All of this pain

All of this pain is getting too much to deal with. And I should be okay... for the most part.

I am planning to start something different after my surgery for this blog. So please understand that I will be making some blogs ahead of time in hopes that I will be able to get back to it by the beginning of July or so forth. 

I have a lot of stuff on my mind and just want to get away from it all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

It's Hard To Keep Going

Things don't make sense until it is a bit too late. I am trying my best to be okay, but it's hard to when there's nothing, but pain going on.

Anyway, I am going to get more stuff done in hopes that I will have a little bit of time to upload an avi and write a song.

Just hope that all will be better for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Might Be Addicted To Books

 I just gotta say that I might be too addicted to books. Is that a bad thing? Not really. 

Anyway, I am trying to get my journals done, but it's so hard to get through the time and day.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Get The Feeling of Being Rushed

So, I will try my best to talk about my mom's appointment and what all we found out today.

She has a mass the size of a lime on her left thyroid gland. For now, the doctor did asked for a biopsy, but she doesn't want it. So something to think about the next time we go in 6 months. However, he is concerned that her thyroid might be toxic, so let's hope that could be what is in question.

Anyway, that's all for now. Everything else we will wait in 6 months time for anymore news.

The rest of April will be quiet, until next month which will be full of appointments... I do dread those, but yea. I'll be okay for the most part.

I just hope that May won't be too bad... or get the feeling of being rushed.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm Happy That I Got To Go With My Cousin's Wife

 Let's just say that I am tired and I had the best of time today. And I really enjoy being around my cousin today. And really talked a lot.

I should do this more often. So around holidays, I am going to save more money and hopefully, my wife will be with me.

I'm happy. Because I needed this.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals so that I can get on VRC until I get to bed.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hanging out with my cousin's wife tomorrow

Just my journals and a day with my cousin's wife. I miss her a lot. And hope we get to have fun. So yay me.

I shall get back to my daily life and hope for the best. Who knows what will happen next. So let's hope for the best.

Wish me luck for tomorrow and I will tell you what all I got tomorrow.

See ya tomorrow.

B

No nap today...

I'm tired. That's because my aunt was up. And I was gonna just finish my printing and go to bed. But some reason, people kept wanting me to stay away. And well... therefore why I am tired.

I never like to sleep early because of how my body is. It sucks and I really don't know what to do.

Shall get back to my life and journals just for a bit.

Hope tomorrow will be better for me... and this hip pain sucks a lot.

See ya tomorrow.

B

It's No Longer My Problem

 Sometimes when I write songs, I make sure they sound hauntingly. But some days, I feel like I'm floating into the void of no return.

And people try to hurt me and I just go... eh... so what.

It's no longer my problem.

And I worry more about my surgery than anything else right now.

So... yea...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't Stop Being You

Sometimes I feel like the world will burn and who knows what will happens next. Just don't take a turn for the worse and let all the bad things come about.

And don't... stop... being you.

I shall get back to writing more songs.

And who knows what words will come out next.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Trying To Figure Out A Few Things

I was trying to figure out a few things that seems to happen on this day... if you haven't noticed, it is day 111. And yea. 

I feel so off today and I really can't pinpoint the reasoning behind it.

You see, I want to figure out what is next. 

But yea... who knows what else is going to happen?

I should get the rest of my journals done. And relax tonight. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

These Thoughts On My Mind

Sometimes I have these thoughts on my mind that I just don't know what to do anymore.

I feel so alone in that world and just wish they would listen to me when I have a concern... but instead they go off and talk about their own problems...

It's like that song by Sleep Token... I'm sure you know the one that I am talking about.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and hopefully get done so I can read tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Yes.

I am trying to get through the day in hopes that I will be okay.

I just need to get away from it all. 

But do I say this everyday? Yes.

Will I keep saying this everything? Yes.

So let's hope for the best.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Seek The Answers

I realized that there is no such as time... well, time is too short to even call it time. And things never made sense and all of these things are not as they are.

Seek these answers and hold me dear.

For I wash away those tears.

See ya tomorrow.

B

End of it all

I got a lot of things to say and I used songs to say it.

And so forth.

But who knows what else is going on.

We shall seek the end of it all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My Mind Is Not Safe Anymore

I am not sure what is going on, but things don't always add up. And I hope that people can see the truth in it all.

I should be alright, but who knows...

I am trying my best and get through the day. But my mind is not safe anymore.

Oh, well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Gummy Bears Missing A Flavor

 Never thought of gummy bears missing a flavor... and I'm not happy about it.

Oh, well.

I should be okay for the most part, but I do need to get all my journals done ASAP in hopes for the best.

Who knows what else is going on... for now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Behind

 Sometimes I wondered about things. And yet I am still existing today. 

I am really behind on my journals, but it is what it is. Anyway, shall get them done and hope for the best.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Feel A Bit Off

I feel a bit off... but I am not sure what to say. Anyway, I should be okay for the most part, but I should get my journals done since I was taking my time.

I know sometime this week, I have loads of stuff planned out... mainly shave my legs. 

Alright, shall end this for now... I am hoping that I will get better with my blog soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Past

It's never fun when you see someone from the past pop up and you're like... nope...

I am so done.

And yea... who knew the world has gotten smaller on VRChat, but I knew it was gonna happen whether or not we like it.

Anyway, I was at my aunt's today and I am tired asf...

So I'm gonna do the rest of my journals and then rest.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Write Another Song

 I want to write another song. 

Something about wildflowers and watching the dandelions flying through the sky. I just haven't figured out how yet.

So I'm gonna wait this time and finish all my journals before I do decide to write.

See ya tomorrow.

B

No Drama But......

I hate people who says "No drama." But not realizing that they are the drama. So please don't ever do that ever again, because it can be tiring and annoying as hell sometimes.

Anyway, I am going to get through the day and get some stuff done around the house before I get the rest of my journals done. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Good To The World

I am reminded that there is good to the world. So I'm happy.

And who knows what else to say.

Anyway, I am proud of my wonderful wife.

I shall get back through the day in hopes that all will be better.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Feel So Out Of It

I feel so out of it, but that's because I am on my period. Sometimes, my period gives me energy, but this time, I am aching all over and feeling really tired. To the point that I wish that I could go to sleep at most anytime.

Anyway, I will be alright. Just in pain and being so tired. I need chocolate... but yea.

I should be okay for the most part. But who knows what else to say.

I should get back to my journals, but I might write some songs... or a song, but it's going to be a country song... so we shall see how it turns out.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Blocking People

I just have to say that I will stay away from drama as much as possible. Because it's not my problem and don't really care. 

I'm just gonna start blocking people who comes at me for any type of drama. So yea, you can clearly tell that I am done with it all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Stay Away From Drama

Sometimes, this is why I stay away from drama. Especially those who don't get their facts straight. When someone cheats... there's no helping and well... you get this person who cheats...

How is it cheating when you're just as clueless what is going on? Especially when they said things under their breath that appears to be a lie.

So we don't tolerate cheaters... or people who lie to get what they want.

Anyway, I am going to get back to my journals and hope that all well be well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Stop Asking

 STOP ASKING ME TO UPLOAD EVERY SUNDAY. THE ANSWER IS NO.

Anyway, just wanted to let that off my chest, because apparently, somebody doesn't understand what rest means on the weekend is about. Seriously...

I'm getting fed up... because I never feel like I have time for my own uploads... so it's gotta stop. 

Anyway, just wanted to say that... and so I can get back to my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Writing Songs

Looks like I'm releasing a music video in June for everybody to see the new song I wrote. Granted, I don't sing in public but in private, I just have to use a program to do the singing for me. Sorry to those who don't like that... I can't afford to send off my songs to anybody yet. But one day I will. I'm sure that I can make money of all of them.

So yea.

I'm going to get back to my journals in hopes that all is well... but today has been a bit different. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

What Is On My Mind

I realized that tomorrow is portal day... and kind of want to be sent to another world. Nobody knows what goes on with my mind right now and I guess that is how it should be.

Ah, well.

I should be fine for the most part.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Got More Books...

Just a day of getting through it all. I am tired and I am glad... not sure what to do.

Anyway, I got more books... do I need said books? No. Do I buy them? Yes. Books makes me happy.

I shall get back to doing my other journals... then rest for the most of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Again...

Again.

I am getting fed up with how people are treating them, but it's getting tiring for the way they kept begging me.

I'm done.

I'm tired.

I just want June to hurry up so I can get this surgery done. Then I won't have to worry about anything at all.

But no... people don't care about me.

See ya tomorrow.

B