Last Day of September

I need to try to stop being tired, but it's hard after what has happened to me. Anyway, I should be okay and ready to start a new month tomorrow.

Question, would you like to see drawings that I made with cats for this new month?

Alright, shall get back to the last day of September. Maybe tomorrow, I will be fully awaken.

See ya tomorrow.

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Not 100%, but Getting There

I am going to say this... people needs to start being educated on mental health and more. I feel like the world doesn't have enough people to understand what is going on.

So yea.

Anyway, I am better. Not 100%, but getting there.

See ya tomorrow.

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Headache

It sucks after being so sick for so long, you end up with a headache... and the yelling, people being annoying and more is causing this headache.

Yea, that's me now.

Anyway, I am going to try to do my best...

See ya tomorrow.

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Slowly getting better

 As the title says... I am slowly getting better. As soon as I started to rest on Monday, I got sick at midnight that night.

And it sucks... I am still out of it, but I should be 100% soon. 

So... see ya tomorrow.

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Sick

 Sick

Sick

 Sick

Sick

 Sick

Sick

 Sick

Sometimes...

Sometimes karma is wonderful, sometimes it is not.

I'm not sure what to do atm, but we shall see.

Right now, I just want to get away from it all.

Alright, see ya tomorrow.

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Told You So

I hate to be that person, but told you so.

Things can be too much for people and they will disappear for awhile because of that.

So yay me.

Alright, shall get back to the day now.

See ya tomorrow.

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I'm Really Tired

 I'm really tired. So I just want to finish my journals and just relax and not do anything else for the rest of the day. Especially since my right hip hurts like hell.

See ya tomorrow.

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Make Tough Choices

I'm done with money... it is the root of all evil and unfortunately, my evil is in my own home atm. And it sucks because if she finds out what or where any of the money is going forward to... she will make sure that I will not ever do it again. 

Here's the thing, I want to help people. But I can't help if I have only less than 30 bucks in my name right now.

So for the next few months, I will not be getting discord or VRC+. And I do need to tell them that I can't gift their VRC+ either... because it's already hard enough to save all the money right now. And because they don't know how to regulate money or not use door dash (not saying it's their fault or anything), I can't keep doing this every single month or every single time I have money. So I need to give them the ultimatum. VRC+ or Cash only. There's no both at the same time anymore.

Until I am able to get more than 100 saved... I can't do this anymore. I need the money for just in case... but nobody never truly understands this.

And yes, I will say the worst case scenario to them. Because truthfully, I don't think they truly quite understand how hard it is to save money. It's the same for my mom.

So yea... I have to make tough choices in order to be able to save money.

And the reason why I say just in case is because I know that if something needs to be replaced, my parents won't step up to help out.

So yea...

See ya tomorrow.

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Take Matters To My Own Hands

I almost forgot to update this, but I realized that in order to make my mom shut up about certain things, I have to take matters to my own hands. So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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It Sucks...

My mom is always questioning things and it sucks. I don't know why she does that when I am just helping people out.

So yea.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

The Right Answer

 Sometimes I often wonder why I have to deal with overbearing and overprotective parents... it's like they never think about me at all.

And I just want to prove a point by getting out of here.

However long that will be, I just hope it is the right answer.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Surprise To Come

Anyway, I do have a positive note to add: I asked Snowie to marry me. They said yes! But I do have a better proposal planned out for VRChat that I won't tell them. So yea... just told tell anybody. Because September 17 is our 8th month anniversary. 

But those who question why so soon? Do you not think about age? The older you get, the more you just want things to be done. I'm not getting younger and I don't want to wait. 

So... let's hope good vibes as I will be streaming tonight. 

See ya tomorrow.

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Dark Thoughts

I hate people sometimes. There are good people, they are awesome so you don't count. But it's the people who are haters, assholes, and more. They hurt you.

So yea... I'm just trying to get over the dark thoughts in my head right now.

See ya tomorrow.

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Yea...

I am going to try to figure out what to do. Today, we went to London, but yea... 

Anyway, just gonna get things done and hope for the best.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Nothing To See

Just things that really doesn't make sense, but yea. I am trying to figure out what to do for the rest of the day, since I did PT today.

Alright, shall see ya tomorrow. 

B.

It's That Time Of The Month

Sometimes I hate that time of the month, but yea... it is what it is.

Anyway, I am not sure what to think anymore, but I am really curious about things.

Alright, shall get back to my journals. I am glad that I started to go to the Dentist btw... so yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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Having Trouble With Talking To People

I really need to work on communications better. But yea, I have been having trouble with talking to people a lot.

Anyway, I am going to try my best and get all my journals done.

See ya tomorrow.

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Hate Yelling

I really hate yelling... and it's annoying the hell out of me.

As soon as we get home, yelling starts.

And drama starts. And I'm done.

Anyway, I am tired of everybody for now.

See ya tomorrow.

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Should Be Fine

I am trying my best, but the pain is not fun at all.

Oh, well.

I should be fine, but I really want to get away from all the yelling and more.

Shall get back to the rest of my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

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Deep Calls of Help

Sometimes I feel like no one is listening to me and I have deep calls of help... and nobody is there to help me anymore.

Oh, well.

I shall get back to my daily dose of journals and hope for the best tomorrow... maybe.

See ya tomorrow.

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How Hard It Is To Save Money

Sometimes I think people forget that I wanna save money and how hard it is to save money for me.

I don't get paid doing anything and yet, people assume that I am made of money. Ah, well...

The reality sets in and I just know that I need to start saying no a lot.

Anyway, I enjoy today.

See ya tomorrow.

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Just Another Day

Just another day of trying to figure out what to do. Just ready for a day of doing nothing. So yea.

Anyway, I should be fine, for now.

We went back to Walmart because my mom wanted to get some stuff.

Alright, shall get back to finishing my day up.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Some Type Of Peace

In the chaos of this world, we need some type of peace. But then again, we may never know where to go next. 

I just want to burn this town down.

Anyway, is it time to get out of here? Yes. Do I have a place to go to? No...

I really want to go visit them and just try...

See ya tomorrow.

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Trying To Figure Out What To Do

I am just trying to figure out what to do.

Ah, well.

I am just ready to get offline from the world around me and just go away from it all.

Because you see... I don't trust anybody... including my parents.

Alright, shall get back to my journals before I go do PT.

See ya tomorrow.

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Today Has Been Really Something

Today has been really something. I never took a nap when I got home, but omg, I am never going back to a place like that. I was really not in the best mood, but I know I failed at it all.

Ah, well.

I shall try my best and get over the day. I wish I had a chance to talk to my doctor about sending me to a psyc and see what is up with me.

Anyway, I am going to try to get over the day and hope for the best.

See ya tomorrow.

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Things That Just Didn't Make Sense

I am trying my best to survive. My head hurts a lot. But heart aches for a bit. Because of all the things that just didn't make sense with my own family.

And yea... I am ready to get out of here most anytime.

See ya tomorrow.

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