Happy Birthday to Her!

 So it's been a day. And I don't know where to start.

Anyway, today is my fiancee's birthday. She officially is in her 30s. So yay for her. 

But I shall get on with the rest of the day in hopes that all goes well go me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't Like Last Minute Plans

Sometimes I wish people would have a better understanding about me. I don't like last minute plans. I never do.

I feel more calmer when everything is planned out.

Alright, I am going to try my best to get better at this blog thing for the new year.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish I Could Do Better

There are things that I wished I could do better. But yea.

I am tired... and sleepy.

But it's alright. Just gotta figure something out.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving btw.

When you ever wonder how life would turn out to be, you often think about what is next.

I know that my goal for this blog went down over this year. And we are coming up to December and yes, I'm doing this again next year.

I am hoping that this time I will do more than just a few sentences here and there. Just making a reflection on how the day went, how I felt and much more.

The thing is, I'm nervous about next year. I am worried that things will go downhill and I won't feel like writing into my blog.

When I changed my username years ago, I never thought of my username being used as a nickname and as my real name... but in reality, I don't like Alasta as my real name. It's my persona and oc, but not... me. Like it's me... but not me.

It's the same when it comes to my rl name... I grew to hate it over the recent years because you figure after a while, people would stop using the nickname that goes with my rl name... but they didn't.

So I might use my nickname to Alasta and my middle name as my new name...

Not sure how people would react to that. 

I'm still keeping my rl name but as an author name.

Because why not.

Anyway, I still got the rest of this month and next month to think about a few things.

You know how they say... don't tell your dreams, they won't come true.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Setting Up For Next Year

I just wish that I could be okay and just things that I want to do.

And now I want to get away from my dad.

Because I am not okay with me being here right now.

I love my dad, don't get me wrong, but I just... don't feel happy.

Alright, shall get back to finishing up my journals. And I am gonna get my things set up for the next year... I know it's early but I do like to plan ahead.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Cancer Free Still

I am glad to say that I am cancer free once again. Everything looks really good on my blood work.

And well, I think being tired is just gonna be in my life for a bit longer.

Oh, well.

I wish that I can travel to see my partner... because I do need it.

Alright, see ya tomorrow.

B

Never Thought of This

"Tell a dream, lose a reader." - Henry James.

I never thought of something like this before.

So yea.

I just hope that eventually things will get better for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't lie

Sometimes I think people are sick when it comes to certain situations. And it's not good.

Don't lie. You will end up hurting more people than you realize.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Lifting Everything

Meep. I am just trying to figure something out.

Today, we went to walmart... and as always, guess who has to lift everything.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Save The Money

I really hate my mind sometimes. I just want to save all the money and just take a small vacation away from here so I wouldn't have to deal with everything is going on.

I need to be away from my home. I need to be away from my headset. I need to be away from everything else.

Anyway, I should be okay...

But I need to save the money.

See ya tomorrow.

B

What is Right and What is Wrong

I think people doesn't understand what is right and what is wrong... and it bothers me.

So yea.

I'm gonna have to have a talk... and yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Feeling Well Again

I am not feeling well again. And it's gonna be like that for the next few days.

And I'm still waiting for a call so I can get the MRI done.

Just the wait is gonna be harder to realize.

We shall see.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Sure Where To Start

I am not sure where to start...

A person is doubting themselves...

My mom having lung problems...

And I'm just sitting here, trying to figure out if everything will be okay.

I may go mute for a long time.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My Eyes Are Getting Bad Now

I'm designing a poster for VRC for the first in forever.

And well, hopefully, this will get more people to either join my server or watch my TikTok.

I cannot wait to see what happens next.

For now, I shall get the rest of my journals done and then I will rest my eyes... I kind of feel like my eyes are getting bad now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hiding

I'm just hiding away from everybody.

And it's not helping to overhear someone get into a drama.

And well...

I'm done with people.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish I was in bed

I am ready to get go and get things done.

I hope that all is well. I am wondering what tomorrow will be like since I do have to go to my aunt's.

I have been tired a lot lately... just wish I was in bed to sleep.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Pain...

I'm keeping a close eye on all of these accounts... mainly for my safety and making reports. So yea.

I'm tired of people. And yea... guess who has to deal with pain for a long time? Me...

Anyway, don't bother me... don't piss me off... I'm not in the mood.

Soo....

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish My Computer Was In Room

Sometimes I still wish that my computer was in my room so that I can be at peace every single day. But it won't happen as long as we stay here.

And if we do move, the computer is not gonna be staying in the living room. It will go into my room. And since it would be bigger, I will have enough room for a dresser, a computer desk, and book shelves. And a bed of course.

Anyway, I am about to get things done and hope that all will be well for me eventually. It's gonna be a long day tomorrow for me... so wish me luck.

See ya tomorrow.

B

PS: Some people are the worst. To kill a baby with a punch into the stomach. So yea.

Be Stronger And Better Than Them

We can be stronger and better than them. And that's what we will do.

So from now on, if people comes up to say something about a certain someone, we will say "Leave it be or be block as well." We are done.

And we do mean it. Leave us alone. We are done playing your games. And I'm glad they haven't figured out that I got a blog that I can do whatever I want on.

So yea... don't let someone ruin your day. Take a break, but block anybody who dares to try.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Figure Out Something

I am trying to figure out whether or this drama crap will be gone by the end of the week. I do have that appointment on Friday and therefore, I won't be home. 

I am skipping this week on posting photos because I know I won't have time exactly.

I am going to take more photos in the near future so it's gonna be fun to do.

VRChat has such beautiful worlds to experience and so forth.

Alright, shall get back to watching State of Play which is coming on anytime soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Making Notes

I am keeping an eye out on all of these accounts. And I'll just add them to a long list of reports. I'm seeing a lawyer if they do it again.

I'm too old for this shit to be happening to me. And I didn't do anything wrong. And you can say that being there is wrong. No, being there is a witness. A witness should not be drawn into your problem with the victim. So you are making me a victim as well.

So stop it all.

Stressed out? Leave us alone. It's simple as that. Feeling sick? Leave us alone.

It's not that hard. Just block and move on. It's a grown ass way of moving on.

Your problem? Because of your past, you think that for once you can actually get somebody in jail because you never were able to in your past life. That, honey, is not the answer.

Cyberstalking is a crime. And I can go to the police at anytime if I have to.

So it's best for you to stop.

Oh, yea... TikTok might be finally listening to me on my report... Just saying...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Getting Tired

At this point, I am thinking of seeking professional help in order to protect myself from this 15 year. They made 4 accounts so far on TikTok and all say the same thing which is we are creeps. Um, where?

And I do need to talk to them about something later. Because I can't be around minors for a while until this 15 year stops.

Stop going through me to get to Snowie. It's not worth it. You're just gonna be blocked and your account will be added to a long list of being reported to the proper authorities. Cyberstalking is against the law. Stop now.

Anyway, shall get back to my life as normal and continue keeping track of all these accounts. Because I'm tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

An Option.

I'm just glad that today is over. I've been asleep most of the day and well, I just wish there is an option that I can just not go to my aunt's tomorrow.

You see... she's been telling everybody that she's gonna die soon and it bothers me.

I do not want to be around that, especially when she's in that chair, rocking back and forth constantly... and those squeaks bothers my ears a lot.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

A Year Since My Dog Passed Away

Just another day and who knows what else.

Today marks a year since my dog passed away. I miss her so very much.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Deciding What To Do

I just hope that I will make it through the rest of the weekend and enjoy the weekend ahead.

Who knows what will happen.

But I am trying to decide what to do next.

And well, who knows really.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder how many people actually do read these blogs, but even so, I am going to start generating prompts for next year so I can continue my blog. Hopefully all will be well by then.

I think that this will embark this journey from now on. Anyway, who knows what will happen next.

So we shall see.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Get over it

How come when I mention peace and quiet that this happens? Honey, you need to move on and get a life. Keep putting people in your mouth isn't gonna get you anywhere and it's not healthy at all.

So yea.

I am going to start making videos making fun of the rumors. Because yea... it's just a game to me and you should get over yourself, the one that just can't get over it.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Peace and Quiet

Just a moment of peace and quiet. But for how long? I do not know yet.

I am going to be streaming again tonight as I did challenge myself to do so for the whole month of November. 

Anyway, shall get back to trying to finish my journals. That is if my mom would stop asking me stupid questions.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Welp, Somebody Needs To Move On

Just when you think it was calm, it appears to come back.

Yes, to that child, I'm calling you a it. I know very well that you're not smart enough to realize that the more you expose yourself, the more people are gonna go after you. 

If you come blaming me, I have proof showing that I never posted any videos against you. Only your vr mom did.

So... don't come at me again. Grow up and move on. That's all you have to do. Words that are spoken will eventually die down. So move on. Simple.

Anyway, I am going to go my merry way and keep an eye out for any unwanted comments because you're just making yourself bad. I didn't cry, I didn't say anything else. So just move on.

That's all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Fun Month Ahead

I am glad it's gonna be a fun month. I will be streaming every single day of November. So that's gonna be a fun challenge. I do wish myself the best of luck either way.

All I do hope is that there won't be any drama that comes into my own streams.

See ya tomorrow.

B