Am I Enough?

 Am I enough? It's a question that I asked everyday, but going through relationships made me realized one thing...

I need a break from dating.

I was told that I am a misunderstood person and I do agree. I think people don't know the truth or are afraid of the truth.

I decided to never be afraid of the truth. I want people to tell me the truth no matter what. I don't care if it hurts. I'm done with lies.

And I'm done with hidden truths too.

So if you are wondering why the delay, I had oral surgery on November 9th. I've been recovering ever since then.

And I've seen the true colors of people.

When you tell people that you only want to recover, all they want is something else. And you're like... wait a minute...

Yea... I think it's time for a change.

I might be breaking hearts but I don't need what they want.

Alright, that's all for now.

I am going to get back to recovering and hopefully be back fully tomorrow.

The Beast Is Me Too: A Review of I Feed Her To The Beast and The Beast Is Me by Jamison Shea

  Title: I Feed Her To The Beast and The Beast Is Me
Author: Jamison Shea

Rating: 5 Stars!!

Review:           When Larue wanted nothing but power, she thought of what's best when Josephine decided to take her to the Acheron. He offered her power in return of blood. An exchange that soon change the whole course of Larue's world.

Beautifully written and frightfully enjoyable. This is how I described such a wonderful book.

The main character Larue is set through a set of challenges and obstacles after she took an offering to The Acheron. Murders, injuries, commands and so much more!

I really enjoy the details within this book, especially when Larue offered her blood to the Acheron.

Imagine finding out there were other people who were just like you and you want nothing more but to have the power to do what you want.

This whole book reminded me of Black Swan in a way but much more fantasy and horror like. I enjoy a lot of moments.

The ending, which I won't reveal at all was the most shocking of all.

Truly something to recommend to those who enjoy horror. Besides, she did fed the beast and the beast was her.

Truths Can Hurt

 Stress isn't as wonderful as you would think. Between getting caught up with drama and being in the middle of one is not fun.

September hasn't been the best month for me. I made a mistake and rekindled. I lost a friend. And I found out some people can be such assholes.

Sometimes the truth hurts. And you needed see that truth in your eyes to know that you hurt so much.

I need a break.

So I am going to do all I can to stream on twitch for this month only. Then in November, I am taking a long break. Only because I have to get oral surgery on the 9th of November.

And as for discord... I think I need to be left alone for awhile. I am just done with everything that's happened on there. I really don't need anymore drama to bother me.

I haven't been getting proper sleep because of it. And I just wish people understand why I wished to stay neutral on many things.

Ah, well. That's just life for me.

I will still be able to answer any questions through dms on discord. But I'll be streaming through the month. I'll be posting on insta and twitter. But I will be more quiet in my own server. I just want to be left alone for a while.

Here's to a better October and more book reviews.

I Will Find You: A Review of "I Loved You In Another Life" by David Arnold

  Title: I Loved You In Another Life
Author: David Arnold
Stars: 5 stars

Review: One of the best books of the month and maybe of the year as well. When Evan started to hear a song that came out of nowhere, he often wondered why.

Shosh, who was struggling with the death of her sister, drinking her life away began to hear the song as well. She often wonder if she was met to be there.

The whole layout of this book is literally a lyric being wrote within a story.

Each emotions was felt through out the book. I could even feel it as I read it.

Just imagine if a song was able to bring you together. This is what this book did.

I love the title because through out the book, there was a past and a future of love. They were, too, brought together by a song.

I really do recommend this book.

The romance part does come in late, but to me that is perfect timing the way this book is.

I love the ending because it made me cry in a good way. I hope that I find love in that way.
       

Can I wake up when September ends?

 I know. I haven't posted since last month. But... I didn't really had good books that was worth to post on here.

Until now.

I will explain that once I get finished with the book. It's taking me awhile to get it finished. So once I do, I will post it here.

Anyway, a lot has happened in this month alone. August has been nothing but busy, sadness, and so much more.

I got heartbroken. Then I was grieving over my dog, Susie... I had to put her to sleep by the advice of the veterinarian. Then I have to get oral surgery in the future.

But good news, I am 4 years cancer-free. So that makes my day everyday.

But what will next month bring me? Who knows... but I do know I am going in for oral surgery soon.

Then I have to get new glasses.

Then I'm waiting for announcements for games and more.

Of course, I am going to make time to stream next month too... but I wanna do it more than just 2 times a week.

We shall see as time goes through September.

So with that note in mind... Wake me up when September is over. Because I do know it flies by fast and it's a time where it's stuck between summer and fall. And there's festivals going on too.

I will be back with the book review soon. Then who knows what else.

BDK

Just A Random Post

 I haven't posted on here in a long time... and it's on purpose.

I just never had anything to say on here and it sucks a lot.

I do want to start adding random quotes per time that I do post on here. It's kind of... like a way to share something.

Today's quote is a bit political but it does make sense.

"A political candidate once remarked that he would rather be right than president. Is there something in the Constitution that says he can't be both?"

It does make sense especially how the government is right now.

Ah, well... not being political right now... don't want to.

Anyway, I'll try my best to get back to blogging at least every day.

See you on the other side.

Until Then.

A Month Has Passed... And I'm Doing Well

 It has been one hell of a month, just wanted to let you all know.

I was going through a break up on June 1st. Then I went through a lot... both good and bad.

Mostly good.

I have to say... there's a lot of good in the world.

I am finally happy with where I am right now.

I also started doing more stuff for myself... enjoying things that makes me me.

Music, dancing, streaming, etc.

I made a lot of friends during this time.

My world on VRChat got public which was a shock to me.

I started making ASMR videos because my voice calms people down.

I am posting more pictures than ever.

And there's so much that I could say but I keep most of those a surprise. Because my journey is never over.

Alright, enjoy yourself, loves...

You are awesome.