Feel So Sleepy

I feel so sleepy and I do not know what to do about it.

I should be okay for the most part, but today is a reminder that it's my grandma's birthday in heaven... and I miss her every single day.

And well, I am behind on my journals because of how tired I am.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The World Is Against Me

I feel like things are not like it should be.

And well, I feel like the world is against me.

Anyway, I should be okay for the most part.

I feel like the world is against me.

Right now, I am going to get my journals done then hopefully I will be okay by this evening.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Looking Back At Stuff

 I know that I will be late with my journals, but that's okay. I just have to do my very best and get what I can get done. However... I did noticed that I am saving too much for October so I will get back to that someday before the new month and look through all of that....

Basically, taking some stuff that doesn't have prompts away and stuff like that.

Anyway, I shall get back to my daily journaling...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Trying My Best

I have no idea what is going on in my head. But I feel so tired and it feels like the world is against me.

Although I am trying my best to get through the day.

And well, with no idea of what tomorrow is going on... I have a feeling that I might be stuck at home.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Catching Up

I have a lot of catching up, but it will take a bit.

I just want to take my time and get this done.

I shall finish this and hopefully be okay in the end.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Heat is not good for me

Don't take things for granted... be grateful for having things that others can't have.

Anyway, it's hard to understand, but heat hurts me... a lot more than anybody than think. I am sick to my stomach because of this heat and well... it does take me a bit to get over it.

I will be fine... but yea...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Really Hot

It's really hot to the point that I have to hurry so that I can get my PC to rest for a bit.

Kind of hard to do when you have a mother who keeps interrupting you with a bunch of questions and stuff.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hard to do anything

I knew that I forgot to type something yesterday, but that's okay.

Let's just say it's so fucking hot... that it is hard to do anything.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I hate weekends

I am behind again, but this time it's because of how my parents are constantly wanting to get things done early in the mornings... I'm getting tired of this...

I want a weekend where I can get up normally and go to places instead of staying home.

So yea...

I am really tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hate Being Behind

I hate being behind... and I hate when people constantly interrupt me when I am doing something else...

Please leave me alone at this time... because I need to get this done and I doubt I will by 8PM EST. 

This is why I hate doing my journals half the fucking time... they are supposed to bring me joy but they can't because of them.

Fuck them...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Fixed?

It feels like the world isn't what it seems. Each waking hour, I feel like things should be different. Things should be fixed.

But can it really be fixed?

I am not sure myself. As time gets closer to my time to record... which is at 8pm EST... So...

I feel so out of it.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm Sorry...

I wish I knew what is going on... and she says she is just stressed... using her voice to yell at me...

And I feel like everything is my fault.

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry for everything.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Sit Here...

I often wonder if people are really people pleasing... and sadly, I am with one...

And you don't need to be that way... but if you continue to be this way, you will never be happy..

And thinking when somebody else is happy and you're getting jealous over that... and well... you have no idea how you sound.

A manic spell is never a good one.

I am going to sit here and get my journals done. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Just tired

I am sleepy. 

I am behind because it seems somebody keeps forgetting things and it's starting to get to me.

I've told my mom that maybe she should get herself checked for her memory... and she gets defensive over that. 

I can't take care of you, if you keep acting defensive over a concern.

So yea...

I'm just tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Purposefully

Sometimes I feel like my mom is purposefully trying to prevent me from getting my journals done on time... but then again, I do want to take a break from VRChat tonight so there's that.

I have been feeling so tired lately that it's annoying as heck.

Anyway, I am going to get my journals done... then play a game or two.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Views

I never thought of having that many views on a video before.

And then again, I never seen so many weirdos... but good thing, I have a way of getting rid of the comments... so muahaha.

Anyway, I am very behind on my journals so I will be working on them until I get done.

So...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Feeling Well

Has it ever occur to you that maybe that I am not feeling well? And that's why I rather only do easier things instead of upload an avatar?

I really hate it when people never asks me if I feel like it or not... it's like their feelings mattered more than me... and it irritates me that this happens more often than none at all.

Like do I even feel like saying it without being asked? No...

So please learn to ask...

That's all I want.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Nobody ever checks in on me...

Nobody ever checks in on me. Only them... only her... should matter. 

I'm not okay.

I will never be okay.

I am doubting this relationship even more.

I think I have to make the rough decision...

And she doesn't respect how I feel...

This is not okay.

I am not okay.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My mind is Blank

I knew this would happen. 

In a way, I am worried of what would happen next... and at the same time, I am not sure what to think about it.

My mind is just blank right now because I am sick... so that's fun.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tiredness

I knew this would happen. But I am trying my best to catch up as fast as I am able to.

But yea... I am also dealing with tiredness because of the medication. So yea.

I should be okay.

I will get back to the journals in hopes to get whatever I can get done fast.

See ya tomorrow.

B.