Challenging Myself for 2025

 Wow, the last time I post was in June? I forgot. But seriously... I am gonna make it a mission to be more active next year for my 2025 challenge. Each year, I pick out different challenges to do. This year, one of those challenges (randomly) was blog.

And I thought, why not?

I haven't challenged myself in a long time. And maybe it's time to just use my blog to talk about what's on my mind and such. Being only a month into being engaged and almost a year in this relationship. It's gonna be something to talk about... Amongst other things.

I doubt I would have readers. But I am doing this solely as pure enjoyment or just to pass the time. Will I be committed every single day to have a long post? Nah. Life does happen. There will be bad days. There will be days I will be like meh. So expect anything.

I will make time each night and just type whatever is on my mind. Good, bad, ugly, pretty, interesting, lazy, memories. Anything.

Now I won't fully start this until the first day of 2025. And I won't be putting day whatever, unless I feel like it.

Just... like I said, pure enjoyment or something to do.

Let's see how far I can go without giving up.

Until then, happy reading and see you all on the first day of 2025. And have a wonderful holiday season (despite being in a bad mood and having a reason behind that).

Until then, see y'all then.

Until then.

I Got Approved For Faerie Wings

I had to think on what to write. I got this list of blog ideas sitting on another tab of my computer and it came up with portfolios. Now, let me get this straight to you. I'm not good at making a portfolio as I only write poems and stories.

But I can, however, share one thing.

I got approved for a per-order on Kindle for my first book of poems.

Here's the lovely link: Faerie Wings

I've been working on this for a long time. And I am getting a second one worked on. It might take a year or even longer to get it done.

In the meantime, I'm gonna be working on a few stories or one of them to finish it finally.

When you look up to someone, you realize that you need to change your life for the better.

You only live once. Enjoy it. Find your passion. Dream it. Take it.

Anyway, I do share most of my stories for free at first, then I delete them off the site. Since the site is weird and slow at getting readers. So yea... I'll be self publishing for now.

However, when the print gets approved. I will let you all know ahead of time. I will be getting a few copies to giveaway on some sites. To get my name out there.

I might make a recording on YouTube to promote it as well.

I know it will be hard at first, but I'm getting somewhere.

Wish me luck.

Until then...

Enjoy every step you make in this journey. You never know what you might happen next.

I forgot that this blog exist...

So it's that time where I forgot that my blog exist...

My bad.

My hometown has been very eventful since you last heard from me.

From a building burning down, to two murders in a roll and finding a person unconscious close by us in the trailer park.

I rather live somewhere quiet now.

Other than that, I am doing well. Just trying not to get sick again. Kind of hard when you have been coughing off and on non-stop for the past month or so.

We are trying something new. But we shall try.

I have been behind on books and lost interest in winning free books. That's because I have other plans for my life.

That is if my family stop asking me to buy something for them.

Anyway, I am just tired of this town. I'm tired of this home. I'm just tired of the lies my parents keep telling me.

Being an adult is hard enough as it.

Yea... it's time for a change.

So that's all I'm gonna say for now. I hope you are all doing well. I know this blog doesn't reach a lot of people like it used to. But it's my safe space for now.

See ya another time. Who knows when that will be.

A Review of The Last Bloodcarver by Vanessa Le: A Book That Can Make You Want More

Title: The Last Bloodcarver
Author: Vanessa Le

Rating: 5 Stars

Review: This book was so good. It was at a perfect pace that built up the characters within the book. Nhika thought for a long time that she was the last bloodcarver, despite the name has another name.

She gets bought into a family that has a lot of secrets and a doctor that seems to have even bigger secret behind him.

The book is a mix of sci fi, fantasy and romance. Which is a perfect combination for such a good book.

You can tell there was parts that was inspired from Asian folklore which is a plus for the type of book this is.

The characters are perfect and they are well made to make a reader wants to know more about them.

The pace of the book is perfect for how it precedes to the ending.

I don't want to reveal the ending but I can tell you there are parts in the book that can shock you. So it has a perfect sense of twists and secrets.

Overall, this is a perfect book to received 5 stars. Good story, good build up on characters, good plot. Highly recommended.

I know it's been a while...

 I realize that I have been lacking on a lot of stuff. But mental health does that to you. I try not to lose interest in the things that I love and enjoy. But again, it's hard.

Surviving is the issue to most of everything these days. I want to tell my parents how I feel but they already lost their trust in me for no apparent reason. And that hurts.

Each day, I can't help but feel even more trapped. I try telling my mom that I need to do things alone more often. But she seems to want to add that she wants to join in. Sometimes I wondered if I need help.

I am a strong person but I have been angry, sad, hurt, and every kind of negative emotion there is out there.

While I am happy that I found the one for my heart, I can't stop what is happening to me in the real world.

I need an escape. I need to show my parents that things needs to change. It can't be on repeat and they NEED to trust me.

All this time, it hurts.

I asked my mom why she doesn't trust me alone again, but the answer is weird. Make more sense.

My mom needs help. I know she does. She just doesn't want to seek it. She feels like they would send her away. But they won't. You just need somebody else to talk to about what is going on with your mind. She needs it. I need it.

I wish somebody would kidnap me. Like literally. Each and every day, they are making me feel the effects of FOMO. Literally fear of missing out. I know I should feel this way, but it's beginning to feel this way more and more.

I want to breath the normal of other people. But I'm not normal. And I will never be normal.

Just because I had that major surgery, doesn't mean you use that to your advantage. I am more than capable of taking care of myself. I just wish they could see that.

But I've been hurt ever since my mom told me that she didn't trust me alone. Like what was that when you were in the hospital all those times before, mom? What happened to you to make you not trust me anymore?

My parents don't like changes. I can see that now. But they were born during the time where there wasn't computers, video games and many other types of technologies. It's understandable that they are the way they are... but they shouldn't push that onto people like me.

I've been dealing with computers since I was put into kindergarten. I will never stop using technology. Even as the day of AI age is coming and more advanced technology is coming. I will always be apart of it all.

I only wished my parents would learn to trust me again. Because there's no reason for them to act this way towards me. They need to learn to let go.

That's all I want... my freedom. My hope. My dream. An escape.

When Magic Gets You Into Trouble: A Review of What The River Knows by Isabel Ibanez

    Title: What The River Knows

Author: Isabel Ibanez

Rating: 5 Stars

Review: One of the best books that I ever read.

Thanks to goodreads for giving me a chance to read this book from a giveaway and to review.

I started out with the book, expecting it to be full of romance, but what I got is more than that.

This book starts out with the main character named Inez. She finds out that her parents are dead. So she decided to go to Egypt to figure out what has happened to them. Only to thrown into more mysteries and twists all while falling in love with a man who was supposed to be working for her uncle.

I have to say this book shocked me towards the end. I won't reveal it because it's a good ending.

The plot is good. The development of the characters is wonderful. The words are beautiful.

The whole book is beautiful and amazing. I highly recommend it to others to read it!

A Book With Unexpected Twists: Review of There Is A Door In This Darkness by Kristin Cashore

          
Title: There Is A Door In This Darkness
Author: Kristin Cashore

Rating: 5 Stars


When I was picked to be one of the ones to review this book, I was expecting to be a little magic, but never did I knew that it would turn out to be this amazing.

The title basically describes what grief would be and I don't want to go into full details of why because you just have to read the book to see why.

Just think you're in the middle of a pandemic and a political race, then boom, all this crazy stuff starts happening to you.

Wilhelmina Hart was dealing with a lot, especially after losing one of her favorite aunts to cancer. Only to deal with trauma after another. Now in 2020, she began to see things that just didn't make sense to her.

Through out the book, you find things that didn't make sense and that's the magical twist that makes the book very unique. There might be a hint of a tiny romance brewing too but I can't get into too much detail about it because you have to read it.

It's very different than Kristin Cashore's fantasy series. So I highly recommend it.

It has good build up with memories and the magic twists aren't overpowering.

And it kept to the topics of what happened in 2020.

Definitely a book that deserves a 5 star rating.