Busy Looking Through Stuff

I have been busy with a lot of cleaning up. I'm doing this because there's no point in keeping anything too old or anything too small...

I am also doing this because I think it's time a for a change. Most of the things that I am looking through are clothes and towels xD

I am going to take a rest tomorrow so I will write more on the blog by tomorrow... I really need a topic to talk about on each blog.

This one is... I will talk about the change.

I believe in change and I believe that every year, I should do something. So every year, I do some small cleaning up...

I do buy some new things but this time, I'm planning to buy a bench for my room... main goal for the whole year. Not sure if I will get it but I will keep looking for something of some sorts.

My room is pretty much junked up right now and I want to display my anime stuff really badly but I can't because of a table that's being used for all of the junk.

I think the next thing is... figuring out what else to look through. I still got DVDs that I still want to get rid of... Since Netflix became my main source of movies... I quit buying DVDs.

The same with CDs... I need to look through them and keep only a few of them.

I just need a huge change and start trying to figure out other things.

Ah, well... I'm still me but only my taste in items is going to change. Items like clothes, towels, objects xD

Of course, I will always be a reader, be a gamer, and an otaku.

So yay for me.

Anyway, I am going to go now... not entirely sure what the rest of today and tomorrow will bring.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

My Future Lifetime Goal

I am sort of depressed... because of a call that's dragging me down... The calling is from outside of my home. A place out there wants me there. But it's not here. My home is not my hometown anymore. I know this doesn't make any sense to some.

I was sort of triggered when somebody comment on something I posted about if I had money, that I would be in a different place and with peace. I really want to complete my urge to move at some point in my life.

I love Kentucky as my home but like I said... I want to complete my call on finding a new home.

I think certain people don't have the urge and that's okay. But they should not comment on somebody's post about wanting a new home and be at peace. They don't understand that person and therefore, should not be a good friend to be with.

I made a post on my FB that when I do get the money... I am leaving my hometown. I might come back but I will never stay. My home will be somewhere else.

I'm just tired of everything that has been going on here.

I have this urge to travel too but I don't want to do that just yet. I want to make my new lifetime goal... finding a new home somewhere else other than my hometown.

I feel like it is time, you know?

Of course, this will take time and money but I believe in myself 100%. I'm not giving up on finding jobs that are suitable for me (Meaning.... I can't work in fast food resturants or anywhere that requires lifting a lot). I already made that choice because I do have a hearing problem and I can't lift.

So... when that time comes, I'll be moving away from my hometown and to who knows where.

And yea... things kind of sucks right now. Because you never know when things will go wrong.

The year of the Dog is going to be a good year but not so sure for many others... But you can't help bad things from happening.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Also: My brother had a mild heart attack this morning but he's fine... just has to go see a heart doctor soon. Now you know what I mean by you can't help that things happen.

Busy All Day

I have been busy all day long... well, all morning until about 2pm in the afternoon xD

I was looking through my shirts and getting rid of some things that I don't need or can't wear...

I think it's like this... one of these days, I might have to move out of my hometown. Not only might but... want to.

I just feel like things are not gonna change here and I feel like it's making me feel like crap. So I do need a change in a town and life.

Anyway, I am here now... ready to update my blog for the whole week... who knows what I'll be talking about yet.

I don't have a show to watch tonight and I have been having problems getting to sleep at a certain time x.x

I have been feeling sick lately and having a hard time sleeping at night sometimes... so it kind of sucks a lot.

Alright, I am going to go now... tomorrow is a break down from everything but not my blog... so I will find something to talk about tomorrow... I did mention about talking about my future so I will do that before I go to bed maybe or tomorrow's post will be about it.

We'll see what happens for tonight first.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Wonder What This Weekend Will Bring

It's that time again... with the weekend always here, I will be taking a break.

I don't think I should keep saying this about the break but who knows what might happen over the weekend...

Usually, I want to take time to watch anime and more...

Something happened so I have to double up my watch time on anime... can't really say what that is.

Tomorrow, I might be getting up early but not sure for what yet.

Sunday, I was hoping to go see my aunt but my dad is kind of weird when it comes to travel and stuff lately.

I really wish things were different for my weekends but ever since my dad heard about something about gas.. he's always like "We won't be going here or there". So it does kind of sucks staying home 24/7 you know? x.x

Ah, well... I will let you all know on Monday if I did anything. Also, always keep a watch on my twitter so yay!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Things To Do.... Again.

Finding certain kinds of jobs are hard. But I'm not gonna give up.

I am getting ready to eat so I won't be talking too long... of course, my blog will be long xD

Anyway, I hope that if not this week, I will find something in the next week or more so... at least, until July... that's my deadline.

I know there's a job locally but the problem with it is most of them are always require lifting a lot and I can't do that.

Things seem to be harder than you imagine... with jobs being available and jobs being taken as soon as they are listed.

What gets me... is experience. I don't have any. So, it would take me a while to find a job for that purpose.

Alright, gonna get to eating and stuff...

I will try to find another topic to talk about in my next blog...

Wish me luck and more.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

What Should I Talk About On My Blog?

I just need to figure out my time a lot better... and that is just hard to do when there's something important to do in the day.

Ah, well.

I'm okay but I really don't have anything to say much on my blogs. Usually, I would go for something random but lately... because of the way I have been changing how I blog, I don't really have anything to say.

I got less views... but I don't mind. I like that I changed how I blog anymore.

Oh... talking about my blog is a topic!

I don't know if people don't like my changes on my blog but I am really looking forward to a stress-free year.

I hope to really get into something that has been on my mind for years... travel, anime, writing, and much more.

I am a strange person and I don't want to mix all those topics into one big blog at the same time... I am going to space them out by using a title that I hope to catch people's eyes...

Like, I might even start sharing my ideas on here and maybe put a strawpoll up to get your opinions on what you think? Not sure... usually, people don't do strawpoll unless I add it on my twitter and stuff xDDDD

Who knows...

Also, in a near future, I am going to start testing out twitch... who knows... I won't quit YouTube, at least, not just yet... but I might start doing weekly, bi-weekly or monthly kind of update vlog to let you all know some things.

At least for now, I got my blog to think about. I will figure out the other things has time goes by.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Giving Up Hunting A Job/ Also Writing Ideas Now

Each day, there's a story that's worth writing for... or reading. It depends on a person.

Anyway, I really need an inspiration to write but lately... I have been getting these dreams... which is interesting to figure out why...

I hope at some point that I will sit down and write to my heart's content. Maybe this will happen one of these days.

I am still hunting for a job but no hope has come to be known... I'm not giving up.

I still have a lot of companies to look through and I still gotta figure out what is next.

I wish my family would let me move to another city to help me find a job. But I am forced to stay at home... this is not good for me, you know?

At least, my mom supports my idea as long as she comes xD

I shall continue on searching for a job.

I hope to find something sooner or later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

My To Watch List For Anime Winter 2018

Like I said in my earlier post, I am going to show off my list for the anime I am watching or planning to watch from Winter 2018...

Here's the list with no order in mind.

• Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card
• Basilisk: The Ouka Ninja Scrolls
• Kaiju Girls Season 2
• A Place Further Than The Universe
• Overlord 2
• Hitori no Shita - The Oucast S2
• Ms. Koizumi Loves Ramen Noodles
• Laid-Back Camp
• Katana Maidens - Toji no Miko-
• Record of Grancreast War
• The Silver Guardian S2
• Sanrio Boys
• Citrus
• Dagashi Kashi S2
• Idolish 7
• School Babysitters
• Moment After
• Zoku Touken Ranbu-Hanamaru
• Dame X Prince Anime Caravan
• Marchen Madchen
• Death March to the Parallel World Rhapsody
• After The Rain
• How To Keep A Mummy
• Hakata Toukotou Ramens
• Beatless
• Darling in the FranXX

And you can tell that the list is a bit longer but the anime is really great this time.

I'll keep marathoning for the weekends and keep you all posted on what anime I am watching now.

Now the list only means I am going to watch them in the future... not now.

So... if there's anything you wish for me to watch, please let me know.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

What Did I Do Over the Weekend?

I purposefully waited a while before updating on here. So, my weekend has been fairly okay.

I went to Wal-Mart on Saturday to get some food and looked around  a bit.

Later that night, I got to talk to my bestie... we decided to try to talk at least every 4 to 6 days... depending on whether or not we are busy and stuff.

Then on Sunday, I went to see my aunt at her home. It had been a long time since we went to her house since my mom had been sick and the snow storm came in twice.

So my weekend was okay.

I didn't really caught up much anime. Did get to play a little bit of Blade and Soul...  Wanted to play Elder Scrolls but some reason, it didn't want to load at all.

Today, I have been slowly trying to find  a job. If you recall my schedule, I am searching for a job anywhere online.

When winter is over, I might have to try to go outside and find a job.

I really wished the library locally would hire me as a temp or something because it's something that I truly enjoy.

But oh, well.

I will be making another blog later with the anime list like I promised you all... so wait for it!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Again With The Weekend?!

As usual, I am taking another weekend break. I know this must get boring for me to talk about but I always like to sit down and type what I might do or might not do.

As always, anime marathon is happening starting from the time I get ready for anything.

Sometimes, I am usually outside or something else so the marathon for the anime will be delayed a bit.

I am starting a series called Lord Marksman and Vanadis. I forgot what it was about but I am happy to actually get started with it.

Hopefully, I will get this anime done quickly so I can at least start on another series soon after.

Lucky, some anime only has between 12 to 14 episodes... so those shouldn't really take that long to complete.

I think Monday, I will have the complete list of Winter Anime of 2018... only on the shows I plan on watching now or later.

I don't usually watch the anime on these lists until later. That's why there are lists that I make.

I hope that at some point... I will start making a "bible" of some sorts towards story ideas and poetry and more... This is usually where I want to add in my lifetime goals... but who knows when things will be official yet.

So, again, I won't be updating my blog at any point during this weekend. I am doing this to have less stress on writing and more focus on being inspired for stories and more.

I'm sure I will be gaming during the weekend too but I won't say much about that.

For now... just know I'll be back on Monday.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Don't Ask Don't Tell

I am one of the few that did try to ask for things for free... but I stopped because I know I would be rejected. So I won't do it again.

But this goes for everybody else who is a beginner in blogging or anything really. Most times, there's a website that tells you can get free stuff but you have to agree to things.

Also, make sure you have a sponsor that's willing help you out.

I really don't know why things are weird lately... it's like people who are trying to make it big... having to be hit harder than anybody else... The world is just going to get harder because of some person wanting something free or some person wanting to show something that's not allow to shown.

Stop being idiots and maybe things will be different with how things work. You got to earn it... not beg for it.

I am done begging for things so I just go with the flow now.

I only ask that if you do like to support, you are welcome to it. If you don't, then don't worry about it.

I live in a world where people tends to take I should beg for help but I don't want to live in that world anymore.

I want to be able to handle myself a bit more... that's why when people offered to help that I said no.

Anyway, I am posting this for a reason because there's a thing going around on the social media about a hotel banning bloggers because of negative reviews when they are in fact fake... just because the hotel denied a free stay to a person who wanted to only have views in exchange... Really, you should read before going all out to ask... if there's nothing there, ask a sponsor instead of the hotel straight out. Ten times out of one... they are not going to say yes.

Don't give bloggers and YouTubers a bad name over what's going on. It's stupid and useless because it makes thing worse.

Fight fire with fire... and you get this result.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

My Future Writing Plans (Blogging, Writing, and More)

My lifetime goals as you may now know are mostly traveling the world and writing a book or something.

The something could be my blogging as a career but I don't really want that due to some issues... but however, I do want to turn my blog into a website at one time. Whenever that may happen, it just has to be slow steps.

My future in writing plans is like this... I'll do anything to keep writing... whatever that may be. I love writing poems so I will try to keep doing more of those...

And I am a slow learner (not on purpose... kind of hard to explain). so I am learning everyday something new about writng.

I will keep reading in order to be inspired.

My blogging habits may have changed but that does not stop me from trying to write something everyday or every so often. I have decided to be against shorter posts from now on because I want to work on having more to say rather than nothing or a shorter post to put on my blog.

I am looking forward to my future with my writing plans as I discover programs and more to help me along. I won't be sure what will happen yet but let's go!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

When You Make A Schedule...

Normally, I wouldn't show out my schedule through the week but since I am trying to do something with my life... I have decided to set a schedule in order to keep all my resolutions in check. While some of my resolutions have not started but that's what resolutions are actually meant to be... they are not meant to start and then give up... they are meant to start anytime and take breaks and start right back again.

So I will reveal my schedule for the whole week... of course, this does not include when I sleep, eat or other personal activites (showering, bathroom, etc).

My morning varies from time to time because I don't have a clock to wake me up. But since I am talking less to my bestie, I am starting to sleep in late but that's my bad. I should stop this and try to sleep at normal and get up at 8ish instead of 9ish.. kind of hard when you stay up... or having a hard time falling asleep. Not my bestie's fault. Just it's been like that since the passing of my grandma last year. Still strange to type that, you know?

Anyway, my morning routine after waking up and other things which I won't say because it's different each morning is usually like this: I get up, take the dogs out, and more.

This is what my schedule is like for a whole week then:

Monday, Wednesday, Thursday: I am usually not doing anything... Although Mondays, I have a late start on things because it's so hard to get over the weekend. I know this is relatable so not going to go into details. However, these days I am going full out on hunting a job online. If I could drive, I would actually be going outside and hunting a job this way too. It's hard to find a job outside because I do 100% lack interview skills. So I rather look for jobs online first.

Tuesday and Friday: These two days besides the weekend are my break days... Mostly because I choose these two days to shower... Not going into details because I want to skip the whole personal activity thing, alright? These two days, I will start doing surveys... while I also do other things like getting free stuff and more. So that's what these two days will consist of. I don't like doing surveys everyday since they take too long and more. So what a perfect way to use these two days for.

Weekend: These two days... are my total break. I will not do any surveys or any job hunting. I am usually sometimes busy so I concentrate on things that I can do when I am busy already... I will be doing marathons of either anime or Netflix on the weekend... no matter what time I do. Also, no blog posts will be made during this time. So just wanted you all to know.

On weekdays after 5PM EST, I am taking a break for the day. I know this sounds weird for some but I rather take this time to catch up on YouTube and other stuff. As well as play games at least once a week during this time.

At 9PM EST (Sometimes 10PM EST), I will get off my PC and go read. Except on Mondays, I usually watch a show at 10PM EST. Any other time, I will read before going to sleep.

During these breaks, I will try my very best to write things... and hopefully, once things are set, I can have a hour to write with.

So that's my schedule so far...

However, once I am able to get a job... All of this will be changed in order to accommodate the job.

I just want to say that I am not lazy. I do these things to distract my life... but since my priority right now is getting a job... that's why I do this.

For now... wish me luck on finding a job... and hope that things will be alright.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Doing Things That Are Important To Life

I have been wondering when they would update another list for the best jobs in 2018 to work at home xD

Anyway, I have been doing nothing much but searching, applying and more with jobs... kind of hard to do but I am not sure how long before the requirements to get a job on medicaid will be in effect.

I know I have been lacking with my blogs and stuff... I know my twitter has been weird lately but things have been hectic and I need to do something soon.

I really hope to finish what I started with job hunting and hope to find one soonish. Even if it's just a year or less to work on.

Snow still on the ground here and it's so cold outside... I do dread when tonight comes. Tonight, I have to go to the store with my dad and get some groceries to last a while.

Alright, nothing else to talk about but at least, I am trying to make the blogs more readable, you know?

Until another time...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Love/Hate Of Snow

It snowed today. Actually, it snowed not long ago... but today, it snowed a lot more than before.

So this whole topic is about snow. I love it and hate it... at the same time. No other way to explain it but this way... I love it because snow is actually beautiful to look at when you want to stay inside your home. I hate it because snow is stubborn when you go outside.

I don't like the cold in case you are wondering. I think it's because I'm always afraid that I might freeze or fall on ice. :/

I did fell though. But I couldn't help it because I had to get my dog, Susie in the snow. She wanted to use the bathroom but not once... but twice she went up the hill. Had to go get her when she went the second time... dogs freeze easy when they go in the snow. Especially, small dogs.

I slide and fell on my butt as I was walking back... not fun at all. Lucky, the snow had soften my fall so it didn't hurt or anything.

Then I had to go get the mail since it had run  a bit late. I didn't realize how much we had gotten but it was slippery outside... I didn't fall that time but seriously...

I love the snow for the beauty of it but I do not love snow for going outside in it.

Ah, well... it's gonna be alright... Winter just has one or two months left. I hope it goes away soon... then I can enjoy the spring, summer and fall weather again.

Anyway, that's all I want to talk about. It's random, I know... but snow can be both a friend and an enemy.

For that thought in mind...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Going To Give Up Trying For Anything

It's not everyday that you get to sit and do something... Though, I am having a hard time finding a job but I'm not gonna give up.

And as I sit here for a while and thinking about it... I sometimes do kind of wish I could drive and go outside of the county to get a job. It's harder than you think when you can't drive and stuff fyi...

Anyway, I'm done with applying and will start again either tomorrow or Wednesday. Who knows what will happen next... and hope for good things to come.

I am a bit caught up with anime and want to catch up on some YouTube before getting offline at 10 to go watch my favorite show.

I am going to say one thing that's important... my dad has been cut back a hour each day apparently from his job so hopefully, that doesn't lead to more problems... who knows... I will keep you all updated if anything happens with that.

Next month is going to be an interesting month for me...

And right now, I just hope that everything will be alright.

Don't expect another blog tonight though but depending on my mood tomorrow, I'll update a better blog post xD

At least... this one is not really short and is enough to read.

Snowing now so gonna get this updated and watch YouTube...

As for what I done for the weekend? Nothing special... it snowed on Friday/Saturday so pretty much stuck inside for a while.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Another Break Over Weekend With Anime Again :D

It's another weekend and I am just wondering what I should do to get inspire... I wanna try to write some things down that comes whenever I'm asleep or just sitting around. I daydream a lot, if you're wondering xD

I'm gonna try to start reading again starting tonight and continue to read through the weekend only... During the day, I will be catching up with anime.

The weekend also means that I am taking a break from my blog. I will be back on Monday morning. Unless I have any news to share with you all.

I know tomorrow, I will be stuck at home. So really have to calm my mind down.

I wanted to message my bestie tonight just before I sleep but decided to wait until Sunday evening which is Monday afternoon for him. Hope he doesn't mind if I do that... I want to keep chatting with him as much as I am able to.

Anyway, I realize that I hate horror everywhere xD I like zombies though... so give me something only zombie related. Strange, right?

I'm gonna get off for the night and go to bed at 10... possibly read... I need to train myself to ignore the phone at all costs xD

I hope my mind will be a bit calmer through the rest of the night... I have been having strange crashes and it sucks a lot!

So... I'll message my bestie on Sunday evening/ Monday afternoon for him. And then I'll write on my blog again on Monday providing my mood over the weekend is good. And I'll be catching up with anime... and hope nothing bad happens over the weekend.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Changing Appointments Due To Weather And More Stuff

I changed my appointment until next month... for one reason alone... I don't want to go somewhere and risk myself by falling flat on my butt on concrete ground.

Also, the weather kind of sucks right now. There's ice coming and then there's snow covering that ice up... so not something to hear about any day.

So I chose to change my appointment just for my safety.

Anyway, I am not sure what I'll be doing today... I just know that the weekend is here again and I'm gonna fight my mind by trying to sleep early...

Life is not easy for me right now and I just saw something that sort of inspires me.

I know I won't lose my bestie... but I finding myself often wanting to talk to him but I have to hold back since I want him to be happy and with his gf xD I'll talk to him on Sunday evening which would be Monday afternoon for him. Hope he'll be able to chat by then.

I think today, I will watch some of the newer anime... since the second episodes are just now coming out. Now, I am not sure when the list will be officially out but I will let you all know by the title xD

Right now, I am going to get with the anime... and I hope my bestie reads my blogs and knows that he is a good person and I want him to be happy :D

Alright, enough of that... getting weird on the blog is the same as getting weird in the real world xD

Right, I'm gonna go now and get to watching anime and petting my dog, Chloe :v

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Anime is My Focus For Now And Other Things

I am going to make another weekend based on anime marathon muahaha...

I think my bestie suggested it so I will do so.

Tomorrow, I will be going out again.. if the weather is permitted and stuff... I will tell you all tomorrow when I come back where I went and what happens.

Right now, I am catching up with all the winter 2018 anime... only waiting until the second episode comes out. So yea...

The list won't come until I know I watched all the anime xD

I know I got sequels that are on the list already so that's a good thing.

I think I am going to start reading again... but this time with YA genre books. I figured out that I was having a hard time starting adult books so I think I go back to the Young Adult ways and get inspired that way xD

I think I will be alright now. I might be away for the weekend again but I might not blog again on the weekends because they are usually boring or busy times... and I end up stressing whether or not I should add a post and it always ends up being shorter than normal.

I just got things done and ready to begin the day... but it's already past afternoon so yea... kind of sucks a lot :v

I will get on with what's left for the day xD

I hope my mom will be alright since she had to go to the hospital again... I really wish my dad would stop saying stupid stuff because he's really hurting mom when he doesn't know it...

Life here sucks a lot but I try not to put that in my blogs...

Right now, anime is my focus for a bit.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Need To Find Inspiration And Other Random Things

I really need to find inspiration... and I think I may have found it.

I've been thinking about stars a lot... a whole lot. Stars in the sky are my favorite thing but the moon is always higher than the stars xD

I just need to sit down and write down ideas and stories.... and see what I can get from there.

People really enjoy my Moonbow series... because it's a rare thing to see... even I haven't seen one yet. If I could drive, heck yes... I would go see a Moonbow.

Anyway, I am going to sit around during this weekend (Might end up being snowed in!) and just write to my heart's content.

I do have to go to the doctor and have something done... which I will not say. It's not my hip but something a bit personal... I just hope nothing is wrong in that area.

I know it's a bit TMI if you just figured it out.  So yea...

Right, I'm just talking to myself so I should really just end this blog... but at least, my blogs are longer and no longer have that sense of a being in a rush. Like I said, I am going to do things more based on stress free moments.

Tomorrow, I got lots to do and hope that I am able to do them... Just haven't been the best two weeks of 2018, you know?

Ah, well... gotta keep trying. That's the whole point in life... keep trying, don't give up.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just Another Day

Yesterday, I was hoping to update my blog but time got ahead of me and then my mom had to go back to the hospital. She's been sick for a long time and it's so hard to get any hospital just to take her in and give her proper medication and such.

Today, I have been okay... but I never had the time to do anything else... now is the only time that I could update.

To tell you the truth, I feel like I don't have a life here. But I want to find a job just so I can take my mom out of here

Anyway, I am going to be busy later today and possible have problems sleeping at a certain time and not reading at all xD

I will get on with the day...

A little side note, I know my blogs has been missing out a lot lately but that's my choice. I really want a stress free year and it's hard to get through each day without a stress.

I will try my best to do better with my blog.

Until another time,

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Hope I Feel Better Now

I've been waiting to see how I feel before posting on here. And I hope that I feel better from now on.

Anyway, I'm guessing you're wondering what's going on... I've been sick since I woke up early on Saturday morning. My stomach has been having problems. I know it's because of my period but this was the worst than ever.

From Saturday morning and until sometime late afternoon, I have been going to the bathroom... Lucky, I didn't throw up but I did have a stomach ache.

Today, I still have a slight stomach ache but I am feeling a bit better than before. Less time in the bathroom and stuff.

So that's what was up with my weekend and stuff.

I am still going to try to catch up with anime since I still got lots to go through.

I hope that the days ahead will be good for me...

Also, I really do like Rin-Ne anime... strongly suggest it if you're into cutesy and stuff like that xD

Right... I will get off now and get on with the day... I am going to look into this job online... since I really need to find one soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Weekend Is Here And Yay For Anime

Alright, I think things are okay for now. The weekend is here now so that means after this post, I will be taking a break. No posts will come until Monday.

This weekend, I am going to watch anime... hopefully to get some of it done before next week.

Every weekend unless otherwise will be anime weekend xD

Once a week, I will play a game... so far, this week, I have only played one game for a few minutes.

Anyway, I hope things will be okay for now on.

Things are kind of strange still right now that I will not be replying to anybody on my chats.

I am going to get offline soon to get ready to watch Hawaii Five-O but I am extremely sleepy xD

I know you have been reading about my view about what's going on the YouTube world. Things needs to be fixed on this page.

Alright, I shall get ready to go... one or two more videos to watch on YouTube then get to sleep after watching a show.

I can't be sure what the weekend is like because the weather here is extremely cold and we can't really go anywhere... ah, well... this gives me more chances to finish some stuff.

I'll be back on Monday with another post. So keep an eye out on my twitter for any news.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

My Review on "LOST" May contain spoilers so read at your own risk.

For those that don't know... I wanted to watch this a lot but my ex kept spoiling the whole show for me that I quit.

This came on for a long time before the writer's strike happened and it slowly became downgraded to a less than interesting show.

I finally finished all 6 seasons on Netflix and thought it was okay. The story was great, since these are the same people who made Alias and Fringe. Though I was a huge fan of Alias.

Anyway, besides the point of who made the show and stuff... let's talk about spoilers for a bit.

It starts out with a plane crash on an island. Then each passing day, they start to realize something is going on with this island. There's much more going on than they thought. Secrets began to reveal itself and more.

The end of the show... They all never exist. They all died in the plane crash.

So between the first episode and the final episode, there were many events going on. First, they thought they got home. Then they had to go back. Then they all had to save an island.

Everything doesn't really make sense if you just hadn't put things together. The whole entire show was like a big mystery.

So it's like a show that kept you thinking what the heck just happened after you finish the series.

Rumors flow that they were going to make a new LOST series... but I don't think it's needed.

The show would've been better if they hadn't rushed after the writer's strike was over.

In the end, I'm glad of the ending because it actually makes sense that not everybody disappeared. They just simply... moved on.

The island was based on what you could say... the in between? It's hard to put it into words unless you understand mythology a bit better.

All in all... I enjoyed the show. Still think it could've been better but it's understanding since the writer's strike happened during that time. A lot of the good shows went downhill after the writer strike so yea.

Until next time, who knows what I will review. And I only review things that do interest me. I will not force myself to review something that I know I won't be able to watch or read or play.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Stress Means Less Blogging

Yesterday, I had been busy with going to the store and getting some personal shopping done. Today, I have just finished yet another K Drama xD

Anyway, I guess you are wondering why I have been a bit quiet as of late... it's just... Stress is not my thing.

My dad had been off for most of the week and it's harder to get anything done when he's around because I'm constantly having to do this or that. If I don't do it right then there, my dad does get into a grouchy mood. This I do not want to deal with a lot.

Next week is going to be crucial for me. For I am going to find a job online once again. And on days that I don't do that, I will do at least 5 surveys at each page... as long as it doesn't take forever to do them.

And at least, once a week, I will open a game up and play it. I have not started with my reading challenge but hoping that will start as soon as my mind calms down.

Again, I am dealing with a lot of stress.

I know that I can get better but it takes time for me. Baby steps, if it has to.

Alright, I will leave this for now... update it and possibly hope that I can write more for tomorrow before taking a break for the weekend.

I still got a review to do for Lost so... hopefully expect that soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Depression Is Not A Joke

In case you all don't know... Logan Paul posted something controversy. He videotaped a dead body who had just committed suicide in a well known forest in Japan that's known as Suicide Forest. And he continued to putting the video on YouTube. WTF...

First of, Japan is number one country with the most suicides. They go into these forests and even the worst just to end their lives. Why? Because in Japan, it's either do good in life or forever be degraded into something you're not. It's a tradition that needs to be fixed. And it's sad. It happens when they work, when they go to school and much more. So suicide is their way to escape. Depression is well known in this country. They are fixing it because it's not something they like to talk about.

Suicide forest is located at the foot of Mt. Fuji and it's been known to have many unknown resting places for where people committed suicide. It is restricted to go off the path in this forest. And this idiot, decided that he would do so.

And upon his discovery... a dead body.

Instead of cutting off right there and then, he preceded of filming the body and talking about it... And his reaction is how I react when stressed or stuff... laugh it off. But he continues to show the body for some minutes... Idiot.

He then continues to say he wanted to show this so people can get help. Wtf...

Trigger warning is high when this came on. He took the video... A DAY LATER.

What does that tell you about YouTube? Everything.

I can already tell what 2018 is going to be like with videos and such. This is why Facebook hired 3000+ people to watch live videos of any disturbing imagines to taken down before it's ever fully viewed or posted.

This is what I think YouTube is lacking now.

Now let's move on...

I'm going to share numbers in case you are having thoughts of suicide. You're not alone.

Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255
States Suicide hotlines: http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html 

Understand... some people do joke about depression but it's not a joke when it's you.

Depression Is Not A Joke.

So, thank you for reading this and talk to somebody if you feel like you need somebody. Because you're not alone.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Staying Away From Negativity

Negativity is something that I deal with every single day at my home. But this year, I am going to learn to ignore it and focus on my goal that might take up to a year or two...

What is this goal, you might ask? I am going to start saving money to move out of here. It might take a year or two or more. But I just want to be able to be focus on that.

I hope that writing this blog with less stress is going to help me figure out what is best for me and what is not.

If I find out my blog contains negativity at any point, I'll work on myself a bit more by taking a break.

I really don't want to be stressed, unhappy, and more. If there's a problem, I want to be able to fix it as peacefully as possible.

That's why I am willing to make things right with my bestie and his gf. :D

Anyway, I am not entirely sure what else to put here. I know I will be gone this late afternoon and early evening... just hope that I won't be stressed out when we get back.

There's another thing I wished to work out... telling my parents that I need to be alone more often and let them be able to let me go places on my own. How am I suppose to do that? Well, I'll figure it out on my own.

So... wanna try to stay away from negativity is my goal. It will be hard and there will harder times through the year... and you will see those hardships in my blog when those do come. Anything else, I'll try to keep it off here, if it's just a small negative. If it's something that needs to be talked about, I will put it on here. Anything to make myself presentable to others.

For now, I have a long day ahead of me so wish me luck.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Betraying Happiness

The title says how I feel every day. I am betraying my own happiness.

I have been thinking about this thing since May 2017... and have decided that this year, I am going to look for a teacher in Buddhism... and just have a talk. I feel like this would help me decide on what I should do next.

I know some people would think it's weird for a person like me... who loves Asian culture a whole lot to be pursuing Buddhism... but you ever have those type of feelings that you feel like it's something you need to do? Yea... I am feeling like that.

I will keep the idea on my mind because this year, I want to regain my happiness again... and hope for a better year.

Of course, be more accepting to things that change around me.

I think it's actually time to do some of these changes.

I am already accepting that if I am going to be single, then so be it. I really am not looking anymore. I felt like I needed too... but now, I don't think so.

I just want to make myself a happier person. I do not need negativity in my life.

That's why, it's better to be honest with yourself rather than not.

I hope that whatever comes my way for this year, I hope it brings me good luck.

It won't be long until the year of the dog be here... so might as well enjoy life!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hello 2018!

I'm back from my small little break. I'm not sure what to say because the last few days of 2017 was a mess...

Lucky, some of the mess was straighten out and we agree that me and my bestie will communicate every few days. So, we can talk for a few days, take a break for a few days... and so forth.

I won't stop sharing things to him and would schedule some days around so we can talk more on those days.

Anyway, I am a bit sleepy but that's my fault. I finally realize why things happened and why it should be slowly fixed.

I'm still thankful for a friend like him. So yay xD

I hope there won't be long stays in hospitals for the next few days... because seriously, it gets tiring having to go back and forth and the waiting is not fun at all.

That's my weekend was all about. And I hate to say it but I feel like going to a hospital is a waste of time sometimes.

Today, my mood is crappy but I think I will be fine. Just hope there won't be anymore stressful days ahead.

Thanks though... I needed all that assurance and stuff.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Hello 2018... hope you are better than 2017 :v