Um, I was busy with New Year's Planning

 Oops

On A Rant

Sometimes you wonder why people doesn't understand things. Here's the thing, I am going to keep in mind that things has to be done the right way...

You can't expect to go somewhere and "rescue" someone from a horrible situation... without knowing the consequences.

I'm tired of having to be around people who are dumbasses...

Anyway, I'm done with my rant...

If you're wondering what I am talking about, look into the case of a missing child found in Maryland... should be the most recent case.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Everyday Is Gonna Be Normal

So here's how I feel: In pain. I'm too used to being in pain constantly. Until I can figure out more information of what is going on on Feb 3rd... as long as nothing else happens.

My night was tough. I had a hard time to even fall asleep. And that itself is not fun at all.

I am trying to keep myself from not forgetting stuff... so that I can have a decent blog at least.

Keep in mind... not everyday is gonna be a normal blog.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Why I Don't Show My Face

I often wonder why people enjoy making fun of my face... and now you see why.

All my life, I've been called names because of my face.

I once told my ex about it and he was like "oh, yea, that's a good thing." I was like "Um, no, they met it as a bad thing."

Sometimes people needs to understand the difference between a good thing and a bad thing.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B 

Getting Things Done

I gotta say, I really want to make my room a lot different, but it's hard to do anything when I am behind on reading and just want to take things slower than usual. Anyway, starting next week since 2026 is literally towards the weekend (not exactly the weekend, hint the word towards).

I've decided to do better and get things done in a better way. 

I do have to upload an avatar but I am going to get my journals done first since I do have a lot on my mind and such.

However, I did promise to write better blogs, so that's what I am gonna do.

Each day starting on Thursday, Jan 1st 2026. The blog will start out with how I feel and what the day is like. Then I will add if I remember anything from the past or if anything interested happened that day.

However, what will not be included is what happens at night so I will try my darnest to mention about the night before. 

So do wish me luck.

See ya tomorrow.

B

My Resolutions is Here

I just realize that I have not been in the best mood today.

But I will be fine. 

Anyway, I did make some resolutions... but I'm leaving the last one to whatever comes to me... because I can't always control what happens in life... so yea... here's the list:

1. Try to get my hip fix. I'm done with the pain and really hope this happens this year.,
2. Read more.,
3. Be closer to my found family and my soon to be wife.,
4. Be a better person.,
5. Try to get my permit whether my irl family likes it or not.,
6. Get either my poetry collection or novel published,
7. Make time for projects.,
8. Save money.,
9. Maybe travel.,
10. Leaving this for anything else.

As you can tell, I left number 10 for anything else. Because you never know what is going to happen.

Starting in 5 days, I will be posting my blog all over... so that's gonna be fun to do.

As for what I am doing on my blog... it's gonna be a mix of reflections and more. 

So... wish me luck.

See ya tomorrow.

B 

My Brother Is Home

I'm not gonna say much for today since it is Christmas Day. But my brother is home. I am just relaxing and watching the final Christmas movie that I have been doing since Thanksgiving xD

Anyway, shall get this done and stuff.

See ya tomorrow. And maybe my new year's resolutions.

B

Things Happened

I'm trying my best to get through the day.

So to put it in context... my brother had an emergency. He fell and broke his hip sometime last night. He had hip replacement surgery today. He is doing fine, but in recovering. He might get to go home tomorrow, but only the doctors will know.

Just seems like a lot going on. So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Getting Better

I'm getting better. I just need to figure out how to get out of here.

Things are not as they seem, but yea. I do need to fix my room up for the just in case moments.

Anyway, I shall get back to doing the rest of my journals. And also upload several avatars when I get a chance.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't Know Anymore

I'm just trying my best.

And I'm done with drama.

I'm tired.

And I just... don't know anymore.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Yay me...

In this week or so forth... but really soon, I will be doing my resolutions for the new year. So... yay me.

Shall get back to finishing stuff and uploading avis... as it seems like a side job. Yay me...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Karma is The Best

I'm trying to my best. And now we got an enemy on our hands.

And well, I hope you enjoy karma because you might say all those things... it won't happen. So good luck with you.

And so yea.

Keep an eye on my tiktok soon.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

Trying My Best To Get Things Done

I'm just trying my best to get things done. I really need to start uploading all these avis so that I can get more things done before so and so.

Who knows.

I shall try my best and hope for the best.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Busy

 So this is a continuation to the post from yesterday.

So we went to the store like usual. Then we went straight over to Walmart. Then my mom went to the ER. She's fine... just needed a shot for her breathing problems.

So a lot going on.

Now I am going to rest for a bit before I get back to my daily life.

I am behind on my journals because my computer was being a butt.

I am trying my best with all these journals... that I think I need to try to my regular journals for afternoon... well, part of them. 

Then yea...

I do have a busy year ahead... so that's gonna be fun too.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tired

Things happened. That's all I can say.

I Want A Christmas Miracle

So a bit of news, my dad's work place was robbed over the weekend. I didn't put it in yesterday since today, he found some of the items at a place that buys semi truck items.

Anyway, I am still dreading Christmas next week. I just wish I was somewhere else instead of being at home.

It sucks when I don't have any money at all.

So... yea... I just want a Christmas miracle now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish I Was With Her During The Holidays

I really do hope that I can catch up with letters tonight, even though it would mean to do more than usual.

I'm not sure how I feel about the holidays in the coming weeks ahead.

I feel alone.

And just wish I had somebody else to celebrate Christmas and New Year's with me.

And yea... we all know who that somebody else, which is my fiancee. She's been wonderful to me. And more than anything, I want to be there for her during the holidays.

Granted, I do have my family, but it just doesn't feel the same like it used to be.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Who Knows What Else

I don't know what to say. But I feel like things are gonna be a bit different for awhile.

I should be okay for a bit.

Anyway, I shall get back to doing my journals and hope that all will be better.

Who knows what else.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Trying My Best

 I'm trying my best.

But yea, I gotta say there's gonna be a lot of emotional days ahead for me. Since my period has started. 

Anyway, I gotta say that tomorrow is in between whatever the heck we are gonna do.

Since Monday is gonna be a busy day for us.

Alright, shall get back to my night... and have a little fun tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B 

I'm Tired Of My Dad

 I'm tired of my dad thinking he can fix a problem. 

To put it into context... Our tub with shower keeps having cracks. Instead of buying a new tub or replacing it... my dad decides to put this stuff in it that supposed to keep it from leaking... only problem... it's very hard to stand on top of that stuff because of how it looks and feels and it makes the tub much more slippery. 

Now to also put into more context: I have been having issues with my right hip as of late. Any movement flares up the pain and it's unbearable and it makes me feel sick physically. I am not able to handle this type of pain because of how bad it is.

My dad really needs to fix this problem. But his solution isn't always the best answer.

I mean, I literally have a hole in my half bath in my own room... he covered it up with flex tape. Yes, you are reading this right.

My mom is not any better as she just thinks that I should do this or that.

So yea.

Enough... is enough.

I'm done.

Once I ever get a chance to get the fuck out of here, I will be happy to get out of here.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Communication To Get Things Right

Sometimes it takes a bit of communication to get things right.

And yet, I can't figure out why these things even matter after tonight.

I am not sure what to do anymore. As I do love this person so very much.

Just... am I even okay with this lifetime?

Anyway, shall get back to my day and hope for good things.

See ya tomorrow.

B

How Money Works

Sometimes I think people doesn't understand how money works. Then they are like "oh, hey, I can do it." But realizes that I included discord shop and nitro+. So, what else do you expect?

I can't keep doing this every single time.

I'm not rich, nor will I ever see a chance to get any extra money for a long time.

I can't go anywhere without my license. And yea...

I'm just tired of it.

And you expect me to help you. Seriously...

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

Anyway, I'm going to finish up my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Always Behind On Stuff

Sometimes I feel like life keeps getting in the way and I am always behind on stuff.

It happens, I guess.

Anyway, shall get back to my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hidden Tricks

Sometimes I often wonder how things are now.

And I think sometimes people uses hidden tricks in order to hurt other people.

Why else did they leave like that?

Did something happen?

Only answers will come out eventually.

I hope.

Also, today was a useless day trip to go to an appointment so yea.

It's not fun.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Imaginations Could Be Visions?

Sometimes I wonder if my imaginations could be visions. 

Because I write a lot of interesting stories... but one scene in my story keeps coming to my mind.

TW: Self harm

She stood at the edge with the blade close to her neck. She started hysterically staring into his eyes, saying to get away from her. He grabs for the knife and falls into the cold waters below.

This is a scene from Moonbow Falls. I left out important parts because it's still a vague scene. But it's full of triggers. 

I haven't decided to make it a romance story, but I do want to add a few flirts here and there... then make it like an ending like K-pop Demon Hunters (it wasn't even inspired by the movie, but it feels like it should be now.)

Anyway, I got a lot of stuff planned out, but sometimes I do wonder... if it's possible to have visions out of nowhere.

And I really want to make my blog darker because of my eyes. Yea... google... hope you read this xD

See ya tomorrow.

B

Good Day

I am trying to stay awake. I did a lot for today.

So yea.

I am so ready to get things done and hope that all will be well.

I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring yet. Just have to do my best.

Anyway, I did had a good day watching the Christmas parade.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I feel lonely...

I have to admit something... I feel lonely.

I'm not sure if it's because of her. Or because of my parents. Or because of what happened last week.

Words cannot explain how I feel right now and I just want to be away from everybody in this world.

I doubt I ever get my wish.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Realization Has Been Unreal

Sometimes I have a lot stuff going on in my head.

After last night with my parents, I just don't know how long I can stand being around them. All that yelling bothers me.

Then sometimes I feel like things are familiar and it sucks... and I just realized that... things are not as it seems.

I haven't said much about my visions and thoughts... and the realization has been unreal... and I'm not a normal person.

I just hope that all will be well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Behind On This

I just noticed that I am behind on this.

Just a lot of stuff going on and it really sucks a lot.

Anyway, I shall get back to finishing a movie.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Am Doing So Much....

I am trying to get through the day with no problems, but I never thought that I would have to do this or that.

And people expects me to get on vrchat without realizing that I am doing so much.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and more.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Just Another Day, but It's the Last Month

Just another day. The only thing different, it's the last month.

I am going to be doing a lot of catching up and sending out the last of the Christmas cards on Wednesday or Thursday. 

Anyway, shall get back to the rest of my day while at the same time, trying to work on my blog a lot better.

Oh, yea... I'm gonna be having a wedding some point.

See ya tomorrow.

B