My Skin on Minecraft Thanks To My Bestie

I will share the photos from minecraft now. This is what my bestie had made or rather updated and fixed for me.

These are the front and back of my character. I love the colors since they are a bit different than my old skin. I like it better.

Thank you, my awesome bestie. :)

Anyway, still no news but I hope that after this weekend, I get to hear about it. And more. I will keep you all posting as I find out.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Wondering About Things

I have been wondering why background checks are there... when clearly they do make mistakes? xD

I have never been in trouble in my entire life... so I knew there was a mistake when I saw it. Lucky, it says it was dismissed like they knew it was a mistake too...

I'll still have to figure out how to get it off since I never went to court or jail for this. I know because I remember everything... it's my curse.

Anyway, I am not sure what to do today. I am still in a bad mood from yesterday... but I think it's gonna pass by like it's nothing.

I will get on with the day by keeping a watch on that project... and hope that I passed.

Today is still young... so I might just relax.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Expect The Unexpected

I don't know where to begin... that I have a family that thinks they won't get in trouble with something or they just want to take advantage of you.

First of all, my mom blurted this out to my dad... and he disagreed with the whole thing. He's the one that decided that I shouldn't do this thing. Don't blame me. Never blame me.

I think my dad knows that one of these days that I would need a place to call my own... so he doesn't want me to let this thing hold back on this.

Because of this... I have decided against going to stay with my aunt if something ever happens to my parents. In fact, I have decided that I will save all the money I have and get the hell out of dodge.

Right now, all is not certain so it's best to wait and see.

Like mom said, I need to think of myself more than anybody else at this time. Life is not easy at making decisions and you should really respect that instead of getting pissed off or mad or anything such.

Expect the unexpected better. That's all I gotta say.

My dad will remain into the unknown about this job... but I got to convince him sometime to not add my name on his tax forms. That's hard to do when you have a dad that things way differently than you do.

I think my solution is do everything on my own. Eventually, I have to and I think it's time to. Take my dogs and just go.... go away from Kentucky. Go to a new place that I can call home.

I want to live either in TN or FL or even HI... but just only until I can figure out what this thing goes through is like.

I'm sorry for everything that happened today. I really am. I just... need something in my name on my own. Even my dad thinks so too.

It's just been one hell of a day, you know?

I love my family no matter what. Just wish they were better at understanding more.

Anyway... I am going to wait until tomorrow and see how my mood is to show off my character from Minecraft. Right now... is just not a good time.

Don't they know it's stressful for me too?

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Avoiding Negatvity For A While

I don't know why people put up with so much negativity in their life? I've been that way before but I learn to get over it. It's harder than what you imagine but if you can learn to fight it... it will make you see the world differently.

Anyway, I am going to avoid negativity for now... since I am still in training mode and need to get it done soon. I hope that taking in these extra hours... I can be closer to be done.

Wish me luck... for I am going to get this done... I will let you all know in the second post about it. Also, will be sharing pics of my new skin on Minecraft. :D

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hoping For Better Timing Tomorrow

I hope that tomorrow, I will be done with this qualifications thing with this job. I'm gonna sit there and just click and click until it tells me that I am done xD

It's so tiring... I just realize. But I think I can do it with no problems.

Anyway, I am going to take a break early tonight... like around 10ish...

My bestie made me a new skin on Minecraft. I will post that here tomorrow if I do not forget xD

It actually looks awesome. I don't really spot any strange spots.

Right... I am going to end this post now and get on with an idea for Christmas... only a few more days before December 1st!

Yay!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Nap Time

I am going to update this before I go take my daily nap. I have been busy with the qualifications thing for my new work... Not too good but at the same time, good...

It's literally 50 50 chance for me.

Anyway, I am going to keep this short since I might be watching a movie soon after I wake up.

Still watching the news about Bali too.

Right... nap time.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: My bestie fixed my skin on Minecraft. I'll show you after I show my bestie later.

Wishing Me Luck

It seems a bit easier but the quiz part is not so much. At least, I'm off to a good start. Tomorrow, I'm gonna try to do more in a certain amount of time.

I cannot say anything that goes on with the training session so just wish me luck.

Anyway, I am a bit tired right now but I'm just gonna get off at 9 to go watch two shows in a roll... at least, on my bed, I can be a bit more comfortable.

I think I got something to do in the morning but afterwards, I should be able to get back online to do this.

I think this is gonna be fun.... maybe.

Right, I will go now and hope that I can get some rest as soon as the shows are over.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Being Busy At This Moment

I am busy at this very moment. I think it would be better if I write down everything that I am trained to do.

Well, people does highlighting stuff. I prefer writing it in my own terms. It helps out and should be good for what's ahead.

Anyway, I hope that I get to do this thing today and so forth. Not sure what else to do once I'm done but I hope I get to do good things.

I am going to keep this short. Even if I forget to publish it :v

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Yay For Hoping Good Things

I start my test tomorrow. I am not allow to say what the test is going to be allow so let's leave it to that.

This is gonna be interesting to do though. But my training test sucked :( I am going to take notes tomorrow as soon as I get up so that I can know what is good and what is not.

Hopefully, this will be better than having a bright white background to stare at all times.

Anyway, wish me luck and hope that I can do better. It takes training and practice to do good.

Right now, I am going to go on to bed and hope that I can sleep early. Some nights, I have been going to bed at around midnight.

So yea... let's hope for good things. Also, let's hope the volcano doesn't get worse than what it already is. If you're wondering, please go on a news site and look up Bali and volcano. You'll see what I mean.

Prayers for them.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Went To See My Aunt

I went to see my aunt today and just sat there for a while. I really miss my grandma sometimes... and I hate winter.

Cold weather is just not me.

Anyway, I am not sure what to do for the rest of the day... but I hope things will be alright for all of us.

My bestie is stuck at where he is... since there is a volcano being active there... no other news but he hopes that he is able to work later.

Ah, well... that's all I can say for now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not feeling good.

I always dreamed of living somewhere else besides here. Just think of all the silence that I can get for a place to come my own.

Anyway, I am not entirely feeling too good tonight so I'm done with videos for now. I will continue videos tomorrow when I get back home at some point.

There's just so much confusion going on with my life that I just wish I could not question about. I really don't know what to do right now.

My aunt wants me to this. My mom wants me to do that.

But... I think I'm gonna step and say... no. I really want to find my path and go where I want to go. I don't really want to stay here anymore.

So yea... too much things. And right now, I just want to go away from it all.

Come Monday, I'm gonna let my mom do all the talking. She makes me do it and I really don't know what to say! She needs to say it for me sometimes.

Right... going to bed soon.

I know the first post of this blog will be late again so don't mind me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I think I know what to do. I just done with saying it on here because people.

Forgot This Was Up On Creat A Post.

I had this page up and didn't realize that I left it up.

The news about Chloe is becoming great. She still has pain a bit on her right leg but I think it's slowly going away as time progresses. However, I do want to try to save some money in order to take her to the vet to check her out. The only problem is... Chloe is not friendly around strangers and strange dogs/cats. So she will bark. And bark. And bark some more.

Anyway, I am sleepy again today... I really should take a nap on weekends sometimes but I really don't want to xD Ah, well.

I will update again later. Also, I am so glad to get those sweatshirts yesterday.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Might Go To Bed Early

I am sooooo tired. I might be ending up going to bed early.

I went to Richmond just for a little bit with my aunt and my mom. I actually found some stuff... But that's just about all I'm gonna say now.

I'm gonna go to sleep in a moment and hope things will be alright...

I know I keep repeating the phrase "Hope Things Will Be Alright" over and over but it's just something that I want to help to motivate me.

Tomorrow, I might end up awake early since I am going to sleep now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hope For A Good Day

I think I might be heading outside for the day. I can't say where I am going yet because there's no answer yet.

Anyway, I hope things will be alright for me today... I know I keep saying this over and over but yea...

I really would love to find something for me.  But we'll see.

Alright, short post... Main thing, get Chloe more food. And that's all I can say.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

This Is Just A Random Title

I am not sure what I am going to be doing tomorrow yet. I do know one thing... if I don't do anything, I will be bored as hell.

Anyway, I just hope that things will be alright for me. Not sure what else to put here but... who knows.

I'll be finding more out about my job after tomorrow. I hope the test did well.

Alright, short post... but hope everybody be sage today.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Happy Turkey Day

I think we had a good day for Thanksgiving. It's sad that we don't have my grandma's to go to for food tho. I really miss her a lot. Every year since she's gotten sick, she always said it would be her last. I never knew that last year would've been her last.

Anyway, I am writing this since I did warn you all that it would be late. I am kind of sleepy so I might take a nap.

I finally got Chloe some canned dog food since she doesn't want to eat her dog food... might be spoiling her but she's in pain a lot. I really wish I could take that pain away from her.

Alright, I'm getting sleepy now so I'm gonna go put on some PJs and snooze now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody.

Everything Is Done

I finally finish my training but hope that it wasn't messed up because it kept clicking to a wrong website a few times.

Anyway, I am a bit tired and kind of dread tomorrow.

My dad brought home a turkey from work... which... is... interesting. We can't really cook it because of our oven. Long story short... our oven shorts out easy.

I might be going to bed early tonight since I am done with everything.

Just gonna watch a few things here and there.

For now... I will end this now. Tomorrow's blog will either be late or early... but possibly late.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Too Much Going On

There's a reason why I am late at updating my blog and I'm not really going to say why.

Anyway, I am not sure what to put on here. But I am trying my hardest to do some training but I keep getting interrupted by things.

Ah, well... Not only am I worried about Chloe but I'm worried about other things.

Just too much. I think I am going to put on some music and just get away with it with that way.

Alright, going to go now... Will update later if I ever done anything at all.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hope For Good Things

I hope good things come for me tomorrow.

I am going to spend the rest of the night looking for some stuff... just stuff.

Anyway, I hope that Chloe feels better tomorrow. She's drinking water, which is good... she just doesn't have the mood to jump and run around and more. She loves walking still so that's a good thing. Her right upper part of her leg still hurts... so I am going to look for solutions for that.

I think one of the things I am thinking of getting just temporarily is pet insurance for Chloe and Susie and maybe Yoyo. As long as Chloe eats and drinks, she's okay. But if she loses weight or anything, I will get her to vet immediately.

She's alert. So that's a good thing.

I'll keep you all updated on Chloe on my blog as well as my twitter.

Also, there's something I want to talk about tomorrow... Something important.

For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Worrying About My Dog, Chloe

I'm worried about my dog Chloe... her right leg seems to be hurting towards her shoulder area... not sure what they call the frontal upper part of the leg but that's where she is hurting at.

I hope that she feels better soon. I just wish my mom would let me take her to the vet alone... but she really doesn't trust me to go alone some reason.

Anyway, I haven't heard any news yet about the job site... I hoping that after a while, they will contact me. Ah, well.

Not sure what to put on here but hope things will be good for me. Not sure what I'll be doing for the rest of the day.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Bored All Day

I've been bored all day long. I think tomorrow is gonna be a bit different since I might be doing something else entirely.

Anyway, I am going to update my blog early... Also, because I haven't been doing much creative stuff for this month, I might stop that...

Just a lot of things have been happening this month that it was crazy.

This is going to be a hard week to get through but we will see what happens next.

I am going to watch two shows in a moment. I really do enjoy The Good Doctor show better than The Gifted show.

I am going to go now... hopefully I can get some news out tomorrow when I wake up.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Might Play A Game Today

I think tomorrow is when I find out if I get a job or not. This might be a sign...

I never talk about God but it's because I don't want to. I really don't believe in him... I do believe in the power of prayer... isn't that strange?

Anyway, I am hurting all over this morning and I'm not sure what to do for this morning. I might go and play Blade and Soul xD

Today is just one of those days that you just want to get away from.

I hope things go well for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Today Hast Been An Interesting Day

Today has been an interesting day. I loved going to see my aunt. I wish that I could go see my other family members but they live outside of the county and my dad is weird about going to places. If I could drive, I would most likely go see my family outside of the county.

Anyway, I think I will go to bed in a moment. Tomorrow is gonna be rest day.

This app called BreakReminder for my computer has been really helpful. I think this is gonna be an interesting app to keep.

Right, this post will be shorter than usual. I hope tomorrow will be good for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Watching An Interesting Movie

I have been home for a hour and half... My aunt gave me some stuff that I will need xD

Anyway, I really should stop eating hot stuff :/ Ah, well.

I think my bestie has fell asleep hard where he's at... he's only replied one time and said he was lazy... meaning, there's a good possibility that he's fallen asleep after he done his work.

Right now, I am watching an interesting movie about how racism always been around for years. It's based in 1940s during World War 2. It's an interesting point of view to see how the color of your skin affects people. I'm against racism and I think people should watch this movie.

Alright, gonna go now... not sure what to do after this movie but I might end up on YouTube soon.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hearing the Train Coming Through

I'm hearing the train coming at this time of the night.
I just wanted to say something isn't right.
But I was wrong, nothing comes out good.
So there goes my mood...

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Short poem tonight. Since I am actually hearing the train go by down town at this very moment xD

I played Blade and Soul finally. It took two hours and a half to update some reason... but it's all good now.

I am going to keep playing this game at least once a week. Or rather... play a MMORPG game at least once a week... I am... a MMORPG junkie! Whoo hoo!

I'm gonna plan to watch RWBY tomorrow after I come back from seeing my aunt's.

Also, I'm curious about why I am being blocked by Facebook and Twitter by a guy... I didn't do anything wrong, did I? You just disappeared suddenly. I doubt you would be reading my blog anytime soon so oh, well.

I think because it's the weekend, I won't be hearing anything about that job... at least until Monday or Tuesday, the start date.

I have been thinking about my life a bit more... if this job keeps me on and stuff... I might save the money to go on trips... I've been meaning to want to go to places more often so yea... I need this job.

Truth time... I was doing freelance but it only paid me $5 each project. And the project was just mighty few. I needed a job. I need to get out of here. And I need a break from things.

And surveys weren't just gonna cut it for me... I'll still do them on days there are no assignments for me to do.

I am going to start taking breaks off my computer more often... with the help of an app on my phone and a program on my computer. They both will constantly remind me to stand up for at least 5 minutes every half hour. And I can still do other things too.

Right... I will let you all know any other news as time goes through.

My blog will be late tomorrow... so keep an eye on that.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just Waiting

I am just waiting to head out for a moment. Then we are coming back home with freshly claw trimmed dogs xD

All except Chloe. She's not good with strangers and strange dogs.

Anyway, I am not sure what to do afterwards but if there's nothing else to do... I think I might actually get on Blade and Soul to play it. They have so many story updated that I haven't been able to keep up with it.

Right... I need to go do some stuff so I will end this blog for now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just Still Tired.

I really don't know what to do tomorrow. I know we have to take my dog Susie and my mom's dog Yoyo to get their nails trimmed. It's harder for my mom to see what she's doing so we have to do this. Also, both of them just won't be still for us to trim their toenails.

Right now, I am not feeling too good. Just I am still tired from being outside yesterday... it's just one of those things that you have to recover from after a long day of sitting and waiting and more.

Anyway, I don't really feel like writing something creative tonight. Sorry...

I will let you all know on November 21st of any news.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Here's To Waiting For News.

I think I done everything that I was suppose to in order to hopefully get a job.

The thing that is bothersome... is a parent that worries about things. So I will tell her the good news when she wakes up so that she wouldn't have to worry so much.

I am going to go lay down now... but this post will be entirely short because I was busy all morning doing things... in order to get a job that's not only part time but also let's me set my own hours in the day.

I need this job... I hope I get to keep this job. Right now... time is the only thing that matters for waiting for this job.

November 21st is my start date... and let's hope things go well for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I will only tell when or if I get the job but because of the policy they have, I cannot tell what I do in the job.

Super Tired

I am super tired... I will be going to bed in a moment.

I have nothing really to say... except, I really need to go to sleep and not wake up for hours.

Tomorrow, I am most likely gonna rest... and possibly try to play Blade and Soul. It has been so long since I played the game... and apparently, there's a new update coming next month... I could wait until then but I think I will get on there and complete some story.

I hope that I can get my mood back into writing but we'll just have to see.

Right now... sleep and that soft bed is calling my name. So... see you guys tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Really Really Late

I hate going to the doctor outside of the county sometimes.

It's not that I don't like the wait... it's just other reasons. I don't really want to talk about it but sometimes I don't like to go. Let's just say that.

Anyway, I am sooooooo sorry about being late. Just didn't expect to be that long of a wait.

I can deal with but... yea... let's not talk about that right now.

I am keeping this short because I will be updating a couple of hours...

Until then.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting Sidetracked Is Not Fun

Getting sidetracked is not fun.

I am still waiting for this company to figure out that the email they gave me is not working. I just wish they were able to answer problem questions...

Anyway, I am not sure what to do say on here. I am pretty much caught up with certain things... so it's surprising.

Tomorrow, I will not update my blog until really late... I will explain why tomorrow.

Right now, I just need to get off the computer and go look at a book forever and ever...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Wondering About Some Things

This time, I am going to try to update before I go take a nap. I am wondering about some things...

One of them is why the job I am applying haven't checked the email that I am suppose to use to see if it works... Because it's not actually working like they said it is.

I'm trying to contact them but the company is in Australia so the time difference is hugely different.

Hopefully, before I go to bed, they will contact me. Or tomorrow, they can contact me about the email.

Alright, I am going to go take my nap and hope things will be alright for me. I was gonna do surveys but I felt like I needed to do something else.

For now... That's all.

With love,

BDK

Slowly Getting An Idea

"I had no idea that things were going this way. I am on my way to Asia... as it was always my dream of mine. What to expect, I do not know yet. I hope things will be alright once I get there. Let's hope my family will understand why I am doing this. I know that I am a teen but I need this... I felt like this is something that I want to do."

This is just a hint of what I want to write... I am going to vote for a country in Asia in which the main character goes to... Just keep in mind that the world that I want in my mind has be really into tradition so magic is still sort of real in a way. Who knows where I can start.

Anyway, I am going to go ahead and put the strawpoll up for that.

Here's the site: https://strawpoll.com/kp3ghxda

I will check back in a view days to see if there's a lot of votes... Mostly more than 2. And then once those countries gets tied... I will lessen the poll and come back so you can vote again.

I just need an idea where to start...

Well, I am going to get with some more videos on YouTube and then get to reading a bit before sleep.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Finally! And Food Time

I finally am able to do this blog post... even though I'm not too worried about it xD

I went to Somerset with my aunt and my mom... didn't do much since my mom had to get a scan done and taken care off...

I am kind of tired but also... kind of hungry...

So I'm gonna eat and watch this movie on Netflix... not sure what it's about yet.

I will update tonight when I get a chance.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting Off For Tonight

I am here like I said. I'm gonna be watching two shows in a roll... One at 9 and another at 10.

I'm a bit sleepy too... so I might just go on to bed after the shows end... hopefully that I can sleep without no problem.

I am not entirely sure what I will be doing tomorrow yet... I am not going anywhere so I might just be looking at things... A choice between free things or giveaways... I might do giveaways then.

I am going to get back to surveys on Wednesday. With a break on Thursday. I will explain more as it gets closer to that day.

Anyway, I will get back to a video before going off my computer for the night.

No creative thing tonight... just because I am sleepy.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Hard To Figure Out What To Do on Mondays

It's hard to figure out what to do on a Monday. I could do surveys... or I could go back to online job searching since the one that I was doing is not doing any good...

Choices... choices... lame choices...

I think since that I am starting to read again... Finished one book last night. It took me two weeks to actually finish that book because it was so darn long. I also... found out that there are some books that I am going to read but have no idea where the first books are xD

Since I am planning to get a Kindle next year, I will save those books just to get those first books to read... Even sequels on books that I want to read but don't want to keep.

Anyway, I will let you all know what I done in the second post. Right now, I am trying to fight being sleepy and stuff.

Tonight, the blog will come out at 8ish EST since I am getting off to watch two shows starting at 9 EST.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Walk Away: A Poem

The moon is not gone.
The moon is hid.
But who knows at dawn...
We wake to only bid...

Life goes forth again.
Life is no lie.
A story to begin.
We just always ask why.

Walk. Walk. Walk away.
Walk and realize your heart.
Don't let it sway...
As you live in art.

Who knows? Who lives?
Believe they say.
Fear arrives.
Living day by day.

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Just a weird poem moment. I am still trying to figure out what to do tomorrow. I need to find something to do... and find another work thing to do...

Things just have been slow. I might figure out what to do later... so we'll see what happens next.

For now, I am going to keep this part short... despite the poem made this blog a bit longer xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Finding Something To Do

I am back home and glad to that I got to see my aunt today. I love to talk about movies and books to her xD

I am not sure what to do for the rest of the day. I might find something to do...

I am sleepy too but I don't really want to take a nap.

Anyway, this post is gonna be short but I hope things will be alright for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Trying To Figure Out Some Things

You ever wonder what your life is like and you still have no idea where it's heading to? Yea... that's a bit far-fetched.

I have been thinking about what to do and stuff... I really want to get back into playing games... Not exactly recording them yet... but just mostly playing games and completing them a bit. Especially, since the next sale will be in a month and a week or so ahead. I just... don't know what to do... since I have YouTubers that upload videos at least once a day. So it's hard to figure out how the schedule my day... I don't want to just go out of the blue and waste my day with not doing other stuff... if you get what I mean.

I am going to make a video at the end of the year... just talking and stuff... Hope I can make it not so long xD

Also, I am slowly cleaning my wishlist on steam and adding some games on a list... Yes, I keep a list of games.... What I play, I will just take it off the list.

So... gonna be interesting to see how things will be later on.

Right now, I am a bit sleepy and I need to finish a book... so... yea... getting off for the night.

I know in the earlier blog that I said something about making something creative but... yea... not gonna happen tonight. Ah, well... Still got time since this is still Creative November. :D

Right... tomorrow, I will be going to see my aunt. And... possibly catching on some more stuff.

Who knows...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Got Pens.

I got pens.

Yes, I wanted to just say that because I actually did bought some colorful pens. Ever since I find colorful pens... not gel pens... I do not like gel pens.

Anyway, I went to see my brother and my nephews and niece. They loved it when we bring kittens xD Even my brother's gf loves the kittens too xD

At least, my nephew is doing well... he had a bit of a scared on Thursday. I won't say much just that he has to see a doctor someday before he can have anymore surgeries.

Right now, I am going to finish "How I Met Your Mother" since it's going off Netflix soon.

Tomorrow, gonna go see my aunt.

Tonight, I might try to do something creative. Just have to wait and see.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Not Sure What Tomorrow Brings

I doubt we will be going anywhere tomorrow. But you never know what might change in the morning.

I just hope that since that I got my open office back... I get to write soon. I won't announce the winner of strawpoll just yet but it's interesting to know what people would like to read.

I am going to keep at it this time and figure out how to start it and keep at it. Something I learn... use some Index Cards to write out ideas for each chapter... so who knows what might come in mind.

Anyway, I am really tired right now so no creative thing tonight.

I'm sorry that I haven't been doing much in the past few days but I have been having a bad few days.

Sleep is my friend right now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Really Slow Day

Today has been a really slow day but I think it will be alright.

I am not sure what to do but I know I won't be doing any surveys today and I got a scary movie came in the mail from Netflix... I might not exactly watch that xD

In fact, I'll just leave it running the background to pretend to watch it. I'm done with horror for a while just so you know.

I'm not too inspired to write anything creative right now... but I will let you all know if I do later.

That strawpoll that I done? It only has three votes... and I think I know what I'll be writing soon.

I hope tomorrow will be good even though it will be boring xD

I will tell you all about that tomorrow.

Right now, just wanna relax and stuff...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Don't Give Up Trying For Dreams

Google must be slow today... Well, blogger part of Google.

I have been thinking a lot lately... but that's what I do when I am on my blah... Do not ask what blah is though.

But I know life is really weird lately... Ever since my grandma passed away in June, things just been going downhill from there.

It's not safe living here.

And anything can happen when you at least don't expected it.

I really wish sometimes my dad would listen but he too, knows that something is wrong... but he isn't doing anything about it.

I am doing double duty of surveys and I am going to make my blogs a bit better soon... and I'm starting back to this YouTube thing... if they ever get it fixed because it seems to be dealing with a lot of problems...

There's a lot of things that I want to do. Most of it won't happen until next year. And many won't happen at all.

I think being happy is hard but that doesn't mean you have to give up.

I won't give up on the things that I love just to force myself to be happy.

Anyway, I just have to keep going and hope that life will be better one of these days.

Unlike some people... who don't understand the whole concept of life... paying bills, taking care of yourself more, and much more.

Tonight, there won't be anything creative... don't be thinking that I've given this up... because I am going to start planning to write... it might start out on paper first but once I get ink and stuff... I'm back in business with writing stories and poems and more. I kind of... want to do a poetry of fantasy and science fiction thing... like make it into a book?

Who knows... dreams are what makes you feel young. Most people might not achieve their dreams but always know... at least, you didn't give up trying.

Giving up is what makes you feel like crap. Always know that.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Small Update

I am here finally. I think my mom's doctor is finally going to give her a MRI on her head.

I will keep you all updated with that. I am going to get back to trying to do surveys today... before I get off for the night to watch Gotham.

I hope that everything will be alright for my mom... and yea... not sure what else to put here.

Anyway, I am going to go and yea...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

This Is Up For A Reason

I'm updating my blog early for a reason. Tonight, I am watching the CMA Awards... sooooo... that's in 10 minutes from the time I type this blog xD

Anyway, my mom went to the ER and figured out... not all doctors know what they are doing.

Alright, gonna go and keep this short. Sorry, nothing creative comes to my mind tonight. But you never know what might come up in my mind between tonight and tomorrow.

I know this post is gonna be short because I really want to get everything ready for tonight... not even coming back on my PC for the rest of the night either.

So... hope things will be well for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Today Might Be Hard

I'm trying to do surveys... and so far, it's proven to be harder than I imagined.

I am still kind of sleepy and really want to do this... so let's get back to doing it now.

Alright, today might be a bit boring. But I really want to try to do these things.

Anyway, I am going to get on with the surveys... hope I can do it.

I will let you all know in the second post.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Break... And Stuff.

I did took that break today from everything. I am going to do some surveys tomorrow... hopefully.

This is how I do surveys... I do up to 5 or less... just depends on what's available. But I don't do anymore than 5... within reason... they take forever on some of them. So you have to try not to hurry or else they will say you're not qualified... so yea... it sucks a lot.

Anyway, not sure what to do tomorrow besides those surveys. I hope that I can do it with no problem. Thursday, I might do some more surveys... but on different sites. Then Fridays, I'm gonna look at other things... While the weekend is catching up on either Netflix or YouTube day. All while, I stand and walk and more. I try to stay on my legs every hour. Basically... every hour, I get up, walk around... then sit down. It's just something I am secretly scared of... sitting too long that I'll gain weight again.

Off topic, really...

So... I'm gonna go and watch some stuff on YouTube and possible go read at 10ish.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Have Dreams

Well, today, I have decided to try this blog thing a bit earlier xD

I have dreams. Right now, I just want to go somewhere warm. I really am not a winter person anymore. It's just Kentucky weather is really messed up. One day, you're like yay it's warm... then the next day, it's snowing and cold. The summer here is not too bad.  It's the winter, the fall and sometimes the spring weather that's get screwed up.

Ah, well.

But hey... got a weird creative thing.

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Look out of your window,
And count the wings of faeries.

You never know when,
You see an unicorn walking.

Look at the sky,
For there's a dragon in the clouds.

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Told you a random creative thing xD

Anyway, I really want to see if I can do some surveys... but might end up taking a break from things on Tuesdays and Fridays because those are my shower days.

Alright, let's see if I can do my blog tonight.

Also, I am going to watch the CMA awards tomorrow so I will try to update the blog at 7ish. Wish I can get streaming to work on the computer but some reason, it loves to skip so I can't do that.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Needing to Schedule My Day More

I don't really have anything creative to put on here tonight. It was to be expected since I spent the other half of the day, trying to find legit survey sites to get a little extra money for the holidays.

Right now, my brain is fried.

I'm gonna start making a schedule of what I am going to do everyday so that I can combine work and play just a little bit.

The thing is... not only do I miss writing and reading... I miss having the time to catch up with anime and playing games.

I need a break at least once or twice a week to do some catching up on some things.

The weekend, I mostly catch up with YouTube or movies... while trying to figure out what to do.

At the same time, I've been trying to stay on my feet more since sitting is not good for you at all.

Alright, I am about to get off the computer to go watch The Gifted and watch that special presentation of Luke Bryan.

Who knows... what tomorrow is going to be like.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Bad At Trying To Get This Up Before Nap

I know. I am bad at this trying to get my blog up before I go take a nap thing.

It will be the same when I have decided to do surveys but today, I am going to gather all the sites up and put it into one place so that tomorrow, I just open them up and try to do at least 1 through 5 surveys each.

I am not sure what to put here besides that I always forget to update before taking my daily nap.

Tonight, I will be watching The Gifted and a special about Luke Bryan.

Anyway, I will update again tonight and try not to be too late for that one because I will try to write early.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Here I Go!

Here I go, flying high in the sky.
Always wanting to asking why...
Falling down when in doubt.
But my heart can only shout...

Who I am! I Am Me!
I Am Who I Wanted To Be...
A person who doesn't consider a human.
A person who doesn't want to be just a man.

I am not you. I am not them.
So I continue to dream.
I will be who I should inside.
No longer shall I hide.

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A random poem for tonight. Since I have been busy watching random videos on YouTube. You don't want to know what I was watching xD

I think tomorrow, my back will be fine. It's starting to feel better right now... But I can't be sure until I sleep later tonight,

Also, I keep forgetting to realize the time change. Curse you, DST... Curse you.

Soon I have to get off the computer to go read and more. I really really want to finish this book quickly and get into the book of dust. :O

Alright, gonna go now... and I might end up leaving the computer early tonight... who knows.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The World Is Broken

America is broken. Well, USA is broken. No... the world itself is broken.

I just have to say it because ever since the changes happened in 2017, I was waiting for something bad to happen. And it has.

Will this wake up people into realizing how people with guns can kill? I do not know. I doubt it because that's how people are.

I think it's because when we came here from United Kingdom, people were so happy that they could do anything. And you wonder why people are always saying they are Americans when we aren't even the ones that were from here.

Ancestry is screwed up.

Alright, I'm sorry for the late post but I wanted to get things done after coming home. I'm tired and my back is hurting still (I forgot to mention that yesterday xD)

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting Ideas But Not Sure Which One To Start With

While I was on my home today, I gotten an idea for a story... that involves with names that run through my family. Names that are no longer used for some reason. I guess tradition comes and goes.

I want it to be a bit of a fantasy and used it as the past into the future kind of thing. Because... it seems interesting to do.

I wanted to write another story that's kind of a forbidden love story but it ends up a happy ending somehow... I think because of the world and the way it is, people would get butthurt with that kind of story... I think I could use an alias for that story so that I can just write it with no judgement.

So I'm stuck with two stories... I think I will get a vote on strawpoll since it let's me write longer sentences.

Here's the site to vote: https://strawpoll.com/eb7s7h54

This post is part of Creative November and the winner of that strawpoll in the next few days will give me an idea of where to start.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I'm not gonna write these two at the same time... I did before it gotten a little out of hand. I was left with a bunch of papers with ideas that never started.

Really Tired

I am really tired. I've been at Richmond all day almost and with a sore back and arm. I know that I was gonna get that problem right as I went to bed last night. And it hurts to sleep on my side so I ended up sleeping on my back almost all night.

I'm fine now that I gotten Philip Pullman's book! I think this will be the best Christmas present ever.

Anyway, right now I am going to take it easy despite that I kind of want something to eat... Not gonna ask my dad if he could take me to a store to find something.

So I will just rest and figure out something later. Who knows...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's Too Early To Tell What We're Doing For Holidays

It's an early start... but I kind of want to get it over with since this is gonna be longest last 2 months ever. While we are not entirely sure what's going to happen around Thanksgiving or even Christmas (too early to tell either way but it won't be too long too).

I guess I hope that sooner or later, we could just... go somewhere else to have a bit of a holiday fun?

Anyway, I am not sure what to say on here but right now, it's just a bit early to tell what to do for anything.

I hope that tomorrow will be a good day... despite there might still be a possibility of rain chances once again. Rain during this time of year is really... confusing to say. Maybe if you live down south but not really here.

Ah, well.

Tomorrow is just another day. I will let you all know in the blog tomorrow if we did anything. Since I am planning to write a late blog tomorrow xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A Random Poem And Recovery

Rain is beautiful but when it's cold,
It sure does get kinda old.
Freezing always come and go.
Standing together when we first said no.

Nothing happens without doubt.
We can't let ourselves live in doubt.
Living through a new tomorrow.
As we wash away the sorrow.

Thoughts that gathered in one's mind.
We always tell others we are fine.
When the truth can be part of another lie.
We don't want to die. No, we don't die.

Heroes are weak, citizens are strong.
We are right, they are wrong.
Time to be who we are inside.
Time to start going outside.

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I know that I am late again with this blog but I needed time to recover from my bad mood that happened to come upon me last night.

Basically, it's a lot to take in when your parents are sick and you really care about them and wish for them to make plans for a child's future. It's hard to get them convinced of anything. So yea. But I think I got it. I am going to do what I do best. Go for it.

Anyway, I will let you all go for today since tonight I will be busy watching two shows.

I hope you enjoy the random poem for today.  Who knows what the second post will bring.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Just nothing comes to mind.

I figure I could sit here and update a blog. However, tonight, I don't have any creative sense in my body to add into this post.

Why?

I think I just got too much on my mind right now. Just a bit too much to think about. My future might not be written but what I do now will affect it. I need to do something. So I will.

I'm sorry that tonight I won't have anything creative but one can hope for a better day tomorrow.

That's all

With love,

BDK

Late Post But With A Reason

I know I am late on this blog thing today but I haven't been feeling too good. My mind is a bit of a fog right now. I'll try my best on typing things.

But here's another let's talk thing...

Happiness for some people are different but right now, I feel like my happiness was forced to be drained because things don't really make sense now.

I have been having trouble falling asleep on some nights. And some days, I am slowly sleeping late. I hope that I can snap out of this habit soon.

Anyway, I think this is a short let's talk. Hope tomorrow will be better for me. I think I will fight and try to do things on my own. There's still stuff to do before I get older xD

Alright, hope the second post will have something creative for "Creative November" Who knows what will come from my mind.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Trying My Hand On A Random Idea

"Nothing is right anymore. I lived in this new world for so long as I could remember. These creatures still don't know that I am not one of them. I have been kept hidden by my human parents. And now I have to reveal what I am. I was adopted, that far I do know. I am a magical creature, that I do not know what yet. My human parents have protected me. But now, I am close to being 18. And soon it would be time for me to go out and be something. I think this new world should be ready for me."

Alright, I done my deed for tonight. Since I am still not feeling too good, I just wrote what was on my mind. It's completely random and only an idea. Don't worry, I will try to do better each day that passes by.

Tomorrow, I am going to rest as much as possible. I need to sleep early tonight because I think it would help me some reason.

Lately, I have been in a bad mood... I might talk about that tomorrow. But I might not. Who knows what will happen.

Alright, hope you enjoy the random idea.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

An Announcement for Creative Novemeber / Let's Talk About Something

Today. I am not feeling good but I do have some sort of an announcement.

I've enjoyed doing the Halloween project with my blog that I will be doing it again next but always with a different theme in mind. I might change my mind around that time next year xD

Anyway, today's announcement... I am doing a special thing called Creative November. A lot has happened for this year. I will not talk about anything have mostly creative elements. Who knows what will come out. I will feature them either one or both blog posts of the day. So just keep an eye out on them. And no, I will not number them. Because it's a challenge that can be featured in either blog posts.

Right now, I am super sleep so I won't be doing something creative in this post. However... the "Let's talk" thing did give me an idea what to talk about tomorrow. It's pissing me off how how many people are butthurt about certain cultures. There's a huge difference between Cultural Appreciation and Culture Appropriation. While one, is showing of a culture: Only if the culture approves of it and like it being appreciated or showing off. The other is mostly only if that culture says something about it. As an American, I want to listen to that country rather than what people has to say in America. We are full of culture of around the world and YES, IT IS GOING TO GET MIXED UP because we are trying to show off our cultures in different parts of the USA. And you really do get butthurt easy because you rather for a culture to stay in one side. Stop this. If you're not gonna appreciate it, then don't say anything at all.

It's something that I see that's been a huge problem for this year. After reading an article about Japan and how Americans get butthurt because somebody dressed in a kimono. Folks... if that country says that it's alright. IT'S ALRIGHT.

Yes, these kind of things do get to me and it's gonna end up on here instead of my FB. One thing I do agree with... you can't be a race or be of a country that you're not born from (unless it's been proven you were part something, i.e. Irish, native American, etc). However, if you wanna cosplay, that's a different story. So there you go.

So there's my rant of the day. And yes, this will be part of my Let's Talk session on FB.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Ok... I think I'll just do the "Let's Talk" thing on here because some people are easily offended sometimes. Also, I can't get the notes to work on my FB... so be ready for a lot of posts on here. Sorry for this.