One Weird Thing

I am so happy that I got time to rest today. I was that tired and it sucked.

But then again, it didn't help to run into the door after I took my medicine this morning. The funny part of it all, I just stood there like what the fuck just happened instead of going ow.

The pain didn't settled in until later so there's that.

So yea.

It's always fun when one weird thing happens to me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Glad Today Is Over

I am really tired. And well, just glad that today is over.

I hurt all over. Ugh... so yea.

I shall rest for the night... while I am editing videos... so there's that.

I am sleepy and want to sleep forever... no offense to everybody else.

I'm just that tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I am tired.

I'm tired, but that's to be expected.

Hopefully tomorrow will be the last and final day of being busy until March comes. I am tired... I am dead. I am ready to just hide in my library and not to emerge until Spring officially comes. 

And so... starts my journey of getting the rest of my journals done. And then get videos done soon.

I love how I am quick to get avis out of my system and add new ones... because I rather support people such as Snowliel, Cinni, Sleepi, and so much more.

So here's to a new dawn and a new start.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My Own Way

 Just writing songs here and I think I can do my own way. So yay for this.

See ya tomorrow.

B

In Pain

Sometimes it's days like this that I just feel like everything feels rushed. I am tired and hurting all over.

It's not fun for my hip to be this way. So yea.

I shall get back to doing my own thing and hope all goes well.

Anyway, shall get back to my journals and hope for the best for me. Even though I am in pain.

See ya tomorrow.

B

A New Hope In A Dream

I am too spiritual for my case in life. I just want spring to come so fast so I can listen to the breeze for the missing voices in my life.

I am really not a normal person, but that is okay.

Everybody is different in their own ways and that is okay as well.

We cannot force someone to change, but we can guide them to the right direction.

And so forth, we seek a new hope in a dream.

I'm always living in a dream. I'm always living to escape the harsh reality. But in the end, I have to live it.

So should anybody.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I am really tired

It's not fun when your head hurts a lot. So you choose to listen to music so loud that you don't care.

I am really tired atm and it's tiring. So yea. I should be okay.

I wanted to take a break, but it's okay. I will rest tomorrow after I take a shower.

And yea... I'm that tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wedding on VRC today.

Today is the day for the wedding. 

I just got back from shopping so it's all good.

I am happy now. Shopping is the answer to my sadness... and well, it helps a lot.

And today, I will be even better.

I hope that all will be well for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Blasting Music Because I'm Done

There's moments that I just want to blast the music so loud and just forget what is going on right at this moment. Things aren't as it seems and I'm done.

I'm tired of people coming to others for the past drama and new drama. It's always something.

And no body sees how it is hurting me. I'm just done with all. And will keep it at that.

When people don't say what they need and it's getting to the point that we may never know what to expect.

I'm done.

I'm too old for this crap. I got other matters to deal with. And if you don't want me to disappear, then stop including me to it all.

I got my future of my own health to deal with. And all of this is just getting too much. So I'm done. Just done.

See ya tomorrow.

B

State of Play is Really Interesting

I just gotta say... Playstation State of Play is really interesting to watch.

So key points: Metal Gear Solid Vol. 2 remaster coming out. A new RPG game I might be interested. A new Silent Hill game coming out. And God of War the OG is getting a remake.

So yea... there are more that I left out so you just have to check it out yourself.

Anyway, I'm gonna relax now before I get online to record a video or two... who knows yet.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wonder Why

Sometimes I wonder why... why do I have to deal with everything that is going on?

I just want to concentrate on my health more than anything. Hopefully soon, I will find out more in March of what to do.

Anyway, I shall get back to my day and get my journals done while watching How To Train Your Dragon live action... it's... interesting by far.

See ya tomorrow.

B

New Shower

I am so tired. But in the end, there is an award. We have a new shower.

It's such a nice shower. And it's a nice replacement, especially with my hip and such.

Now, I am behind so I shall get back to that.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Something Else Happens

It seems like every time I try to do my journals, something else happens.

But yea, I am done with them finally.

I just wish people would just wait and talk to me until I am done.

Alright, I shall get back to my night. I hope that all will be better eventually.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tired.

I just gotta think about things and how things went to shit.

I really want to stay positive but there's always someone out there that ruins that moment for me.

I should be okay for now. I shall get back to my day and finish up here. I want to do videos and finish it up. Hope all is well for me.

In the end, I am tired of all of this. I am tired of it.

And so forth.

I'm just... tired.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Life is too short to stop now

I have been working hard with my videos and so far, I can see the success of doing them. I'm sure they will miss this when the year ends, but I will make one big video at the end of year, thanking everybody for my journey.

If it weren't for my idea of making A Faerie Journey all those years ago, I never would thought that VRChat would be a game that would change my life.

I don't have to show my face, but share my voice. It makes me feel like people are actually listening to things that I have on my mind whether it's for fantasy stories or an advice in life... it helps me to see people are listening.

And in the end, I am gonna make sure to keep making random videos like that. I feel like it's helping people in a way.

Yes, there will be negativity, but I will make sure to stay positive no matter what.

Life is too short to stop now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Things To Think About

I think I will start counting the days before I can find out when I will have to get surgery soon. 

It's all the good vibes only and we must keep going on.

Anyway, I hope that eventually things will get better with my day and so forth.

I should state that I am gonna have to record a bunch of videos all once so that I can be ahead of times...

It will be hard... but it will be worth it in the end.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Just Another Bad Day

With everything that is going on, it just doesn't feel right that people keep hurting people... thinking, oh, hey... they are gonna chance when in reality, they didn't.

I'm fed up with people trying to make choices for others, but they have to understand that leaving like this over and over is not good.

I just have to get through the day and hope that is all will be well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not feeling myself

I'm not feeling myself today and I believe it's because of my stomach. I don't feel right and it's not a good feeling.

I will be okay either way, but still... I just don't like how I feel in my head right now.

Anyway, I should try to sleep early tonight and try not to stay up too late. I realized that I needed to take my nap, but never got to.

Welp, I shall get back to the rest of the night in hopes that I will feel better soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B

It's the matter of when, not the if.

It appears that I will have to get the surgery. It's the matter of when instead of if... meaning, it's happening either way. I do not know when yet. Since I do have an appointment set out on March 17th.

Funny how it's on St. Patrick's Day.

Anyway, I am going to get back through the day in hopes that all will be better for me. I am tired and that's to be expected.

So...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Greedy People

I guess things aren't as they seem. Being tired and grouchy is never a good thing. Being the way you are isn't a good thing.

And sometimes I felt like people are greedy...

Being greedy towards me is not a good thing to show. I can see how you are... and I will slowly just stop giving money out. Even to strangers. Because little do people not realized is how expensive things can be over time.

And so yea... I'm tired and I just need to stop spending my money on others... I need to save for a computer and phone in the future. Because you just never really know when something breaks.

And yea... I'm tired right now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

More Excited

I gotta say, things are gonna be more excited for the upcoming months ahead.

But would I go as far to say that planning a surgery be fun? Nah, but it would give me time to finally relax and heal.

It might take me months to be fully recovered, but at least I can record videos, do my journals and read during these times.

I should be okay for the most part.

Anyway, I got one full day to relax and be ready for Tuesday...

See ya tomorrow.

B