Not Sure What Tomorrow Brings

I applied for one job online to work at home. I have to wait because there's such a high demand for online jobs... really hard to do now days.

Anyway, I am not sure what tomorrow brings yet... because it's the weekend and we might end up staying home... I will let you all know if we do go anywhere.

I finished one anime, downloaded and install Obduction, then not sure what else xD

I really don't like summers at this place too well. I wish I could drive so that I can get out and do some things.

Alright, I will go now and possibly go to bed soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Nap Time Already?

This is just a short post because I wanna take a short nap in a moment xD

Done everything for the first of the month. Just have to wait a week before going back to Walmart to pick up the essentials like tooth paste, face wash and more.

For the rest of the day... finish some shows and stuff... I will post again later tonight before going to bed. Hopefully, my mood won't drop again.

Well, time to go... short post, sorry guys.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Maybe My Mood Means It's Time To Sleep?

It's been over a week since my grandma passed away and my mood has been good until... today. I kind of feel bad right now so I might be going to sleep early soonish to help with my mood... Not sure yet.

Tomorrow is gonna be a long day because I will be busy with stuff to do. I just hope that I have time to rest at some point.

Anyway, I was gonna watch some videos but now my mood is not doing awesome, I might just lay off the internet for a while.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Except the blog... it will be continued no matter what.

Mighty Cumberland Falls

Today, my dad finally went somewhere. Where did we go? To the mighty Cumberland Falls, of course.

I've been wanting to go there since they started doing renovations to the place. So far, it's actually quite nice.

I did took some pictures but I am not gonna post them here. If you wanna find them, just go on my twitter and click on the instagram things there. No link will be posted for you to find them xD

Anyway, I am home now but need to find some time to watch some anime. Hopefully finish that one... I think it's called Blood Blockade something? I forgot the rest of the title. I know there's a sequel of it coming sometime but dunno when yet.

I am getting the list gathered for summer but will not be able to watch the first episodes until 2 weeks later, hopefully.

Alright, gonna go now... hope things will be alright for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Might Sleep Early Just Because Nothing Else To Do Now xD

Might be sleeping early soon just because there's nothing else to do for the rest of my time xD

Well, that's a mouthful title of some sorts...

This weekend, we are still undecided on what we are gonna do... since reading the newspaper about the "unused" fireworks from last year's fireworks show... I just got to thinking... oh, no...

So, yea, I doubt we will be going to any fireworks show this year. I mean, I want to... if I could drive myself. But seriously... why aren't there any on Monday night instead of Tuesday? I know Tuesday is the 4th but seriously... Things can be rather strange in this lifetime.

Anyway, I am still not sure what we will be doing this week... My dad has not offer to take us anywhere so I guess I am stuck at home. I knew this would happen. This would make a second year since my dad does not want to go anywhere. It has gotten rather... annoying to say.

Ah, well... We'll see what happens when tomorrow comes. I should just be happy that my dad is resting at least.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Finally Got My Hair Cut

I guess I could say that I finally got my hair cut xD

Anyway, not sure what I'm doing today but I might be watching a movie that came in from Netflix DVD xD

Tomorrow, just another day for me.

Not sure what to put here because I am a bit sleepy right now. x.x

So I'm just gonna make this a short post and get off the computer soon for a nap later.

That;s all.

With love,

BDK

Catching Up On Anime

I finished Ghost Whisperer finally... now it's time to catch up on some anime. I might still watch some other show on Netflix at least once or twice a day since it's not going off yet xD

Anyway, I am not sure what to do tomorrow... Might still be home for the whole entire week.

This is boring but it'll be alright I guess...

I have been sleeping at almost 11 every night... sometimes, way earlier than that.

During those times, I should catch up on some reading... Speaking about reading, that's something that I do need to do more often so I need to get off the computer at 10, get to reading for 30 minutes then get to bed xD

Alright, I will update again tomorrow... but hopefully, tomorrow is not a lazy day like today. I mean seriously... I was sleepy all day long x.x

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Sure Why Today Is Lazy Day

I am not sure why today is lazy day... I have been sleepy and took a nap... now sleepy again and not sure about taking a nap again xD

Dad is still on vacation and we haven't gone anywhere at all today. Mostly because we wanted my dad to take a break. He's been working so hard at work that he deserves a break every once a while.

Anyway, I will be finishing Ghost Whisperer and buy the game today since I bought another steam card :D

My head kind of hurts so I am not entirely sure what else to do yet. Ah, well.

Today is still kind of young... I think.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Ended Up Going Out Today

Later in the day, I went out with my aunt for a little bit. So ended up going out today.

I finally found my magazine while outside. Yay~

I am not sure what we will be doing for the rest of the week. I got two more episodes left for Ghost Whisperer so I'll save those for tomorrow. The same goes for the anime and YouTube videos.

I keep wanting to watch those Disney movies on Netflix so I should take a day off to watch those too... Yay for me always not doing what I should be doing xD

At least, I went outside for the day.

I will let you all know if we ended up doing anything this week while my dad's off on his vacation.

I am really tired so I wanted to write this and go on to bed.

Sometimes, it's best to go outside for a little bit to clear your mind and thoughts and enjoy the day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Good Cool Wind

There's good cool wind blowing outside today. Not sure if that's a good thing or not. But it feels good. Especially sitting outside for a little bit in the sun.

I want to try to complete Ghost Whisperer today but not sure yet.

I do know that my dad is off for vacation this week. He went to the doctor and they told him that he has high blood sugar so he needs to lay off sugars for a while. It's something that I need to do myself but really hard to do... but I think that I can do it. I was gonna plan to do it a long time ago so yay me.

Anyway, I know there's anime that I need to catch up with too so I might do that too...

Doubt I'll be going anywhere during this week while my dad is off but hope things will be alright for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Maybe It's Time For Bed For Me

Lately, I have been getting really sleepy early every night. I guess I should go and do that?

I mean, I have a hard time sleeping so I might have to read instead... There's nothing else to do really...

I should finish up Ghost Whisperer this week and skip watching Glades... dunno what that is even about xD

Waiting for Netflix to release more anime which I have not been watching yet... Dang... I really do need to catch up with a lot of anime. Just I wish Netflix stop talking a lot of shows off sometimes but it can't be helped.

I really should just set a schedule up on what I should watch per day... Summers are hard because I need to go outside sometimes and sit... I mean it. I am not sure what else to do.

I need to start walking more but I can't go by myself :/

Anyway, tomorrow, I am not sure what I am doing yet but I'm sure things will be alright. Right now, I think I will be going to bed early. Yay for me...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Home And Stuff

We are home now. I am a bit tired and might lay down for a little bit.

I think my aunt wants us to come by her home every weekend and we should... For her sake. And maybe for my mom's sake too.

Anyway, I am not sure what to do besides the want to lay down xD

I will update again later since I might be watching a movie later... so yay me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Sleepy While Being Awesome?

I'm really sleepy so I think I'll go to bed.

So sleepy while being awesome is a good thing? I don't know yet xD

Anyway, I did go to Walmart for a little bit but......... I didn't get what I wanted :(

Ah, well, I got time for the rest of the month... hopefully, I can get it soonish.

I am not sure what I will be doing tomorrow. So that's why this post will be short now.

I will go to bed now. Will try to update tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Maybe Another Boring Saturday?

I guess today is gonna be another boring Saturday... After a full week of grief, I guess it's to be expected.

Dad is out mowing like crazy and stuff... And not sure what we'll be doing today. It might be sitting at home all day x.x

Anyway, I am keeping this post short since I will be updating again later... hope things will be alright.

If I didn't do anything today, expect the second post to be short as well xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Rain Makes Me Sleepy

It's raining like crazy here. Most of it is coming from a tropical storm from the south. So we ended up with a lot of rain coming in.

Not sure how long it will last yet. And it's making me sleepy x.x

Anyway, I am listening or watching CinnamonToastKen playing Dungeons and Dragons. It's interesting so far xD I really want to learn more about how to play the game myself so yea...

Right now, just wanna finish this. Not sure how long it would take but hope things will be alright for me.

Tomorrow, not sure what it's gonna do or what I am going to do yet.

Alright, ending this blog a bit short. Kind of missing my bestie right now but will continue to wait for him.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Stuff To Do? Not So Sure Yet

I think I will get some stuff done but not so sure yet xD

Anyway, I am kind of bored today and hope things will be alright for me.

This weekend, I am not sure what we will be doing yet.

My dad is already saying that we won't be seeing my aunt every Sunday... Great. I knew he will act like this and it kind of sucks a lot.

Alright, will post again later tonight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Sleepy Early But I'm Ok

I think I'll be alright since I am sleepy early tonight. I might be heading to bed sooner than usual xD I know that I went to bed early last night so tonight is no exception.

Tomorrow, I am going to do some stuff and hope get those done all before nap time.

I am not sure when I'll get to talk to my bestie again but hopefully sooner or later. He will let me know when he's on.

Right now, I am alright. Or rather... I'll be awesome :D xD

The Steam Sale doesn't really have any interesting games available but I'm gonna wait on buying any games until when it gets closer to the end. Because you never know what is available yet.

I think I will get to bed now and tomorrow, figure out whether to watch anime or a movie in the evening xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I'll Be Awesome

Today, I'll be awesome. In fact, I'll be awesome everyday xD My bestie asked me that before he had to go away again.  Not sure when he will be back but hope things will be fine for him xD

And my mom was telling me about my dad might be taking a vacation next month or so. I hope so.

Just not sure if we get to go anywhere yet xD I won't say anything until get to go.

Anyway, steam sale started today but the site is crashed right now. So I won't take a look at it until later.

Not sure what to do besides wanting to watch anime or movies on Netflix. Seriously need to catch up with a lot of things, you know? I will try to do those soonish.

Tomorrow, I will be glad....

Alright, will update again later. Might be napping soon too.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Finally Home

Today was a long day but we were able to make it through the day. The funeral was very good and my grandma is at her final resting place.

I think we made it through alright. I almost cried but I held strong as they played the song "Go Rest High" by Vince Gill.

Anyway, we went home around 4 and rest before going to the store to buy some food for us here.

The rest of the day, I am resting since I am really tired right now.

I am finally home but I will not forget the memories of my lovely grandma.

Also, wanted to thank my bestie. Not gonna say anything else besides that xD

Wonder if he's sneaking online and reading sometimes... We'll see.

I might not have anything important to share but if I have anything eventful, I will post those.

For now... I will rest and wait for a new day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Rest In Peace, Mammie

(Note: I have decided not to share the obit publicly because of certain things)

By this hour, I will be at the funeral home, paying respects to my lovely grandma. I called her Mammie all my life and still will for as long as I can remember.

I will post only what would be my memories of her.

I used to sit on her porch and just sing to her. Tell her about the birds and the hummingbirds. She would do stuff that were just silly accidents... like shooting the shotgun in the air... under the porch and left a hole in the roof xD

We must cherish all the memories of my dear grandma.

And for the past few years, she was a survivor and I think those moments were just her getting ready for what's to come.

She married my grandpa while he was 10 years older than her. So that's why I always know that age shouldn't matter on who you want to date as long as it's legal (because modern times have strict rules now).

Things are gonna be alright. I just hope during this time, that I won't cry. I know I might shed a few tears but I know things will be alright.

Cherish the memories on things to come. Cherish those who are close to you.

And always tell everybody that you know that you love them or you care about them.

Because love is a powerful gift.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Might End Up Going To Bed Early

I might end up going to bed early tonight.

The reason is because I have to get up early tomorrow to get some things done before going on over to the funeral home at 9ish and be there by 10. I am not sure how long the funeral will be since it is an all day event.

It's just the day that we have to be grieving and more. I have decided to schedule a blog so it will be posted at exactly 10 which is when the visitation of my grandma's funeral.

I will miss her and I am hoping to be strong during this time. I just hope things will be alright too.

Anyway, I am going to end this now and get some videos done before going to bed. I just hope that I can sleep good tonight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Quiet Tuesday.. I Hope

Today, has been quiet so far... I hope it stays quiet for a while.

I am going to start recording games and other stuff starting next week. So we'll see what happens by then.

Right now, we are still grieving over my grandma. She's gonna be buried tomorrow so we have to go to the funeral home early tomorrow and stuff.

Apparently, things are just being slower today some reason. Don't know why xD

Anyway, I am going to watch some stuff online and might watch some anime finally later. Not sure yet.

I will post again later and might schedule the first post for tomorrow later too... I will share a website of the obit of my grandma so you all can read it too.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Live On

Waking up to a new dream.
Breathing in and out for the day.
We must get on with our dream.
Tell them we finally got away.

Live on...
Live on...

Just know that we will be alright.
Just know we are living for the light.

Live on...
Live on...

We know the world is broken.
But we gotta be strong one another.
We won't let any word left unspoken.
As long we got each other.

Live on...
Live on...

Just know that we will alright.
Just know we are living for the light.

Live on...
Live on...

Hope you enjoy the new life above.
You tell us to always be strong.
We felt your will and your love.
As you tell us the right and wrong...

We must... live on...
Live on..
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I have no tune for this lyric/poem but I was just singing it while sitting outside. I always enjoy singing to my grandma whenever she asks. That's what she loved for me to do right now... so I shall. For you, Mammie.

We all know the world is cruel and harsh but I hope you enjoy Heaven right now. You taught us the love like no other. So we must live on. That's why it came to me. Because sometimes, we have to. Death is just apart of life. A puzzle that finishes the life cycle. And if we want to, we can come back in another life. That's what I believe in. And I will always believe in that.

I might record myself singing that eventually but we'll see. It's here on my blog. Please don't share the lyric unless you have my permission.

Anyway, shall go to bed now. Tomorrow is gonna be a long day. And also, glad Wednesday is gonna be a dry day. Doubt there will be a dry tear though.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Sure What To Do Today and So Forth

Not sure what to do today and tomorrow.

I do know that on Wednesday will be funeral day. The blog posts will be limited for that day. So I can't be sure what to do yet.

I am going to watch some stuff until I go to nap later.

I have been a bit distracted but we'll see what happens next.

This blog will be short because I am really not up to talking too much right now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Still Gonna Be Away For A Bit... Or Rather Short Posts

It might be just me posting really short posts for a few days... So just take it like I'll be away for a bit. Not really gone but just distracted and stuff.

Tomorrow, I will continue to post normally but I might not post too much.

However, on Wednesday, I will be going to my grandma's funeral and it might be all day too... so that's to be expected, I guess. I might not get to post until I get back home since I will be there at the funeral early.

And plus, the rain... I wish it wouldn't have to rain all week. Maybe after today, the weather will change.

Anyway, I am going to go now. There's no second posts today. And tomorrow, I will try to make 2 posts.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Quiet Time For The Next Few Days...

My grandma passed away early this morning at around 9ish. We have been staying up since 2 in the morning since we got the news that my grandma was so close to dying.

They took my grandma to the compassionate care where she later passed away.

Surprising enough, they would've let me take my dog in if I wanted to. But I didn't really wanted to. Because she's kind of hyper a little bit.

Anyway, tomorrow and the next few days will be quiet on my blog. Mostly, giving us time to grief, plan the funeral and more.

I do know that my grandma's funeral will be at Davis & Powell and all in one day. She did want a fast funeral so we will see what happens next. I will only update once tonight and once tomorrow for any info about the funeral.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Super Sleepy For No Reason At All

When you have nothing to do, you get very sleepy for no reason at all.

Today, I didn't really do anything too much. I just took a break of some sorts...

Still trying to sell my TV but not gonna tell my dad that I am until I do actually get offers. xD

I really miss talking to my bestie but he'll be back in a month or so. I just hope he's alright right now.

Anyway, I am thinking of going to bed early tonight because of the super sleepiness state that I am in.

Tomorrow... I am not sure what we'll be doing yet.

Hopefully, I get to pick up a steam card before next weekend. Not sure what games will be on sale yet but we'll see.

Also, I am at season 4 on Ghost Whisperer so I should be able to complete it pretty soonish xD If I can get a show done that fast in a week or month... maybe I can complete other shows like that.

We'll see what happens this weekend.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Weekend of Waiting

This weekend is going to be hard for me because we are still waiting. I am thinking of selling my TV... since I have not used it since I bought it two years ago xD

Well, I actually wanted a smart TV so you can see why...

Anyway, not sure what to do today yet. Hope things will go by fast for me.

I am going to go post about my TV online in a moment. It's just... why keep something that you don't use?

Well, I am going to go now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Don't Go Chasing Butterflies

There's a saying that I have been curious about... Not sure where it come from but it's the saying for "Don't Go Chasing Butterflies". Did I made it up? I am not sure.

But seriously... why do you want to chase butterflies? Well, maybe as a kid, you would. But the term of a butterfly effect is something that I do believe in sometimes.

Things do happen for a reason and we cannot tell what those reasons are anymore than what we already know.

Strange thought... Something that makes you wanna thing a whole lot.

I really should write stuff down and well... hope for the best. xD

Anyway, I done my part with YouTube and movie and anime today... I might be doing more tomorrow, but not sure yet.

This weekend is just gonna be so hard because of the waiting for news and stuff. Yes, we have to continue on with life but I really just pray that it just doesn't have to be this hard to wait.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Rain Should Be Here But It's Not

Rain should be here today but it's not... or rather, not yet? I'm not sure yet.

Today, I'm gonna catch up with YouTube and watch some anime in between... as well as watch a movie xD Not sure how I am going to do all of them.

I am still waiting for any news about my grandma... It's just so hard, you know? Having to wait what happens next.

Anyway, I am going to get back to watch some more of Ghost Whisperer and stuff...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Well... Here's The Thing...

I didn't watch anime today. I did watch some YouTube but then I got bored and yea...

I have decided to play some Tera. Not sure why but I did.

I just wanted to distract my mind from all that waiting. It's just a really hard and stressful time right now.

I have people praying for me (mostly my bestie but thank you for that)

Anyway, I am going to try to add in anime at least a few times a week or something. Just not sure yet.

I am really tired right now and should get ready to go to bed soon.

Tomorrow will be another long day... so hopefully, I'll be feeling a little better.

Who knows what will happen next...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Anime Day Hump Day...

Today, I am going to watch some anime later on the day... So... anime day hump day xD

I have tried reading again last night since I went to bed early and got up to two more chapters done. So that's good... I guess?

I have been sitting and trying to figure out what to do next. I wanna record a game but I really gotta get in the mood for that... and right now... not so much mood to do anything.

That's why this post is a bit late today.

I really don't want to talk about what's been going on the news here either because it's just not safe anywhere anymore.

Anyway, enough of that. I really gotta find something to do soon, you know?

Hopefully, the anime will help me figure out what to do.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

There's That Strange Lightning Again

Remember before that I told you all about that strange lightning that happened to me before? It's done it again...

This time, not at my computer but around my home. Strange...

Anyway, just in case it is trying to storm or something, I am going to make this post short.

I am really sleepy so I am going to go on to bed soon.

I hope things be good for tomorrow. Just not sure what to put here because it's always about the waiting...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just Gonna Be Random For A Bit

I am going to be random for a bit. I just want to be quiet about a few things. Plus, I think my hometown is cursed some reason.

My bestie will be away for a month so I will wait for him for details later.

Right now, I have to keep certain details silent since my grandma is close to dying and stuff...

I am really not sure what to do but hopefully things be alright.

I have decided to try and play games just to stay away from FB and other bad things. Especially, the local news are just heartbreaking to realize things are just broken.

Anyway, I am going to either play games or watch anime today.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Some Things Are Meant To Be Quiet

Some things are meant to be quiet. And you might ask why so... It's because everybody in the world has different opinions about how to handle death. You just can't really tell a person what to do when they were told do this.

And no, my grandma is not dead yet. She's closer but not there yet. They said 7 to 14 days. But that's all I can say right now.

I will say it afterwards. Death needs to be accepted first before there can be any explanations.

I am going to stop talking there so yea.

Anyway, I am going to bring on a lighter note and getting ready to watch Sony conference online. That's pretty soon so yay for that. I really wish that I had a PS4 xD But some games are coming to steam soon... but no telling when yet.

Alright, time to go because I need to take medicine and sit back and watch this before going to bed.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I get the strangest luck... I won Minecraft: Windows 10 Edition Beta but for XBox xD Of course, I gave the code to my brother because I have no Xbox and my computer doesn't work with XBox type games. xD

Hello, Monday... Are You Going To Rain Yet?

Well, I woke up and really hope it would rain today. So yea... that's why the title is there.

I am watching what games are coming on PC but I might skip it since I am a bit sleepy... So you can tell that by 2pm, I will be napping and stuff.

I am going to watch Ubisoft at 4 and then Sony at 9. I'm glad that is coming on at that time. So more info about any awesome games coming.

Anyway, while I wait until 2pm to come to nap, I will watch more of E3.

I wonder if anybody else is watching too...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Truly We Don't Know Anything Yet

Truthfully, we don't know anything yet. I guess life is just one big mess right now for some of us.

We just have to wait and see what happens. It's just the waiting that gets to some of us too.

Anyway, I didn't really do much today. Watched Microsoft conference. About the only thing that was interesting was Life is Strange: Before The Storm. Interesting title... and apparently about Chloe. Yay.

I am going to go on to bed and possibly read before going to sleep.

Tomorrow, I am going to rest before watching more E3 conferences. So... here's to hoping Sony bring something awesome tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Home But Not Really Tired

I am home now... but some reason, I am not tired. I know I'll be tired early tonight though so I might as well make the most of it.

I was at my grandma's and she's still not too good. Not sure what to do but just try my best to be with her as much as I can.

I've talked to my bestie for a little bit but he had to go to sleep.

Anyway, I am going to watch something about Microsoft Conference right now.

I will end this post a bit short.

If I have time later, I will update again.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's Just Another One of Those Boring Days

I'm not sure what to do yet. I guess nothing?

It's just another one of those boring days, I guess.

I kind of wish that I didn't had to keep answering the phone every few minutes though. My ears hurt and things seem to echo through the phone.

So it gives me headaches like crazy and stuff... I really hate ear infections.

Anyway, I've watched the first conference panel online... Not really anything interesting... Unless you want to play a game about two prisoners trying to escape. xD

Alright, might watch a movie and maybe get some sleep early tonight.

Tomorrow will be a long day.

And yes, this is the only post for today. Sorry.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Kind of An Update From The Doctor For Me

Apparently, I must had pulled a muscle or hurt my right shoulder at some point. I got some xrays done and now waiting for the results. Might not be until Monday for that.

I did however, had an ear infection. So yay me.

Anyway, not sure what to do for the rest of the day because I am still waiting for any news about my grandma.

I'm kind of in a bad mood since I didn't had my nap for today. Might take a short nap later, but then again, might just sit up and find something to do.

I won't update again until tomorrow. Depends on my mood, I might just update one post tomorrow. Might update twice. We'll see what happens.

For now, I will find something to do.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

On With The Day, I Guess

Today, I am going to the doctor to find out why my right shoulder is hurting still and why I am having balancing problems. Yay me.

Anyway, not sure what to do until that time comes.

I'm waiting for any news about my grandma but hope to know soonish.

I will post later on about what the doctor says about my right shoulder and right back pain and stuff.

For now, this is a short post. Early but just wanted to remind about going to the doctor and stuff.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It Could Be Anytime...

I will label this post as important and talk about something that's been happening here. If you have been keeping up for the past few weeks, you all know about my grandma having cancer to the mouth.

She had chosen to die instead of chemo, surgery, and more. When she went to the doctor, they told her that it's just too late anyways. So they called in hospice.

The nurse from hospice had announced that my grandma is dying. It could be anytime. A week, a few days, a month, etc. But one thing for sure, it can be anytime. I know it's not something to hear or read but my grandma chose this way.

The nurse did told my aunt that if they need to, they may have to put my grandma in compassionate care. I won't explain what that is until I know more tomorrow.

I am going on to the doctor tomorrow but things can happen between now and in the morning. I might not be able to post much on my blog if things were to happen.

For now, I do want people to pray for my family and me.

Then tomorrow, possibly by the second post, I will let you all know what I can.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Almost Forgetting This But Nah, I'm Good

I almost forgot to update this but I didn't xD

I'm good now so I hope that things will be alright.

I am going to continue online job searching when I get a chance... Hopefully, this will bring good news for me soonish.

I keep forgetting to look up telecommunications on that website but I think it's alright xD

I am going to do this every other week so hopefully, there will be something new to come up.

Anyway, not sure what else to put here. Ninja person is asleep so I think it will be alright.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Nothing Happened Today, So Maybe A Short Post?

Nothing happened today. I guess this would be a short post? Maybe? I don't know.

Anyway, I did sign up on some jobs today but I can only wait instead of wonder if I am getting them or not.

Tomorrow, I am going to rest all day since I have to go to the doctor on Friday. I already know what to ask and what to do. Hoping they would give me an x-ray... but not sure yet. I have to mention my ears, my surgery that I had almost a month ago, what's going on with my right side/arm/back. And yea... hope to get answers.

I can stand the pain but only if I don't move. When I move, it hurts. So yay me...

Also, found out there's gonna be a season 2 of Minecraft: Story Mode. Already told my bestie... hope he gets the news soon because he's not been online for a while. I should be patient with him xD

Alright, enough about my bestie, I should get back to some things. Might end up asleep before I know it.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Exactly A Good Start To The Day But It's Alright

I slept good but I realize that I needed to update my blog. So, not the best start to the day xD Sorry, guys.

I am going to play a game again before sleeping. Hopefully, things will be alright for me.

The pain on my right side is still there but as long as I am not moving or lifting, I'll be okay. However, I have to wait until Friday before going to the doctor.

I'll let you all know about how that goes by Friday evening, I hope.

I don't feel bad just kind of off? I don't know how to explain that.

Anyway, I am going to watch some YouTube for now and towards the evening, play some Blade and Soul. Hope things will be alright.

I am kind of repeating things so gonna go now. Will update tonight, hopefully.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Head Hurts A Bit

My head hurts a bit so I am not sure what to do.

I haven't really played much games in a long time. Not since something something happened. Not gonna tell why at all because it's kind of weird that I did that for that reason. I am really emotionally connected to those who are close to me. So yea... kind of strange.

Anyway, no new news about my grandma yet. Like I mentioned, there's no time limit. I want my mom to spend more time with her because really, my mom would be needing it more than I would.

I think I might end up going to bed later and hope that tomorrow will be good for me. I really need to read too so maybe... at around 10ish, I can do that?

Ah, well... whatever is my choice, this is what I am going to do.

Tomorrow, when or if my mind is clear, I am going online job hunting for some stuff... I won't go into much detail about that either because this is something that I felt like I need to do. So yea...

Time to go and enjoy the rest of the night.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Sorry For Not Posting Yesterday

I didn't post yesterday because 1. it was storming and 2. I was going to bed early xD Sorry for not posting yesterday evening. I should've posted before watching Gotham and stuff but I didn't really feel too good. Sorry.

I am going to watch a few videos on YouTube and a movie on Netflix later. I really need to get away from some things for a while.

Also, I kindly want to ask people to stop calling after 8pm. Please only call if there's an emergency, thanks.

I usually love being alone at night time and stuff so that's why. If it's an emergency, I will understand.

Anyway, I think I will be alright, but want to figure out if there's something causing me to fall and stuff... hope it's nothing.

I will try to post again later. So just keep an update on my twitter, thanks.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Plans For This Week?

I'm going to the doctor this week on Friday. Have to wait but really need to figure out why my right side of my upper back hurts and why it's causing me to lose my balance a lot.

I'm kind of scared but my bestie assure me that everything would be alright. I hope so. And hopefully, the doctor will figure out why I keep hurting like that.

Anyway, I'm not sure what to do today yet. I really wish I could get out and do something but as long as I have no balance and stuff, I can't do anything. Online job search once again xD

I need to start planning things myself. And hoping to get my health straighten out again.

I feel better after a talk. I hope we keep talking every once a while.

Well, I'm gonna get on with the day today. Hope things will be alright for me. Raining too so can't hardly go out without getting sick xD Bad me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Feeling Too Good

Ever since my right arm and side hurt that one morning, I have no idea how bad it could be... Until today. I keep losing balance and my right side is hurting again. It kind of sucks now...

I'm scared that there might be a problem with my right side. Enough that I am not feeling good at all.

I'm gonna go to the doctor later this week to check my right side. I can't lift without either falling or hurting on my right side. It's not fun at all.

I'm taking a break from being online. I might share some stuff on FB but I'm not gonna update any statuses. I might reply late on Line as well... Just not sure what to say or do at this moment.

I am going to go to bed at around 9:30ish which is pretty soon. I just don't feel like talking to anybody else besides my bestie. If he talks to me anytime again xD

Alright, enough of that, I'm gonna rest now... Hope tomorrow will be alright but I need to lay off lifting a bit more. Or something.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Losing Balance After Lifting On Right Side... Scary.

I went to my grandma's today. She's not doing too good. She hasn't been eating or anything. It really hurts me seeing her this way.

Then before I left, I tried lifting with only my right arm and I literally fell backwards. Not too bad, just literally, losing balance for no reason at all. Now my right side is hurting again so I don't know what is going on with that side.

I should go to the doctor to get my right side checked out just to make sure there's nothing serious going on. They might not find anything but it's better to get it checked.

Today, I am not sure what to do since I am home now.

I might eat a little and then go rest... Not sure yet.

This is a short post and yea... not really feeling too good right now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Think I Will Be Good.

Talking to my bestie helps and some reason, I hope that it helps him... He will tell me if it does, so yay. :D

Anyway, I am about to go and get some sleep. It helps that my mood is a little better. I think I will be good... emotionally wise.

I hope that my bestie gets a chance to get a job and stuff soon. I can only pray that he holds on for as long as he can. Karma or not, it's not something to mess with. I know that myself. Believe me... not something to mess with.

I really do believe in karma but I never wished it on my bestie. Things just happens when you at least expected it.

I know now what Rue meant over a year ago... when my mom was having the surgery and stuff. I know now... and it's kind of strange to realize this now but yea... At least, this is my bestie's journey.

My journey however, will be starting soon. I know it will but I can not give no time or anything. I have not been in the best of spirits as of late.

Telling the truth to someone close is the best thing. I've listened and I hope you listen too. Always be there for somebody.

As I wait for the day... I can only pray that the fight still goes on for all of us.

I have an awesome bestie. I don't think I can say it enough as it is. I don't talk about him unless I know that he'll be alright. He will be. As long as I wait for him and pray for him. Hope you read this and know that you are awesome. :3

I will get to bed now. I hope that tomorrow will be good. I hope that the rain doesn't come until Monday like they said on the news.

Speaking of news... I've seen so much bad stuff happening that I try not to let it worry me. It's best not to. Life sucks... and well, it's about time we become a nobody to this huge broken world.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Home and Nap Time

I am home now and thinking of laying down for a bit.

I slept better last night and only woke up in time to get up early in the morning.

We went to some yard sales this morning and found some stuff. I let mom used her money and some of the extra coins that I had laying in my purse to help buy some of the stuff xD

Then soon after, we went to Wal-Mart to do some errands.

Then we stopped by to get some food... I love to eat chicken more than any other meat... Not sure why.

Now that I am home after a few resting moments... I am going to take a nap. Not sure how long that nap will be yet but I will do that now.

Hope things be alright later and stuff. I will try to post a second post tonight before I go to bed later. Yes, nap but bed time is different xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Might End Up Sleeping Early...

I might end up sleeping early tonight. Hope that I can. I went to the doctor to see why I feel bad and it ends up being that I have upper respiratory infection. I got some medicine and hope it helps me as well as help me sleep better.

Anyway, I enjoyed that nap earlier and hope that I can sleep better tonight.

Tomorrow, I wanna try to get up early and stuff xD I'll explain that tomorrow after I come back. If I don't get too tired or anything.

Right now, before I do go to sleep, I will watch some videos. As it gets closer to 9ish, I will take my medicine and get to bed.

This is a short post but only because I have a headache and wish it would go away. As for my side... the pain went away. Not sure if my bestie helped or what but thank you xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Almost A Rough Night But All Better Now

I almost had a rough night last night but I think it's because of the change of the weather here xD

I am glad my grandma is doing a little better. But the cancer is still there. There's nothing that can make me forget that.

I almost had a breakdown emotionally. I almost cried. I woke up and thinking about something my bestie had told me before. And well, my mind rested easy.

I am all better now. Most of it, is because I need to get out of here someday. After the day, if the day comes, I really want to get away.

Maybe one day. Right now, I need to get my head on straight and hope things will be alright.

I know the weekend is here and free fishing is happening... as well as US 25 yard sale. I want to go out and do those things.

Having to sit here and not going out during the week, makes my stress levels go up and my emotionally level low. I hope this is just one time.

My bestie helps me by talking to me. I'm not using him for that reason. I just really love talking to my bestie. Whether it's playing games or talking about something random. Right now, he's back at the temple so I will be patient and wait for him.

Alright, time to enjoy the day... At least, hope tonight, I can sleep.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Really Super Duper Sleepy... Might Go To Bed Early.

I really hope that I am not getting sick. I haven't been feeling good all day. I have been trying hard to eat but it's hard to do right now. Don't worry, I'm alright. My side stopped hurting now. Not sure how or why... Guess my bestie helped me somehow xD

Anyway, my grandma is doing a bit better today but no time is worth stopping. We really just have take it day by day and see what happens from there.

In order to help my mentality, I am blocking anything that bothers me. I don't need it. I just want my bestie to do his best and my family to stop bugging each other for a bit.

I might be going to bed early tonight since I am really super duper tired right now xD

Not an important blog but I'm sure my bestie will read them when he can.

For now, I will go to bed at around 9 or 10. No announcement of it.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Little Better Mood Today

I'm in a little better mood today. I've talked to Rai, my bestie before he had to go back to the temple again.

He has sickness in the family and I pray for him and his family right now.

I'm glad he cares about me too and he knows that I care about him xD I hope Kirby ish there to protect him from nightmares.

Anyway, I haven't really heard anything about my grandma except she's been sleeping and less eating and drinking. I'm worried about how much medicine they are giving her. I only hope hospice can give advice what to do next.

Today, I will find something to do. My mood gotten better after talking to my bestie. I hope that he gets to talk again in a few days or a few weeks. Depending on how long the temple let's him stay before he has to go back to his grandpa.

Alright, on with the day.

Also, I am going to be careful about lifting too much until I know I am ready. I was in pain for a bit but after laying and not moving, I got better.

That's all.

With love,

BDK