Be Brave By The Time....

I just hope that I can be brave by the time the surgery date comes up.

Then I want to get through it all.

I am tired, but I should be okay.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Changing Things... Again...

And there you go changing times again... and I just realized that you might not ever come here... not until I go to you... and I really don't want that...

I don't know what to do... I really need to talk to you about that... about my time limit... but... yea...

I just feel like people doesn't understand me.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals.

See ya tomorrow.

B

I just wish you were here...

So I have to tell my mom about that place over Brodhead now... things are getting real... but it won't feel real until it gets closer to June.

I just wish you were here. That's all I want.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals... then hope for the best. We shall see what tomorrow will bring. But who knows...

I am not sure anymore.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Is it worth it?

I get distracted too easily, but that's okay. I just hope that tomorrow will be better... like I say this every single day and I'm trying so hard not to lose hope, but is it worth it?

I should be okay for the most part... just need to really work on my time management a lot better.

Anyway, shall get back to my journals and editing videos.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Tired of it

I am just taking my time on my journals and hopefully be alright in the end. I am going make it known to everybody that I am not dealing with any type of shit that's going on.

And yea, I am tired of it. And I am not ready for this.

So I shall get back to my day and ignore it all.

See ya tomorrow.

B

A promise to my mom...

I hate that I made that promise to my own mom. That I cannot move out on my own until she passes away. But I am going to keep that promise as much as possible.

And the worst part, she refuses to leave from here, despite the way my dad is.

It's just hard right now.

And I would love to get out of here and be safe... be in a better environment. But it is what it is. 

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and get them done soon.

See ya tomorrow.

B

No Promises

I just noticed that being behind is not good for my mind because of stress.

So yea.

I just hope that tomorrow will get better, but who knows.

Anyway, I shall get ready to finish my journals and hopefully read a few chapters... but no promises.

Shall get back to it. 

See ya tomorrow.

B