Manage My Time Better

I am doing things all at once again.

This is why I hate the weekends because I usually don't have much time in the evenings to finish up my journals and I need to do more... than just that.

I should be okay with everything else. But life isn't how it seems right now. And doing two or three things at a time can be emotionally tiring... rather than mentally tiring...

Anyway, I should be okay for now.

Since I don't have time for a poll of my videos from yesterday or two days ago... I'm gonna pick it myself.

Seeing that tomorrow will be a busy day for me...

I guess I really got to learn to manage my time better, you know?

See ya tomorrow.

B

Figure Something Out

I am trying my best to figure out issues with this avatar.

Although I never quite understand it all. I just have to figure it out eventually.

Anyway, today has been busy. But I'm glad that today is over with.

Despite having to catch up with all my journals all at once. I can do my best.

However, for what is to come... who knows. I should be okay for the most part.

My hip hurts a lot, but I ain't gonna complain about that every single day.

I do have to figure out a few of the other stuff out.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I'm Content

 I realized how hard this might be with the blog for the new year. Because one of my goals is to have my hip fixed.

For those that don't know... I was born with a dislocated hip. Just a few years ago, I had a sprain like injury which is a labral hip tear. Not fun to have when it's the most painful thing to deal with.

Last year, I realized that the shots I was taking was literally eating away at my hip joint and bone... I already had hip dysplasia. So yea....

This year, I have made plans that if surgery was an option, I will take it. Besides I don't want to end up with what happened to my brother. He broke his hip and had to get hip replacement surgery as a result.

I rather plan it out in advance so that I know what to do and what not to do. The option of going to rehab is there. And I believe it would help me faster than doing it at home full of cats that loves to knock things down... 

But before I can do such a thing, I have to hide a few things in my room because I know my parents won't be watching those cats like they should.... they think yelling helps... it doesn't. Cats don't listen and they do it anyway... you literally have to get up and gently push them away as a way of showing... hey... don't do this.

Yea, it's a really huge debate on what to do. I know that if I choose to go home, something bad is bond to happen... it always does.

I need a better place to live. I can't keep living in a trailer park all my life.

I know that I have to be a caregiver for my mom... and maybe my dad. But what hurts the most is will they ever make me happy? Because I do want to be able to hire help as well for days that I just need a break.

And well... yea...

Also, I'm engaged again. I'm happy for that. I just wish I could be in better mood. It is what it is.

I shall get back through the day. Since I got a long day ahead... recording everyday when possible... stream when possible which is returning next week but in a off and on type of schedule. 

I'm gonna be doing 365 days of videos... on TikTok and YouTube... oh... yea... I need to add that on YouTube too.

I got a lot of stuff planned. Will I burn out? Maybe. Will I enjoy it? Yes. I have somebody to help me push my way through it.

So... yea... a lot. Hopefully, I can have loads of videos ready by the end of the year so I wouldn't have to feel like I am burning myself out.

Either way... I'm content. So let's go a new year, a new beginning, a new me(?). 

See ya tomorrow.

B

Um, I was busy with New Year's Planning

 Oops

On A Rant

Sometimes you wonder why people doesn't understand things. Here's the thing, I am going to keep in mind that things has to be done the right way...

You can't expect to go somewhere and "rescue" someone from a horrible situation... without knowing the consequences.

I'm tired of having to be around people who are dumbasses...

Anyway, I'm done with my rant...

If you're wondering what I am talking about, look into the case of a missing child found in Maryland... should be the most recent case.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Not Everyday Is Gonna Be Normal

So here's how I feel: In pain. I'm too used to being in pain constantly. Until I can figure out more information of what is going on on Feb 3rd... as long as nothing else happens.

My night was tough. I had a hard time to even fall asleep. And that itself is not fun at all.

I am trying to keep myself from not forgetting stuff... so that I can have a decent blog at least.

Keep in mind... not everyday is gonna be a normal blog.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Why I Don't Show My Face

I often wonder why people enjoy making fun of my face... and now you see why.

All my life, I've been called names because of my face.

I once told my ex about it and he was like "oh, yea, that's a good thing." I was like "Um, no, they met it as a bad thing."

Sometimes people needs to understand the difference between a good thing and a bad thing.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B