Not Until I Feel Ready

I'm not in a mood for any drama for today and the weekend. I'm just dealing with pain and I can snap in a heartbeat if you make me feel like crap.

Anyway, I guess today has been one of those days that I just feel completely out of it.

Plus, I missed him a lot. So glad he is a good person. I'm glad that I met him.

Anyway, I'll introduce him to you all eventually. Just not right now.

Not until he feels ready. Not until I feel ready.

- B

Get On With My Life

I will never tell anybody to go after anybody unless there's something about the person that is wrong. And let me tell you, my recent ex did me wrong. And discovering something just made it worse on him.

Oh, well.

Anyway, I am just not gonna go there anymore. It is what it is and most of them brought things on themselves. I do not cause drama and it's never me.

I shall get on with my life. And forget them.

I hope that I can get over the few days ahead because my period has started and it's not backing down anytime soon.

Basically, don't try me around this time. I'm an emotional bitch and I do not have any mood for any bullshit. So fuck off.

- B

PS: Forgot to mention that today is my brother's birthday and he gets to go home today. I'm happy for him.

Don't Lie Around Me

I want to say this first... if I did anything wrong in my life, I will own up to it. I own up to the location, but I know for sure I would never message anybody unless I was told to. There's a difference there for me and other stalkers. And if someone keeps on believing that, that is on them.

Anyway, I know I have many things in my past that I did wrong. But again, I would never be that stupid person to message someone unless it's a fucking emergency.

Now that is over with... I am done with liars. I deal with liars in my best enough to know when people enjoy lying... and my ex did so.

It always makes me wonder why people enjoy trying to add a fake truth to a lie. I was done with it when someone else told me what was going on. So yea... don't lie.

I am not a normal person at all. And I will never be a normal person. I hope people will see that. This is why I want to be a detective one day because somehow I am able to read people like a book.

I am going to work on my goals now. And I don't want anymore problems to come into my life.

- B

I Shouldn't Be Scared What Is Next

I almost broke down this morning, but I lifted myself up with a reminder that I am better than that person who broke my heart.

I am still missing pieces, but I think I found the one. The only problem, I can't predict my tomorrows just yet. And I don't want to because I do fear what is next.

After being hurt badly, I am scared of a lot of things and I really don't know what is my next step in life is yet.

I miss streaming on TikTok a lot... maybe once everything is settled down, I'll be going back to it more often.

After all, we still got so many days left and the app is still not on Google or Apple yet.

Anyway, to my friend in the past, Froggy... I am gonna do better. I will be better than my ex.

- B

We Shall See

You can't hide forever. Eventually, what happened to him will catch up, and well, ruin his life. If not already.

I couldn't sleep because of what I keep thinking. Maybe things would be better, but we shall see.

I do know it is that time of the month. So yea.

Anyway, I shall get on with the rest of the day. If any of you wants to see me stream, come by my Twitch.

- B

Writing is Hard To Do

Writing is hard to do when you are doing something else. I need a day off.

So yea...

Anyway, I will get on with stuff now.

- B

I am better

When you find out something that hurts you more than anything and you realize that you made a mistake for standing up for someone.

I hate how I feel. And I really don't care. I'm done.

If the world finds out, it'll be on him. The only way I can do it is if the person gave me permission and since we wanted to protect this person, I'll respect it. I'm just waiting for more to come up.

Because you should know, one way or another, the world will crash down on you. And what you do, it's on you.

Anyway, I will end this blog with a positive note.

I will do better. I am better. You should learn to do better and stop before things gets worse, but I'm sorry, it's already worse on you.

- B