Rest In Peace, Mammie

(Note: I have decided not to share the obit publicly because of certain things)

By this hour, I will be at the funeral home, paying respects to my lovely grandma. I called her Mammie all my life and still will for as long as I can remember.

I will post only what would be my memories of her.

I used to sit on her porch and just sing to her. Tell her about the birds and the hummingbirds. She would do stuff that were just silly accidents... like shooting the shotgun in the air... under the porch and left a hole in the roof xD

We must cherish all the memories of my dear grandma.

And for the past few years, she was a survivor and I think those moments were just her getting ready for what's to come.

She married my grandpa while he was 10 years older than her. So that's why I always know that age shouldn't matter on who you want to date as long as it's legal (because modern times have strict rules now).

Things are gonna be alright. I just hope during this time, that I won't cry. I know I might shed a few tears but I know things will be alright.

Cherish the memories on things to come. Cherish those who are close to you.

And always tell everybody that you know that you love them or you care about them.

Because love is a powerful gift.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Still Gonna Be Away For A Bit... Or Rather Short Posts

It might be just me posting really short posts for a few days... So just take it like I'll be away for a bit. Not really gone but just distracted and stuff.

Tomorrow, I will continue to post normally but I might not post too much.

However, on Wednesday, I will be going to my grandma's funeral and it might be all day too... so that's to be expected, I guess. I might not get to post until I get back home since I will be there at the funeral early.

And plus, the rain... I wish it wouldn't have to rain all week. Maybe after today, the weather will change.

Anyway, I am going to go now. There's no second posts today. And tomorrow, I will try to make 2 posts.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Quiet Time For The Next Few Days...

My grandma passed away early this morning at around 9ish. We have been staying up since 2 in the morning since we got the news that my grandma was so close to dying.

They took my grandma to the compassionate care where she later passed away.

Surprising enough, they would've let me take my dog in if I wanted to. But I didn't really wanted to. Because she's kind of hyper a little bit.

Anyway, tomorrow and the next few days will be quiet on my blog. Mostly, giving us time to grief, plan the funeral and more.

I do know that my grandma's funeral will be at Davis & Powell and all in one day. She did want a fast funeral so we will see what happens next. I will only update once tonight and once tomorrow for any info about the funeral.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It Could Be Anytime...

I will label this post as important and talk about something that's been happening here. If you have been keeping up for the past few weeks, you all know about my grandma having cancer to the mouth.

She had chosen to die instead of chemo, surgery, and more. When she went to the doctor, they told her that it's just too late anyways. So they called in hospice.

The nurse from hospice had announced that my grandma is dying. It could be anytime. A week, a few days, a month, etc. But one thing for sure, it can be anytime. I know it's not something to hear or read but my grandma chose this way.

The nurse did told my aunt that if they need to, they may have to put my grandma in compassionate care. I won't explain what that is until I know more tomorrow.

I am going on to the doctor tomorrow but things can happen between now and in the morning. I might not be able to post much on my blog if things were to happen.

For now, I do want people to pray for my family and me.

Then tomorrow, possibly by the second post, I will let you all know what I can.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not The News We Needed To Hear

I am writing this early but I feel like I needed to get this off my chest before the night comes.

The cancer doctor told my grandma that the best thing for her right now is... hospice. They are going to call them in for her. And try to help her to the best possible way.

I really want a hug but I can only imagine for now since my bestie is not able to communicate right now.

Cancer sucks.

However, for now, I hope my grandma lives for as long as she is able to. I will let her know always how much I love her and care for her. Let her know that everything will be alright for me.

Sure, I will cry whenever that day comes but for now... I must keep strong for her and my family to the best way possible. As my bestie would say to me... I'll be fine. Thank you, even if you're not able to communicate with me right now, I know you are telling me that sometimes xD

We can't predict anything just yet but I wanted to keep you all updated on the progress. These last few years have been the toughest times for my grandma and I don't blame her for not suffering anymore... even though she is in pain right now. I can only hope for the good instead of the bad. The good as in... hope the suffering ends soon.

I hope that you get to read this, my bestie. And I hope you imagine giving me the biggest hug there is.

That's all.

With love,

BDK