Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving btw.

When you ever wonder how life would turn out to be, you often think about what is next.

I know that my goal for this blog went down over this year. And we are coming up to December and yes, I'm doing this again next year.

I am hoping that this time I will do more than just a few sentences here and there. Just making a reflection on how the day went, how I felt and much more.

The thing is, I'm nervous about next year. I am worried that things will go downhill and I won't feel like writing into my blog.

When I changed my username years ago, I never thought of my username being used as a nickname and as my real name... but in reality, I don't like Alasta as my real name. It's my persona and oc, but not... me. Like it's me... but not me.

It's the same when it comes to my rl name... I grew to hate it over the recent years because you figure after a while, people would stop using the nickname that goes with my rl name... but they didn't.

So I might use my nickname to Alasta and my middle name as my new name...

Not sure how people would react to that. 

I'm still keeping my rl name but as an author name.

Because why not.

Anyway, I still got the rest of this month and next month to think about a few things.

You know how they say... don't tell your dreams, they won't come true.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Setting Up For Next Year

I just wish that I could be okay and just things that I want to do.

And now I want to get away from my dad.

Because I am not okay with me being here right now.

I love my dad, don't get me wrong, but I just... don't feel happy.

Alright, shall get back to finishing up my journals. And I am gonna get my things set up for the next year... I know it's early but I do like to plan ahead.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Cancer Free Still

I am glad to say that I am cancer free once again. Everything looks really good on my blood work.

And well, I think being tired is just gonna be in my life for a bit longer.

Oh, well.

I wish that I can travel to see my partner... because I do need it.

Alright, see ya tomorrow.

B

Never Thought of This

"Tell a dream, lose a reader." - Henry James.

I never thought of something like this before.

So yea.

I just hope that eventually things will get better for me.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Don't lie

Sometimes I think people are sick when it comes to certain situations. And it's not good.

Don't lie. You will end up hurting more people than you realize.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Lifting Everything

Meep. I am just trying to figure something out.

Today, we went to walmart... and as always, guess who has to lift everything.

So yea.

See ya tomorrow.

B

Save The Money

I really hate my mind sometimes. I just want to save all the money and just take a small vacation away from here so I wouldn't have to deal with everything is going on.

I need to be away from my home. I need to be away from my headset. I need to be away from everything else.

Anyway, I should be okay...

But I need to save the money.

See ya tomorrow.

B