Don't Like Suddenly Touching Today

I gotta say that I don't like suddenly touching today. There's a reason why. I should be okay.

Just ready for the day to actually be over with.

I hope that all will be well for me.

Shall get everything done so I can do stuff.

See ya tomorrow.

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Some News About My Hip

I found another one of my older songs. I really need to find all of them and add them to a file online. So I won't confused myself and repeat a song later in the years.

Anyway, so some news. The injections are slowly harming me. Not good. So I am going to try physical therapy which I know might not help at all. But I will do them for this doctor.

Then from there, I will try to convince him to get a CT scan for me.

Because I feel like this is a deeper problem like before. 

Anyway, I shall relax for the rest of the night.

See ya tomorrow.

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Hate My Monthly Things

I am glad that today is a relaxing day, but I can tell you one thing, I hate periods even more than ever. Pain in my right hip, pain in my lower section, so it's not fun.

Anyway, I shall get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

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My mom is gonna be alright

I am glad that my mom is gonna be alright. 

I hate my stomach hurts a lot. And my period finally started, like I predicted.

Alright, shall get back to finishing up my journals. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

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What's Yet To Come

I am not feeling great. But that's because of what's yet to come.

So yea.

Having the period and dealing with the busy week ahead is not a good combo.

So yay me.

Alright, see ya tomorrow.

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Tarot Card Readings Are Creepy

 Just realizing something. Last year and the year before, I kept drawing reversed the lovers... it means several things, but the main one is my love will be undivine than the normal relationship. What... what if... it's because of my relationship now? What if it was predicting this? If it no longer appears in my readings, then I know that yes, it was.

Anyway, I should be fine. I keep having a lot of overthinking, but I should be okay. 

I hope that tomorrow will be better but yea... I am not looking forward to this week at all.

See ya tomorrow.

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Made My First Music Visualizer

 I wrote the lyrics. Used Suno for the music and vocals. Enjoy.

I'm gonna hope doing this makes it better.

See ya tomorrow.

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When You Have Cats

 Today was just a relaxing day... except when you have cats. 

I am going to try my best to be at an event tonight since I want to support this creator. So yea.

Anyway, shall get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

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Just A Week Away

Welp, in a week, I will be going to Lexington to see if I need a CT Scan... Gonna try to beg them to get the test done closer to where I am. Because going back and forth to Lexington is a lot as it is.

Anyway, I should be fine for now. I just know that the last few weeks of this month and all month of September is gonna be a bit hectic so I just have to do my best not to over stress.

But I have people to help me now. So I'm all good.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Lot

I got a lot of stuff to deal with. But yea.

I wanna be able to get through the day and hope that in a week will be good.

There's some stuff that I wish I could be over with certain things.

Ah, well.

See ya tomorrow.

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All We Ever Do Is Just Run Around

I hope that this week will be calmer. So I can actually be ready for what's coming up next week. So yay me.

I just hope that all will be well for me. 

I just know how tired I feel because it feels like all we ever do is just run around in circles.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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I Will Be In A Bad Mood

As long as I hurting in my right hip, I will be in a bad mood.

Anyway, that's all I wanna say.

See ya tomorrow.

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It's Been A Long Day

I'm just trying to get over the day... because taking two trips at the same time. So yea.

I am glad that we got Walmart over with... but seriously... it's been a long day.

Anyway, I got an avi to figure out how to upload... so see ya tomorrow.

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It's Okay Not To Be Okay

Memories keep flooding back and I'm not okay. So yea.

I should be okay for now. And there's a lot going on at the same time.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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Questioning Who I Am As A Person

Sometimes I begin to question about who I am as a person.

As many of you know, I came out as she/they. It's short for she/her/they/them. And I came out as grey ace. Recently, I found myself being demi and pan both. Because my attraction changed a lot over time.

And come to realize that I am... not like I was as a child.

Being raised around men, I am friends with a lot of males. And my attraction is a mix... because I fell in love with something that nobody knows about truthfully. I like people who are both male and female in one body. Is that strange for me to say? Not really.

So it came to realization that I am okay with who I am with.

And my partner brought me understanding that I love them just the way they are.

Alright, shall get on with the rest of the day. Busy day tomorrow.

See ya tomorrow.

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Good News

I am just glad that today is over. I am just glad that my mom has good news. So yea.

I hope that this will continue through out the days and months ahead.

I'm hoping that I can get some rest tomorrow. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

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Got A Lot of Stuff To Deal With

I got a lot to deal with for tomorrow and Friday and Saturday.

I just got a lot of stuff to deal with for now. Then I hope all will be well for me.

Who knows what else to do.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Be Glad To Get This Whole Week Over With

I gotta say that I am gonna be glad to get this whole week over with.

But yea, I will be okay. For now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Stress

I am just trying to do my best. 

Stress seems to be getting to me. And I am trying my best.

That's all.

See ya tomorrow.

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Busy Week Soon

I am just tired. That's all. I want a day where I can be at peace and alone so that I can relax.

Seeing that my challenges are writing next month, I am going to try my very best to do things. 

Starting Friday, I am planning the challenges that are weekly based out... and the daily ones start that day as well.

So it's gonna be fun when I do start it. 

I will be carrying more journals than ever. And the daily journal will be ending soon. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

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Second Opinion

Today, my mom went to another eye doctor to get a second opinion. And this one was much better and kinder. They told her that she does need to see more into what is going on with her eye. It's not normal to be bleeding in the eye like that.

So she is going to see her family doctor next Friday. And going back to London on Wednesday to a specialist. Anyway to figure out what is the cause of the bleeding in her right eye.

We know for sure she does have high blood pressure... so yea... it's gonna be a long ass time for this issue.

And to add that she is going to have a mass removed from her thyroid sometime either this year or the next year.

Just a whole lot of stuff going on.

And guess who thinks only about themselves? My dad. As soon as we got home, he decided to go mow the yard again. He already mowed it not long ago... well, this week alone.

So... my dad thinks that he can work himself to death that we wouldn't have to rely on him, but we do. The local transit services suck ass.

Ah, well... nothing I really can do about it all.

See ya tomorrow.

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No Doctor Should Be This Way

I'm just happy that today is over. Not the good happy though. The eye doctor is a bitch for starting it all.

Mind my language, but that is how she felt to me. She literally scared me and my mom to death over this. And over nothing too.

I told my mom that I cannot go to a doctor who is constantly negative about things. No doctor is supposed to be that way... especially when there are people WHO actually has those problems. So to scare people who are not serious or healthy that way... is a big nope in my book.

Anyway, I'm tired so I'm gonna rest for awhile... no streams, but maybe a movie night for me, myself and I.

Hopefully tomorrow, I can be free from all things negative.

See ya tomorrow.

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It Sucks

I am just trying to figure out what to do. But I am not sure if I will ever be okay.

Talking about things is annoying. So yea.

I just feel so lonely. And it sucks.

Yea. 

See ya tomorrow.

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Scared of Getting Hurt If Plans Changed

I hate planning out the future that we don't know what is going to happen. I stopped doing it because of the death of my grandfather. 

I was going to get my permit that year, but then all of that happened after the death. And I just... got hurt.

I'm scared of getting hurt if plans changed.

So yea.

I'm just got not okay right now.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Journey Is Different Than The Other

I want to try to do something new in my life. But only time can tell. And well, we just have to stand strong and believe in ourselves. 

I am trying to read more and I think I will be glad to step up with this new part of my life.

Each time a journey is different than the other.

Let's get through it all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

That's All

I'm done.

That's all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Angel Numbers Are Interesting

 My birthdate angel number is 7. But it's not for good luck... if you're wondering. 7 is actually a number that associates with rebirth. It's meaning is a lot higher than you realized. And I often wonder if that's why I keep seeing 7 when death happens.  I was 7 when we moved and I had hearing tubes put into my ears. I accepted what death was a year later, when my grandfather passed away Dec. 1st 1994 at 62.  (My dad's side). My brother lost his friend due to a car accident a few years later. He passed Jan 20th 1997 at only 17 years old. You'll soon start to see a pattern with the number 7.  My grandfather on my mom's side passed when I was 16 on Oct. 23 2002 at 88, I had a bad year following his death and didn't really enjoyed turning 17. Due to my parents. and my mom's ex.. long story. Now just 7 years and only 11 days of my grandpa's passing, my aunt passed away on Oct 12 2010 at 56. I was 24, so you can imagine what I was going through at a young age. My dad's step mother passed a few weeks later on Nov. 8th 2010. at 74. 7 years later, my grandmother on my mom's side passed away on June 17th 2017 at 84 years old. I was 31. May 10th 2016, I had my gallbladder removed.  June 12 2019, I had my thyroid removed. While 7 is seen rarely, but it is noticeable in some parts... for example my dogs deaths: Susie passed August 7th 2023, Chloe passed November 7, 2024. Susie was 17, Chloe was 15. So if you're wondering why I am talking about this... 7 is not good luck but a sign of rebirth. 

I just want to type this as a note.

See ya tomorrow.

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Ready For The Day To Be Over

I am glad that we got the whole ordeal with Walmart done. So yea. I'm just ready for a new day to stay.

I'm gonna try my best to stream later and get through that.

As for tomorrow, I can't really predict what my dad wants to do... so yea.

See ya tomorrow.

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Made Me Who I Am Today

Today marks our 6 month anniversary together. It's really seems like time goes by fast.

I do want to mention that there are things that I learned in this harsh world. We move on when people pushes us away... and never bother to say why they did so. We just move on. However harsh it seems, I tried... but I just can't.

The hurt keeps on hurting and I want to heal from it all.

Whatever they did to me in the past, it made me who I am today.

So... yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Present is More Important

I am a bit tired, but it is alright. I'm just vibing and trying to work things out with my head.

I need to save money so I can plan things accordingly. And although, my mom did make a decision to have surgery on her thyroid. I do have to be there for her no matter what.

So yea... I have save extra money to go eat and such.

I just don't know what will happen next. Reason being is I am going to get a CT scan and see how bad my right hip has gotten. Being born with dislocated hip and a repair that they already told me it was temporary... it is surprising and not surprising... surprising because of how long I was able to be with this hip problem. Not surprising because I do know that I am expecting this to happen eventually. 

So anything can happen with these 6 months ahead. So yea.

Let's hope for good vibes and get through what we have right now. The present is more important that tomorrow or yesterday.

See ya tomorrow xD

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Next Year Plan

I'm just trying to survive today. I will be alright, but I am tired.

I will get to stream tonight. So yay me. 

I just need to these blogs better, so hoping that I will get things done better in the near future. If I am still doing these challenge next year, it'll be fun. Yes, I am going to start adding blogging to the challenge for next year so that I can at least do some blogging next year... maybe more than one blog a day? Because I will be doing the blog everyday type of thing.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Let's Hope For The Best

I seem to always have to do stuff in the day. But it's okay. I will be fine. I just need to figure out what to do next. Anyway, my mom has made her mind up what she wants to do.

So... let's hope for the best then. 

She's worried that it might interfere with my not-known surgery. I haven't got the ct scan yet so I won't know yer.

So yea.

Let's hope for the best. 

I Give Up

 I am just trying to survive today and there's a moment that you just give up on everything.

Anyway, I will be okay, but I don't think he quite understand about how I feel about women being around him. So yea...

But I can't stop him.

So yea.

I give up everything.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Busy Day Today

Today, we decided to go to London, KY. We went to the flea market and stopped at Walmart. 

I do question on why I have a stubborn parent who refuses to get help when they are in severe pain. I'm done trying because they chose to be this way.

Anyway, my right hip and right knee are trying to give out and I know why, but I really wished it wasn't this way.

For now, I just have to do my best.

I bought a few items today and kind of glad that I did.

Alright, see ya tomorrow.

B

My Arm Hurts

I got to drive again! I can't wait to get my permit so I can try driving on the highway soon.

I saw that the rally is happening again. I really wish I could go see it, but oh, well.

Anyway, I am trying to figure out what to do about my arm. It keeps hurting more and even at resting it, it still hurts. So I don't know what to do anymore, but to ask my doctor what I should do about it.

I shall get the rest of my journals done and rest until I stream tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm ready to go

I feel tired and ready to go to sleep anytime to be honest.

Being a caretaker is a worthy task, because you get rewarded in the end. But it's not for the sake of many people. As I will never get an answer of what I should do later in life.

I'm ready to go and get away from here. I'm tired and want to be closer to somewhere else.

Where that is, only one can guess.

For now, I will be okay... even if I'm not.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Scares Me

I am gonna try to type this as much as I can without my hand hurting, but once it hurts, I'm stopping.

I have been out of it the past few days, but because I knew my mom would do what she did.

And it scares me more than anything. 

I am going to get on with the rest of the day and hope that all is well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Knew It Would Happen

I knew she would do that.

And I'm not in a good mood about it.

So yea.

I'm done.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Staying Up So Late

I need to stop staying up so late... but last night I just wasn't feeling it. And I may have overdid it with the horror maps. So yay me.

Anyway, I shall try my best for today and hope that tomorrow will be better for me.

Some reason, I felt like someone is watching my every mood... is that good? Not sure.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Start writing again next month

I am going to be glad when I start writing again next month. I got two writing challenges that are gonna be every week so it's gonna be fun to do. It's about time to get something done.

I am not in the perfect mood at this moment. But yea, it's time for me to get out of and enjoy this life a bit more.

Alright, shall get back to my day... I have a movie that I actually enjoyed so far.

See ya tomorrow.

B

It was a long day

I am just really tired. And today felt like it was a long day. I mean, we went to get my aunt then she wanted to get something to eat. Then we had to take her home. It's a lot of miles to there, then to Walmart, and then back to her place then back home.

So I might be a bit grumpy and out of it for a few days because I felt like I never get enough rest with this family sometimes.

Ah, well. I will be glad when I get my license because I can avoid all of this in a heartbeat xD

Anyway, I will be busy again tomorrow.

See ya tomorrow with me complaining again.

B

Planning Ahead?

Debating if I should just go ahead and set up for August for the challenges, but I think I will wait just a bit longer, but I could set the number of challenges so that when I do fix it, I would know what to do next.

Anyway, I am gonna be glad when I do have a break from everybody known. The stories of the old is never going back to be the same.

Today is the start of a new journey. See ya tomorrow.

B

Wake Up To The Harsh Reality

Sometimes I wake up to the harsh reality that things are not gonna be easy starting here on forth out.

I'm tired and I really hope that my dad comes through for tomorrow evening because I need to get out and enjoy myself a bit more. 

I feel like a fly being in a trap and that's not a good thing to feel because you know what happens to flies in those traps? They slowly die.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

I love my family

Today is not as it seems, but it will be alright. 

I am so ready for a long rest for tonight. Who knows really.

I love my new friends, my lover, my family... and I want to make people feel welcome more.

Alright, shall see ya tomorrow.

B

Half of the Year?

There's things that I will never quite understand, but I do hope that I will be alright. 

Can you believe it's the other half of the year now? It won't be long until the end of the year comes by and go by... and yea... I am not ready for it.

Oh, well.

We shall see what happens for this half of the year.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Stubborn As Hell

I sometimes wish my mom doesn't do things that she don't need to do. Today, she was trying to bend over in the chair and the chair pushed back on her and she slipped out of the chair. She needs to learn that I can't lift her up. Nor can I ever get my dad to stop what he is doing... because there's moments that she needs to stop... just stop.

Anyway, I can't help my family anymore. They are the way they are because they are stubborn as hell. Ah, well.

I shall get back to the day and hope for things to be well for me... and my family.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hurting All Over

I am hurting all over. And it sucks. I hate periods because of this reasoning. Ah, well.

Anyway, I'm gonna relax for a bit and hope that my stomach will get better soon.

Hopefully tomorrow or Tuesday, my period will be over.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Bored

I am just bored. So since the youtuber I was watching deleted his video that he uploaded, I am gonna be watching that new movie everybody keeps hyping about. So... that's what I'm doing for the rest of the night.

Alright, I shall get on with the rest of the day. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Another moment to pass by

Just another day. Another moment to pass by.

But I did got to drive today. Nobody passed by me so I was having a good drive.

I really can't wait to get my permit so I can get used to the highways. It's gonna be a good time.

Anyway, shall get my journals done so that I can watch the rest of Death Stranding 2 gameplay. 

See ya tomorrow.

B

What Am I To Do?

I am just gonna do my best for a bit. Especially since I am tired of my dad saying something and then never say anything else about it. I am sure it's because of my partner. I don't want to tell him because he would hate my dad.

It's just my dad is the type of person that doesn't want anything to happen to children... even as adults, he doesn't want us to get married, to have children and more. Look at what he did to my brother when he left. It's like he just doesn't care.

I'm just trying to figure out what I should do. Like I need to go out and drive more. But will my dad let me? I need to get my permit so I can drive everywhere. 

So the question is... what am I to do?

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

Good or Bad

They say that war is something we need to expect in every lifeline. We just have to be ready for anything.

While I live in a small town, it does worry me about those who live in bigger cities and such. 

Will we be in a war? I don't know.

I can't really say anything because we are slowly losing our right to voice our opinion thanks to our leader.

And well, yea... we just have to expect anything. Good or bad.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Truth Is Surprising

You never know what to expect until things are not always what they seem.

Having to do a prediction like "What are the odds that Sleep Token will be in Death Stranding 2?" When you learn the truth that they are.

As you would know, I am a huge fan of Sleep Token. I will never get tired of the band itself. And the fact that the song is featured on the soundtrack makes me happy.

Anyway, I shall finish up here and get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't Know What To Expect

I hate going political but I do have that small fear of a war. And people's lives might get hurt in the process.

So I do not know what to expect.

I don't want to stay away from people, but I may have no choice.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The World Is A Bit World

I think the world is a bit weird. I am not ready for a war, but if it's that, then I will find a shelter in the middle of nowhere.

Anyway, I hope that tomorrow will be better.

We shall see what happens tomorrow.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I bought 2 books

We went to Walmart. I have to say that I did bought 2 books.

And I am going to try to get some sweets next time I get back to Walmart.

Anyway, shall get back to my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

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Set Me Free?

I have to think about what to do as on Monday, I will be busy all day.

And my mom wants to get the usual thing done tomorrow knowing that it would be a full 2 weeks before we can go back to Walmart. So... I am not sure what she wants to do.

Anyway, I am having one of those days... so set me free.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Nobody Listens To Me

I guess that nobody really listens to me when I try to communicate that I might have undiagnosed neurodivergent disease. Ah, well. 

Anyway, I am gonna try my best for the day and hope that the upcoming days will be better for me.

We shall see.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Deja Vu Or A Prediction?

Yesterday was the 8th anniversary since the passing of my grandma. I still miss her to this day.

Today, I dreamed of my own hip surgery... but I never got approve for it yet so... does that mean I am dreaming of something that could possibly happen? It felt so real so it made me really out of it today.

Anyway, I am going to finish my two journals and then write one letter despite there's no mail running tomorrow so yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Don't Belong Here

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong in this world at all.

And I've been this way since I was a child. Is there something wrong with me?

Anyway, I shall get back to my day and get ready for more Infinity Nikki.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Be Away From Everybody For Now

It's funny how someone is actually reading your blog for saying something along the lines that you don't belong.

And well, I am still feeling this way. And it's because my spirit is calling me somewhere else right now.

I just want to be away from everybody for now.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't Belong Anywhere Anymore

Sometimes I often wonder if I really belonged anywhere anymore.

I really hate that I feel this way, but it is gonna be this way for awhile.

And I doubt he even notices me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Please Just Wait

Every time there's an issue, someone claims it's broken when it's not.

Please just wait until I am feeling better before you ask me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Cough Of Hell Is Real

The cough of hell is real and it sucks a lot. I just wish it would go away.

Anyway, I am going to try to relax for the rest of the day despite my dad wanting to go to a dinner thing this evening.

We shall see what happens.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Feeling Weird

I hate feeling weird, but yea. I just have to do my best. 

Anyway, I think I am slowly getting better, but only time can tell... well, soonish.

Right now, I am going to finish up my journals and hope that I will be alright.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Meep

 Mrew.

I had the feeling of having something in my hair.

Anyway, meep.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Want To Get Better ASAP

I really want to try to get better ASAP. So that I can go to the store tomorrow and get things done.

It really sucks being sick for this long. So yea.

Anyway, I am gonna do my best and hope for good vibes.

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Getting Tired of Being Sick

I hate being sick. Yes, you are gonna get tired of me saying that. I am feeling like shit. So there's that.

But good news, as long as I have a lose cough, it should be good... I hope.

I might drink some tea later. We shall see.

Anyway, I am gonna try my best for the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Resting Tonight

I feel hot. And it sucks a lot.

And it's because my dad thinks it's okay to leave the door wide open..... which doesn't help at all. It just makes it feel hotter.

Anyway, I am gonna take a rest tonight... hopefully.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Still Sick

I hate being sick right now. And I am working on a small project for my server on discord.

So yay me.

See ya tomorrow...

Yes, still sick.

B

Too Sick To Put A Title

I hate being sick. And I seem to be sick for almost over a week now. I finally went to see a doctor and found out that I have a double ear infection. Yay me. I knew my ears were getting infected once they started causing me not hear that well at all. And sounds are either too sensitive or too low. It sucks for me.

We did a lot today. A bit too much for my liking because I don't like to just be in a rush when I am sicker than a dog. So there's that.

Anyway, I will be fully focused on Summer Game Fest pretty soon so yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Am Done With Drama

I got the appointment over. I am done with drama. And I am not gonna say anymore than that.

See ya tomorrow.

B

It Is What It Is

I am just trying to get through the day. I hate the coughs that I have. But it is what it is.

I shall get done with my journals before the event tonight. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow... just know I might be in a bad mood.

B

I Hate Being Sick

Sometimes I think people likes to make me feel bad to the point that I just shut down.

I hate being sick.

Anyway, I will enjoy the days ahead.

See ya tomorrow.

B

A Long Day

Today had been a long day. I just wish our local transportation service was a lot better than it should be.

Anyway, I am going to try to relax once I am done with all my journals which is very soon.

Then plan it out a lot better next time.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Notebook to Carry

I have to say that I do have an idea what to do next time I start a new personal journal. I will be carrying around the journal and make it more personal. If I get an idea, I will carry another notebook for that reason alone.

I need to start carrying a better thing with me. So... might plan to buy a small tote bag to carry notebooks, pens, and a book. So yay me.

Anyway, I am going to enjoy the day and maybe plan out what to do next.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Slept Most of the Day

Just another day that we didn't really do anything at all. I slept most of the day. 

I am gonna be relaxing for the rest of the day. So yay me.

I am gonna try to figure out what to do for tonight. But we shall see.

I hope y'all have an amazing day.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Sick, Tired and Emotional

I guess things aren't the way they seem. Mocking hurts. We should know this by now.

Anyway, I am going to try my best for a better day. I am sick and tired... and a bit emotional. It's not a fun combination. 

Ah, well.

We shall see what happens next.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I am Sick

I am now sick and that's not fun.

I hope that one day I will get better at protecting myself from getting sick and such.

Anyway, I am going to try my best and enjoy the day. Hopefully all will be well for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

More Cake

I am glad that things are a bit better today. I think my dad is glad that he went to the doctor's appointment. They found a tick on him.

I got more cake today.

Anyway, I am going to finish up this movie soon. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow

B

Dosage Change

So my doctor changed my medication dosage from 150 to 137. So... yea. I hope it helps.

Anyway, I am going to leaving in a few so I can't really stay long on anything.

See ya tomorrow.

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A Slow Day For A Holiday

 Things have been slow, but it is a holiday too. So it's understandable why.

I am glad we went to the cemetaries yesterday so that I could relax today. Gonna be busy for three days straight.

That is if my dad doesn't go straight to the store on Wednesday evening. If he does so, I will cancel my stream schedule for that night and just relax.

Anyway, I gotta say... I hope that one day I will find a peaceful place to stream my games on Twitch again. I rather turn it all towards PC and maybe look into capture cards so that I can stream more games on PS5 and so forth.

Alright, I shall get back to my day and finish up my journals. See ya tomorrow.

B

Busy Day

I am trying to figure out why I am not feeling tired. We went to my aunt's house. The family graveyard twice there. Then we decided to pick up some more flowers to take the other cemeteries. We went to Alec Mink and Elmwood.

We passed by the grave of the one whose murder was never solved and it's so sad.

Anyway, I am going to try to survive today. And well... tomorrow is a holiday so yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tired

I'm tired of people trying to tell me what to do. Don't use my full name in some cases.

Yea.

Anyway, I am going to have an event so hopefully people will get to join and have a bit of a fun.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Going To Walmart A Bit Late

I am glad today is over again. We went to Walmart a bit late.

Ah, well.

I hope that all is well for me. I am really tired.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

Glad Today Is Over

I am glad that today is over. It was just medicine refills, but still... I had to get some blood work done as well. Since I am seeing my thyroid doctor next week. Yay me~

Anyway, I am going to try my best for the rest of the day. In hopes that we can figure out what tomorrow is gonna be like.

See ya tomorrow.

B

A Bit Hyper Later

Surprisingly, it wasn't so bad last night for the storms. But who knows. Anyway, I gotta say that I may be a bit hyper tonight after I drink ice coffee and cinnamon rolls. Yay.

I hope that tomorrow will be good for me, but we shall see.

I know that I will be busy so I will let you know tomorrow's post of any news.

Until then...

B

Round One Over, Waiting For Round Two

I hate to say it like this, but round one is over... and now we are waiting for round two which is more powerful than this one.

I just hope it comes in before midnight because night storms are scary as fuck.

Anyway, I am going to finish my journals and finish watch Doctor Who's latest episode.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Out of It

 I have been pretty much out of it for the past few days or so. I hope that I will be alright, but we shall see.

Anyway, I think I will actually write some letters this week so that I can catch up on them. Then hopefully they will not be too mad for not writing in a while xD

I think tomorrow I will be on edge because of the storms coming in... so we are not catching a break at all.

For now I will get what I can do done.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Can't Afford To Lose Sleep

I am so tired. But I am glad that I got to drive today.

I hope that tomorrow won't be stormy as I really can't afford to lose anymore sleep and such.

Anyway, I hope that all will be well.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Thoughts And Prayers For Kentucky

 Tragedy strike my state last night and it hurts a lot to see what all happened. Two Tornadoes ripped through my state just south of here. It's like a bomb went off. I would go and access the damage but I rather not because it's not me.

My brother said he saw it from the Interstate and realized how bad it was.

So keep Kentucky in your thoughts and prayers if you don't mind.

I might not be talking much until weeks ahead. So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Storms Today

It's never fun to enjoy storms in a state where it happens a bit too much. The weather didn't used to be like this and lately, it's getting worse.

Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night so I may try to sleep early tonight, but it depends on my mood.

I haven't decide what I will be doing yet. But hopefully by the end of the day, I can decide. We shall see.

Alright, I shall get on with the rest of the day and then hope that my body will be good.

Being tired is not fun, but yea...

See ya tomorrow.

B

Got My Shot

I got my shot today. Though it was longer than usual to see the doctor to actually get the shot.

So a bit of news, to put in simple terms: Hip joint and the thing that holds said joint is deteriorating. Maybe have to get a CT scan in the future. And who knows what else... but it could lead into surgery in a possible future. We don't know but only time will tell.

For now, I am okay. I will be okay.

Just tired. Because it was a long day.

So tonight I am gonna vibe and not sure what else yet.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Vibing With Music

I am just vibing with music for now. I hope that all is well.

I hope that I will be surviving tomorrow.

Anyway, I am going to try to get things done. So... let's hope my day will be good.

B

Got My Hair Cut Today

Today I got my hair trimmed, but mainly cut and layered. I was tired of how thick it was getting. So yea.

I hope that I will be fine today. I guess you could say that my mood is in between this and that.

It's hard to explain a lot of times, but I do need time to think about what to say in the meantime.

Anyway, I will be glad if I ever do get my own place for my PC. I miss working on my stories and more.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm A Loner

There's moments that I often wonder about how people are like in the real world. After being online for so long, I do forget to how to make friends both irl and online.

I'm a loner. I am too used to be a loner. Anyway, I'll be alright. Just need to try my best for the day and so forth.

I hope that all will be well later.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

Happy Mother's Day

I am gonna be alright. Maybe. I woke up with a tummy ache and not been feeling betters since so yea.

I am glad that today is Mother's Day. I am grateful for being everybody's mother figure in some form and shape.

Also, Happy Mother's Day to my mom.

Alright, shall get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

Wrong

If you really think she's coming to live with me, you're wrong.

I'm done.

That's all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Sleep Token's New Album is So Good!

I love Sleep Token's new album. Definitely gonna be supporting them from now on. Even if they do disappear. I will be one of the few that will continue to listen and yes, worship them.

Today I got to drive and I am getting better at it. Which is the best news that I heard from my own dad for a long time.

So let's get on with the rest of the day.

B

Cautious Intent

 Some days are not as simple as it seems. And well, I don't know what to say anymore. That's okay. I guess.

I'm gonna try to get through the rest of the week. But with a cautious intent. As I know what my gut says for everything and I don't really want to listen to anyone when it comes to what I want.

So yea.

We shall see.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Uncomfortable

I have the right to mention what makes me uncomfortable. I do have the right to never apologize for feeling this way. So if a person is mad at me, so what.

I'm just done with certain things.

Anyway, I'm tired.

So...

I'm tired of it all.

B

Hate Being Behind

 Anyway, I don't like the idea of being behind on stuff. So it makes me work even harder the next day to catch up on stuff.

And I hope that once everything will be okay, I should be fine with life and stuff.

I hated to tell people that I may not ever be able to work... but it's the truth. So I wanted to work on my stories and poetry collections more so that I can make a bit of money somewhere. I could continue the voice recordings on YouTube and TikTok. But to think we only have a month or so left for TikTok.

It's funny how people seem to forget things. Ah, well. I will be fine.

I really want to get away from it all. Yes, disappear.

Because I have a life. And my life involves doing stuff that I enjoy.

But being on a call 24/7 is not good for me mentally.

Ah, well.

Can't be helped.

I do want to say that I am deeply worried about my mom. Her health is more important than money or time itself. So I wish people keep that in mind. She isn't getting any younger. So... please let me have my time with my parents.

Until tomorrow.

I hope I don't get behind on my journals again.

B

Happy Birthday To Me

 There will be two updates. I will add the date for this one.

So happy birthday to me.

B

Excited For Tomorrow

I am really excited for tomorrow! Since it is my birthday and all.

Right now, I am more concern about the severity of this pain in my right hip. I'm hoping it will just go away, but I doubt it since May 15 is still pretty far off.

I can make it through as long as I don't do a lot of bending, kneeling, or anything that involves that type of movement with the hip. So yea.

Hopefully, I will be fine. We shall see.

See ya tomorrow as I will be celebrating my birthday~

- B

Avoided Drama Today

Listening to music calms my mind down as well as let me work on things fast.

Anyway, I am okay, just avoided drama altogether today. So yea.

I will be fine.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

Hurt My Hip

I hurt my hip today. By climbing into my dad's truck while he was parked weird. Like his side was downhill and the other side was a dip... so it hurt like hell.

I feel like I should just enjoy the pain. So yea.

Anyway, I am gonna get on with the rest of the day.

See ya tomorrow.

3 days until my birthday!

- B

I Will Be Alright

Sometimes I often wonder what I am doing. But I realized that I am going to be alright. No matter what.

Anyway, for the next few days, I'm gonna share a song... though I am not sure half of these are 90s but the page says so.

So... day one is this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2H5uWRjFsGc 

Alright, I'm trying to stay positive despite what happened last night.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

It's Gonna Be May

This time, I am gonna try not to be too late on my journals. Just a lot was going on the past two days, so yea.

Anyway, tomorrow is another month. So I got to thinking of the meme....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQMlWwIXg3M

Enjoy~

Welp, I got a lot of stuff to planned out. I do wanna do another Karaoke night so hoping to get people to come in during the stream and well... have a jolly good time!

Alright, see y'all tomorrow.

Having a giveaway for my birthday~

- B

Thoughts and Prayers

 This happened today. So my thoughts and prayers are out to the students. It happened just down the hill from where I live in front of the Car Quest. Not giving my location for safety reasons.

Anyway, I am going to keep an update on this accident. If I forget tomorrow to tell you what happened, I will be sure to keep myself noted for myself only.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

Busy Earlier Today

 I'm tired. As I was busy earlier this morning. I didn't take much a nap either. So it's to be expected that I am this tired.

Oh, well.

Shall get on with the rest of the day.

Yes, short post.

- B

Won An Avatar Last Night

I won an avatar last night. And now I am trying to learn how to add it to my VRChat. Because it takes a bit for me to learn that shit.

Anyway, I did went to my aunt's today. Talked about history and stuff. It was interesting but I am not sure if I completely believed we came from aliens yet.

Shall get on with the rest of my day learning and preparing for my date night.

- B

Oh, I met Snowleil last night and they recognized me.

It was so awesome. And they are such an amazing person.

Used To Not Getting Anything For My Birthday (9 days until my birthday)

 I have to say that I always buy myself birthday presents since nobody has ever gotten me a surprise for my birthday. And my birthday is in 9 days. So yea.

I am used to this since I turned the fine age of 18. So here I am, turning 39 soon. Ah, well. I am just used to it and will be used to it for the rest of my life.

Life isn't simple anymore and that I do realized.

Will I buy other people gifts again? No. Not after what happened to me with my ex. It just makes me feel like I'm being used especially if I don't get anything in return.

Anyway, I will be glad to get my Sleep Token tees and my wireless headphones.

See ya tomorrow.

- B

Sleep Token's New Song is Heartbreaking

I should make commercial free songs for others to use on TikTok, YouTube and more.

I am just vibing with new music. Plus listening to Sleep Token's new song is so heartbreaking. I was brought into tears last night.

Anyway, I don't have a lot to talk about and I'm too tired to add the video. So... see y'all tomorrow.

- B

An Idea?

I'm getting ideas for my next story, well, it's a sequel to Moonbow Falls. So yea...

Anyway, I had an interesting day, but I think I will be alright. Just need to concentrate on finishing stuff like I usually do.

Life is not really simple as 1, 2, 3. Just because it appears so, you can't always be happy.

Alright, see y'all tomorrow.

- B

Bothersome

Sometimes people do kind of annoyed me. And when I try to help others, someone else just has to be bothersome.

Anyway, I shall get on with the day.

Her name is Marcia Kraemer.

I think this is a cute ending to such a challenge. Yes, tomorrow, you will not be seeing anymore of these pictures unless another challenge comes up. So yea.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

I Have Gain Two Kittens

I have gained two kittens. I have named them Cleo and Kiki. They are cute, but they are everywhere.

Anyway, I will have a lot responsibility with these kittens for a while.

His name is Derek Dixon.

Alright, I shall get things done and hope for good things to come.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

I Need To Get Out Of Here

I realized that I need to get out of here. If it was wet and raining, I would've just taken a small walk. I really need to loose my weight so yea xD

Anyway, I'll be fine. I have not been feeling well since I got that strange pain my chest. So yea.

Her name is Annette Brown.

I will be okay.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

I Wish Getting Lost Was A Gift Now

I sure wish getting lost was a gift now.

Anyway, I am going to get this done since I had a busy Sunday. And someone didn't let me rest... so I am not in the best mood.

His name is Percy Marks.

I think it's coming to the end of the names and their photos that goes along with it. So... by then I will be able to show off my new server and logo for Book Lovers VRC Group aka Book Lovers VRC Club.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

Saturdays are gonna be boring

Saturdays are gonna be boring from now on. Since they are gonna be nice days, my dad won't be going out much. He never does either way so it's to be expected.

Oh, well.

Anyway, her name is Mary Ellen Smith.

She sort of reminds me my grandma a bit. I do miss my grandma tho.

See y'all tomorrow.

-B

I'm done.

What's the point of even staying in a call if you're just gonna leave the call? What's the point of even trying?

I'm done.

 His name is David Bowden.

I wish I was this guy.

- B

Not Sure What To Do

I am not sure what to do in certain situations. Oh, well.

I'm keeping this short.

Her name is Dot Yeager.

Yea... see y'all tomorrow.

- B

Might Not Be A Better Person Just Yet

I had a lot of stuff to deal with. And then I realized that I might not be a better person just yet. Even though I vowed that this year I would make myself a better person, but yea. It's a hard process to do so.

Anyway, I got a few more stuff to do before I rest before tonight.

His name is Jamal Smith.

I would see it for a dystopia type of person.

Anyway, see y'all tomorrow.

- B

Thinking of Getting Back To Writing Again

I'm thinking of getting back into writing again. Maybe add more details to each character that I write about. And how their lives became they are now. Sooo... I have a lot of reworking to do in these stories.

Please understand, this story will have a lot of triggers and such. It involves a lot of dark elements that is not suitable to audiences under the age 16.

Anyway, I am going to get this done so I can get a lot of other stuff done here and there.

Her name is Grace Thompson.

She is a pretty girl if I wanna add.

Alright, see y'all tomorrow.

- B

Busy With Stuff

I'm not being a dick about this, but I really do wish people respect me when I say that I am busy with stuff. I can be in the middle of something and then someone asks me to do something else. I may be a reader or a helper, but I still have a life.

I don't want you to feel bad. So yea.

Anyway...

His name is Anthony Davis.

He looks like a villain in a story xD

Anyway, I am going to get things done and hope for good things to come.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

I Need A Break From Life

I never felt so tired... wait... take that back, I had felt this tired before. I think I need a break from life.

Anyway, I am going to get this done and get that done. Then fix some things on vrchat before I stream tomorrow.

I am taking a short break from Twitch tho.

Her name is Bella Dixon.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

Tired of Everything

Strong. Stay strong. Don't get me wrong. Pretending to be okay. Always saying that I will be okay. Oh, hey. Let's just add the fact that health is not that perfect. Let's add the fact that I might not ever be the same ever again.

I am just tired. Of everything.

His name is Reginald Kavanagh.

See y'all tomorrow.

- B

Didn't Get Much Sleep

I didn't get much sleep last night, but that is alright. I am going to try to get this blog over with and figure out what to do next.

Anyway, let's go.

Her name is Brenda Clark.

A lot of stuff needs to caught up. And little to no time to deal with.

See you tomorrow.

- B

Dentist Done

Just another story. Another day. I am glad that I got my dentist appointment over with and yea. I am okay with it, but it's weird.

Anyway~

His name is Peter Hobson.

I am going to get things done.

- B

Sensing Something Unique.

I sometimes feel things and when I do, it's not something you want to turn your back to. Today, I felt that on someone close to me... a family member. Believe me when I say this kid is special in some way or another.

Anyway, I do have to get these journals done because I want to record some videos for my TikTok.

Her name is Shannon Schmidt.

Right, back to my daily journals.

- B

Books Always Make Me Happy

Not sure if anybody knows that books always make me happy. I just love getting them and reading them. It might be awhile but I don't care.

Anyway...

His name is Victor Baker.

My mood is not that well so I will keep this blog short like always.

- B

Not My Day At All

I feel like today was just not my day at all. I hate it when people snap at me when I get annoyed or frustrated with my own mom. She does things at the most inappropriate times and it gets annoying as heck sometimes. So yea.

Anyway, I am going to move on and get on with the day now.

Her name is Annette O'Shea.

I sometimes wished that I could just live in Ireland and never come back to America. Just saying...

- B