I Want A Christmas Miracle

So a bit of news, my dad's work place was robbed over the weekend. I didn't put it in yesterday since today, he found some of the items at a place that buys semi truck items.

Anyway, I am still dreading Christmas next week. I just wish I was somewhere else instead of being at home.

It sucks when I don't have any money at all.

So... yea... I just want a Christmas miracle now.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Wish I Was With Her During The Holidays

I really do hope that I can catch up with letters tonight, even though it would mean to do more than usual.

I'm not sure how I feel about the holidays in the coming weeks ahead.

I feel alone.

And just wish I had somebody else to celebrate Christmas and New Year's with me.

And yea... we all know who that somebody else, which is my fiancee. She's been wonderful to me. And more than anything, I want to be there for her during the holidays.

Granted, I do have my family, but it just doesn't feel the same like it used to be.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Who Knows What Else

I don't know what to say. But I feel like things are gonna be a bit different for awhile.

I should be okay for a bit.

Anyway, I shall get back to doing my journals and hope that all will be better.

Who knows what else.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Trying My Best

 I'm trying my best.

But yea, I gotta say there's gonna be a lot of emotional days ahead for me. Since my period has started. 

Anyway, I gotta say that tomorrow is in between whatever the heck we are gonna do.

Since Monday is gonna be a busy day for us.

Alright, shall get back to my night... and have a little fun tonight.

See ya tomorrow.

B 

I'm Tired Of My Dad

 I'm tired of my dad thinking he can fix a problem. 

To put it into context... Our tub with shower keeps having cracks. Instead of buying a new tub or replacing it... my dad decides to put this stuff in it that supposed to keep it from leaking... only problem... it's very hard to stand on top of that stuff because of how it looks and feels and it makes the tub much more slippery. 

Now to also put into more context: I have been having issues with my right hip as of late. Any movement flares up the pain and it's unbearable and it makes me feel sick physically. I am not able to handle this type of pain because of how bad it is.

My dad really needs to fix this problem. But his solution isn't always the best answer.

I mean, I literally have a hole in my half bath in my own room... he covered it up with flex tape. Yes, you are reading this right.

My mom is not any better as she just thinks that I should do this or that.

So yea.

Enough... is enough.

I'm done.

Once I ever get a chance to get the fuck out of here, I will be happy to get out of here.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Communication To Get Things Right

Sometimes it takes a bit of communication to get things right.

And yet, I can't figure out why these things even matter after tonight.

I am not sure what to do anymore. As I do love this person so very much.

Just... am I even okay with this lifetime?

Anyway, shall get back to my day and hope for good things.

See ya tomorrow.

B

How Money Works

Sometimes I think people doesn't understand how money works. Then they are like "oh, hey, I can do it." But realizes that I included discord shop and nitro+. So, what else do you expect?

I can't keep doing this every single time.

I'm not rich, nor will I ever see a chance to get any extra money for a long time.

I can't go anywhere without my license. And yea...

I'm just tired of it.

And you expect me to help you. Seriously...

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

Anyway, I'm going to finish up my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B