Stubborn As Hell

I sometimes wish my mom doesn't do things that she don't need to do. Today, she was trying to bend over in the chair and the chair pushed back on her and she slipped out of the chair. She needs to learn that I can't lift her up. Nor can I ever get my dad to stop what he is doing... because there's moments that she needs to stop... just stop.

Anyway, I can't help my family anymore. They are the way they are because they are stubborn as hell. Ah, well.

I shall get back to the day and hope for things to be well for me... and my family.

See ya tomorrow.

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Hurting All Over

I am hurting all over. And it sucks. I hate periods because of this reasoning. Ah, well.

Anyway, I'm gonna relax for a bit and hope that my stomach will get better soon.

Hopefully tomorrow or Tuesday, my period will be over.

See ya tomorrow.

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Bored

I am just bored. So since the youtuber I was watching deleted his video that he uploaded, I am gonna be watching that new movie everybody keeps hyping about. So... that's what I'm doing for the rest of the night.

Alright, I shall get on with the rest of the day. 

See ya tomorrow.

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Another moment to pass by

Just another day. Another moment to pass by.

But I did got to drive today. Nobody passed by me so I was having a good drive.

I really can't wait to get my permit so I can get used to the highways. It's gonna be a good time.

Anyway, shall get my journals done so that I can watch the rest of Death Stranding 2 gameplay. 

See ya tomorrow.

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What Am I To Do?

I am just gonna do my best for a bit. Especially since I am tired of my dad saying something and then never say anything else about it. I am sure it's because of my partner. I don't want to tell him because he would hate my dad.

It's just my dad is the type of person that doesn't want anything to happen to children... even as adults, he doesn't want us to get married, to have children and more. Look at what he did to my brother when he left. It's like he just doesn't care.

I'm just trying to figure out what I should do. Like I need to go out and drive more. But will my dad let me? I need to get my permit so I can drive everywhere. 

So the question is... what am I to do?

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

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Good or Bad

They say that war is something we need to expect in every lifeline. We just have to be ready for anything.

While I live in a small town, it does worry me about those who live in bigger cities and such. 

Will we be in a war? I don't know.

I can't really say anything because we are slowly losing our right to voice our opinion thanks to our leader.

And well, yea... we just have to expect anything. Good or bad.

See ya tomorrow.

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The Truth Is Surprising

You never know what to expect until things are not always what they seem.

Having to do a prediction like "What are the odds that Sleep Token will be in Death Stranding 2?" When you learn the truth that they are.

As you would know, I am a huge fan of Sleep Token. I will never get tired of the band itself. And the fact that the song is featured on the soundtrack makes me happy.

Anyway, I shall finish up here and get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

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Don't Know What To Expect

I hate going political but I do have that small fear of a war. And people's lives might get hurt in the process.

So I do not know what to expect.

I don't want to stay away from people, but I may have no choice.

See ya tomorrow.

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The World Is A Bit World

I think the world is a bit weird. I am not ready for a war, but if it's that, then I will find a shelter in the middle of nowhere.

Anyway, I hope that tomorrow will be better.

We shall see what happens tomorrow.

See ya tomorrow.

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I bought 2 books

We went to Walmart. I have to say that I did bought 2 books.

And I am going to try to get some sweets next time I get back to Walmart.

Anyway, shall get back to my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

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Set Me Free?

I have to think about what to do as on Monday, I will be busy all day.

And my mom wants to get the usual thing done tomorrow knowing that it would be a full 2 weeks before we can go back to Walmart. So... I am not sure what she wants to do.

Anyway, I am having one of those days... so set me free.

See ya tomorrow.

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Nobody Listens To Me

I guess that nobody really listens to me when I try to communicate that I might have undiagnosed neurodivergent disease. Ah, well. 

Anyway, I am gonna try my best for the day and hope that the upcoming days will be better for me.

We shall see.

See ya tomorrow.

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Deja Vu Or A Prediction?

Yesterday was the 8th anniversary since the passing of my grandma. I still miss her to this day.

Today, I dreamed of my own hip surgery... but I never got approve for it yet so... does that mean I am dreaming of something that could possibly happen? It felt so real so it made me really out of it today.

Anyway, I am going to finish my two journals and then write one letter despite there's no mail running tomorrow so yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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I Don't Belong Here

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong in this world at all.

And I've been this way since I was a child. Is there something wrong with me?

Anyway, I shall get back to my day and get ready for more Infinity Nikki.

See ya tomorrow.

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Be Away From Everybody For Now

It's funny how someone is actually reading your blog for saying something along the lines that you don't belong.

And well, I am still feeling this way. And it's because my spirit is calling me somewhere else right now.

I just want to be away from everybody for now.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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Don't Belong Anywhere Anymore

Sometimes I often wonder if I really belonged anywhere anymore.

I really hate that I feel this way, but it is gonna be this way for awhile.

And I doubt he even notices me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Please Just Wait

Every time there's an issue, someone claims it's broken when it's not.

Please just wait until I am feeling better before you ask me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Cough Of Hell Is Real

The cough of hell is real and it sucks a lot. I just wish it would go away.

Anyway, I am going to try to relax for the rest of the day despite my dad wanting to go to a dinner thing this evening.

We shall see what happens.

See ya tomorrow.

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Feeling Weird

I hate feeling weird, but yea. I just have to do my best. 

Anyway, I think I am slowly getting better, but only time can tell... well, soonish.

Right now, I am going to finish up my journals and hope that I will be alright.

See ya tomorrow.

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Meep

 Mrew.

I had the feeling of having something in my hair.

Anyway, meep.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Want To Get Better ASAP

I really want to try to get better ASAP. So that I can go to the store tomorrow and get things done.

It really sucks being sick for this long. So yea.

Anyway, I am gonna do my best and hope for good vibes.

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Getting Tired of Being Sick

I hate being sick. Yes, you are gonna get tired of me saying that. I am feeling like shit. So there's that.

But good news, as long as I have a lose cough, it should be good... I hope.

I might drink some tea later. We shall see.

Anyway, I am gonna try my best for the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

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Resting Tonight

I feel hot. And it sucks a lot.

And it's because my dad thinks it's okay to leave the door wide open..... which doesn't help at all. It just makes it feel hotter.

Anyway, I am gonna take a rest tonight... hopefully.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Still Sick

I hate being sick right now. And I am working on a small project for my server on discord.

So yay me.

See ya tomorrow...

Yes, still sick.

B

Too Sick To Put A Title

I hate being sick. And I seem to be sick for almost over a week now. I finally went to see a doctor and found out that I have a double ear infection. Yay me. I knew my ears were getting infected once they started causing me not hear that well at all. And sounds are either too sensitive or too low. It sucks for me.

We did a lot today. A bit too much for my liking because I don't like to just be in a rush when I am sicker than a dog. So there's that.

Anyway, I will be fully focused on Summer Game Fest pretty soon so yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Am Done With Drama

I got the appointment over. I am done with drama. And I am not gonna say anymore than that.

See ya tomorrow.

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It Is What It Is

I am just trying to get through the day. I hate the coughs that I have. But it is what it is.

I shall get done with my journals before the event tonight. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow... just know I might be in a bad mood.

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I Hate Being Sick

Sometimes I think people likes to make me feel bad to the point that I just shut down.

I hate being sick.

Anyway, I will enjoy the days ahead.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Long Day

Today had been a long day. I just wish our local transportation service was a lot better than it should be.

Anyway, I am going to try to relax once I am done with all my journals which is very soon.

Then plan it out a lot better next time.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Notebook to Carry

I have to say that I do have an idea what to do next time I start a new personal journal. I will be carrying around the journal and make it more personal. If I get an idea, I will carry another notebook for that reason alone.

I need to start carrying a better thing with me. So... might plan to buy a small tote bag to carry notebooks, pens, and a book. So yay me.

Anyway, I am going to enjoy the day and maybe plan out what to do next.

See ya tomorrow.

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