I Hate Weekends

Sometimes people forget to realized that I have a life too. And it really is hard on me that I get home late and have to deal with shit.

And yea...

I am behind on my journals because of that.

This is why I stopped doing my journals because people keeps pulling me back and forth... and it's not good for my mental state. 

And this is the very thing on why I hate weekends.

Anyway, see ya tomorrow.

B

Using You For Something

It's funny how you feel like people are using you because you have a computer and they don't.

And I feel like it hurts to realize that I am doing too much as it is.

And so forth... I am tired.

I'm hurting all over and that's because my period is slowly trying to start.

And well, I hope that everything will be alright. Who knows really.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Really Tired

I have a lot to deal with, but I will be fine as I gotta get things done for the next few hours before I get online to record more videos... which I do need to edit... and yea...

It's hard to manage my time anymore.

I should be okay. I am tired tho... and I hope my period would actually start sooner than later... as in a week, I would be getting my MRI done. I'm kind of nervous while at the same time, I am kind of dreading it... because I do want this to be done.

So... it's all good for now.

I should be going back to finishing my journals while getting other things done. I'll get started with the unity part.... so... yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

The Hell We All Know Is Coming

 I feel like the hell we all know is coming.

I should be okay for what is next.

I am tired from being in a rush at the store. And I should be okay by tomorrow.

I do need to sleep early tonight because I am that tired.

I'm just done with everything that is going on. And a kid... lying... trying to show fake proof that they are an adult.

So yea.

I should be okay. But karma is not gonna be a good one for this kid.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Get Back To Writing To My Penpals

Things have been a bit calmer today. I did decide to shave... tmi, I know, but that's how it is with me.

I'm trying my best to survive the rest of the day as I got two or three videos to edit... and put into a poll. Then I am going to make three more videos tonight. 

It's been fun doing these videos. Some are a bit complicated but I'm doing the best that I can do with them.

And my journals are more important to me... but drama is drama. I ignore them to a beat.

A child needs to stop trying to make decisions for an adult. Sometimes people forgets that they are talking to adults...

So yea. I'm so ready to get into more stuff and hopefully be able to get my letters done soon.

Editing these videos don't really take much as I try not to make too many mistakes while doing them xD

Anyway, shall get back to finishing my journals and maybe write a letter or two... I am behind on my penpals so that's why.

I got letters from all the way from March... that should tell you something.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Hate being behind

I am really behind and it's not good for me to be this far behind. This is why I refuse to get on VRChat at a certain time in the night time.

So now you understand why.

I am tired of it all.

Anyway, I shall get back to my journals and finish all that I can. So hopefully there won't be anymore interruptions because I do not want to be behind ever again.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Calm Down And Be A Better Person

I'm just trying my best to survive the day in hopes that all is well.

And it's always one thing after another. 

I'm tired of people who thinks they know a lot more than everybody else. Oh, honey... have you went to college? Do you read and find information about anything? Do you find something interesting to look up online?

Having knowledge doesn't just mean that you know everything. You aren't wise. You aren't as old as me. Because you're that age and you know a lot... we all know something different. Don't compare each other. Enough.

I am going to keep going and fight for things that do matter to me.

But hearing people say it's their truth... without realizing that people can lie. People can cause harm. And you may have your own opinion and that's your opinion... so don't push your opinion on us. That's my rule for this year from now on. Yes, you have own truth... but for your sake alone... don't push it any further.

Yea. 

This is just a matter of trying to calm down and be a better person.

See ya tomorrow.

B