Sleepy End To June 2016

I am very sleepy so just gonna talk about my grandma for a little bit.

My grandma seems to be refusing everything. She's not been running us off yet but she's been moved back into the rehab too.

So, not sure exactly what is going on... We might go visit her this weekend to see her. I will update by then.

Minecraft With Bestie :D
I had been playing Minecraft with my bestie... although I didn't do anything xD

But it was fun :D

I will sleep now since I am getting sleepy more.

Sorry if this post is short now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Too Much Hectic Moments

So, waking up to find more hectic things happening...

My grandma is still in the hospital but the people there told my mom that they are going to send her back to rehab. Not sure what's going on really.

Too much stress going on.

Video Is Up Now
My video is up now on YouTube. I'll post the link here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFDzoF1cisA

Normally, I would add a video but the searching is kind of hard and Google hadn't fixed it to where I can go straight to my channel. It keeps going into an odd channel instead. A channel that I don't use xD

Anyways, wanna find time to watch some movies and then watch some YouTube videos later on.

So for now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Once Upon a Dream?

Once Upon a Dream, I was lost in the forest to find a fairy... that was most unique and one of a kind. Her name was Maleficent.

I had watched that movie and it was just beautiful. This is the type of fairy movie that I enjoy so much. It shows the true side of what fairies should be like. I'm thankful for Disney to put out a movie like that.

It's interesting how there can be two sides of a story... this was not like Sleeping Beauty at all. More closely, it tells the story of Maleficent and how she became evil and found love all over again. All because of one girl named Aurora.

So, that's my short review for the movie Maleficent. I'll be sure to add it to one of the labels.

Now For Something Else...
There has been updates about my grandma. She's still not eating but the nurses and doctor are thinking that my grandma is making herself not eat. They can't figure out why she would drink this but drink that and be sick.

And more importantly... if she does not try to eat, they will be putting a feeding tube to get the nutrients that she's missing into her body.

I think my grandma has come to terms that she may have to eat. At least, force herself to eat.

All in all, I just hope all things goes well with her.

I will stay up a bit longer tonight and sleep around 11:30, if I watch my time xD

For now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Things. Just Things.

I figured out that Ghost Whisperer is not going to be taken off Netflix after all! Muahaha.

So I have more time to watch that show! For now, I have movies to catch up and finish. I have anime to catch up for new ones are coming this weekend.

I will give you all a list once I finish watching the first episodes of some of them.

Now What?
I got a video waiting on YouTube just for you guys. Just expect it tomorrow at 10AM EST.

I have decided it was going to be early so you guys can sort of enjoy it a bit. It's just another Minecraft video but I plan on doing other videos now that I have a better software. Sadly, I have to record the other games on another software.

But there will be a delay on series games because I want to record them all in sections until I get the game done. I will post the game here early so you get an early taste what's to come.

Then on twitter, I will announce the videos. :D

Alright, wanna go now. Another post later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Thunderbirds Are Awesome?

I'm not technically talking about cars here. I am talking about something over at pottermore.com. J.K. Rowling released the American Wizardry school and I tried out the sorted... and ended up at Thunderbird house. :D Awesome!

Anyway, I am just watching videos like usual. Might be a late nighter because I am uploading too at the same time.

I wish Windstream has a better upload speed because below 1mps is just sucky. No offense... that needs to be changed guys.

Alright, I have been trying to catch up with Ghost Whisperer and there's just tomorrow and Thursday left... so looks like I'll be skipping certain episodes... yay... don't want to be have to. But... if it comes back on Netflix, I don't have to worry about it.

I'm gonna try to record everyday at 2 or so forth just so that I can get a series video out for my channel. The only bad thing... D3D Gear kind of sucks at RPGMaker games... so those will be recorded somewhere else.

But D3D Gear has no lag on major games! So that's a huge plus for playing Minecraft games with loads of people online. Might be a plus for another certain game... I will try it later.

For now, I want to get my internet to be good and upload that video by midnight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Living Day By Day

Here's what's going on with my life right now:

My grandma is in the hospital. She has been in three different places for the past month, today marks a month since it has happened. She's been in a rocky road of recovery. But the place she's in now has been helping her a whole lot.

But it's making me stress a whole lot. It shouldn't cause me to stress but it does because my mom is constantly on the "bug-me" notion since then.

So it's kind of making me not sleep until really late. Now I am trying my best to stay positive through the day but it causes me to be stressed by the time bed time rolls around. When I usually go to bed at 10:30 or 11... I don't sleep until midnight and sometimes not until 1AM.

I wish this can change but it's summer time and there's always a sunny day that's missed out upon because I can't drive which in turn adds more to my stress because I am here to hear my mom complain every single day. Do you hear me complain about living here? Yes, but not as much as she does it.

Then because my body is so used to waking up between 7 and 9, I get up and get sleepy by the time 2pm comes around. Not today, body, not today.

I really miss the idea of silence at a certain time everyday.

I will try to record a video during this silence time but I can't promise long videos anymore. It sucks. I need a room for where I can use the computer without no disturbance from the TV that stays on all day. Mom claims she can't stand silence so it's hard to keep it turned off because then she would turn on some music.

So... I am living day by day with positivity but know that this is my situation right now.

Hopefully, things will go normal. But no, once my grandma will be out, my mom will go straight over there to take care of her. And my laptop kind of sucks a lot. I can't get Minecraft on it... I think the policy says one place? So... I will have to download one of the games that I bought to record a video if I want one.

So... we'll see.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Hope my mom doesn't read this but she can't barely see so I'm good. I just hope all goes well with my grandma and my mom. So... living day by day!

Lazy Monday Turning In Now...

I know that I forgot to do the surveys but I have anytime to do that now. Since I chose to do surveys whenever I can.

The thing about summers... I enjoy the weather but because of the days being longer and the weather having so many humid days, I get lazy.

I don't mean to be lazy. It's just seasons do have a huge effect on my life sometimes.

In Another News...
 My grandma is doing better. We are trying to visit her each night. Though it kind of infects my schedule with watching shows and stuff, I don't mind as long as I get to see my grandma.

She has been eating now. She just has to take time to get into eating again.

Also, About Lazy Days...
I didn't record a video. I really hate it here and my days are just gonna get more lazier the more I stay here. I can't go out because of the humidity and because people were working on the roads at the same time.

I don't have asthma like my mom but I do have trouble breathing when it's really humid outside. It sucks a lot.

Maybe tomorrow be different, I don't know... but I really want to stop taking naps so much. I have been really stressed a lot lately because of my grandma and having to go back and forth on certain times of the day. I enjoy seeing her getting better but I don't enjoy not being able to get things done at a certain time.

I hate being this way. I really need to have my own area where I don't get any TV or scanner in the backgrounds of my videos. I mean that.

Alright, gonna watch some videos but since I am sleepy, gonna sleep as soon as I get this done.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Onward With The Boredom~

I am not a Monday person. So I will have to find something to do so that I will not be bored that much.

I will do some surveys later. Maybe after I take a nap.

Anyway, I am sorry but this blog will be a bit short because I am not a Monday person... again, repeating things for no reason xD

I will watch more Ghost Whisperer and hope to get some more episodes done before 8. Then at 8, will watch some YouTube xD

I might take a break at around 2 to record a video for YouTube. Doubt it'll be a long video because I am kind of sleepy too.

So... we'll see what happens.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting Sidetracked But In A Good Way~

Today, I got sidetracked way too much. After I updated my first blog post, I wanted to watch the movie.

Then... we decided to go see my grandma at the hospital. So getting sidetracked is a good thing.

How is my grandma?
Good question! She's in a good mood today. She was talking a lot and drinking a lot... but didn't still want to eat.

She told my dad she would eat all in good time. So basically, she wants people to give her time to eat food.

And Another News...
I'm gonna start doing daily videos soon. Not this week, but maybe sometime next week.

Each day, when it's quiet (it's rarely quiet), I will get on a game and record a video. I will be doing this everyday until I get a game done. Of course, I will enjoy the game a whole lot and not worry about anything. I will show my natural reaction to each game.

As for what game I am going to do... that's a secret, ok?

I might do like a few tests first before I do get started. I just want to try something. I have decided that YouTube will be a hobby. Not something to look at as a job.

The same goes for this blog. It's my hobby that I just do just to have something to do. I enjoy looking for readers who just comes on and read.

So...

Gonna continue watching Ghost Whisperer tomorrow and watch more videos on YouTube now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Such A Lazy Sunday

Today has been a lazy day. But only because the weather was just too hot to stand it.

I had fallen asleep earlier and just woke up. I had a huge headache. x.x

Anyway, gonna continue to watch a movie for a bit... at least until my mom and dad decides to go see my grandma.

I wish I can keep the first post long but it's short.

I will let you all know what else I've done later in the second post.

Oh, yea, we did went over to my grandma's house to help my aunt a little. That's all we done until we get ready to go later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Binge Watching Might Be Hard For Me...

Just realize that binge watching might be harder than I thought for me. Great. I might not get through all 5 seasons of Ghost Whisperer... with me getting sick and everything else... things just has been a daily struggle for me.

I'm not sure what to do. I need to press pause in my life and just try to figure something out.

Anyways, I am still not out of the woods about being sick and stuff. I took plenty of naps today. And some reason, I feel like I have a heart burn that just doesn't want to go away.

Starting on Monday, I am going to record short videos of a random game and just see how far that takes me.

And on Wednesdays, I'll be recording a Minecraft video just for Thursday. :D

So, we'll see where this leads me to. I just wanna do more videos for my YouTube channel so that I can have something as a hobby to do. Not for the money. Just a hobby.

Alright, I'm gonna watch some YouTube videos and then hit the hay... not sure what time I'll be sleeping yet but we'll figure it out.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Well, I Was Sick...

I was sick last night... Didn't get no sleep at all. I vomited three times and had diarrhea for the rest of the time. I finally grabbed an extra pillow and slept better that way.

Not a fun feeling being sick.

But I'm feeling a little better... trying to eat slow and light until my stomach gets completely better.

Also, drinking plenty of warm water (there you go bestie~ :D)

Anyway, I am feeling quite better enough to get back to watching Ghost Whisperer. :D

This would be a short post only because I am having a bad day still.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I May Had Bought Some Things On Steam

Today... I finally broke down and bought a game recording software... And... it's... called... D3D Gear!

I tested it twice and it works wonderful! I will record more videos off and on each day when I feel like it... it's gonna be a random game each time but will not post a series game until I finish the game :D

The other stuff that I bought are mostly Myst games and Hyper Dimension Neptunia game. The first one xD I don't really know the full game but know it's the first one xD

Anyway, I am going to do loads of surveys to earn more money for... Obduction! It's gonna be one game that I want to play!

But In Another News...
 My grandma seems to be getting a little better now. She's hugging all of us and telling us that she doesn't want to go back to the nursing home.

But she has something wrong with her spleen. They are gonna try to keep her there a bit longer and keep giving her medicine so that she can get better more.

So, keeping positive all for her!

Epic Binge Watching?
I am going to do an epic binge watch of all Ghost Whisperer and possibly Medium... not sure yet.

For now, I will watch YouTube until I go to sleep later tonight. Tomorrow, once I am awake, I am turning Netflix on.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Better Late Than Never?

I think it's better late than never on posting this blog.

What have I been doing? Well, I've been watching Ghost Whisperer since I woke up this morning. Well, besides talking to my bestie until he went to bed.

Anyway, not sure what I am going to do for the rest of the day. I'm not taking a nap or anything so that's good?

I might be busy watching this show... gonna try to binge watching it. :D

Alright, I will try not to keep this post short so I will say this...

Steam summer sale is not all that good, isn't it? xD

I guess I'll have to wait a while longer until July 4th for a program. It might go on sale further. I will check for other games just in case it goes real cheap... like below $5?

Well, I'm gonna go now... this might be a bit short but it's a bit longer too.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's Always Something More...

What do I mean by the title? Well, my grandma just asked my aunt to let her die... I think it's because my grandma thinks that she feels like she is being a burden to us... but she's not. She's not a burden. It's just hard to tell her that because she's over 80 now. She's suffering from hurting all over and she's not been home since May 28th.

So it's something to worry about more. I hope the doctor that she's used to seeing, will help her a whole lot. She kind of perked up a whole lot when she saw the doctor so that might be good news.

Steam Sale! Steam Sale!
Steam sale has started about a few minutes or so after I posted the first post. I was surprised but happy! I gotten only one game so far. And added a few more funds for extra games so I can get a recording software. I'm not getting it just yet because you never know when that's gonna go cheaper.

Just like CinnamonToastKen mention on his video, some games do go cheaper later on. So, keeping a calm face and waiting for a few games to go cheaper because I really want to play those certain type of games for the story :D

Video is Up!
My video on YouTube is up finally! I can share it here if I can find it so bare with me a bit.

https://t.co/sa09up5X2k <--- have to use the link since it's harder to find the video via the search thing. Sowwy. I mean, I could share it through YouTube but that always make a new post so I don't want to do that.

Enjoy the video!

Waiting For Tomorrow
Yes, I am actually waiting for tomorrow to come. Since my grandma is closer (enough to where we can walk if we want). I am glad it's the weekend again but it seems like time just goes faster this week...

I think it's because of all the things that are happening here. I will be better if I can stay positive just a bit longer.

So that's all.

With love,

BDK

Waiting For Summer Sale on Steam

Right now, I am just sitting here and watching Flashpoint while waiting for Steam Summer Sale xD

Anyway, I am not sure if I'm gonna buy any games yet but we'll see. And from what I've read... the sale is going to start really late tonight. So... that's to be expected xD That's about close to midnight for me.

We'll see.

Video on YouTube
There's a video coming on my channel via on YouTube.... so keep an eye out for it guys. I will post it on Twitter when it arrives which is in a hour after this post.

It's a short video and the audio is kind of bleh. You will noticed it when you watch the video.

What Am I Going To Do Today?
What... to do? Well, besides watching Flashpoint and stuff, I might be watching YouTube. I've been fixing it last night so that I can watch videos later on. Hoping that all goes well for now.

I will go and wait for the steam sale tonight before I sleep. I will post another blog before the sale starts so you won't know what I got yet.

For now... wait for a second post later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Causing a New Divide~

Currently, I'm listening to New Divide by Linkin Park. It's like an easy song to sing... long story since I used an app called Smule Karaoke. Yeaaa...

Hint the title. To me a new divide to understand that things are about to change in the future of mine. I'm holding onto a dream and that dream is never gonna die.

So, that's my new divide.

It Works Better This Way!
Yes, yes, yes! I am so glad to start doing my blog differently after coming to realization last night before going to bed... My new method of writing my blog is doing better now!

I just hope that I can continue on doing this method for a long time to come. And hope to gain more readers from all over the world. I don't want to be like pewdiepie and make an army... well... maybe not yet. You all are my fellow readers and to me, you are my faeries waiting to set out to seek a new adventure.

Recording Done, Uploading Set To Open Tomorrow.
Recording a video can be daunting since you have to make it seem perfect. Right now, my videos are not perfect. I might be doing more than one video per week... so keep an out on random videos on there.

I will not have a set schedule on YouTube because there will be some days or even weeks that I would feel like crap. I want to do more vlogs to go along with my blogs sometimes... especially on topics that associate with my life and videos.

News on my grandma!
There's some news about my grandma... she's going to be at the local hospital but I am not sure for how long but somehow, my aunt succeed at asking the doctor to put my grandma in the hospital.

She's barely eating but she's eating enough. Well, she always eat less than usual since I've known her. Lately, it appears that she has been eating less and less. Which worries me a bit. So I just hope that she gets a little better and not have to stay in the hospital for a long time.

Right now, I'm keeping positive and hope that everything will be wonderful.

So with that in mind... Gonna go watch more YouTube videos. xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Looking Forward To More Surveys

Today, I am going to do some more surveys. Not sure how many I'll get to do or anything but hoping that nothing drives me nuts than surveys saying that I wasn't qualify but that's life for me xD

New Topic?
 There are new anime coming out in a few weeks (maybe less) and I will be watching out for the newer ones. I know there are a few sequels that will be listed automatically so you guys will get that list early.

Later...
I will be recording a video at 2pm EST and not sure what it will be like. I should be able to try to speak. The video that I did record yesterday didn't do too good because I got a bit dumb about it xD

What I mean is... I didn't know how to make a TNT explode :D Ooops... But I figured it out and will show it off later. Muahaha. Just wait for me to record that video so you can see what's better than what I just said here.

Anyway, video to record later, surveys to do.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: Trying to keep each post longer than just a few words. It appears it's gonna be harder than said but it'll be okay. I will keep the longer versions at night time. So yay~

Coming To Terms of My Blog... (Not Stopping, Just Revising?)

I come to terms that my blog is only getting views... but not as many as readers. I'm not sure if people are losing interest or maybe my blog are just too short lately...

I want to vote that my blog has been a bit short lately.

Anyway, I wanna change a few things about how I am doing my blog. It's still a personal life blog... but I still wanna add more things to that makes me... well, me.

It always appears that during this time and so forth of the year that my mind gets to be my biggest enemy. I haven't been sleeping good. No surprise there if you are reading my twitter a whole lot.

I am going to use labels from now on. So you guys would know if you search my blogs of what some of them would be about. If the blog contains any info of any interest that I am into at the moment, I will be putting into the label. If it's personal, the label will say personal. If it's a game interest, it will be label game interest or the title of the game. You get it so far what I am doing here.

My blog will not change much. My blog will not be stopping. But it will be revised a bit.

Also, if there's more than one topic in one blog, I will start using headers so that you guys can have a smooth read. And yes, the labels will guide you all.

I know I have been lazy about having pictures or screenshots located on my blog... I really should do more of them. If I get my mind into taking pictures and adding them here xD

Right now, this blog won't have any headers because it's about this blog only. :D

I do have music interest a lot so maybe certain days, I will add a current song type of thing. Just depends on my mood so don't expect it every single day.

I do need to try to make my blogs longer because it appears that I am doing a lot of shorter blogs just to have one out twice a day... I should stop that, really. My mornings are quite different than my evenings so I should keep the short blog out of both of them.

I will keep trying to make my blog better and more enjoyable... so, game on, guys.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Finding Out What To Do Now and Again...

I'm just sitting here and thinking of what to do next. It comes to my mind that I should show off 1.10 since not a videos are showing it off some reason.

Anyway, I am going to go do something first and then get back onto the computer to do this or that xD

I might be watching Flashpoint today since it looked interesting so far. I should have that finish soon since I'm gonna let it run in the background except when I record a game or video or whatever.

I'm waiting to get a little extra money on my paypal to get a software to help me record more gaming videos.

I will go now. And hope that I can record the video with no trouble at all. Minecraft is the best!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Moon is So Pretty Tonight

I'm in love with anything to do with the moon and stars. And the moon is very pretty tonight. My phone can't take a good picture and I'm not allow to stay out all night to watch the moon slowly change color tonight. Boo...

Anyway, I barely got any points from doing surveys... boo again...

But tomorrow, I should have no interruptions so I will be starting Flashpoint on Netflix. That's one of the shows that is ending on July 1st. Boo once again...

Meanwhile, I am lost with what to record on my channel... I wanna go and do a review of a world on Minecraft so... I will ask my bestie if he knows any. Not sure if he reads this yet or not... but will ask anyways xD

I wanna do random things in each worlds... reviews and more... all through Minecraft :D

Alright, gotta go now and finish some videos on YouTube... tomorrow and Wednesday is going to be my recording day from now on... Videos be up on Thursday like usual. So... keep an eye out for anything new.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's Just Another Monday... But Surveys Time :D

I have woken up but I was in a better mood.

Some reason, our mail is really late today. We are not sure why. It's not a holiday or anything so we can't figure out why.

Ah, well.

Anyway, I'm gonna be doing surveys today while watching a show on Netflix. Hoping to get some more points today.... if not today, on Wednesday. I hate having to skip one or two weeks but lately, it's just been hectic with emotions and more.

Hopefully, soon, everything will be alright.

My grandma is still not eating yet... it's not good at all. Just wish a doctor or something would put her in the hospital so she could get some medicine and stuff. Just not sure what's going on.

I mean, my grandma is well... she just refuses to eat. Something is going on that my grandma doesn't want to tell us.

Alright, gonna get started with the surveys now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Planning What To Record Next?

So, I'm gonna sleep soon... might not be until close to midnight. During the summer, I tend to go to bed late.

Anyway, gonna plan to record a video sometime this week... might not be tomorrow since Mondays are quite slow for me. But I will announce it on twitter if I did record or whatever.

I've been trying to keep an update for each week. I might try to record more if I don't take a nap. I will let you all know sooner or later xD

I hope tomorrow will be better. I'm not sure what's going on but I almost typed letter... might be where I am watching a video from Matthias and Amanda xD Oops... xD

Alright, gonna go now. I will watch some shows on Netflix tomorrow and might plan to advertise a server for my bestie...

Watching Captain Sparklez gave me an idea for Minecraft videos... so coming soon.

Alright, time to go... I mean it this time xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Adventuring In London? Nah.

Today, my dad decided that we could go to a flea market down London, KY. Nothing really important there. xD

So, that was our little adventure.

Anyway, I was gonna go straight onto Minecraft but I'm kind of sleepy so I'm gonna take a quick nap then get onto my bestie's server for a little bit. :D

For now, I will keep this short but should be longer (maybe) later tonight.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Need An Escape From... Well... Everything.

Sometimes, there are things that you can't really escape from but there are things that you do want to escape from.

Right now, I just want to go somewhere and kick their butts... all because they wanted to ask for my picture of me wearing pants... Fetish much? I hate guys with fetishes and stuff... And I hate guys who comes out of the blue to ask for a picture of me. I will only give pictures out to close friends and family only. Sorry. I won't give out naked pictures and stuff... so... don't bother asking me.

-_- Things do trigger me and that's one of them.

I'm already having a bad day as it is. So FML.

Anyway, enough of that... I have learn that my grandma might have to go to the hospital.

There are many things going on with my life that I really don't want to be bother by a frustrated guy.

I got other things to worry about.

I much rather talk about things like this to relief the stress and bring in the positive back into my life.

As of right now, the frustration feeling is slowly going away.

But I really want to escape from everything right now.

Maybe tomorrow, I will get back into gaming again and just go.

Who knows what tomorrow will bring but I hope it's more positive than today.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Trying To Stay Positive and Strong

It's hard as it is... when you got everybody around who has a different way of showing their emotions...

My grandma is not doing well. Her health is declining again. I really wish she could eat... if only she could eat, she could get close to a little better.

But some reason, she's not eating... so she might be depressed.

There's an article online that states that when you turn 80 and more... you start to become more depressed. Your close friends, your love one or your children or grandchildren passed away before you do... so you get heartbroken more and more depressed...

Yea... I hope that I don't get that way if I get that old.

Anyway, it's a late post, sorry. I should post again... before I go to sleep.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Getting To Bed, Forgetting To Do Surveys... Yikes...

I hate being distracted sometimes... but that's life for you.

I forgot to do surveys today... I was gonna do them at some point today but completely got distracted with things... my mind is just floated away.

However, I won't have time to do surveys tomorrow so I guess I might be doing them on Sunday if there's nothing to do on that day...

Getting to bed soon since I am going to try to wake up early... well, not sure yet xD

Anyway, tomorrow, I hope that we get to visit my grandma and see how she's doing. Not sure what's going on yet but heard that she still has blood clots in her leg. So... she's got to go to the doctor next week sometime to get a check up. Maybe her doctor would know something more?

I will always keep you guys posted of anything new or excited or positive... whether my mind let's me remember to or not :D

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Sleepy Fridays~

As it appears, I think this week went by a little too fast... or slow... whichever you want to look at it.

I am done with City Hunter finally and it's actually interesting... Not the best K-Drama but it's good enough.

I need to catch up with all the anime now but some reason... Netflix tells me that there are 5 shows that are ending soon... and each episode is a hour long with 4 to 7 seasons... great... a long way to go through those... hope I can make it through them in a week each... ah, well.

Tomorrow or Sunday, I might be going back to the rehab to see my grandma again. She's getting better little by little. Just can't figure out what's going on over there because my aunt is having problems with that rehab. My grandma doesn't want to be a permanent resident there so yea... hope she comes home soon.

Anyway, I will get on with the day and do some stuff... since City Hunter has ended, I will watch a movie and more.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

When It's Close To Bed Time... And You Didn't Noticed?

It's close to sleeping time for me and I just didn't noticed until now xD

I have been watching City Hunter and almost done... looks like the last few episodes will be done tomorrow... so I will watch those tomorrow then.

Anyway, I am not sure what tomorrow is gonna be like yet... the weather has been crazy hot but that's summer weather for ya.

I know this post will be short but I will continue on tomorrow with positivity and more.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Continuing With A K-Drama

I will continue on with a K-Drama called City Hunter and hoping to have it finish soon... not sure about today.

I might be watching YouTube later tonight since I'm doing this early.

Tomorrow I might be feeling a bit better from having this blah... not gonna say anymore than that.

Anyway, I hope things would be well for all of us.

I will continue on with City Hunter...

Also, finding out several anime will be having a long series and more anime are coming back... so gonna be an interesting summer.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Being A Semi Boss In Your Own World?

Anyway, I guess you could say that I am a mod in my bestie's new server on Minecraft. Mostly an international staff xD

I will share the server in a moment but right now, I just want to type random stuff just to make this blog seem long... just kidding xD

I have good news about my grandma... she's getting better and better. We might see her home soon. Keeping positive for her recovery each day.

I won't be having a video this week but there will be one next week... I will plan it out and hope to get something good out of it.

There's a rumor that the summer sale on steam starts next week... so hopefully a few things that I have a list off will be on sale :D

Alright, I will be posting the server here: diagoncraft.serv.nu  so get on and enjoy the newly fresh server :D

I will watch City Hunter until I fall over asleep...

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

When You Feel Like Crap, Go Become A Magikarp.

Random title because I am always trying to stay positive... so I added a Pokemon at the end. :D

So, if you feel like crap, become a magikarp :p

Anyway, I am not feeling too great so I wanted to give myself an uplifting title just for you guys.

I like Pokemon for their Pokemon creatures... Especially the first 100 Pokemon that I know only a few names off xD Sorry xD

I did play Pokemon MMO and it's really awesome to get into. If I had a DS, yes, I would really be playing Pokemon out of norm. If Pokemon Go comes out soon on the phone, I would be playing it like crazy :D

I know a few people got to be beta testers... kind of wish I did but I do live in Kentucky... where everything is behind. :/

Ah, well... I will get this blog up and find something to do. Think today might be a bit of a lazy day since I'm trying to be a magikarp :p

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Strictly Above And Beyond...

I just want to put a random title there. Because everything is strictly above and beyond in life right now.

Being positive has improve my well being as of lately... I have been having a few downers than last year. It's helping a whole lot to sit here and type onto my blog during the day and during the night before I sleep. It helps me keep positive in my life. So... a lesson to be learned... keep blogs shorter if you're not feeling too good... and blogs interesting if you're feeling good.

Good news has been coming today since my grandma is doing really wonderful today. She's been able to stand to take a shower and she's been able to withstand her therapy more. She might be able to get out of the rehab place before we know it.

Also, I am deleting my old Skype because it was hacked. It had been going on for three months now... and they just sent me an email over the weekend about it... Skype... WTF? I will not tell anybody about my new Skype account but only to my close friends and more.

Oh, I may or may not be taking a break this week from making a video... I will let you all know on Twitter again if I do make a video. If not, it'll be available next Thursday.

The reason why I am taking a break from it this week is because 1. It's been a stressful week, and 2. it's that time of the month. I get into weird pains that doesn't need to be explained.

Anyway, I will go to sleep soon but should be staying positive no matter what~

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Things Will Be Okay

I think things will be okay now. So I can continue to be random in my blogs.

I have been watching E3 for a bit... mostly off and on... and saw interesting things. Square Enix will have their thing today so I will watch it later.

Anyway, this will be a short post because I'm gonna go do some stuff before coming back onto the computer.

I will be watching a movie and more City Hunter since I didn't get home in time yesterday to do anything... ah, well.

Right now, gonna get this post up and get ready to roll.

Hope the rest of the day will be positive for me.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

At Least, Today Was A Good Day

My dad finally came home from work. It's kind of odd since he just had a vacation last week and stuff. But we went on to the funeral home to pay our respects. Didn't stay long because it was busy there.

From there, we went to see my grandma at the rehab and she's doing quite well. She's bored but that's normal when you're staying in a room with no TV or anything available xD

I'm sure she would be doing very well soon. Just have to keep her mind-set positive.

Tomorrow is going to be an interesting day since it's the first full day of E3.. I think? Ah, well. I'm gonna be keeping coverage of it off and on through out the day.

I already know that Kingdom Hearts 3 announcement won't be until late winter so I wasn't looking forward to that. But however... it might hint that KH3 might come out next year... so... time to save a lot of money again! :D I'm really good at saving money so it's cool. xD

Anyway, gonna end this now... and hope all things be positive for a bit.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Strange Mondays Are The Best?

I will be watching a conference at around 3:30pm EST here... it's gonna be during this time when I type this blog so I will listen in on it.

What I am I doing? Well, I am watching E3... The highly emancipated electronic entertainment expo... hint why it's E3. It's where gaming and more comes to announce for any new games or new consoles for games.

Anyway, I know that I am a bit late at posting this blog but it's usually a slow Monday for me.

I will be going to the funeral home tonight to pay my respects to my mom's half brother. He passed away on Saturday from battling cancer.

I knew him from my mom but not personally. So, everytime I go to these type of funeral homes, I find it really awkward.

Ah, well. May he rest in peace.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Much To Say...

Yesterday, my uncle passed away. We are going to the funeral home tomorrow to pay our respects. He was a half brother to my mom so it's her family.

My grandma is slowly getting feeling in her left leg so she might get better eventually. We are keeping hopes positive for her and hope all goes well for her.

Now... since I am a gamer, I want to mention that E3 is this week. Most conferences are coming on now or already came on. EA came on... and I'm waiting for Bethesda conference to start.

Anyway, I'm gonna listen to the conference in the background if it ever starts... ah, well... might be sleeping soon too since today was a long day.

I will go now... hope all goes well for all of us.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Break Day~

Today, I will be watching some more of City Hunter then take a break to read for a while. I'm sure a nap is somewhere in there too.

We aren't going to eat out either which I don't mind since all week, I haven't eaten any chicken that my mom made xD

Anyway, I might try to get onto a game too but not sure yet... still kind of sleepy in a way. That's to be expected since I woke up early.

Really, nothing is going on today... and my dad's truck is not trustworthy to go anywhere yet...

So... yay for boring day!

Alright, gonna go now... will update later before I sleep.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

A View In Everything

We all fight some type of battle. If you don't, you're good a person.

I struggle each and everyday to try to make my life positive but it's not something you just do out of habit, it's something that you work hard in doing. Staying positive isn't easy but it's a possible feature to life.

Even though I don't go anywhere anymore, I try not to let it be something that I should let my life obsessed over anymore. That's why when something I see, I will find a way by staying positive and just keep it a wish. Hoping that one day, it would come true. If it doesn't, it'll be okay.

My life may be short but my goals and dreams do not have a time limit. It would either eventually happen or not.

Guys... when you turn at a certain age, you learn to never give up no matter what happens.

Life may try to get in the way of things but you could always keep your dreams close because you never know when that dream would come true.

So... everybody has a view in everything.

It's something that you gotta enjoy eventually.

Anyway, gonna listen to some songs before going to bed eventually. I really want to sleep until 8 or 9 this time xD

So... staying positive!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I Think Everything Might Be Alright?

I think that everything might be alright now. My grandma seemed a little better but not totally. Her left leg hurts a lot so she has do some rehab on that leg and learn to kind of walk again.

Other than that... I think everything will be alright. Just keeping positive about things. But keeping my hopes neutral.

Anyway, I got home and literally lay down... and knocked out. I was in sleeping mode before I knew it.

Ah, well.

I am going to get ready to go to the store now that I am awake. And hope they would have some foods there...

I haven't eaten a lot of sugar stuff and it's been helping me lose the weight xD

Alright, time to go.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

The Daily Struggle is Just Beginning Again...

It's not something that I want to get back into... so hopefully it won't be that bad if it happens again.

I'm talking about being depressed and not feeling like doing anything. I've slowly stopped playing so many online games because I can't seem to find time in a day to get into them without somebody wanting me to do something here. And the phone is always my responsibility anymore... which... is a bit nerve racking a bit. So, it's making me feel like crap.

I've been waking up three times in the morning and staying awake longer. And it's just not pleasant... having to get out of the bed by 8:30 AM... yes, some people are up even earlier than that but I don't work... so different story here.

I wake up... then I try to enjoy the day by watching a show or two... then other stuff.

Then the phone calls start. My mom sometimes answers them but lately, her nerves has been bothering her so I end up with the answering...

That in turn is slowly making me feel less happy in the day.

I think I need an escape. From the phone... from everything.

Anyway, I will try to keep fighting this thing.

I just hope I can stay strong forever.

My bestie is still asleep or busy... but I remember it's the weekend there so he's properly even busy than ever. xD So it's alright. I understand his situation with life there.

Eventually, I will have a sole responsibility with life. Yes, I could have it now but I am stuck in a prison of some sorts, sorry.

So... enough serious talk... I'm gonna try to talk about something else different tomorrow.

It will be a late post because I am going to Berea to visit my grandma at the rehab.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

It's A Quiet Friday.

So far, today has been a quiet day. I had fallen asleep fast last night and woke up early but so far... the phone's been pretty quiet.

So... yay...

Anyway, I'm not feeling too good so just gonna relax and watch some City Hunter finally... then watch the movie that came in the mail today.

I might do some surveys before taking a nap today... at least get some more points. It'll take me a while to get back to having another 100 points on that site... dang.

But I will try to get something.

Alright, gonna go and do those surveys while City Hunter is running the background. Yes, it's all in Korean but if something sounds interesting, I'll check it out xD

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Everything Seems To Be Alright Now?

I think my grandma is at a rehab now. Somewhere that we can go see her anytime we could as long as my dad won't try not be the way he is sometimes.

Hopefully, maybe tomorrow or sometime, he might take us to see my grandma. Then we know from there.

Anyway, I think the phones are quieter tonight than they were ever were... phones are what drives my mom to the point of a nervous breakdown. So her taking the phone out of the bedroom helped a lot. Might be a bad idea since I refused to have a phone in my room...

So... only time can tell.

I think tomorrow will be better since it's the weekend and nothing to do and more...

Just not so sure about my dad...

Ah, well...

I might be going to bed at around 11... if I don't start feeling weird again. That is just a different story... not really gonna mention it on here much.

So... back to watching random videos... never got to watch City Hunter but hopefully tomorrow, I can.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Trying To Find A Way Out of Chaos

Chaos, chaos everywhere. Hope things would be alright by the end of the day.

We are just waiting for my dad to get home but he is busy mowing like always.

I won't go into full detail of what is going on yet so I will save this later tonight at the second post. I just don't know the full details of what is going on either so that's why xD

I just don't know about certain nurses or doctors at that place... I mean, they could find a way to send my grandma to that rehab.

Oh, well... We will find a way.

Just wanna stay positive right now. That's all for what we can do right now.

Anyway, I'm not sure what I'll be doing yet. So I will post again later tonight before I sleep.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

To Continue Onwards With... Things?

Alright, here's the better version of my short post earlier... before I was knocked out with sleep.

My grandma is going into rehab tomorrow. We are not sure how long she would be staying there or anything else. We just have to let fate deal with that right now. But there's always a better way to say... it's best to plan ahead of anything. My grandma might get out of it but then again, she might end up on permanent stay at a nursing home. Just we can't say anything for sure but always have to keep that in mind.

Then next month, my mom is going into for eye surgery on her right eye. She's gonna be taking a cataract off that eye because it's causing serious problems to her and more. That place was super busy and we ended up staying there from 10AM until 3PM... a loooooooong time. Hopefully, it won't be that bad next time when my mom goes into for pre-op surgery... basically, getting measurements and more. I have to be there for her because she's gonna be dilated and possible having to wear an eye patch after the surgery. I will keep you all posted for that a next time.

As for me? I'm healthy. Occasionally pain here or there. But the most pain, I ever feel? During my period. Apparently, it's a thing called severe period pains. So... not sure what to do about that. No cure unless I get menopause at an early stage. Doubt it, but really hope so... Yea... just wanna get over my period that badly. Just can't take birth control because it's already affected my body badly once and sure not gonna try that again.

Alright, I think I went too dark at the end there... so let's just stop there xD Tomorrow, I will continue on with the K-Drama City Hunter and hope to get it finish. Friday, I will do more surveys as usual.

Doubt my dad would be going on any trips this year... but with everything going on, it's to be expected xD

Here's to tipping the glass for not having a great year.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Back Home At Last~

There's gonna be a few updates to post here...

Firstly, my mom has to go back next month for surgery to have some cataracts taken off her right eye. Not sure how long that would last.

Secondly, my grandma will be going to a rehab tomorrow. Should be alright now since that is closer now.

I will keep this post short because I am sleepy right now... Need to take a nap at some point before I fall over x.x

So... with that in mind... another post later.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

At Least, Everything is Calmer Now...?

So, my mom had a nervous breakdown. She didn't know it until she went to see her doctor. He gave her a shot and told her to go home... and if she wasn't better by a certain time, he was admitting her into the hospital. Thankfully, she's better.

But there's some good news: My grandma might be able to get into a rehab closer to us. Not sure when yet but hopefully soon. Everybody is trying to encourage my grandma to eat and get well soon... she's really scared right now of going into a nursing home but if she has that strong will, she should be fine.

This is just going to be a long journey. But hopefully this would ease my mom's mind down a bit... and at least calm her down.

Things are just so hectic... but at least... my aunt is taking care of it.

We will see what happens next. Right now, we can't predict the future so we can't tell for sure what will happen yet.

So... keeping positive for everybody!

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I got distracted by Minecraft... >:D

It's Just Gonna Be A Busy Week

With my mom having to go to the doctor today and tomorrow, and my dad not feeling well... and the stress of having to figure out what to do next... this is gonna be one heck of a stressful week.

And there's things that need to be left alone, hinting the other blog.

Anyway, I am just sitting here just as stressed as they are. I just hope my aunt can get ahold of the doctors to tell them that my grandma needs to go into a rehab... hopefully, she can get an understanding from them.

All I know is we are not sure what to do. We just need help from people. That's all.

I will not talk about anything else for the rest of my blogs because I need to come to terms that I am done talking about it on a phone and stuff.

I want people to know that right now, it's all based on my grandma and her well being and where she should stay in case she does get released. We can't predict on how she does or what happens next.

But... I am just annoyed but I don't think annoyed is really exactly the word for it.

Ah, well... Maybe all of this will calm down eventually... maybe not.

I am going to watch more of City Hunter since I was busy trying to do surveys yesterday. Then I will get on YouTube at 1 or 2... but might not be at 2 since I wanna nap by then.

I really need to get out of this negative mood.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: I forgot to mention but my mom has to go to an eye doctor or something of sorts in another city. They are gonna see if they can those cataracts off her eye. Hopefully that would make her feel better.

Things To Be Done... Things To Be Said...

I am very sleepy right now so this will be fast... and not sure how long it will be.

There are things to be done and things to be said...

So... here's what is up now... I don't care how many people it pisses off... But...

STOP TALKING ABOUT MY GRANDMA'S PLACE.

There. I said it.

Right now, it's more important to think about my grandma than her home. For all we know, she might have to sale her home in order to benefit her health right now. I can see that now. I just hope everybody else does.

I really want my grandma to have a safe home and for her to be healthy. That's all. We don't need anybody to call her up and talk about her home. She really don't need that. And we (my mom, my aunt, my dad AND me) don't need to hear anybody talking about her home.

If she needs to sale it in order to be closer to people who are gonna be helping her more, then let her. I just wish people would stop talking about it right now.

We don't have no way of predicting things and we don't need to assume things. We don't need to think about where this is going to go or what this is going to do. We just need to think about what to do next just in case my grandma does need to go somewhere to stay. And for now, I think she's a strong fighter. She has a will to live. And that's all that matters to me. I want her to have that will and I want her to fight to survive.

So... just stop talking about it for once. The only time we really need to be concern about that is when the time comes. Right now is just not the time.

Besides.... certain people are part of it and certain people are not part of it. Just understand that part clearly now.

I am so done with hearing about what would happen to that home that I don't care if my grandma chooses to sale it. It would be healthy for her to do that.

You all got to understand... she will have loads of medical bills coming in soon. So... yea... just stop.

We just want to think about what to do just in case my grandma does get released.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

PS: And goodnight. Yes, I wanted to rant about this because it's a constant thing going on right now. Sure, I love my grandma's homeplace but sometimes we need to think about how life works too... so if I hear one word about a deed or my grandma's home again... I have a few words to say. Just wait.

It's Just A Sleepy Monday

So, today, my dad has his first day of vacation and later him and my mom will be going to the eye doctor.

While they are gone, I might go and try to record a quick video to have it ready for Thursday.

But that's only if I'm not napping by then xD

Anyway, today is going to be a slow day so I will go get ready and do surveys.

I got my dog, Susie, medicine today since my dad was off for this week. I doubt we are going anywhere because lately, he's not been feeling good.

Who knows what would happen yet...

Alright, time to go now.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Building A Library on Minecraft?

Yikes, it's already a bit late for me so I will type this up as fast as I can.

Anyway, my bestie was awake and so we went on a server on Minecraft that included creative mode.

So... I took the pictures but I have to manually move them to another place to upload here.

Alright, done... let's post them and there's not really an order...

Front

 

Library...

YA section

Children's section

Adult and Non Fiction part 1

Adult and Non Fiction part 2

So... I made a library... but it's a bit... off? Inside is wonderful tho. I think I love the inside more than the outside xD

Anyway, I will be going to bed now because it's almost midnight and trying to get this up before then.

So... short post.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Keeping Strong For Everybody

I am home... well, been home for a hour and a half now... but been trying to calm my mom down by walking down the hill for her and more.

My grandma needs to go to rehab. Not the rehab where you hear stars that does drugs go to. No. This rehab is more for people who needs to by helped by people to reach their strong point so they could be able to take care of themselves eventually. Basically, my grandma has trouble standing and walking on her own. She would need somebody or more to help her out. And she would need this for a while.

The thing is right now, we are not sure how long before my grandma really gets out of the hospital yet.

So, I will keep you all posted of any updates.

I will post another blog before I go to sleep which could be in two or three hours later...

For now... that's all.

With love,

BDK

Early To Bed, Early To Rise... Different Ways!

So, I might end up going to bed early tonight... since tomorrow, I would have to wake up early and be at my grandma's home to meet with my aunt... so my dad can drive her car up to Lexington. My grandma is still in the hospital but she's getting better and better... we are just gonna there to visit her since it has been a week since we last saw her... My mom is missing her like crazy so my dad got soft and said we can go see her tomorrow.

That's gonna be my day tomorrow. I might have another late post by the time I come home. I rather post these live instead of scheduled... The only way I can have things scheduled... is if I am being sponsored or anything. So... there you guys go.

Anyway, I will be trying to go to sleep... providing that my dog, Chloe, doesn't have another seizure like she did last night.

Alright, I will end this now... and get ready to go to bed... which could be most anytime.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Early To Rise, Early To Bed?

I woke up early to go out with my mom and dad to some yard sales... but then we end up at Walmart so I went on and got the stuff that I need there.

Then my mom went to an urgent care place to get some medicine...

Then we got food to take home...

And now we are home...

I am not sure what we will be doing for the rest... and my dad seems to be out of mood... so yea...

Might take a rest for a bit.

So... that's all.

With love,

BDK

What to do... When Saplings Refuse to Grow?

This is what it looks like:

Then this is what feels like: 

Credit to my bestie: Rai xD

So, yea... nothing much going on. Been resting and more.

Not so sure what I'll be doing tomorrow yet because we are not sure when my grandma will be out now.

My dad has his vacation too.

So... yea... I will be going to bed now.

Sorry it took a while... I was trying to find the screenshot but remembered that it all went to the screenshot file under a weird place xD

Alright... time to go... short weird post... enjoy the pictures of Minecraft.

Night.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Planning For This Month...

There's things to be done and things to be said...

So, I will be making more videos for you all to watch. While at the same time, I will be doing more surveys

Though the videos will be only weekly for now. I will announce it on twitter if it's gonna be more than that.

Anyway, I will be busy for the rest of the day today... so I figure before I go and take a random nap later, I'll post this.

So, things to plan out for this month and so forth...

There are two items that I want to get which are Obduction the game and a recording software.

I'll get the one that has the most ratings on steam. Then we go from there.

Just waiting until the summer sale starts before deciding what to buy. That's why I want to do surveys in the mean time.

Alright, should go now...

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Slowly... Getting... Sleepy... Must... Get... To... Bed...

I am slowly getting sleepy so I will get to bed as soon as I post this.

I am not sure what this weekend is gonna be like yet. My dad has his vacation starting on Monday through Friday... and he's been talking about retirement and more... Something serious going on there but don't really want to say anything about that yet.

Tomorrow is finally Friday... which means... more surveys :v

Dad might end up taking us back to Lexington on Saturday or Sunday so we can see my grandma. She's still having problems with her leg being swelled so it seems like she's not over yet.

I'm gonna go to sleep now... and hope tomorrow will be better.

Also, might I add... that Obduction is coming out next month. I really want to play this game so hopefully, I get to buy it on steam when it comes out.

So... night guys.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

I'm Not Lazy?!

Seriously, I'm not lazy... I'm... I'm... well, Thursdays and so forth always get to me...

Anyways, new video below:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSrhGyg_jlM

Too lazy to search it through the video place... since it doesn't like me often. I wish it would just let me put in the link and let it search that way... Blogspot, look into that idea, please?

Alright, some news: My grandma has been moved to another room. She might get out this weekend but she needs to be watched 24 hours everyday for a while. They wanted to put her rehab but she was scared to be put there so they suggested home health to come by to help out.

That would mean, my mom might have to stay over more often too to help out as much as she is able. My mom isn't really healthy herself so she can only do what she can.

So, I will continue on to keep you all posted... if I suddenly stop talking about it, it's just meaning that everything is all good.

For now... I want to take a nap.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

When You Wait For Sleepiness... Things Get Weird.

Yea, meant that... keep seeing things but know it's not there xD

I am slowly getting sleepy but might end up going to bed just after I post this.

I finally did some surveys and got up to 20 points. Still a long way to go... especially with everything that's going on.

My great aunt is at it again... but this time using her kids. My grandma's sister just will never stop. Besides, my grandma did asked that she didn't want them to bother her while she's recovering from that bad experience. My grandma said she just wants her kids (my mom and my aunt) and her grand kids only (me, my brother and all of my cousins).

So, my great aunt really doesn't understand. She just needs to stop bugging us. My grandma is doing fine and wonderful.

Anyway, I should end this post for the night. I will try to post again before late afternoon tomorrow.

I will see you all again tomorrow.

That's all.

With love,

BDK

Still A Long Way To Go...

My grandma talked me and my mom this morning. She still has a long way to go for recovering and more.

I will try to record a video but it might not have any commentary at all. It is just an experimental video using a program to record.

It would be on Minecraft for now. Just walking around and checking stuff... building my home so that I could test it more often.

I will record all of the lag if there's any.

Also, Minecraft is updating their terms and policies because there's companies that were using Minecraft to sale something that is not Minecraft related... bad them.

I will record that video now... again with no commentary. Just wanted to see how it does with games.

Alright, that's all.

With love,

BDK