walk away with the guards.
The silence rose upon the room as Monav sat down and the queen left.
“Time.” Monav only mumbled as he put his head in his hands.
“Open your eyes.” A soft voice called upon her. “And you shall see.”
Though the voice was nowhere to be found when Talulah opened her eyes. She looked about her and she couldn't figure out what is going on. All she knew is what she dreamed about.
Talulah sighed as she gently rose up from her bed. She missed that dream. She missed everything about it. The water was her curse. Her homeland was her curse. She did not desired to be free anymore than what these kidnappers did.
These kidnappers were also faeries, like her, but they do not possessed any powers that were dangerous as hers. They kidnapped her because of a few things. One of them was because of her power. The other reason was because she was a princess of Aqua.
Oh, how Talulah missed her home so much. She felt lost within the deserted land. But at least she was free to move about. For as long there was no rain. Rain was very rare here in Haven though.
Talulah gently stretched our her clear blue wings as she gently walked about her room. She stopped and looked into the mirror. She stared at her deepest blue eyes and pale blonde hair. She sighed as she gently turned the mirror around. She didn't like to look at herself. It only remind her of who she was.
Talulah's mind began to wonder as she thought about the dream. And the voice. Where had that voice come from? And why it told her to open her eyes and she shall see... See what? There's no wonder to what the answer was.
“Talu.” A male voice called from the door. Talulah looked at herself and looked towards the door. She wasn't decent yet.
“I'm not decent.” She called as she went to her wardrobe to hurrying put on a light dress.
“Very well, Talu.” The male voice said. “Queen Alcredia wishes to see you when you are, um, decent.”
Talulah stopped herself and looked at the dress. “Right.” She mumbled. She began to grabbed a better dress. One with sparkles of blue, and elegant like the sky. She grabbed a brush and began to take out of the tangles in her hair. She needed to be really decent for Alcredia.
As Talulah was braiding her hair, she knew the male behind the door was back, this time he was knocking.
“I'm decent now.” Talulah mumbled as she walked to the door and opened it.
The male was her friend, Monav.
“Monav.” Talulah gently bowed to him.
“Talulah, how many times have I told you, not to bow.” Monav smiled when he saw her.
“I always have to, Monav.” Talulah smiled back at him. “Besides, not only you're my friend, you are also noble.”
Since being kidnapped, Monav had been a good friend to her. Though they are are opposites, they are the best of friends.
“Anyways, Talu, the queen wishes to see you.” Monav became serious. Talulah could tell something was up but she only nodded as she began to follow him down the hall.
The Kingdom of Haven was an interesting place. Although it never rains here, the faeries were able to survive without water. Talulah hated the taste of the special fruit juice that they bring her but after being here for a year now, she gotten used to it.
The air was warm and Talulah hated it. She missed her home too much. Aqua was full of green and lots of lakes and rivers. That was after all her nature. She was not used to being away from her home. But without a will, she must learn to adapt. And so she did.
Haven was vast with a lot of non-winged faeries. These faeries do not have the powers like Talulah did. There were winged faeries though, like the queen and Monav. Their powers were mostly wind and earth though.
Talulah looked about as she kept following Monav. It was oddly quiet within the court of the kingdom. Talulah just couldn't figured out why.
Soon she was standing before the queen. She gently bowed down and kept her head down as she waited for the queen to tell her otherwise.
“Princess Talulah, please sit.” Queen Alcredia said as she pointed to a chair.
Talulah got up and nodded as she went to sit in the chair.
“We have matters to discuss.” The queen began as she took a sip from her tea.
“What matters?” Talulah asked as she looked up at the queen.
“My oracle told me something. Something interesting.” She gently sat the cup down on the table beside her. “You see... as you can tell that it never rains here in Haven.”
Talulah's ears perked at the mention of rain and she began to looked serious. “I know that but what about it?” She asked.
“Well, you see, princess...” The queen leaned towards Talulah “There will be changes coming and we need to do something about you.”
“Do something to me?” Talulah shook her head as she asked.
“Do what?” Monav cut in as well.
“Monav, you know very well what we have to do.” The queen looked at him.
“Alcredia, it would be too cruel to put her in the cell.” He said trying to protect Talulah.
“It is not up to you, Monav.” Queen Alcredia snapped at him.
“No, she is right, Monav.” Talulah finally spoke up. “Do what you must, your majesty.”
Alcredia looked at her and smiled. “Very well.”
“No! You mustn’t do it!” Monav began but the queen raised her hand at him.
“You do want the world of Faerie to be safe, right, Monav?” The queen looked at him.
Monav merely looked down, ashamed of himself.
“I will go, Monav. And you must listen to your queen.” Talulah sighed as she got up.
“Guards, take her to the dungeon. Be sure to lock her away and give her food.” The queen nodded.
The guards began to lead Talulah away from the room. Talulah stopped and looked at Monav.
“Monav, it will be that time.” She whispered only enough for him to hear.
Monav nodded as she began to walk away with the guards.
The silence rose upon the room as Monav sat down and the queen left.
“Time.” Monav only mumbled as he put his head in his hands.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
So many... thoughts... Need to calm... down...
Alright... since I have so many thoughts rolling around in my head and it's making me emotionally unstable... I have questions and I need answers... So Rai and Dark, since you said that Rue is unavailable at the this moment, I want you two to answer this together... so yes... it will help me calm down at all costs... And I will list these questions with numbers so that you can answer them by numbers through another page.
Alright here we go...
Questions:
1. Do you truly from the bottom of your heart love me? And why?
2. If anything to happen, anything at all, what would you do?
3. If I tell you that I can only wait for a year, what would you do?
4. If you are confused at any of these questions, let me know. Yes... this is a question.
5. What would you be willing to do for our relationship?
6. Would you willing to move here? (I already said yes about moving there, but if something were to happen... would you?)
7. And finally, will you try to keep your promises no matter how hard it seems?
End Questions.
And of course, there will be more over time, but I really need to know a lot of things.
As for family... well, we both need to figure out what is best. So... don't go taking a step just yet. Think it through, let your heart guide you. And listen to your heart as well. I've made so many mistakes before... and let me tell you... it's why I am emotionally unstable right now. Until I know for sure about things, until it happens, I will go back and forth to being emotionally unstable.
Just know this, Rai, I really love you so very much. I am willing to do anything for you and even if I can and have to, your family. So, remember that. Anyways, I think I'm calming down now so please be careful and I love you, my dear Rai-Chan. And you too, Dark. :P You think it's strange that I'm in love with all your personalities? o_o'
Alright here we go...
Questions:
1. Do you truly from the bottom of your heart love me? And why?
2. If anything to happen, anything at all, what would you do?
3. If I tell you that I can only wait for a year, what would you do?
4. If you are confused at any of these questions, let me know. Yes... this is a question.
5. What would you be willing to do for our relationship?
6. Would you willing to move here? (I already said yes about moving there, but if something were to happen... would you?)
7. And finally, will you try to keep your promises no matter how hard it seems?
End Questions.
And of course, there will be more over time, but I really need to know a lot of things.
As for family... well, we both need to figure out what is best. So... don't go taking a step just yet. Think it through, let your heart guide you. And listen to your heart as well. I've made so many mistakes before... and let me tell you... it's why I am emotionally unstable right now. Until I know for sure about things, until it happens, I will go back and forth to being emotionally unstable.
Just know this, Rai, I really love you so very much. I am willing to do anything for you and even if I can and have to, your family. So, remember that. Anyways, I think I'm calming down now so please be careful and I love you, my dear Rai-Chan. And you too, Dark. :P You think it's strange that I'm in love with all your personalities? o_o'
Friday, October 5, 2012
I see you.
Yes... I can't sleep so I am being curious who is reading this. >_< I have myself blocked from viewing so... curious.
Anyways... I really should go and try to sleep. >_< Curse my mind.
BDK
BDK
The questions...
What would I do? I really want to take this chance. I just feel confused. Not sad or bad or mad... and being confused actually does make me sad so... yea...
Should I do it? I don't know. I'll listen to my heart more than my mind but... my mind is my enemy because of my life.
My mind is weak.
There's so many things that I need and wish for you know. I just don't know how I can tell you. I really love you, my dear. I really want to be there right now with you. But I am also afraid.
So... here's the deal, my dear... Come here first... try to at least. I trust you but my mind is my enemy. So I must get to know you more.
As for my mom... she doesn't trust a lot of people... so it will be very hard for me to go anywhere... I must tell you more about them...
My mom doesn't even want me to marry or have children. She doesn't understand how much I really want these two things. I want my life to be mine, not hers. I am better than that. I know what I want and I know what is right.
But my dad... he's the main problem in my family. He doesn't want me to have a boyfriend. He goes into craze mode if he even knows about you. But I... will introduce you to my dad anyways. Show my dad that I'm not his little girl anymore. He will always be my dad and I will be his baby, but he can't keep me away for a long time.
So... yes... so many things that I need to tell you, my dear. So... one day... I will write them all down. Even tell you for real. I want my life to be my life. Not theirs.
I am changing my life. So... please take your time getting here and I will go with you anywhere, my dear. I love you so very much.
That's all for now. For the rest of the questions... my dreams and nightmares will answer.
BDK
Should I do it? I don't know. I'll listen to my heart more than my mind but... my mind is my enemy because of my life.
My mind is weak.
There's so many things that I need and wish for you know. I just don't know how I can tell you. I really love you, my dear. I really want to be there right now with you. But I am also afraid.
So... here's the deal, my dear... Come here first... try to at least. I trust you but my mind is my enemy. So I must get to know you more.
As for my mom... she doesn't trust a lot of people... so it will be very hard for me to go anywhere... I must tell you more about them...
My mom doesn't even want me to marry or have children. She doesn't understand how much I really want these two things. I want my life to be mine, not hers. I am better than that. I know what I want and I know what is right.
But my dad... he's the main problem in my family. He doesn't want me to have a boyfriend. He goes into craze mode if he even knows about you. But I... will introduce you to my dad anyways. Show my dad that I'm not his little girl anymore. He will always be my dad and I will be his baby, but he can't keep me away for a long time.
So... yes... so many things that I need to tell you, my dear. So... one day... I will write them all down. Even tell you for real. I want my life to be my life. Not theirs.
I am changing my life. So... please take your time getting here and I will go with you anywhere, my dear. I love you so very much.
That's all for now. For the rest of the questions... my dreams and nightmares will answer.
BDK
I hate my life.
I am feeling bad because I really hate my life atm.
It's not the end of world. But I can tell you one thing... I was never taught to drive, ride a bike, etc. I can still have a chance to learn to cook. But I really think I might disappoint him. I really do.
I... wish I was somewhere else and lived in another life. Anything better than the one I have here. I don't tell my mom a lot of things because I want my freedom too.
But they keep putting stuff in my head... and I know they will try if I ever meet him. I will ignore them but I don't know how my mind will handle it. I just don't know. Many questions are popping up and I just don't know. I need the time to think.
So I'm going to bed and let my dreams answer them. Besides... my freedom is my fantasy.
That's all...
BDK
PS... I may end up crying... so forgive me, my dear.
It's not the end of world. But I can tell you one thing... I was never taught to drive, ride a bike, etc. I can still have a chance to learn to cook. But I really think I might disappoint him. I really do.
I... wish I was somewhere else and lived in another life. Anything better than the one I have here. I don't tell my mom a lot of things because I want my freedom too.
But they keep putting stuff in my head... and I know they will try if I ever meet him. I will ignore them but I don't know how my mind will handle it. I just don't know. Many questions are popping up and I just don't know. I need the time to think.
So I'm going to bed and let my dreams answer them. Besides... my freedom is my fantasy.
That's all...
BDK
PS... I may end up crying... so forgive me, my dear.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Thoughts...
I just don't get it.
You see I let my thoughts take over me sometimes when I'm worried. So I'm a very weak person. I get depressed easily. I... am also missing my dear Raiken. I hope he is alright. <3
A human mind can be weak to some or many. People can be somebody else one moment. People can even not remember who they are either. I always wonder what that world is like. Right now I have two or three personalities and also alter egos. I would like to introduce to Ysabel...
Ysabel in my third's mind is blonde hair with sky blue eyes. She's an angel by birth but a demon by heart. She doesn't take crap off anybody at all. For a long time, I never knew her name until now. Well, actually... the name was from a book that I've read with the same title. Ysabel seemed so fearless... at least that's what I thought the name meant. I do control this personality but she is always protecting me.
The third personality? Well, you don't want to know her. She's... sort of a faerie type alter ego of mine. She's very well hidden but she does give me good story ideas. ^_^'
Anyways, I just got shot up with a load of bad feeling... so if you don't mind, I'm going to end this entry early. I might type up more things later. So... ta!
BDK
You see I let my thoughts take over me sometimes when I'm worried. So I'm a very weak person. I get depressed easily. I... am also missing my dear Raiken. I hope he is alright. <3
A human mind can be weak to some or many. People can be somebody else one moment. People can even not remember who they are either. I always wonder what that world is like. Right now I have two or three personalities and also alter egos. I would like to introduce to Ysabel...
Ysabel in my third's mind is blonde hair with sky blue eyes. She's an angel by birth but a demon by heart. She doesn't take crap off anybody at all. For a long time, I never knew her name until now. Well, actually... the name was from a book that I've read with the same title. Ysabel seemed so fearless... at least that's what I thought the name meant. I do control this personality but she is always protecting me.
The third personality? Well, you don't want to know her. She's... sort of a faerie type alter ego of mine. She's very well hidden but she does give me good story ideas. ^_^'
Anyways, I just got shot up with a load of bad feeling... so if you don't mind, I'm going to end this entry early. I might type up more things later. So... ta!
BDK
Maintenance... So... Here I am?!
I'm just bored because there's nothing on TV. Plus I was having a thought moment. Ysabel is gone btw... I sent her off. Hopefully she brings news to me.
Anyways... Ysabel is pronounced Esabell... ^_^ Like saying Jezebel... but it's Ysabel. Don't pronounce her name wrong. She gets pissed easy. :O
Ah... my imagination is running wild.
I don't know what to say... but it's random.
What about you guys? Comment me! I want to answer some questions. ^_^'
That's all...
BDK
Anyways... Ysabel is pronounced Esabell... ^_^ Like saying Jezebel... but it's Ysabel. Don't pronounce her name wrong. She gets pissed easy. :O
Ah... my imagination is running wild.
I don't know what to say... but it's random.
What about you guys? Comment me! I want to answer some questions. ^_^'
That's all...
BDK
Why I hate to smell beer and why I don't want to either?
Well, I'm not afraid to say it. But I just don't like to talk about it all the time so I just type it out now and forget about it.
Personal reasons. Well, here's exactly why.
My mom's ex was a big drinker. Yes, the same one who tried to rape me. The very same one that I turned devil towards. The very one that made me the way I am today.
We always fought but you can't tell a drunk anything. And each time, you cannot help but smell beer on his breath. I hate it. I hated him.
I can never forgive that damn bastard for what he done to me. I could almost wish to kill him. But I am not gonna do that. I'm sane enough to not hurt anybody. So... yea...
I'm emotionally unstable right now so I might end up saying a few unpleasant words about that ass if I don't stop now.
So there... that is why I hate the smell of beer nor do I want to smell it anywhere... I'm afraid that if I ever step in a bar, that it'll bring up bad memories. So... yea.. I hate it.
That's all.
BDK
Personal reasons. Well, here's exactly why.
My mom's ex was a big drinker. Yes, the same one who tried to rape me. The very same one that I turned devil towards. The very one that made me the way I am today.
We always fought but you can't tell a drunk anything. And each time, you cannot help but smell beer on his breath. I hate it. I hated him.
I can never forgive that damn bastard for what he done to me. I could almost wish to kill him. But I am not gonna do that. I'm sane enough to not hurt anybody. So... yea...
I'm emotionally unstable right now so I might end up saying a few unpleasant words about that ass if I don't stop now.
So there... that is why I hate the smell of beer nor do I want to smell it anywhere... I'm afraid that if I ever step in a bar, that it'll bring up bad memories. So... yea.. I hate it.
That's all.
BDK
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
BTW!
I set up my comments so anybody can reply to any of my posts... I see you all viewing... and I know some of you may be tempting to post... so... be anonymous and comment my pages. I don't mind. But like I said... do not make me mad. Thanks... That's all.
BDK
BDK
Wake up
I'm not sleepy. I don't want to sleep some reason. Well, I will sleep eventually but just not right now. But I also want to wake up.
So... here's the thing about me... I can't wake up. Not yet anyways. I'm already having problems with slipped emotions from other people. I'm just that if I let myself wake up, that I will not be able to handle it. I can... however, let myself go to my third eye.
It's hard to let myself hear the ghosts... but I'm afraid that if I can hear them, that I might not be able to handle that either.
But I can... I think I can... do out of body experiences. I just don't know how it feels truly because I feel my soul pulling away each time I'm asleep. So yea...
Ok... I mostly want to wake up. xD Enough said before everybody goes to calling me weird. Except one person... and I love you, my dear, for believing and understanding me.
So... that's all. :)
BDK
So... here's the thing about me... I can't wake up. Not yet anyways. I'm already having problems with slipped emotions from other people. I'm just that if I let myself wake up, that I will not be able to handle it. I can... however, let myself go to my third eye.
It's hard to let myself hear the ghosts... but I'm afraid that if I can hear them, that I might not be able to handle that either.
But I can... I think I can... do out of body experiences. I just don't know how it feels truly because I feel my soul pulling away each time I'm asleep. So yea...
Ok... I mostly want to wake up. xD Enough said before everybody goes to calling me weird. Except one person... and I love you, my dear, for believing and understanding me.
So... that's all. :)
BDK
Sunday, September 30, 2012
An idea
I'm thinking of a story that I was going to write but never got to the whole entire idea of it. It's the story of Talulah. Her name literally means Leaping Water. And thus... she is a water faerie. The most dangerous kind too in fact.
Right now it's just an idea... so I'm not going to say much until I have my complete focus on it. So for now... I want you all to meet Talulah, a dark blackish almost blue hair, with blue eyes faerie that has clear wings. And her power can control water.
Right now it's just an idea... so I'm not going to say much until I have my complete focus on it. So for now... I want you all to meet Talulah, a dark blackish almost blue hair, with blue eyes faerie that has clear wings. And her power can control water.
Ysabel: Why can't you just go attack his ex?
Me: I'm not like that, ok? Stop being angry... you're letting it slip out to me.
Ysabel: Well, too late.
Me: Damn it, Ysabel... I don't want to be snapping off all day long! >_< Ysabel: Well, if you don't go attack her, I will. Me: Geez... >_< I really don't want to feel this way, right now, Ysabel... ok? I only gave you the name not long ago and now you want to try to take over me? I've been trying to control you for all these years. So, please, don't make me feel this way.
Ysabel: Fine. But I will still be angry.
Me: Oi. -_-'
Me: I'm not like that, ok? Stop being angry... you're letting it slip out to me.
Ysabel: Well, too late.
Me: Damn it, Ysabel... I don't want to be snapping off all day long! >_< Ysabel: Well, if you don't go attack her, I will. Me: Geez... >_< I really don't want to feel this way, right now, Ysabel... ok? I only gave you the name not long ago and now you want to try to take over me? I've been trying to control you for all these years. So, please, don't make me feel this way.
Ysabel: Fine. But I will still be angry.
Me: Oi. -_-'
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Go away sadness...
I have to know... why am I feeling sad? I am not suppose to feel sad. But when I am sad, memories come to me. And memories are suppose to tucked and locked away. It cannot be helped.
Actually... I am just missing my love. I really hope he is alright. I get these feelings when I am worried. I wish I can stop. >_<
Anyways... I am going to post my email since nobody seems to be asking for it... xD
So... faerieofspringbdk@gmail.com is my email. Please label Blog if it's about the blog, thank you.
That is all...
BDK
Actually... I am just missing my love. I really hope he is alright. I get these feelings when I am worried. I wish I can stop. >_<
Anyways... I am going to post my email since nobody seems to be asking for it... xD
So... faerieofspringbdk@gmail.com is my email. Please label Blog if it's about the blog, thank you.
That is all...
BDK
The Chicken Festival 2012
Well, first of all, it's a festival in celebration of KFC. Though the true home of KFC is actually in Corbin, KY... they have the celebration in London because it's a bigger place and they hold lots of shows... Sadly, this year it wasn't like that.
This is what I am wanting to tell you about. I can tell a big difference from last year to this year. I don't know if it's because of the economy or because people just don't care or what. But it's been different lately.
For that mind, I just noticed a lot of things about this festival. Not a whole lot booths there this time. And there was suppose to be music all day but sadly, they weren't gonna do them all day this year. They do have country stars there but I won't get to see them again this year. I really want to take my mom so much.
Anyways, that is all I want to say. It's short for today because I'm suppose to go lay down a long time ago. xD Nap time!
BDK
This is what I am wanting to tell you about. I can tell a big difference from last year to this year. I don't know if it's because of the economy or because people just don't care or what. But it's been different lately.
For that mind, I just noticed a lot of things about this festival. Not a whole lot booths there this time. And there was suppose to be music all day but sadly, they weren't gonna do them all day this year. They do have country stars there but I won't get to see them again this year. I really want to take my mom so much.
Anyways, that is all I want to say. It's short for today because I'm suppose to go lay down a long time ago. xD Nap time!
BDK
And so I write...
There are times that I wonder what I'm doing here. But the answer is always there, in front of me. I must live for a reason. I must live for the world. Whether I'm famous or infamous, I want my words to be heard. That has always been my wish. And so I write... this to you all.
Alright, that strange feeling that I have been feeling... What is it? Why it comes and goes? Well, here's the true story about who I am... I'm not your smart average awesome woman, just so you know.
I'm different. I see things different. I sometimes love to go outside and listen to the wind blowing. When it rains, I will enjoy my day more. It's strange but I like that for my life.
Anyways, back to that feeling? Well, I follow my heart and soul more than I follow my mind. I don't always think before I take actions... I follow what's my intuition. So basically... I'm not psychic ... but something close to it. I am very sensitive to emotions of other people and I do try my best to block that and control it at the same time. ^_^'
And my point? Well, let's say that I know something is going happen but I don't know what that is. I talk this way because it's not meant for me to know what that is but that it is coming soon. Anyways, whatever it is... it's a good feeling. So I'm glad it's nothing bad.
I have had bad feelings before and I do not like them at all. I can feel pain also... and when I get mad, I have a devil side that comes out and just literally cuss everybody out... And if I get really mad, it'll end up with a lot more than words. Yep... physical problems. So... never ever piss me off.
Anyways, that is all I want to talk about. Sorry that I have been slow at updating this but I am going to bed at 1AM and on Eden at the same time, trying to do MB (Monster Battle) xD Anyways... that is all. ta!
BDK
Alright, that strange feeling that I have been feeling... What is it? Why it comes and goes? Well, here's the true story about who I am... I'm not your smart average awesome woman, just so you know.
I'm different. I see things different. I sometimes love to go outside and listen to the wind blowing. When it rains, I will enjoy my day more. It's strange but I like that for my life.
Anyways, back to that feeling? Well, I follow my heart and soul more than I follow my mind. I don't always think before I take actions... I follow what's my intuition. So basically... I'm not psychic ... but something close to it. I am very sensitive to emotions of other people and I do try my best to block that and control it at the same time. ^_^'
And my point? Well, let's say that I know something is going happen but I don't know what that is. I talk this way because it's not meant for me to know what that is but that it is coming soon. Anyways, whatever it is... it's a good feeling. So I'm glad it's nothing bad.
I have had bad feelings before and I do not like them at all. I can feel pain also... and when I get mad, I have a devil side that comes out and just literally cuss everybody out... And if I get really mad, it'll end up with a lot more than words. Yep... physical problems. So... never ever piss me off.
Anyways, that is all I want to talk about. Sorry that I have been slow at updating this but I am going to bed at 1AM and on Eden at the same time, trying to do MB (Monster Battle) xD Anyways... that is all. ta!
BDK
Friday, September 28, 2012
Starting over...
I think it's time to start over by doing some random blogging. Also, I hope everybody does indeed read them.
First of, my name is Brandy D. Kirby. I go by many names but if you found me on youtube, it's Ankisal. If you found me through Eden Eternal, I go by Salinita aka Santa. Anyways, so yea... I go by different names. But for now, I would like Brandy or Ankisal or Alasta. Whatever floats your boat, you can call me anything. xD Just please... don't make me mad.
Anyways, I am only a writer so I will write stories, poems, lyrics. But I am also a person with many thoughts in mind. Most of my thoughts don't come from my brain but from my heart. Strange? Yes. But that is how I am. Like right now? I am typing what is from my heart.
Well, I am going to shout out to my love, Raiken Jenova. You all should check out his youtube page. :) http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRaikenJenova <--- that's him. :)
Well, this is gonna be a short post but I am hoping everybody reads them more often as I type. I am basically going to use this as... a place to type out random stuff.
After all, it is my faerie journey. <3
Also, before I completely end this post... What I meant by "starting over..."? Well, I had this blog for three years and I had off and on post but deleted my posts here... I think this time I am here to stay. I'm not much of a talker... xD But I am a writer no matter what... So... I would like suggestions that I can type out on this blog.
Anything is fine. And I will give out my email purposefully for ideas to put on this blog.
Anyways... Now I can end this... So... with that thought in mind... Ta.
BDK
First of, my name is Brandy D. Kirby. I go by many names but if you found me on youtube, it's Ankisal. If you found me through Eden Eternal, I go by Salinita aka Santa. Anyways, so yea... I go by different names. But for now, I would like Brandy or Ankisal or Alasta. Whatever floats your boat, you can call me anything. xD Just please... don't make me mad.
Anyways, I am only a writer so I will write stories, poems, lyrics. But I am also a person with many thoughts in mind. Most of my thoughts don't come from my brain but from my heart. Strange? Yes. But that is how I am. Like right now? I am typing what is from my heart.
Well, I am going to shout out to my love, Raiken Jenova. You all should check out his youtube page. :) http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRaikenJenova <--- that's him. :)
Well, this is gonna be a short post but I am hoping everybody reads them more often as I type. I am basically going to use this as... a place to type out random stuff.
After all, it is my faerie journey. <3
Also, before I completely end this post... What I meant by "starting over..."? Well, I had this blog for three years and I had off and on post but deleted my posts here... I think this time I am here to stay. I'm not much of a talker... xD But I am a writer no matter what... So... I would like suggestions that I can type out on this blog.
Anything is fine. And I will give out my email purposefully for ideas to put on this blog.
Anyways... Now I can end this... So... with that thought in mind... Ta.
BDK
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