Maybe

I should make an invitation thing for the wedding... maybe.

Tomorrow is a free day, I think... but I do have to record two more videos tonight because of it.

I got a lot of stuff to deal with, but it's alright. I should be okay.

Today was a rough day, but it's okay. I should be okay for the most part.

I'm done with people for the most part because they love to turn things around and bite you in the ass.

I shall get back to doing my journals and hope that all will be better in the future.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Visions Are Interesting

The rest of my journals after this won't involve opening a website so I should be good to go with playing this game that came out today.

Anyway, I have a lot of stuff on my mind, but it's just getting through my day with no problems.

I should be okay.

Visions are interesting and I didn't tell my parents, but I stayed up until 6 in the morning with my soon to be wife.

I wish there wasn't a law against those with disability because in a way... it's unfair. America has weird laws for the disabled.

I shall get back to what I was doing.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Bad Feelings

Just another day... and I just know that in a week's time, there will be people coming in to put in a shower in my home. How they are gonna do that... I do not know yet.

Just having to sit here and think about what ifs... is not really a good thing all the time.

I have bad feelings left and right, but I should be fine.

I have to finish my journals ASAP because I'm trying to get what I can done as soon as possible, but it's proving to be a bit harder than what you think.

Anyway, I am gonna get things done so that I can be ready for an interesting night.

See ya tomorrow.

B

We are all fine.

It's insane that things are not as it seems. I gotta say that what happened last night is a lesson for anybody. Don't go around planning things out if somebody is still alive and kicking. It's wrong and it can cause harm on yourself.

What comes around, goes around. It's a famous word for karma so yea.

Just another day of trying to figure out if I actually meant to be in this lifetime... but I realized that I actually do belong.

They don't.

So... it's all good. We are all fine. And it didn't hurt me one bit for what they did. Because fuck them and yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Relaxing

It's funny how things seem lately. I'm tired, but ready for some day of relaxation after I record a video or two sometime this week. 

I do need to get back to streaming too, so I will make a schedule for that to be at 9pm EST as long as the videos doesn't run over or if I'm not late on VRC.

Starting tomorrow, I will do that. All, but on Thursday night which I will be recording two sets of videos in a roll.

That way on Friday, I can just do one set of videos. 

A lot of things are happening all at once and I do fear for a lot of stuff happening in the near future. 

Don't go breaking promises... And if you do break promises.... I can't look at you the same.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm happy

 I'm doing alright now. I had a talk. And maybe it's something that hurt both of us in the end, so we were at fault for each other.

We are fine. Today is our one year anniversary. And I'm glad.

I haven't been in a long relationship in so many years... and to make it at one year... makes me feel better about myself.

Like the whole point of being in relationships is the learning experience. We aren't toxic and that's all that matters to me.

Anyway, I do have to get through the rest of the day since I am gonna celebrate soon... meaning I am getting on my headset a bit earlier tonight. So yay me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I Don't Know Anymore

You ever get that thought that maybe you're not the one and you're trying your best to be the one and yet, it feels like they are planning your death even though you are not dead yet...

Yea... many times... I just thought this person would know better to do this towards me. It makes me tend to overthink and worry a lot.

And well... you know...

I just don't know. I made them take the choice of not doing this again or get the consequences... and you really don't want to know what the consequences are. 

You really think that somebody like that would understand that I don't like the idea of people making plans in case something happens to me... and ask the person instead of coming to me.

It bothers me a lot.

And yea... I talked to them about it. The question is... will they ever do that again?

Granted, I did sneaked and took a screenshot as evidence in case anything does happen... it's how I am.

I really feel like they are making it harder for me to be in love... and really less in love.

If you wanted to talk about that... do it to me only... not to the person you are planning to do it with...

It really sucks.

I hate it.

I just don't know...

See ya tomorrow.

Oh, yea... test went great. I am fine... now to wait until Feb. 3rd for the results.

Meep.

B